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Maddy's POV

Harry and i walked together to lunch. I saw Brooke and Niall sitting at a table. I walked towards them. "Heey guys." "Heey Mads." Niall said and Brooke smiled at me. "So.... Where is your loverboy?" Brooke asked me. "Harry? He's not my loverboy and he's here." I said and they looked confused. "We were talking about Luke but anyway......i don't see Harry." Oh. Crap.

Wait, what!?

I turned around and saw Harry by an other table. His gang. They're back. I turned back to Brooke and Niall and sat down. "Oh....yeah. I forgot. His gang is back from their vacation and he went to them to say hello and stuff." They nodded.

We ate our lunch. Niall and Brooke had a conversation together while i looked over at Harry. He was already looking at me. I smiled at him and he smiled back.

We were looking at each other the whole time until the bell rang. Everybody stood up and we all walked back to our classes. History. With Harry. He didn't walk together with me but with his gang. That's....okay.... It's not that i like him or something....

Okay. Maybe i do but i can't. I cant forget what he did to me. That was terrible. Ugh... I'm fucking myself up! I arrived at the history classroom and walked into the room to my seat in the back.

I sat down and picked up my books. Harry sat down with me. His gang members walked into the classroom and sat down across from us. The bell rang and the teacher came in. The lesson started.

"I'm sorry Dell. I shouldn't have done that." Harry whispered. I nodded. "It's okay. You have your friends back so now i'm invisible. Again." He sighed and shook his head no.

"That's not true and you know it. You're still my number one friend. Like a BFF. Yes. That's what you are. I just don't want you getting involved with those gang problems and stuff." He whispered and kissed my cheek. Heat rushes to my cheeks.

"You're cute when you're blushing." He said while he giggled a little. "No, i'm not. But you. You are cute when you're giggling." I said and he kissed my cheek again.

"Mr. Styles! No PDA in my classroom!!" The teacher yelled and Harry nodded while he tried to hold in his laugh. Then the teacher started talking again about god knows what.

Harry kissed my cheek again and grinned at me. "You heard the teacher Harry. No PDA in class." I whispered and he giggled. "I don't call that PDA. I call it PDA when it's with so much more." He explained and i looked down.

"You mean like the way you and Acacia do?" He looked at me angry. "There is nothing between Acacia and i. Not anymore." I nodded and sighed. If i only could believe him.

"Then why did you have sex with her last night?" I asked and his eyes widened. "I didn't have sex with her." He whispered and looked down.

"Yes, you did. Luke called me last night. He said that i had to listen. Just listen and nothing else. He didn't even explain why. Then i heard you two having sex. And some little fight about you not finishing it and pulling out or something. Then after that, Luke ended the call." I said and his jaw almost touched the ground.

"I........" He didn't finish his sentence. "No. It's okay. It's not like we're a couple or something. But i have a question. Not that i mind but why didn't you finish. Why did you pull out?" I asked and he sighed.

"I just......................it didn't feel right. I had that weird feeling and it woudn't go away. When i pulled out it was gone. Weird huh?" I nodded. 'It didn't feel right.' Okay. Interesting.

"So..............it just didn't feel right? As in?" "As in what?" Oh god. How am i gonna say this. "As in she wasn't good or as in you felt guilty or something?" I asked and suddenly he looked nervous.

Harry's POV

Oh shit! What am i gonna say!? This is even worse than i thought! "Oh. Uhmm....................It just...................i...................i think i...............She wasn't good. She's far from good. She's the worst. I've had better." "Oh." Was all she said. She looked sad, maybe hurt?

Why the hell on earth did i say that!? Why didn't i tell her the truth and why ddi i say i've had better!? I'm so stupid!! Yes, you are. Why would you say that!? Now she's hurt! You dumbass. My subconscious said. Shut up!

"I'm sorry. I shouldnt have said that." "No no no. It's okay. It's just the truth. The truth is hard but it's you know.......true." She said and i sighed. "I keep fucking up everything i love. With i've had better i mean...........Uh.........-" She cutted me off.

"Yeah?" God. Fuck! Fine. Then i will tell her the truth. Just the truth. It's not that hard, right!? Fuck that shit! It is hard!! Ugh..... "You." I said as fast as i could. I hoped she didn't hear it but i wasn't lucky. She heard it. And that fucking smile of her. God. She's killing me!!

"Really? Was i b-better?" I smiled at her and nodded.



"Thank you Harry." "For what?" "For everything you have done for me. To me. I never thought you would remember it." I couldn't stop smiling at her. How could i forget that!? "I could never forget that. My first time. With you. It was perfect. It wasn't just normal sex. It was something else. I made love to you. Fuck. I want you so bad. I-" She cutted me of by kissing me on the lips.

It suprised me but i didn't hesitate to kiss back. Our lips moved in sync. It was like everybody and everything stopped around us. Like we were the only people here, on earth. It was magical. I licked her bottom lip for entrance and she gladly accepted.

I explored her mouth like it was the last time i would do that. I kissed her with everything in me and so did she. Our tongs fought but i won. After a while she pulled back and we smiled at each other.

"Thank you Mads." "For?" "For that. The kiss. I really needed it." She pecked my mouth again and the teacher cleared his throat. "I said no PDA!! It was disgusting what you two did!! And everybody was watching! What do think the other students think right now!? Go! I dont want you two here. Just......go!" He yelled and we nodded while the other student winked at us.

We stood up, picked up our stuff and walked out of the classroom. I closed the door behind me and we walked together to our lockers. We arrived at our lockers and we burst out in laughter.

