Overworked

Maddie’s P.O.V
The bright sunlight shone through my bedroom window, waking me up. I sat up in my bed and felt horrendous. I have a headache and am so tired. Who knows what time I fell asleep last night? I slowly climbed out of bed and went into my closet. I picked out a blue dress and showered and put it on. I unwrapped my tattoo after my shower and the red inflammation that was visible yesterday was gone. I did my hair and makeup – that was well and truly needed due to the dark circles I had under my eyes from getting near to no sleep last night - and gathered up my things. I picked up my car keys and went down to my car. I put all of my stuff in and got in myself. As I put the key into the ignition, all the memories in this car with Isabelle talking to Harry just a week ago came flooding back. I turned on the car and pulled out of the parking lot, trying to hide my breaking heart. The first thing I did when I got to my office was block Harry’s number and then delete it. I don’t want to be reminded of the mistakes that I made. Isabelle can contact him about the children. I picked everything up and went into the building. I told Jules that if Harry showed up to get him to leave again and took the daily paperwork from Isabelle, walking into my office. I sat down at my desk and let out the tears that I’d been holding back. I’m trying to be strong about all of this but all I can do is break inside. I’m not the strong person that I show on the outside. I’m a weak person, with a strong shell. Whoever said ‘words will never hurt me’ was wrong. Words hurt more than actions ever will, even if they come out of your own mouth. I saw Harry break, and now I’m breaking. Someone help me.
Harry’s P.O.V
Since the second Maddie ended it all, I’ve been breaking inside. Coming home to the children was so much worse. They all remind me of her; they’re all copies of her. They’re all perfection, the girls with their blonde hair and brown eyes, with only Brooklyn having green eyes, then Adam with his brown hair and green eyes, is a mini me. Adam’s personality is similar to Maddie’s, if not identical. They’re both amazing people. I realise when I tweeted about not wanting people to speak to me about Maddie that I broke her. That’s when she would have found her breaking point. For me, it came as soon as I got into my car in the parking lot of her office. It’s so hard to walk away from the person you love; knowing there probably isn’t a way back. It seems like such a long time ago when she broke my heart, yet it was yesterday. If this is what a day feels like, how am I going to live without her? I admit, we settled too young, we battled it out for 13 years and gave up. She looked so gorgeous yesterday, just in normal clothes, not dressed up as she usually is for work. It makes me think what’s changed. She always dresses up for work, she knew she was going to be there, so why didn’t she? I guess that’s the question that I won’t know the answer to, because she’s gone. We created 5 beautiful children and then tore their lives apart. No one knows heartbreak until they tell their children that Mummy and Daddy are splitting up. Seeing the looks on all of their faces was heart wrenching. It’s all my fault too. If I hadn’t have made such a big deal about her job at SYCO, we would have been fine right now, both of us going about our days as usual. Instead, I’m sat moping about what I’ve lost, I’m not sure that I can say the same for her. Maddie is probably working her ass off in her office, trying to keep her business standing. She was born for business. She was my one. The one. All I ever wanted. I took that for granted, didn’t treat her as I should have. Maybe if I’d treated her better, she’d be in my arms tonight. I’d be listening to her snore lightly, watching her chest rise and fall again just as fast. I’d be with the most gorgeous girl, but I threw it away. Why? Why was I so stupid as to lose her? I always lose her. No matter how hard I try, it was inevitable. She was too good to be true, too good to call mine. Maybe one day, there was a time where she suffered from depression and anorexia, there was a time where she harmed herself in a way of letting out her pain, but I’d like to think I got her through that. If nothing else but the children came out of this marriage, I like to think that I made someone’s life worth living. As my phone buzzed, it brought me out of my deep thinking.
From: Niall
What happened? You and Maddie were fine yesterday and now you’re both sulking. Did you actually split up?
To: Niall
Yeah. She ended it. Properly.
I replied and then scrolled down my contact list to Maddie’s number. I typed a brief text and a few seconds after pressing send got a reply.
