The day went on and Niall is no where to be found . It's been at least 2 hours since he said he "needed some time" to think and process the situation . I know it was the right thing to do , me telling him. But all i can think of is worry . Worry fills my head and i can't help but listen to him . Thinking of him leaving me , and me being alone with two little Niall's scares me ! It's not really the thought of him leaving me with the boys , I'm pretty responsible and mentally strong enough to take care of them myself its just , i need him . He drives me insane but he's the only person who makes me laugh and the only person i can tolerate .

He said he was coming back and i believe him . I have to . I just .. I need some to stop worrying and I myself need some time to think . I need someone to help me keep occupied . I should really call Perrie . I haven't talked to her in almost a month . I literally always only hang out with Harry and what not . I mean i do hang out with Perrie but not as much as i do with Harry , I'll just call her. …Ah fuck it , i'll just show up at Zayn's house . I'm sure she's already at his house considering it was 1:30 . She's probably already cleaning his house and making him food . I know her all too well .

I decide to change my outfit really quick and wear something a little more comfortable .

I grab my phone and my purse and head for the car .

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I pull into Zayn's neighborhood and noticed Louis car , and Harry's .. , and Niall's … ?



Why didn't anyone tell me we were hanging out today ? Well i feel left out . Unless they don't want me to know . Why would they not tell me though ? I plop off the car and wobbly my way to the front door . Its already opened so i just walk in . I keep quiet to make sure they don't notice I'm here because i want to see what they're hiding from me that's so bad i wasn't invited . Right when i hit the stairs i already hear arguing ? But who ? Niall and Harry i think ? It's probably about the kiss maybe ?

As i get to the top of the stairs i see the door slightly opened and i can hear much clearer . It is Harry and Niall , but why ? I peek through the door slightly with out getting in full view . I can see Liam and Louis on the desk chairs and Zayn and Perrie on Zayns bed while Niall and Harry are standing in the middle of the room .

I can't remember the last time i was in Zayns room . I mean i can i just don't want to . Here is where me and Niall had our full on argument about Harry . He suspected he liked me which in the case now i know he knew Harry did have feelings for me considering the stupid bet . I just wish i knew back then , but , none the less , all is forgiven i hope .

"You can't just leave her ! " i hear Harry almost yell back pacing around the room with his gains popping out of his neck and running his fingers through his hair . Who are they talking to ?

"Yeah bro , just because Sarah's back , doesn't mean you can forget about Janette . Mate , she's fucking pregnant . Think about it , use your fucking head . " no , no , no they can't be talking to Niall . I know they're not .

"Yeah lad , open your eyes ! Sarah's no good ! Janette is ! " Louis says but doesn't say a name , i know they're not talking to Niall .

"Seriously Niall , use your head ." Liam says and my heart drops . I so stupid ! of course they were fucking talking to Niall ! Who else would they be fucking talking to ? Jesus ?

"I JUST want to talk to Sarah , and i want to meet my son , i want to know if things would have worked out between us ." Niall says looking forward almost like a heartless person . I don't recognize any part of him .

"Then what ? " , Perrie asks looking disgusted at Niall , " You think she's going to forgive you and take you back like if nothing happened ?"

"No ! She's not ! " , Harry answers Perrie's question looking irritated and furious , "She will fucking hate you for as long as she lives ! You will ruin her .. and you know that don't you …You do , don't you , you piece of shit - " Harry then cuts himself off noticing I'm standing right outside the door . Listening to every single word .

I push the door open all the way and all eyes are on me and my pregnant self . Everyones eyes full of sorrow and pity and they all look like they want to say something .. anything . But they can't . The damage their friend has caused is already done . No one says a word to me and all of my focus in on Niall's face who doesn't even bother to look surprised i herd him . It's like i don't even matter to him . But let's be honest , i never did . His eyes are calm and have no emotion . No love .

"Janette , I'm .. "

"Dont . " i spit at him putting my hand up motioning him to stop walking towards me . "I don't need your pity or your bullshit explanations . You want to leave me for some bitch who broke your heart and treated you horribly ? " , i half laugh , "go a head ." is all i say as everyone just looks at me surprised i didn't put up a fight .

"Janette are you .. ?" Harry trails off .

"Yeah I'm more than positive . I'm so fucking tired of fighting over you Niall . I'm tired of being treated so horribly wrong and not getting any love out of you . So if you want to go , then go . Get your shit , and get out of my life . " i say as i turn on my heels to walk out the door . Im surprised i haven't bursted into tears . I almost make it out Zayns bedroom door when i hear Niall mumble "babe" and tug at my wrist pulling me back . Before my mind can even catch up , the back of my hand connects with his cheek . That same cheek that i once use to love to kiss and blow air onto .

"Don't , touch me . You lost every right to look at me , talk to me , touch me , or even think of me ! I trusted you with my fucking life and now that i think about it , you did more harm than good ! I always saw the good in you , i always mad excuses for you and tried to put aside all the shit you did to me , even the recent ones ! " I yell as i notices everyone looks confused and surprised i slapped him . "Did you not tell our friends what you did ? Oh .. well this is just grand isn't it ?" i say half laughing , "Tell them ! Tell them how you made a bet out of me to see who got Rachel , and how you cheated on me multiple times , and how you said you never loved me !" I trail off trying immensely hard not to cry . I can't , i can't let him know he got the best of me .

"You fucking did what .. ?" Zayn asks in full shock as everyones jaw drops and tries to comprehend what i just said .

Everyones eyes on Niall waiting to see his response . But he says nothing . Still no emotion .

"We're done here . " i say as i run down stairs and into my car .

"Janette wait !? " I hear , i really want it to be Niall , i want to know he still cares and i want to know he still loves me . But i was wrong , as usually , its Harry who came after me .

I ignore his demands to stop and wait , and i continue to speed away . I just want to go home . My home , in America . I don't belong here , i never did . I thought i could come here and try to re-do my life when really i made it even more complicated . I thought i could start fresh when in reality it's like my past followed me here . My life is more miserable then i ever imagined . I moved to start fresh , completely fresh , but i changed . I changed into this annoying clingy girl who depends too much on others . Before , i could have gone the rest of senior year with out friends . The old Janette wouldn't have gotten caught up with Niall and his stupid Rachel and I'm sure i'd still be in softball . The old Janette would have left him the first time he screwed up . But no , because of my issues with my parents i became weak and he broke my walls down and i let myself love someone again . But no , no more . My walls are going back up and stronger than ever .

I need to be strong for me , and most importantly , for my babies . I need to go home and take all his shit out of my house . Like if he was never there . Simple as that .

Notes

Hey !! I know i haven't updated in forever because I'm still waiting on my new laptop !
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