.Lost.

Maddy's POV

I walked away and heard him calling after me. Don't turn around Maddy. Don't. He is not the same person as he was two years ago. He is bad now. He is....he just.....ugh! What is wrong with me!?

You're still in love with him. My subconscious said. No, i'm not. So....i don't love him. Yes, you do. My subconscious said again. No, i don't. How can i still love him after what he did to me? I sighed.

I need Brooklyn and Niall. Now. I walked to their lockers and waited for them. They are always late. Talking with other people and stuff. Their lockers are next to each other. After 5 minutes they came walking towards me and their lockers. "Heeyyy Maddy! Why are you here?" Brooke asked and i sighed.

"I just need to talk to you guys. Now." Niall nodded. "Okay. Let us grab our stuff and then we can go to my place and talk. Is that okay?" Brooke and i nodded. What if they will laugh at me? Or think i'm stupid? I mean..... What's the point in telling them when they will laugh at me!?

"MADDY!! ARE YOU COMING OR NOT!?" Brooklyn yelled in my face and Niall laughed. They already grabbed their stuff. "Uhhmm....... Yeah. I zoned out. Sorry. I'm coming." We walked to Niall's car and stepped in. Soon we drove off to Niall's place.

**Skip the car ride**

We arrived and stepped out of his car. He locked it and opened his front door. We walked in and i closed the door. Soon we all sat down on the couch in the living room. "So... Maddy. What's wrong?"

I sighed again. "Okay. It's Harry. He is....he just.....ugh!" They smirked at me. "You guys had sex already!?" Brooke asked and my eyes widened. "WHAT!? NO! That's not what i wanted to tell you guys. It's not.....something good, i guess." "Oh. I'm sorry Mads." I smiled at her.

"Okay. Tell us what's going on Maddy." I nodded at Niall and i told them everything. I ended up crying.



" Oh Maddy. I'm so sorry. We didn't know....." Brooke said and letted an few tears slip as well. "Okay. I think someone needs a Horan hug." Niall said and then he hugged me. His hugs are the best.

Really. You feel better when he gave you a Horan hug. He pulled back and smiled at me. "Thank you guys for listening to my fucked up story." "It's okay. That's where friends are for." We all hugged each other. I feel better. A lot better. I pulled back. "But...what should i do now?" I can see at their faces that they don't know it as well.

"You can do two things Maddy. You can ignore him and all of that stuff. Or..." Brooke said and Niall finished his sentence. "Or you could talk to him about it and maybe making it work." "Yeah. I know. A part of me wants to ignore him but an other part of me wants him to...to just love me again and just....i want the old Harry back. Now he is so...so...." I sighed heavily.

"We know that Mads. We want you two back together to. We hate to see you two separated. But we can't change that. The only one who can do that is you Maddy. And Harry. Do whatever you want. Do what feels good Maddy." Niall said and i nodded. "Okay. I'm gonna go home. I'm tired. See you two tomorrow at school then?" They nodded and smiled at me. I smiled back and walked towards the front door.

Once i was outside i closed the door behind me. I walked back home. What should i do? I just need my Harry back. After a good twenty minutes walking i arrived at home. I opened the door and walked inside. I closed the door behind me and walked into the living room. "Hey Maddy." My mom said.

"Hi mom." "Dinner is ready. I already ate." I nodded. I'm not hungry at all. "Thank you but i'm not hungry. Sorry." She nodded and smiled at me. "It's okay Mads. You still miss him huh?" I nodded and she hugged me. I love my mom. She is always there for me and she understands me.

And my mom is very cool and young. She was 16 years old when she got pregnant. "I love you Maddy. If you ever need me or something, just say it okay?" "Yes mom. I love you. I'm up in my room." She nodded and i walked upstairs to my room.

