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Chapter 2

Chapter 2

**The next day**

Harry's POV

I parked my car in the parking lot at school. I was dressed in a white shirt and black tight pants with coverse. I also had a bandana on my head. My hear is just messy okay? And i love bandanas.

I hope Maddy will forgive me. I know she doesn't deserve to be handled like that but i just.... I don't know what happened. I walked to my locker and a few minutes later Maddy came to. She looks amazing as always!! When she saw me she wanted to walk away but i grabbed her wrist.

"Maddy. Please, look at me." She looked at me. "Hear me out. I really didnt ment to. I was just.... It was just that..." I couldn't finish my sentence because really don't know why i did it. "Yes Harry? You just......what!?" I didn't answer her. I couldn't.

"Maybe it's the best if i stay away from you." She said and i letted a tear slip. Suddenly i couldn't breathe and my heart beated faster and faster. This is unhealthy, i know that for sure. "No. Please Maddy. You can't do that i..." I couldn't finish my sentence because my voice was gone.

How the hell did that happened!? My voice gone? What is wrong with me!? I letted more tears slip. "Harry? Is everything okay!? You're as red as a tomato!! Harry!!" I cried harder and my sobs were louder. I have an anxiety attack. Yes i have those.

I began to cry and sob very hard and loud and i barely breathe or talk. When it's really bad i can black out. I need my pills. Where the hell are my pills!? I sat down on the ground against the lockers. Maddy was right in front of me, on the ground. "Harry please. Talk to me!!"

I shook my head. I can't talk or breathe. I can't i just no! I'm getting dizzy. Why am i even having a anxiety attack. Is it because she wants to stay away from me!? What the fuck! Maybe i still love her. NO! OF COURSE NOT!! I can't and i don't. What is wrong with me!!?

"Harry please. Talk to me. Breathe. Calm down!!" She said to me. I can't. "I-i-i N-need my..." I whispered but i couldn't finish my sentence. "Yes Harry. Tell me. You need what? Come on, you can do it. For me. Please Harry. You need your what? Please, try." I shook my head no.

"Please Hal. For me!?" "P-pil-ls..." I breathed and stuttered at the same time. She nodded. "Are they in your bag or locker?" I nodded at her. It became harder and arder to breathe.Help somebody please!! I wanna scream everything out. But... I can't.

She looked in my bag and locker and turned back to me. "I can't find them. Are you sure you have them here?" I shook my head no and sighed. A lot of people are panicking around me. "Harry. Please. You can't leave me alone here. Think about the thing you love the most."

I love nothing. Really nothing. I dont even have a heart. Wait. Of course i have a heart but it doesn't beat for somebody i... Ugh... She hugged me and i hugged her back, tight.

Suddenly i could breathe again. My heart slowed down and i only cried quietly. How does she do that!? Nobody could ever calm me down!! And here she is... She just calmed me down. "Thank you Dell." I wispered in her ear. I stopped crying and everything was normalagain. We both stood up. She pulled back and looked into my eyes. "Since when do you get these?" I sighed.

"Since..." "Yeah? Since?" Maybe i just have to tell her the truth. No of course not. "Since i... Since you left. I have them since then." She looked hurt at first but then she looked angry. "Since i left you? Since I left YOU!?"She yelled at me and i nodded.

"Yeah since you left me. What's wrong?" She sighed and calmed herself down. "I didn't left you!! You left me Harry! YOU LEFT ME FOR YOUR STUPID LITTLE GANG!! DO THEY CARE ABOUT YOU LIKE I DO!? DO THEY!? WELL...!?" I looked deep into her eyes.

Maddy's POV

Then he slammed me in the lockers and putted both of his arms on either side of my face. His face was really close to mine. I could feel his hot breathe on my face. I felt something in my stomach. Unfamiliar feelings. Weird.

"I left you? YOU REALLY THINK I LEFT YOU!!? WELL...!?" I nodded and he laughed in my face. "Well... I didn't left you!! You left me remember!? For your so awesome boyfriend Luke." He looked angry but if you look very deep into his eyes than you see that he's hurt. Just hurt.

"You're hurt? So... Because you're hurt you're saying this? And slamming me in the locker?" I said calm. He relaxed and letted me go. "I-i.... I'm just a fuck up and....what the hell am i saying!? ME HURT!? NEVER." He said and slammed me in the lockers again. Same position as a few seconds ago. His face came closer and closer.

"I'm gonna get you. You can't go back now. You are mine." He whispered in my ear and kissed the spot below my ear. He smirked and walked away. What the hell just happened!?

***At lunch***

I sat down at the table with Brooke, Niall and Luke. Exactly the same as yesterday. "So... Maddy. You and Harry huh?" He said and smirked. Luke's jaw clenched. "No. Ther's nothing going on with us Niall. He just want me. That's everything. Nothing more." I said as if it was no big deal.

