The Perks Of Being A Horan
Chapter 12 - Talking To Harry
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SAMMY XOXO
Chapter 12 - Talking To Harry.
I have to say, waking up on the first day of performing should have been a good feeling. I mean I'm performing as One Directions support act, who wouldn't be happy when they wake up on that day? Me. It had to be me, but the only thing I could think about was the look on Harry's face when I told him about Liam and I being official. It looked like all the life got sucked out of him in a single second and I needed to find out why.
I rolled over and check the clock in my bunk. 10am. Not bad, I jumped out of my bunk spotting a sleeping Liam on my way down. I looked at him for a second pondering on whether to wake him or not. Instead I snapped a picture and went to make myself a cup of tea. I wait a minute looking at the picture I've just taken and quietly laugh to myself through disbelief that, that boy is my boyfriend. Throwing my phone on the sofa, I pour the kettle, not burning myself this time and my attention turns to a figure walking towards me.
"Hey." He says very softly, almost sad as he runs his fingers through the brown curls on his head.
"You okay?" I say without bothering to greet him.
"Yeah..." He says trailing off his blunt answer.
"You sure? You don't sound okay." I question him.
"Shannon I'm fine." Harry grunts as he plops down on the sofa and switches on the TV.
"Oi! Don't snap at her like that." Another voice joined the conversation.
"It's fine." I say turning myself to the other voice receiving a kiss in the process. "Morning Liam."
"Morning baby." He smiles sleepily as he walks to the sofa's beckoning me to join.
I oblige and sit down next to him with my tea, immediately knowing he would want to share, I
hand him the cup and he smiles in appreciation. My attention turns to Harry as I notice him starting at us with some sort of longing in his eyes.
"Harry?" I question but he doesn't respond.
"Shannon..." Liam asks "Why is there a picture of my sleeping on your phone?"
"Erm... You looked cute." There was no point in lying to him, he is my boyfriend. Wink wink.
"Haha okay." He laughs, dismissing the conversation.
I give him a kiss on the cheek before sipping my tea and scooting a little closer to him. He wraps his arms around my waist instantly making me more comfortable. I rest my head on his shoulder as numerous thoughts enter my mind. Is it weird that Liam and I got together so fast? I mean he makes me feel comfortable and I can be myself around him. We haven't said I love you yet which is fine because I don't love him yet. I really like him, the butterflies are there, the
smiles, the shyness, but it's not love yet, at least not to me.
I shake away my thoughts and begin looking at Harry. It's probably not a good idea, taking into account the past situations but I just can't help it. He look so sad and he's trying to hide it. The way he's looking at me through the corner of his eyes but not fully. The way he keeps running his hands across his head as if he has headache, but mostly the way he's doing everything he possibly can to keep his attention away from me and Liam.
"Shannon why are you staring at Harry?" His menacing voice shook me out of my stare.
Zayn. It had to be Zayn.
"I'm not starting at Harry." I snap, gaining the attention of the two boys in my close proximity.
"Yes you were." Zayn backs himself up and I'm really not in the mood to argue.
"Whatever Zayn."
"Why 'whatever' Shannon?" He says knowing he's right. "Is it because I'm right?"
That's it. I stand up closing the gap between me and the retched boy.
"Zayn, I don't know what your problem is with me, but I couldn't give two flying fucks what you think, whether you think you're right or wrong, I don't care. Whether you're just doing this to piss me off, or because you actually don't like me. I don't care. I'm done with you, and the shit that comes out of your mouth." I stare at the boy, my body filling with rage.
I didn't notice that the rest of the boys had joined the circle as I was shouting at Zayn, but I looked over to Louis who was silently laughing and giving me a thumbs up. Thanks Louis, that really helps my ego! I take a last look around the room as Liam is giving Zayn one of those 'I'm going to have a word with you' glares and leave the bus slamming the door on my way out.
I began walking towards the arena when I felt a hand grab my wrist.
"What do you want?!" I snap before I realise who it is.
"I... I'm sorry, I just want to see if you're okay and Liam is screaming at Zayn so..." He stops.
"Oh Harry! I'm sorry I'm just not in the best of moods right now, I shouldn't have snapped" I say defeated.
"It's okay, are you okay?"
"I will be when you tell me what I've done wrong." I say before I think.
"What?" He says in shock. "You haven't done anything wrong. Why would yo-" I cut him off before he can finish.
"Well, ever since Liam and I told the group we're official you've done nothing but sulk and look like your pet hamster just died."
"I'm okay Shannon, you don't need to worry." He said slowly.
"NO!" I shout at him. "No! I do, I always worry Harry! You're my friend and I care about you." I lower my voice realising I shouted.
"Shannon! I'm fine!" He shouts back.
So it's going to be an argument then?
"NO YOU'RE NOT HARRY!" I begin screaming and notice the four heads plastered to the tour bus window. "WHY WON'T YOU JUST TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG I WANT TO HELP YOU!"
"YOU CANT HELP ME!" Harry screams back at me walking away.
"WHY NOT?! DON'T YOU WALK AWAY FROM ME!" I say grabbing his arm forcefully causing him to spin round.
"BECAUSE IT'S YOU THATS THE PROBLEM!"
"WHAT THE FUCK HARRY? WHAT HAVE I DONE! HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT? I'VE DONE NOTHING OTHER THAN BE A FRIEND TO YOU AND YOU'RE PUSH-"
"BECAUSE I LIKE YOU!" Harry screamed, I expected him to stop but he didn't. "Because I like you Shannon and I don't like the fact that you're with Liam! I know it's only been a short time but I can't help it okay!" He finished his sentence without shouting and walked away towards to arena and I could do nothing but stand there in shock staring at the ground.
