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Harry's POV

The bell rang finally. End of the school day. I walked towards my locker. I opened my locker and picked up my books to put them in my bag when someone walked up to me. I thought it was Maddy but when i heard her voice i knew it wasn't. "Hi. How is ma fuck-buddy!?" She said. It was Acacia. Great. "Hi. I'm good and you?"

Be nice Harry. Just be nice. "I'm better now i'm here with you babe." Is it weird that i don't like it anymore when she's around me? Yes of course that's weird. "So why are you here so early? Not that i mind but why?" I asked and she grinned.

"Well.... I came back to see you and your beautiful big thing down there." She said and smirked, i rolled my eyes at her. I really don't want her around me. Maddy walked to her locker and opened it. Just my luck, she's next to me and Acacia is here. Amazing! Did you all catch my sarcasm!?

Acacia placed her hand on my lower area and i gasped. Maddy looked at us and then in my eyes. She looked hurt and angry. What's her problem? Acacia started moving her hand and i moaned. Then she placed her other hand on my abs and she kissed my neck. That's what i call pleasure. Other than that i feel nothing.

I closed my eyes and enjoyed it. "Ahh.." I moaned and Acacia giggled. I opened my eyes and looked at Maddy. She had tears in her eyes. I felt immediately guilty. I just got her back and here i am ruining my chance with her again. "Stop." She didn't stop. She moved faster.

"I SAID STOP!! ACACIA! STOP RIGHT NOW OR I BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF YOU!!" I yelled at her and she stopped and looked at me hurt and angry. "What, why?!" I sighed. "Just go okay? I don't want you here. I don't want it. I changed okay? Now can you please go?" I said calm and she nodded and walked away.

I looked at her and she letted a few tears slip. I couldn't do anything except hugging her. Just hugging her. No words because i always say the wrong things to her. So that's what i did. I hugged her tight and she hugged me back even tighter. "I'm so sorry Dell. I didn't know she would be here that early." I whispered in her ear and kissed the spot below her ear. She moaned and i pulled back. I looked at her and smiled.



"Okay i didn't expect that." I said and i couldn't stop smiling. I just letted her moan. Wow. But is that such a big deal? I mean like i did let so much girls moan and why is it so special that i just did let her moan? Ugh... What's wrong with me!? And why am i even spending time with her!? I'm not a softie! "I-i'm s-sorry.. I d-didn't m-ment to uhmm....." I just laughed at her and soon she joined in. I missed her. A lot.

What is wrong with me? I didn't miss her. I don't even want to be with her. I hate her. No that's not true. I hate myself for everything i have done to her. No, that's not true i..... Ugh.
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What is she doing to me? I'm getting soft and i don't want to be soft. I worked so hard on this new guy i am now and she can't ruin that. I won't let her do that. "Hello? Earth to Harold." She said and and i cleared my throat. "Oh. Uhm... Yeah. Sorry i zoned out, what were you saying?" She sighed and shook her head.

"You weren't listening huh? Am i that boring?" What? She's the most interesting girl in the whole world. "What? No, you're not boring at all. I could listen to you all day long. I was just thinking about..... Uhm....."

"About....what?" She asked. Oh i was just thinking about you and how stupid i was to choose those guys over you. What? What am i thinking!? Wow, i'm confusing myself. I want to spend time with her but i don't want to be soft. I want to be soft but at the same time i want to be bad.

"Uhmm..... About bananas?" She laughed at me. I understand that. It doesn't make sense. I'm stupid, really, Bananas? "Bananas?" I nodded. "Oh yeah. I remember that you used to eat it all the time. You love them. Of course you're thinking about bananas!" Wow, that she remembers that! Just wow.

"I think you're wrong. I've never ate a banana in my whole life and i was wondering how they will taste and uhm....yeah." She giggled. I'm so stupid. I'm embarrassing myself. "Sorry. I wasn't thinking about bananas. It's kinda personal so yeah." She nodded and smiled.

"I understand. It's personal and you don't wanna say it and that's okay." Good because it would be weird if i said i was thinking about you.

You like her. No i don't. Yes, you do. No i don't, i hate her! She's stupid. No she's not. Yes she is! You don't hate her. Yes i do! You love her. That's not true. Yes it is. Just admit it! No i won't and never will. She still loves you. I don't think so. You two are made for each other. Say it to her, just admit it before it's too late. Before you know it she's married with Luke. "Shut the fuck up!" She looked at me with hurt in her eyes. "O-okay. I-if you w-want me t-to shut up t-then i will."

She said and walked away. "FUCK!! NO! MADDY! COME BACK!" It's too late. She's gone. Why did i say that out loud!! I am so stupid. Stupid self conscience. Ah, fuck it! I don't need her anyway. I have Acacia and the gang and that's enough. Ugh... I need a good fuck. Where the hell is Acacia!?

I walked towards the parking lot and saw her leaning against my car. I walked up to hur and kissed her on her lips. This lust nothing else just lust. Lust for a good fuck. I don't feel anything else. Just a good fuck. I pulled back and she giggled. God she's annoying. "My house, now!" I demanded and she smirked.

We both stepped in and i drove off. I need her so bad but i just... I feel weird. Not in a good way weird but in a bad way. Just ignore it and everything will be okay. Right?

Notes

Sorry for not updating so long. I didn't do a spelling controle. Sorry for that to. And sorry for the short chapter. It's shorter that the others. I hope you all enjoy this story!!

And how do you think about Harry? What do you think he should do?

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