From: My Sexy Baby
Error. Your message cannot be sent because this number has been blocked by the recipient.
What? She blocked me? What the hell! I threw my phone at the wall making it smash into pieces. Maddie blocked me. That hurts. The love of my life blocked me. I grabbed my jacket and keys and went up to get the twins and stormed round to Niall’s. I got there and he opened the door quite quickly.
“Where’s Belle?” I asked him.
“Working, come in.” He stepped out of the way. I don’t even know what I’m doing here. I just want to vent. How could she block me? “So, what happened?”
“She’s a bitch and she ruined my life!” I said, not really thinking. Of course I didn’t mean it. I love her with all of my heart; I’m just crushed right now. She blocked me. Madeline Aimee Styles blocked me.
“Get out. You don’t call Maddie that. She’s amazing.” Niall pointed at the door. Now my best friend is kicking me out, come onn... “Get out. Go vent to someone else but Maddie didn’t ruin your life, she loves you, she just can’t handle you anymore.” He opened the door. Maybe she can’t handle me anymore. Maybe that’s what happened. Maybe I was too much hard work. Maybe it was me. Maybe I drove the love of my life away. I got the twins and walked out to Louis’. Eleanor opened the door and I walked in.
“Woah, what’s wrong with you?” She questioned.
“Your best friend is a total bitch and I hate her.” I said.
“Danielle?”
“No! Fucking Maddie!” Eleanor looked at me with shock on her face.
“What happened?” She took the twins from me. I explained everything, about us hooking up to her blocking me. “I’m sure she had a reason. I’m gonna call her, hang on.” Eleanor stood up and left the room and Louis came in.
“El told me what happened, well I was listening, but how could you keep this from me? I could have helped you.” He said. I know he could have helped me but I’m not sure what good it would have done. Maddie still would have ended it and I still wouldn’t have a wife. Plus, he’d take Maddie’s side. He always would. She’s his little sister. He would choose her. Always, no doubt about it. Eleanor came back in.
“She had a reason. She’s going on tour the day before you guys get back for 4 months. She doesn’t want you to wait for her to finish it. It will be too hard for both of you to let go of each other so it’s better if you just do it now. She sounded as if she was crying too so she’s upset about this as well.” She’s going on tour? It makes sense now. She’s going away for four months and she doesn’t want us to be attached or she’ll struggle being away.
“Oh right... Well she’s the one that ended it.”
“And with good reason, so can you stop calling her a bitch now?”
“Yeah...” I sighed. Freya started crying and Louis picked her up and cradled her in his arms. He’s honestly a natural father. I’m not. I couldn’t count how many times I couldn’t put the children to sleep and Maddie comes in and does it straight away. She’s a natural mother. She had Faye as experience. She looked after Faye as if she was her own. That’s one of the reasons I was drawn to Maddie in the first place. She’s so family oriented. I knew from the first time that I saw her with Faye that she would be a great mum with one of her own one day, and she proved that when Brooklyn came along. El and Louis exchanged a look and smiled at each other and then looked back at me. “What’s going on? That was creepy.” I questioned.
“Nothing,” Eleanor dismissed it. That isn’t nothing. There is something they know that we don’t. Do they want another baby or something?
“Is Eleanor pregnant?” I gasped, my brain finally catching up with the situation. They looked at each other again and then back to me. She is, I know it.
“Yeah,” She admitted.
“I knew it!”
“Only when we looked at each other, but you can’t tell anyone because we want to surprise them like you and Maddie did with these two.” Louis told me. I agreed and we talked for a while.
When I got home, I turned on the TV.
“Depression finally takes its toll on superstar Maddie Styles? The singer, recently split from her husband, has been seen around her office building wiping her eyes, which are hidden by sunglasses. We all know she’s suffered from depression before and thought she looked a bit too happy for someone who just split up with her husband. Maybe she was covering up how she felt and it’s only just got her down? Who knows? All we know is that she’s off on her 4 month tour at the end of this month. Is she trying to keep herself busy or just trying to make a living?” I sighed and turned it off. This is the worst! I hate this! I want to scream. She’s gone. Gone forever. I can’t believe it.

Notes

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