SAMMY XOXO
Chapter 12 - Talking To Harry.
I have to say, waking up on the first day of performing should have been a good feeling. I mean I'm performing as One Directions support act, who wouldn't be happy when they wake up on that day? Me. It had to be me, but the only thing I could think about was the look on Harry's face when I told him about Liam and I being official. It looked like all the life got sucked out of him in a single second and I needed to find out why.
I rolled over and check the clock in my bunk. 10am. Not bad, I jumped out of my bunk spotting a sleeping Liam on my way down. I looked at him for a second pondering on whether to wake him or not. Instead I snapped a picture and went to make myself a cup of tea. I wait a minute looking at the picture I've just taken and quietly laugh to myself through disbelief that, that boy is my boyfriend. Throwing my phone on the sofa, I pour the kettle, not burning myself this time and my attention turns to a figure walking towards me.
"Hey." He says very softly, almost sad as he runs his fingers through the brown curls on his head.
"You okay?" I say without bothering to greet him.
"Yeah..." He says trailing off his blunt answer.
"You sure? You don't sound okay." I question him.
"Shannon I'm fine." Harry grunts as he plops down on the sofa and switches on the TV.
"Oi! Don't snap at her like that." Another voice joined the conversation.
"It's fine." I say turning myself to the other voice receiving a kiss in the process. "Morning Liam."
"Morning baby." He smiles sleepily as he walks to the sofa's beckoning me to join.
I oblige and sit down next to him with my tea, immediately knowing he would want to share, I
hand him the cup and he smiles in appreciation. My attention turns to Harry as I notice him starting at us with some sort of longing in his eyes.
"Harry?" I question but he doesn't respond.
"Shannon..." Liam asks "Why is there a picture of my sleeping on your phone?"
"Erm... You looked cute." There was no point in lying to him, he is my boyfriend. Wink wink.
"Haha okay." He laughs, dismissing the conversation.
I give him a kiss on the cheek before sipping my tea and scooting a little closer to him. He wraps his arms around my waist instantly making me more comfortable. I rest my head on his shoulder as numerous thoughts enter my mind. Is it weird that Liam and I got together so fast? I mean he makes me feel comfortable and I can be myself around him. We haven't said I love you yet which is fine because I don't love him yet. I really like him, the butterflies are there, the
smiles, the shyness, but it's not love yet, at least not to me.
I shake away my thoughts and begin looking at Harry. It's probably not a good idea, taking into account the past situations but I just can't help it. He look so sad and he's trying to hide it. The way he's looking at me through the corner of his eyes but not fully. The way he keeps running his hands across his head as if he has headache, but mostly the way he's doing everything he possibly can to keep his attention away from me and Liam.
"Shannon why are you staring at Harry?" His menacing voice shook me out of my stare.
Zayn. It had to be Zayn.
"I'm not starting at Harry." I snap, gaining the attention of the two boys in my close proximity.
"Yes you were." Zayn backs himself up and I'm really not in the mood to argue.
"Whatever Zayn."
"Why 'whatever' Shannon?" He says knowing he's right. "Is it because I'm right?"
That's it. I stand up closing the gap between me and the retched boy.
"Zayn, I don't know what your problem is with me, but I couldn't give two flying fucks what you think, whether you think you're right or wrong, I don't care. Whether you're just doing this to piss me off, or because you actually don't like me. I don't care. I'm done with you, and the shit that comes out of your mouth." I stare at the boy, my body filling with rage.
I didn't notice that the rest of the boys had joined the circle as I was shouting at Zayn, but I looked over to Louis who was silently laughing and giving me a thumbs up. Thanks Louis, that really helps my ego! I take a last look around the room as Liam is giving Zayn one of those 'I'm going to have a word with you' glares and leave the bus slamming the door on my way out.
I began walking towards the arena when I felt a hand grab my wrist.
"What do you want?!" I snap before I realise who it is.
"I... I'm sorry, I just want to see if you're okay and Liam is screaming at Zayn so..." He stops.
"Oh Harry! I'm sorry I'm just not in the best of moods right now, I shouldn't have snapped" I say defeated.
"It's okay, are you okay?"
"I will be when you tell me what I've done wrong." I say before I think.
"What?" He says in shock. "You haven't done anything wrong. Why would yo-" I cut him off before he can finish.
"Well, ever since Liam and I told the group we're official you've done nothing but sulk and look like your pet hamster just died."
"I'm okay Shannon, you don't need to worry." He said slowly.
"NO!" I shout at him. "No! I do, I always worry Harry! You're my friend and I care about you." I lower my voice realising I shouted.
"Shannon! I'm fine!" He shouts back.
So it's going to be an argument then?
"NO YOU'RE NOT HARRY!" I begin screaming and notice the four heads plastered to the tour bus window. "WHY WON'T YOU JUST TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG I WANT TO HELP YOU!"
"YOU CANT HELP ME!" Harry screams back at me walking away.
"WHY NOT?! DON'T YOU WALK AWAY FROM ME!" I say grabbing his arm forcefully causing him to spin round.
"BECAUSE IT'S YOU THATS THE PROBLEM!"
"WHAT THE FUCK HARRY? WHAT HAVE I DONE! HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT? I'VE DONE NOTHING OTHER THAN BE A FRIEND TO YOU AND YOU'RE PUSH-"
"BECAUSE I LIKE YOU!" Harry screamed, I expected him to stop but he didn't. "Because I like you Shannon and I don't like the fact that you're with Liam! I know it's only been a short time but I can't help it okay!" He finished his sentence without shouting and walked away towards to arena and I could do nothing but stand there in shock staring at the ground.
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