A life of Payne
You always hear stories about teenagers that are socially awkward and sit around and do nothing because they have like no one to hang out with and spend all their days wearing sweatpants because they don't have anyone to impress, well that was never really me. Until now anyway.
I slung myself onto the couch about two hours ago and the only movement I have made since then is moving my arms ever so slightly as I played with the strings attached to my old baggy hoodie. What a thrilling life I lead.
Fefe is at the groomers while Liam and Louis are only a few feet away from me at the kitchen table but have been working on songs all morning.
Liam made me cancel my hotel room and share one with him and Louis but they are so boring right now!
"Katie!!! Get your hood off your head before you suffocate yourself." Liam yelled to me as I pulled the strings tighter in the hood so it was covering my face.
"Relax Liam. I'm not that depressed! God I'm just bored!"
He rolled his eyes and started to say something but his phone went off which made him send me a very serious glare and pointed to my hoodie. I huffed and pulled it off my head, he checked his phone and stood up to put on his coat.
"I'm going to pick up Fefe. Stay here with Louis." He gave Louis a weird look that I couldn't quite understand.
"NO! I want to come! I'm bored out of my brain here." I reached out for my shoes but he quickly pulled them away from me.
"Katie you're not going anywhere. Louis and I have something to tell you when I get back and then we are all going out so go and get changed and be ready when I get back." He walked out of the hotel room without another word, I huffed at sat down on the couch again.
Out of the corner of my eye I could see Louis smiling down at whatever he was working on, he looked pretty darn pleased with whatever he had just finished.
He finally looked up at me and tried my best to act like I didn't notice his eyes on me. This was the first time Louis and I had been alone in a really long time, so to stay it was awkward was an understatement.
"Shouldn't you be getting ready?" Louis' stare on me had become more obvious so I turned to look at him just to see a very amused look on his face. Like he was enjoying my boredom.
"Shouldn't you shut up and leave me alone?" I snapped at him at little more hasher than I had anticipated.
He looked wounded for a second before he shook it off and walked towards me. I really regretted snapping at him because for a second I actually thought he would hurt me but he didn't, instead he sat down next to me and pulled me onto his lap. I stiffened at what was going on but he sighed and wrapped his arms around me. This felt so weird like he was just forgetting the whole sourness I had towards him.
"Katie I know that you got expelled from university and I also know that you haven't been talking to Calum since he started his tour but you need to stop being so negative okay? Calum could just be busy and you did break your phone so it makes sense that you two would have trouble finding time for each other." I didn't really know what to say back. I hadn't told anyone that I wasn't talking to Calum right now, technically speaking Calum and I aren't an official couple so really he could do whatever he wants while he is on tour but it hurts like fucking hell to think that way.
I never told Liam this because I was scared that he would do something stupid, I have no idea how Louis found out but him bringing it up just made me finally realise how I was feeling towards Calum right now. Plain hurt.
"Katie you're not the only one going through something like this right now." At first I thought he might be talking about Liam and Sophia but when I saw the look of hurt flash through his eyes just like it had mine a few seconds ago, I knew he was talking about himself.
I shifted myself a bit on his lap so I could look at him.
"Louis are you okay?" He didn't answer me straight away so I moved off of his lap and grabbed one of his hands. A small smile appeared on his lips but faded just as fast.
"Just when things were starting to get back to normal with Eleanor, I found her in bed with someone else. Like does she not understand what could happen if this got leaked? And now I'm sitting here rambling to a kid who cant even trust someone who is bluntly in love with her! Your eighteen you wouldn't get what is going on." I'm not sure why but his words stung, like hell actually.
I pulled my hand away from him harshly, and for a second all the memories of how I felt towards Louis on my birthday returned but when I looked back at him I remembered what he literally just said to me. He called me a kid. He said I wouldn't understand.
I turned to walk away when he grabbed my still slightly bruised wrist making me flinch away from him. His face instantly softened when his eyes had caught sight of my wrist. I wasn't falling for this bullshit so I stepped away from him when he tried to reach out for me.