I sat down on the chair at my desk. I looked at the picture of Luke and i. He's so sweet. He's so caring and careful. I don't wanna go too far with him and he understands that. He's always helping me and he just...he is perfect. Harry can be sweet but also so mean. Harry cares but at the same time not. He's not careful and i bet he doesn't stop when i don't wanna go too far with him. He would never always help me but as much as he can. Harry is just....he's trouble. Not perfect at all. Far away from perfect. He's hot and beautiful. From the outside and from the inside. Not always an the inside but still he is beautiful. We're fighting a lot since the day he began talking to me again. Like i said......far away from perfect. But.....i still love him. How is that even possible? I'm not looking at the fact what he did to me but at the fact that he isn't perfect at all and he is trouble, dangerous and mean. And Luke...........he is just perfect and amazing. Why can i not just forget about Harry and hate him?. I mean i-

I was cut off by my phone ringing. It was Luke. I answered it.

Hi babe!

Hi Luke. Everything okay? Look, i'm sorry about Harry. I know you don't like him.

It's okay! Why don't you listen to this?

To what?

Just listen!

I listened and heard moaning. "Aah.....ohh....yeah baby! Come on! Faster....harder....deeper.....yes, oh yes....HARRY!! UGH...." A girl said between moans."What!? WHY DID YOU STOP!? I AM NOT EVEN CLOSE AND I KNOW YOU AREN'T EVEN CLOSE TO!! COME BACK HERE. HAROLD!" The girl yelled almost screamed. "I.....i'm sorry Acacia. I just.....i just can't do this. It doesn't feel good." Harry said. My Harry. I recognise his voice."OH YES YOU CAN! DON'T GET DRESSED NOW!! YOU ASSHOLE!!!" She screamed.

Uhmm....i have to go Maddy. B-bye...

Then Luke ended the phone call. Where the hell was he!? Why was he with Harry? And Acacia.....it couldn't be that Acacia in school, right? And why did Harry stop? Not that i mind but why? Ugh. I really need to sleep or i'll get a headache.

**The next morning**

I woke up and got dressed in this. I'm still not hungry so no breakfast for me. Mom is not home because she left early in the morning for work. I grabbed my back with my stuff in it and walked to school. After 30 minutes i arrived at school.

I walked into the building towards my locker. I saw Harry by his locker as well. I opened my locker and putted almost all my books in there. "Hi." Harry whispered. I turned to look at him. He was already looking at me. "What the hell happened to your face!?" I asked almost yelled.

"N-nothing" I never saw him this scared. "Nothing!? You have a black eye and you have bruises all over your face!!" He nodded and sighed. "Please Harry. Tell me who did this to you?" "I can't tell you. I promised him i wouldn't do that. And if i did that he would kill......." He didn't finish his sentence.

"Yes? That he would kill who?" He didn't answer. "Harry. Tell me. Now!" He shook his head no. I stepped a little closer to him so our body's were almost touching. "Please." I whispered.

"No. I can't do that." He whispered. He had tears in his eyes. "Please Harry. I need you to tell me who did this to you and who he's gonna kill if you tell anyone this." "No. I can't." He whispered again. All i see is a broken boy. Just broken. It's too sad to see.

"Why can you not just say it?" He sighed and a tear rolled down his cheek. "Because if i do.......he's gonna kill you. I can't loose you. Not again." He whispered and sobbed. He was crying his eyes out only because he's afraid to loose me again.

I threw my arms around him and hugged him. And he hugged back, tight. I can barely breathe but it is worth it. I pulled back. He didn't sob anymore. He was only crying. "Harry?" "Yeah?"

I wanna know who is gonna kill me and why? "You're not gonna loose me. I'm here. By your side. Okay?" He nodded. "Okay. Good. Now you have to tell me who did this to you." He shook his head no again. "Come on Harry. Please. You have to tell me." I begged.

Harry's POV

I can't tell her. I just can't. If i do she will never ever believe me and then i will loose her or she will be broken. I can't risk that. Yesterday after i got dressed and wanted to walk away from Acacia, Luke stopped me.

