I found her .
I Don't Know How To Say It ..
Niall's P.O.V.
It's been so chaotic these past four days starting with the argument me and Janette had the day of her baby shower . Then her actually giving birth , followed by coming home with the twins , then Sarah and James , then Harry , then arguing with Janette , and now Sarah's death and James staying with us . It still amazes me how after every single little thing I've done to Janette , she's still by my side and even her taking in James like if he was her own amazes me . I don't think I could bare to loose her again or ever , for that matter .
It's been a while since me and Harry actually hung out or have acted like actual friends ! I've been a horrible friend to him after all he's done for me and Janette . She's right , he's been there plenty of times to pick up the pieces that I keep seeming to break . He's helped her through a lot of shit that I should be helping her with . He's kept her sane when she felt like she was going to loose her mind . And still , I haven't gone to see him in the hospital or asked how he's been , not only that , he ended up in the hospital because of Sarah and I know the real reason she ended up at my door step in the first place . I think he himself should at least know why .
"Janette , do you mind if I go see Harry at the hospital ?"
"Should I mind ?"
"Well no .."
"Then no ." she replied sarcastically and laughed .
"You look nice .." I said awkwardly .
"Thanks ..." she half smiled . "When are you leaving ?"
"In a little when I find my stupid fucking keys ." I said patting my pockets up and down .
"Have the boys eaten ?" she asked putting the rest of the dishes away .
"No they're sleeping I think they eat in an hour . Where the fuck are my keys !"
"What about James ?"
"I don't know Janette !"
"Don't yell at me . It's not my fault you always loose your shitty keys .Here you fucking blind ass." she laughed throwing the keys at me .
"You're so infuriating sometimes I fucking swear ."
"Am I ?" she said coming closer to me pressing her lips against mine . I loved when she was playful like this . It was like nothing ever went wrong in our relationship and we were perfectly happy . Our lips were in perfect sync and she rubbed her tongue against my bottom lip which just drove me crazy . I quickly put my hands around her hips and brought her extremely close to my body .
"So when are you allowed to .. you know .."
"Shouldn't you be leaving ?" she laughed against our kiss .
"Fine , fine , fine , I'm going . "
"Bye ." she laughed as I walked out and closed the door .
"Hey , where can I find Harry Styles ?" I asked the nurse .
"He will be in room 222." she said smiling .
"Thanks." I said walking away and trying to find his stupid ass room . I didn't even know how I was going to tell him why Sarah was there . How am I suppose to say what I have to say , not only that , if Janette finds out it's my fault her precious Harry almost died because of me , she's going to flip the fuck out .
"Styles !!" I yelled walking into the room .
"Horan you fucking sick freak !" he laughed .
"How are you bro ?" I asked him sitting down .
"Alright I guess you know , I'm not going to lie that fucking crazy bitch scared me . I was going to die you know . "
"Well she's dead . The police found her in her cell hung ." I said quietly .
"Wait what ? What about James ?"
"Well he's my son you know so he's staying with us ."
"How does Janette feel about this ?"
"She said she was perfectly fine with it , she said if he was my kid then she'll love him just like if he was hers ."
"She can be pretty amazing , honestly ." He said looking down at his stomach .
"Harry .."
"What did you do Niall ?" he said immediately .
"How do you know I have something to say ?" I asked laughing .
"Come on Niall , I've known you since the 2nd grade , I know every little thing about you ." he said laughing .
"Not everything ..."
"What do you mean ?"
"Harry , the reason Sarah came back was because ... she's the one who I fucked when I went out of town . I cheated on Janette with Sarah and that's why I wanted to do things over with her and leave Janette . I saw James and I spent time with him and I remembered what lie would have been like or was suppose to be like . After I realized how much I loved Janette I told Sarah I couldn't do it . She threatened to kill Janette but I didn't think she was being serious , I swear ! Then she fucking shows up at my door step , with James and she said she needed help and Janette was the one who-"
"Wait , so you cheated on Janette with Sarah ? And you're the reason she came over here and almost killed all of us ? What the fuck is the matter with you Niall ! Why didn't you fucking tell any one !? "
"Harry , I'm sorry !"
"Get out !"
"What ?"
"Get out now Niall I'm serious ! How could you fucking do that to me ? To Janette !? Do you have any idea what this is going to do to her ?" he said with a look of disgust as I just stayed quiet . "You weren't going to tell her , were you ?"
"Well .. "
"You have to tell her Niall , you're going to make it 10x worse if you just keep your fucking mouth shut and don't say anything , especially if I now know and don't say anything as well ."
"So you think I should tell her ?"
"Yeah tell her now . Go home and tell her Niall .."
"Fuck .. I'm going to loose her , aren't I ?" I said quietly and just looked at the floor . I know I was going to . I knew that shit was coming , I could already see her heating up and yelling and cursing and throwing shit at me and telling me she couldn't do it anymore . I honestly couldn't even blame her .
"If you love her , you'll let her make her own decision . And if she loves you , she'll come back to you with no problems ."
I got up , and I left quietly . I can't help but be so freaking scared like it isn't even funny how terrified I am to fucking tell her . The whole car ride back home all I was thinking and I was jittery. I was very inpatient and I finally got out of the car and just stood in front of the door not even entering . I just looked at it and I knew that right when I walked in , nothing would be the same .
