I couldn't wake up this morning and the only reason why I did was to feed the boys and after that Niall took them back to put them to sleep . I'm glad that Niall finally understood that I love him and no one else . It feels like everything is almost done and that all the drama is over but I remembered two things , 1) I need to fix things with Harry because he's my best friend and it hasn't even been a day and I already miss him . 2) We need to figure out what we are going to do with James .

"Janette .. Janette babe . Wake up ." Niall whispered in my ear .

"Is it time for them to eat ?" I asked rubbing my eyes and sitting up straight .

"No ... look ... " he said quietly looking toward the foot of the bed . I saw a little blonde head laying down there just sleeping away shivering slightly . Niall threw his legs over the bed standing up . I never paid attention to how toned Niall was . He always slept in his briefs but he just looked exponentially ... hot . His toned abs , his muscular legs and arms ...

"What are you doing ?" I herd Niall asked James trying to wake him up .

"Niall stop ! Don't wake him up !" I asked him as I noticed him trying to pick him up .

"I'm just going to take him back ."

"No Niall , he's probably just scared . Let him sleep here ..." I said laying back down . "On the bed Niall !!" I laughed as he tried to put him on the floor .

"Should I .. should I just put him in the middle ?" he asked still carrying him .

"Yeah I guess ... you know , he is your son too Niall , remember that . He's just like Theo and Ben just older but it's the same thing just under different circumstances ." I said and it's like Niall had a break through and realized just who James was . He looked at him and just smiled and laid him down right in between us . James turned himself around and curled right up under me , I looked at Niall and he just laughed . I didn't even know what to do and then I herd James whisper "Goodnight mum ." I raised my eyes at Niall and he was just as weirded out as I was . I smiled at him and replied "Goodnight." and laid down and went back to sleep .

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I woke up feeling still tired . I looked around the room and only saw the boys there and no Niall or James . I got up from the bed and immediately made the bed so I wouldn't fall back asleep . After that I checked on the babies in there bassinet and they were still sleeping and it wasn't time for them to eat yet . At first I found it ridiculous how the boys had both a bassinets and cribs but now I find them extremely useful . I decided to go into the bathroom and start getting ready . Since I didn't want to leave the boys by themselves I took Ben and put him in Theos bassinet and put them right by the bathroom door so I could watch them .

I haven't gotten ready in a while and I really wanted to enjoy this you know . I wanted to start with my full on make up routines I had . I enjoyed getting ready , it relaxed me . I put on my foundation and my power and highlighted under my eyes . I started getting my eyeliner on and I had to re-do it like 5 times because I forgot how to put it on apparently .

"Hi baby are you awake ? Yeah ?" I told Theo with my stupid baby voice . I haven't actually hung out with them just us three and I was going to enjoy every second of it . My life can be a constant struggle just like every one else's which makes it extremely important to enjoy the little things because everything that's good comes to an end . "Let mommy just finish her hair ok." I said finishing my hair and and brushing it out . I went to my closet real quick and pick a comfortable outfit . I would have worn heels just because why not considering Niall likes them , but I have to clean down stairs and make breakfast and do other stuff so this would do just fine.

"Are you guys hungry ? Yeah ? C'mon let's go down stairs ." I have no idea why I was talking to them I know they won't reply to me but I want them to know that I like have conversations with them . I walked down stairs and went into the living room and turned the t.v on and sat on the couch . I got both boys and put them to my sides and started breast feeding them . I have never felt such pain to be honest . It felt like someone was pinching the shit out of your nipple and tugging at it .

They finally finished eating and my boobs felt better now that all the milk was gone and it was my turn to eat so I put them in their swings and went into the kitchen .

"Janette !!" Louis yelled rushing in . "Where are my favorite kiddies ?"

"Louis shut up !!! " I laughed . "They're in the living room . Where's Payne ?" I asked drinking my coffee .

"He's with Harry and Perrie and Zayn ." he asked picking Benjamin up .

"You know how to pick up babies ?" I asked curious laughing .

"I have four baby sister you twat ." he laughed .

"Fuck you dick ." I laughed . "Have you eatened ?"

"Yeah I ate Harry's hospital food . Speaking of Harry .. what's up with you two anyway ?"

"I , I don't really know . I told him we should have some time apart because I felt like I was making his life difficult ." I told him facing down .

"Janette , you made his life better . He was almost as bad as Niall except Harry didn't fight people . He didn't really have friends Janette , I mean we were all friends but he was really isolated ."

"Louis I get that part but it's just , I put him in the hospital ..."

"No you didn't . He put himself in there . He told us it was his idea to take Sarah . Speaking of Sarah ,that remindse of Niall. Where is he ?"

"Oh shit ! I fucking forgot ! I should probably call him ." I laughed grabbing my phone . "He's actually with James right now ."

"With James ?"

"Yeah . He's -Hello Niall ? Where are you ? Oh ok then I'll see you in five- "

'What'd he say ?"

"He went to the store to get James some stuff ."

"Oh . Alright well I'm gonna head out , I promised Harry I'd check up on you ."

"Jesus Christ even when I'm fucking rude to him he's still kind and caring ." I laughed . "Louis what do I do ? He probably fucking hates me ..."

"He could never hate you Janette . Why don't you just sit and talk to him because I know for a fact that if he sees you he'll feel much better . Just talk to him . Go today . "

"Thanks Louis ." I smiled at him closing the door until he cut me off .

"By the way , you look hot ." he said winking .

"Ewe you fucking perve I'm a mom !! "I yelled laughing .

"Hot mom !" he yelled back getting in his car making me laugh .

Right when I closed the door I had to open it again for Niall and James . Niall had James following him a couple feet behind him . They looked almost identical .

"Hi James ." I smiled at him as Niall quickly pulled me into a kiss and took me into the kitchen .

"James you can watch t.v " Niall said and then looking at me . "Sarah's dead ..." he whispered . "They found her hanging from the ceiling in her cell ."

"Wait what ? How the -"

"I - I don't know how to explain it but she's dead Janette .." he said putting his face to the floor . I don't know what he felt like I couldn't make out his reaction but I walked up to him and hugged him tight . To be honest , I don't even know how I felt or how I should feel for that matter . I should feel happy with absolutely no remorse because she tried to kill almost everyone I loved , but I didn't . I felt sad . Not mainly for her but , because this little boy lost his mother . She obviously wasn't mentally stable but she was still someone's mother . "Can .. Can he stay here ? With us ?" Niall asked cautiously looking over to James biting his nail. I was almost offended that he asked .

"Of course Niall ! He's your son , I don't even know why you're asking . Of course he can stay here ." I said cupping his cheeks .

"You don't mind ? It's like being a mom you know , to a third kid that isn't even yours ."

"But he's yours . And if he's yours then i'll love him like if he was actually mine ." I smiled at him .

"I love you Janette ."

"I love you Niall ."

Notes

Sorry this is kind of boring , it's kind of another chapter filler to like what happens after every thing and it's kind of picking up where people are leaving off but I promise I have better ideas lol .
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