"Wow. That was.....Ehm.....Yeah." I said and she laughed. "Yeah, that was fun!" She said and i laughed again. "So...." "Ehm......Yeah. What's up?" She laughed again.

"Don't tell me it's gonna be awkward between us Harry." She said and i smiled at her. "Of course not!" She smiled at me and nodded.

The bell rang. The end of the school day. "Wanna hang out?" I asked her and she sighed. "No, sorry. I can't. Maybe tomorrow?" I nodded and pecked her lips before she walked off with a smile. It's good to have her back. Wait, what!? I don't have her back.

We aren't even together or something. Ugh......

I need some time to think. The tree. Our tree.

Maddy's POV

I walked towards the tree. Our tree. I need time to think. I arrived at the tree and sat down against it.

We kissed. Okay. Maybe i kissed him and he kissed back. Why did i do that!? Oh yeah. Because he said i was the best fuck he ever had and he needs me. But when we kissed. It was just......so magical. Amazing!

But.......i just...... I sighed. I cant forgive him that easy. What he did to me was just......you can't do that! But i still love him. Maybe thats an other reason i kissed him. Maybe i still want him.

God. It's complicated. It feels do right but it is so bad. I can't just forgive him but i want to. I need to. I need him just as much as he needs me. "Maddy?" I heard someone whisper. Harry.

He sat down next to me against the tree. "What are you doing here?" "Thinking and you?" "Same. I still come here. A lot. How about you?" He saked and i smiled at him. "Same."

"You know......there are a few pictures missing. I can't find them." I kissed his cheek and grinned. "I've got them here. With me." "Really?" He said and i nodded. He hugged me tight.

He pulled back and grinned at me. "Can i see them. They are my favorite!" He said and laughed before i nodded at him.

I picked up a little but beautiful box out of my bag. I opened the box and he picked up the first picture.



"Remember that?" He asked and i nodded. "Yeah. I do. How could i forget that!?" "So.....you still remember it!? You remember what we did!?" I nodded and smiled at him. He smiled back.

"That was the day that i heard from Niall that you were planning to propose to me. I would never ever forget that!" I said and he chuckled. "What if i had propose to you that day. Would you say yes or no?" He asked and i sighed.

"I think......uhm......yes. I would think that it's not very normal because back then we were so young but probably i didn't care about that four years ago." I said and he nodded. "That's because age is just a number." He said and smirked. I sighed and agreed.

"What the fuck styles!? WHY ARE YOU WITH HER!?" Somebody yelled. He walked towards us. "Louis? I uhhmm........" Harry didn't know what to say. Right. Of course not.

"He is with me because he wants to! We love to hang out together and you can't change that!" I yelled back at Louis and he raised one eyebrow. Harry cleared his throat and sighed before he nodded.

"Why?" Louis voice was softer then it was a few seconds ago. "B-because i........" He didn't know what to say. His hands were shaking. Is he nervous? It was like he was caught doing something really bad.

"Acacia is waiting for you Harry. And Luke is waiting for you Mads. Are you two coming?" Louis said and we both nodded before Harry gave me a kiss on my forehead.

***Later that day***

I was now at Luke's place. We were in his room on his bed cuddling. "Everything okay Luke?" He sighed and nodded before he said 'Fine'. I know what he means. Fine doesn't mean he's okay. There is something wrong and i wanna know what it is.

"You're not fine Luke. Tell me. What's wrong. You know you can trust me and say anything to me. Right?" He nodded and sighed.

"Okay. I heard Harry and Louis talking to each other. They made a bet. Louis said if Harry could get you in his pants in a month he gets 5 strippers, a lot of money and a lot of alcohol. Don't be angry at me. Be angry at him. I only heard what they said. Stay away from him. Please? And i'm not angry about you two kissing just......stay away from him. Okay?" I nodded.

Is it true? Of course it is! I knew it! Luke would never ever lie to me and Harry is not the same Harry as he was four years ago. Ugh...... I hate him!! "Thank you Luke. For everything." I said and kissed him.

Louis' POV

Harry and i are not at Harry's place. On the couch watching some random TV show. "Hey Harry. I uhmm..........nevermind." "No no no. Spit it out!" I sighed and nodded.

"Maddy is using you. Se isn't the same girls you had four years ago. She fucks Luke everyday day. Even in school! She's a slut! She almost fucked everyboy in town." I said and he looked shocked.

"What? No. She can't! OH MY GOD! Why!? How!? I.............." He couldn't finish his sentence.

"Yes, she can. And she did. I saw her making out with three different guys yesterday. I didn't wanna tell you that but i guess that it's maybe better if i tell you so now i did." I said with a smile and he nodded.

"Maybe it's better if you stay away from her. She can hurt people so badly. She did that by Liam once. Yes, they have a history together. I just want to protect you. Your my best friend, more like a brother to me." I said and he smiled at me while he nodded.

"Okay. I think you're right." He whispered and i chuckled.

I hate to do this. I hate to say these things to him. I don't want to lie into my best friends face but i have no choice. She will take him away. He will be soft and heart broken. He doesn't need that. He doesn't deserve that.

And i also don't really like her. I can't explain why. I just don't. Now i hope Luke does his part to and they will stay away from each other forever.

Notes

Hi guys....

Sorry that i didn't update for so long! I don't really know why :$ . Thank you all for waiting :) . I didn't do a spelling check!! So.....sorry if there are spelling mistakes.

I have a few questions for you guys :P

What do you think of Harry and Maddy?
What do you think of the set up?
Do you guys maybe have a ship name for Harry and Maddy?
And maybe a ship name for Luke and Maddy?

xx LY guys!