It's been so chaotic these past four days starting with the argument me and Janette had the day of her baby shower . Then her actually giving birth , followed by coming home with the twins , then Sarah and James , then Harry , then arguing with Janette , and now Sarah's death and James staying with us . It still amazes me how after every single little thing I've done to Janette , she's still by my side and even her taking in James like if he was her own amazes me . I don't think I could bare to loose her again or ever , for that matter .
It's been a while since me and Harry actually hung out or have acted like actual friends ! I've been a horrible friend to him after all he's done for me and Janette . She's right , he's been there plenty of times to pick up the pieces that I keep seeming to break . He's helped her through a lot of shit that I should be helping her with . He's kept her sane when she felt like she was going to loose her mind . And still , I haven't gone to see him in the hospital or asked how he's been , not only that , he ended up in the hospital because of Sarah and I know the real reason she ended up at my door step in the first place . I think he himself should at least know why .
"Janette , do you mind if I go see Harry at the hospital ?"
"Should I mind ?"
"Well no .."
"Then no ." she replied sarcastically and laughed .
"You look nice .." I said awkwardly .
"Thanks ..." she half smiled . "When are you leaving ?"
"In a little when I find my stupid fucking keys ." I said patting my pockets up and down .
"Have the boys eaten ?" she asked putting the rest of the dishes away .
"No they're sleeping I think they eat in an hour . Where the fuck are my keys !"
"What about James ?"
"I don't know Janette !"
"Don't yell at me . It's not my fault you always loose your shitty keys .Here you fucking blind ass." she laughed throwing the keys at me .
"You're so infuriating sometimes I fucking swear ."
"Am I ?" she said coming closer to me pressing her lips against mine . I loved when she was playful like this . It was like nothing ever went wrong in our relationship and we were perfectly happy . Our lips were in perfect sync and she rubbed her tongue against my bottom lip which just drove me crazy . I quickly put my hands around her hips and brought her extremely close to my body .
"So when are you allowed to .. you know .."
"Shouldn't you be leaving ?" she laughed against our kiss .
"Fine , fine , fine , I'm going . "
"Bye ." she laughed as I walked out and closed the door .
"Hey , where can I find Harry Styles ?" I asked the nurse .
"He will be in room 222." she said smiling .
"Thanks." I said walking away and trying to find his stupid ass room . I didn't even know how I was going to tell him why Sarah was there . How am I suppose to say what I have to say , not only that , if Janette finds out it's my fault her precious Harry almost died because of me , she's going to flip the fuck out .
"Styles !!" I yelled walking into the room .
"Horan you fucking sick freak !" he laughed .
"How are you bro ?" I asked him sitting down .
"Alright I guess you know , I'm not going to lie that fucking crazy bitch scared me . I was going to die you know . "
"Well she's dead . The police found her in her cell hung ." I said quietly .
"Wait what ? What about James ?"
"Well he's my son you know so he's staying with us ."
"How does Janette feel about this ?"
"She said she was perfectly fine with it , she said if he was my kid then she'll love him just like if he was hers ."
"She can be pretty amazing , honestly ." He said looking down at his stomach .
"Harry .."
"What did you do Niall ?" he said immediately .
"How do you know I have something to say ?" I asked laughing .
"Come on Niall , I've known you since the 2nd grade , I know every little thing about you ." he said laughing .
"Not everything ..."
"What do you mean ?"
"Harry , the reason Sarah came back was because ... she's the one who I fucked when I went out of town . I cheated on Janette with Sarah and that's why I wanted to do things over with her and leave Janette . I saw James and I spent time with him and I remembered what lie would have been like or was suppose to be like . After I realized how much I loved Janette I told Sarah I couldn't do it . She threatened to kill Janette but I didn't think she was being serious , I swear ! Then she fucking shows up at my door step , with James and she said she needed help and Janette was the one who-"
"Wait , so you cheated on Janette with Sarah ? And you're the reason she came over here and almost killed all of us ? What the fuck is the matter with you Niall ! Why didn't you fucking tell any one !? "
"Harry , I'm sorry !"
"Get out !"
"What ?"
"Get out now Niall I'm serious ! How could you fucking do that to me ? To Janette !? Do you have any idea what this is going to do to her ?" he said with a look of disgust as I just stayed quiet . "You weren't going to tell her , were you ?"
"Well .. "
"You have to tell her Niall , you're going to make it 10x worse if you just keep your fucking mouth shut and don't say anything , especially if I now know and don't say anything as well ."
"So you think I should tell her ?"
"Yeah tell her now . Go home and tell her Niall .."
"Fuck .. I'm going to loose her , aren't I ?" I said quietly and just looked at the floor . I know I was going to . I knew that shit was coming , I could already see her heating up and yelling and cursing and throwing shit at me and telling me she couldn't do it anymore . I honestly couldn't even blame her .
"If you love her , you'll let her make her own decision . And if she loves you , she'll come back to you with no problems ."
I got up , and I left quietly . I can't help but be so freaking scared like it isn't even funny how terrified I am to fucking tell her . The whole car ride back home all I was thinking and I was jittery. I was very inpatient and I finally got out of the car and just stood in front of the door not even entering . I just looked at it and I knew that right when I walked in , nothing would be the same .
Notes
Hey guys !! Sorry I haven't updated in 10 days !! I've been working all week and I've had summer school home work and I was also working on starting the new story called "He's not a monster ." It is a Harry Styles fanfic so I hope you guys also check that one out , I barley have my first chapter . Any who , I hope you guys are ready for the biggest argument of your life next chapter . lol
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Oh thank you ! And I am sorry I took so long lol I'm so glad you liked it !
12/11/15