He nodded but still smirked. What's up to him? "There is really nothing going on Niall. Can you please stop smirking!?" He laughed at me. I don't find this funny. I really don't. Then Harry sat down next to me again. Ugh... What does he want!?

"Hi guys. I wanna apologize for my behaviour. I really didn't ment to yell at anybody. I just... It's just that i'm not myself lately and.... I'm not really good with words. I-" Brooke cutted him off. Yes, Brooke's a good girl. Cut him off, yeah. WOOHOO!! I don't wanna hear him talk to.

"Apology accepted Harry. We all talked about it and it's okay. Even Luke thinks it's okay. He still doesn't like you like Niall and i do but he still accepts your apology." She said and smiled at me. "Okay.. Uhmm... WHAT!? What about me!? Have i still the right to say something or not!? Maybe you all accept it but i don't! He's just so, so.... UGH!!" I yelled and shutted up quickly because i couldn't finish my sentence.

Niall was smirking at me again. "Why are you smirking at me Niall!? Did i do something!? I sthere something going on!? Well?" He shook his head no and he laughed uietly with Brooke. Okay, am i missing something!? Where are they laughing about?

I looked at Luke and he didn't look happy at all. He looked more like angry and hurt. Does he know where this is all about? "Luke? Do you know what's so funny?" I whispered in his ear. "No, i'm sorry." He whispered back. Hmm... Okay? Weird. I have really weird friends.

Oh and for if you're asking... Yes i'm still mad at Harry for that little stunt he pulled out by the lockers. But all the others want Harry to stay here at this table so i guess i'll have no choice then...

Luke's POV

I'm not okay with this idea at all. I hate Harry. I really do. I just don't wanna say no. I don't wanna be like one of those guys who are jealous about every single thing. But i am one of those guys. Okay, i just don't wanna seem like one. Harry sat next to her again. My Madelin.

I really hate him. "Luke? Do you know what's so funny?" Maddy whispered in my ear. Yes, i know where that's all about. But i'm not gonna say thhat do her. I'll explain it to you.

They think, almost know for sure that Harry has a really big crush on Maddy and they think that Maddy still feels something for him. I know she doesn't. Besides... If she did then she still would have flashbacks from what happened and everything. I bet she doesn't even remember the half of the things they did together. And that's good. Those memories are replaced by memories from us.

Still i always hope she doesn't remember one simple thing. Her first time. You wanna know why? Well... Harry and Maddy took their virginity from each other and you know what people say. Your first time is something you will never forget and always will remember. With who you did it, how you did it and how it was and blah, blah, blah...

So that's why i hope she doesn't remember her first time. I don't want her to. Maddy and i never had sex. Yes we plyed a little with each other and things but never that far. We always have almost sex but before it gets too far she stops me. And of course i don't force her to anything but i just... Ugh... I can't ask her things she doesn't want to do. That's not fair.

"No, i'm sorry." I whispered back in her ear. Second time i lied to her today. I hope i don't have to lie to her too much.

Harry's POV

Luke is absolutely not okay with the idea of me here but i'm not going away because he's not okay with it. I know Maddy is still mad at me for what happened by the lockers and i have to apology to her to. "Maddy?" "Yes Harry?" She sighed. Yep. She's still mad. "I'm sorry for what i did by the lockers. I really didn't ment to i.. I was just angry at you for nothing. You were right. I left not you. I'm sorry all of that happened because of who left. And thank you for helping me out when i had an anxiety attack. You'r ethe best hugger in the whole world!" I said and smiled at her while she laughed playfully at me. "Apology accepted. And you're right. I am the best hugger in the whole world." I laughed along with her.

"So Dell. Are we good?" "Yes we're good." I sighed in relief. "So can i have a hug now from the best hugger in the world or is it gonna be awkward between us?" She laughed at me and i smiled. I smiled a real smile for the first time in like two years. She makes me happy. "Yes of course you can get a hug from the best hugger in the world. It's not gonna be awkward between us Harry." I nodded and grinned at her.

Then we hugged each other. I love her hugs.I placed my head in the crook of her neck and i inhaled her scent and stroked her hair. Memories of the fourth of July 2012 flew by. Our first time. When i came i placed my head in the crook of her neck to.

Maddy pulled back and looked at my jeans. Or should i say my lower erea. I looked at it to and... Oh my god! I have a boner. Stupid memories. Because of those memories i have a boner now!

"Uhmm.... I uhmm....." She laughed at me just like Niall and Brooke. Wow. Well uhmm... This is embarrassing. Luke didn't laugh at me. Of course not. I wouldn't do that to if i was him. He stood up and walked away. Maddy wanted to follow him but he stopped her. Soon he we didn't see him anymore and Niall and Brooke looked at me and smirked while Maddy's head was as red as an tomato.

"Yes i know. I got a boner. Don't make such a big deal from everything guys!" They all laughed and soon i laughed to, with them. It's great to have my old friends back. I missed them. All of them. I hope my gang stays away forever. Because when they're back i know for sure World War III is about to start.