"I'm sorry Katie, I didn't mean it like that. It's just you gave up on me and then Niall and now you're giving up on Calum too. You're so young and naïve that you don't understand the affect you have on people." He just kept throwing hurtful words at me and I felt like I might be sick.
But one thing he said was wrong.
"I'm not giving up on Calum. I'm giving him space so just stay out of my fucking life from now on and I'll stay out of yours."
By the time an hour had past, Liam still wasn't home and Louis had apologized to me about twenty times but I wasn't ready to talk to him yet.
"Katie please! I'm sorry okay. Please just do me a favour and remember how happy we were on my birthday? We were happy and yet we weren't together so why can't we be friends like that again?" To stop him from giving me another blast from the past, I cut him off.
"Because you keep hurting me! Even when it's just as friends!"
Just as Louis opened his mouth to say something, a bunch of screams were heard from outside.
That's probably why Liam is taking so long.
I took a deep breathe before turning my attention back to Louis.
"I want to be able to talk to you again like when we first meet but you treat me like crap. I thought when we established that we couldn't be together because of your choice might I had that I could count on you as like another brother but you don't want to even be nice to me!" By the time I had finished talking, I was pushing at his chest but this didn't faze him at all.
"Have you ever considered that the reason I try and make sure you don't see me as a brother is because I will always want more?"
I scoffed at his words.
"Bullshit Louis you made your choice! And you went with Eleanor so stop taking your anger out on me!"
I knew I hit a nerve because his eyes began to water.
"I'm sorry Katie."
I felt bad all of the sudden. I still wanted him as a brotherly figure and I will make sure he gets that.
"I'm sorry Louis."
After everything with Louis was sorted out to the point where we agreed to try and be friends (again), I finished changing into actually descent clothes.
Once done I flashed a small smile to myself in the mirror and walked back over to the couch. God I'm so bored I should have bought a new phone earlier but I'm to stubborn and thought I could wait until Liam had time to help me choose one. I was wrong I should have brought one so I could at least play flappy bird or something.
"Hey Katie?" Louis' voice made me jump and turn to face him as he was now sitting at the kitchen table again.
"What?" I yawned as I talked because I didn't get much sleep last night listening to Louis and Liam talk about all the great songs they have written over the past few days.
"What's your middle name?" I had to laugh at his question.
"You honestly don't know my middle name?" He looked down and I swear he blushed slightly which made me laugh again.
He didn't answer me so I just told him to save him the embarrassment.
"My middle name is Rae. Katie Rae Payne." He looked at me and raised his eyebrows.
"Cute. Makes you sound even more innocent and well, cute." I would have said a smart ass remark back to him but a deep chuckle was heard throughout the hotel room. We both turned our attention to the door to see Liam shaking his head while carefully placing my puppy on the floor.
"Can't believe you didn't know her middle name. I always did." He sent me a big grin so I ran up and hugged him, even his smile was enough to make me happy.
"Why did you want to know?" I asked Louis as he wrote something down then held up a piece of paper that at the top now said 'Katie Rae Payne' and right under my name it said 'tug of war' that's when I realised that Liam and Louis had spent time writing me a song.
"It's for your audition song. d possibly your first single!" Liam said obviously seeing my confused state.
"Excuse me? My what?"
"Oh c'mon Katie. You're a good singer and what do you have to loose at this point?" Liam said while grabbing the sheet of music and handing it to me.
"How about my pride?" He laughed at my words before turning serious again.
"Don't be silly. Your audition is tomorrow with the Modest! here in LA."
"Then lets start practicing!" I grabbed Liam's wrist and dragged him further into the hotel room.
This is just crazy but I'm going to at least try.
So I have decided that all songs used for Katie Payne in this story will be a mix of Carly Rae Jepsen and Demi Lovato!
Oh and Katie's middle name being Rae has nothing to do with Carly Rae Jepsen because my full name is Kassandra April Rae Dobbs :P
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