Flashback

I stood by the front door and he walked closer to me until i was against the wall. He had his phone in his hand.

"You ruined everything!!" He yelled and i was scared. I have no idea why i'm so scared. I mean.....i didn't do anything and it's just Luke. So...... why am i that scared? "Scared? The Harry Styles is scared!? Aww...... Look at you. You're a little piece of shit! A huge fuck up! Everything was fine until you came back to her. SHE IS MINE!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT!? MINE!!" Now he was screaming in my face. He was even spitting a little. Eww.

"I understand everything you just said but i cant agree with you mate." "WHAT!! TELL ME. WHY CAN YOU NOT AGREE WITH ME!! HUH!!" I took a deep breathe and nodded.

"She was mine before she even knew you were alive. I know her my whole life and i will not give up on her. Yes i made a big mistake two years ago but i'm trying to make up for it. I will not come between you two but you have to know that i still love her. And you KNOW that she still loves me too. You're jealous huh!?" "OF WHAT!!" He screamed in my face. He annoying as fuck. If Maddy only knew how he actually is.....

"Of me. That she won't let you touch her the way i did. That sh doesn't loves you the way she loves me. The way she acts when she's around me. The way i can let her moan so easily. Just by kissing that one special spot below her ear or-" "STOP!! STOP IT!! JUST FUCKING STOP IT OKAY!!?" He screamed and i smirked. "That hurts doesn't it?" He doesn't respond.

He don't need to. I already know it hurts. I watched her everyday and they were always together. It hurts so much. It's terrible. So i want to hurt him back. Before i could say something else he had punched me in the face. "That hurts doesn't it?" He said.

I groaned. Yes it does."Don't use my own words against me!" I hate it when people do that. He grabbed my throat and pushed my head hard against the wall. Ouch. He pinched my throat. I could barely breathe or talk. "Ple-ase. St-o-op." I whispered. I feel light headed. Fuck.

"I'm gonna pass out any minute if he doesn't stop now. He's gonna kill me. Suddenly he stopped."You're lucky i stopped. I could have killed you." I nodded. Now i'm officially scared. "Not t-that i m-mind b-but why d-did you s-stop?" I said and he smirked.

"Aww.....Styles is stuttering. How cute. Is someone scared? Anyway....i stopped because of Maddy. If she knew i killed you then god knows what's gonna happen. So you're lucky i didn't. If you tell anyone about this then i kill her." What. He's gonna kill who?

I did nothing wrong! Why am i even scared right now. I shouldn't be. I'm Harry fucking Styles! "Who?" I whispered. Damn. I sound like a pussy. "Maddy." He smirked. "NO. You can't do that. You won't do that. You love her." He laughed. I don't know why he's laughing. This is some serious shit!.

"Come on Harry! Do you seriously think i love her?" "W-what!?!" He can't be serious. Of course he loves her. "Did you ever think about the real me? How and who i actually am? Which family i'm from? My past? I'm not as sweet and innocent as everybody thinks Harry. I can easily kill her. So if i was you i wouldn't say anything. Now....GO!" Wow. I nodded. And runned away.

Why am i running. Fuck.I knew something was wrong with that guy.

End of flashback.

"I can't tell you Maddy. He's gonna kill you if i tell you who did this to me and what happened. I'm sorry." I said. She nodded and smiled. "It's okay. I understand. Come on. We have chemistry." "Yes, i'm coming!" I said and smiled at her. We closed our lockers and walked to chemistry together. It's nice to just have her walking next to me.

Acacia's POV

After Harry was being a dick and pulled out i got dressed to. I walked downstairs and i heard yelling. I took a look and it was Harry and Luke. I quickly grabbed my cell phone from my pocket and filmed everything. Every move and word. It was terrible.

I know i actually should stop Luke but i can't. Harry kinda deserves it.

Notes

Here is the chapter :)

What do you think of Luke?
Should Harry tell her it was Luke?

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