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Breakable

Chapter 21

July 11th

Bella POV

I've felt really sick since Harry's. At first I thought it was because I was upset, and it was just getting to me. But I must have a stomach bug, because I've thrown up a few times. I feel miserable. I've been cutting again. Late at night, terrible thoughts come into my head. Killing myself, just like how I planned before. But this time, I was really gonna do it.
I haven't spoken to Harry since we had sex. He's called me, texted me, left me voicemails, but I've ignored them all. Haven't even looked at them. I haven't told anyone about what happened. Cat told me that Brooke and Cameron officially split up. I've been home for about 6 days now.
I sit in bed, watching Love and Other Drugs.
My phone starts to ring. It's Harry. I stare at my ringing phone.
The photo that pops up when he calls me is from last year. It's of Harry hugging me. He wears his black Ray bans. I'm wearing a white shirt, and high-waisted shorts. It doesn't look like me at all.
If I really might end my life, I should talk to him one last time. I pick up the phone.
"Bella?" Harry says.
"Yes," I answer.
"Oh my--" he starts, "Holy shit! Bella! Where the hell have you been?! Cat said you were sick, and I was worried."
"Yeah," I say flatly, "I think I have the stomach bug."
"Have you taken a test?" he asks me.
"What are you talking about?" I'm confused.
"A pregnancy test, Bella!" he says, "The condom broke!"
"Holy shit," I say, realizing what might have happened, "I didn't realize that."
"Then why were you so mad about the condom breaking?" he asks me.
"I don't know," I say, "I was just upset that we let, you know, that happen. I'm fifteen!"
"I'm going to buy pregnancy testers right now," he tells me.
"Kay," I hang up.
Holy shit. This can't be happening. What day is it? I look at my phone. July 11th. I almost always get my period on the tenth, so it might just be a little late...
I sit in my bed, these thoughts eating me alive. Finally, I hear someone walking down the hall. I get out of bed. I'm wearing Harry's grey t-shirt, and some pajama shorts. Harry walks in the door, and runs to me. He wraps his arms around me, and scoops me up. He spins me around.
"I was so worried about you," he tells me.
He puts me down.
"Could I have the test?" I ask him. He opens a plastic bag, and takes out a little box.
"Wait here," I say, walking into the bathroom. I open the box. I take the tester out. One line; not pregnant. Two lines; pregnant. I sit on the toilet, and hold the stick under when I pee. I close my eyes, and wait a minute. I take it out, and look at it.
Two lines.
Oh my god. I put it down. I walk out, and see Harry standing there, I hug him tightly. I don't know what to say. He stands there, hugging me.
"Harry," I say, looking at him, "I'm pregnant."
"I'm sorry," I sob, "I'm so so sorry."
He shakes his head.

He hugs me.
"Bella," he says, "Don't be sorry. We're gonna get through this."
I pull out of his hug.
"I'm fifteen, Harry," I say, looking down.
He takes my chin, and tilts it up to him, "I'm gonna be a father," he smiles.
"I have to keep it healthy," I say, "Take care of it."
"You will," Harry tells me, "You have to take care of yourself, too."
I hug him. "I love you, so much."
"I love you more," he says.

I know I won't cut anymore. Never again. That can't be helpful to the baby. And I need to do whatever I can to keep it healthy.

We walk over to my bed, and he lies down. I slip into his arms, and lie there with him. He softly rubs my stomach.
"Who do we tell?" I whisper.
"No one yet," Harry says, "Not yet."
I pause, "Shit, Harry. Our parents."
"We're going to get through this," he comforts me.
"We have to go to the doctor..." I say.
"I think if we bring an adult, we can-- Wait no," Harry says, "If we were eighteen we could go without telling our parents, but--"
"But I'm fifteen," I say.
"Bella," Harry looks at me, "Do you want to get an abortion?"
I jump out of bed, and stand there looking at him, shocked.
"How could you say that?!" I yell.
"Shh," Harry quiets me, even though no one is home.
"I just want to do whatever you want," he tells me.
"You want me to get an abortion, don't you!" I yell, starting to cry.

Harry POV

She sits on the ground now, crying.
"Bella," I say, getting up and sitting next to her. I take her in my arms, and she pulls away, and looks at me angrily. She stands up.
"You," she says, "Leave. Leave now. You've got the chance."
"Bella, I--" I start.
"You don't even want this baby!" she yells pointing to her stomach.
"Bella," I stand, and reach for her hand.
She snatches it away.
"I love you, Bella," I tell her, "I love this baby. I want to be here with you, the whole way."
She looks away. She walks over to the window, and looks out. Her hand gently touches her stomach, and then puts her hand by her side. She turns, and sees me watching her.
"Don't look at me," she says quietly.
I get up, and walk towards her. I stand next to her. She refuses to look at me, keeping her gaze out the window. I look at her.
"Bella," I tell her, "I want this baby. We're going to go through all this together."
"I'm such a slut," she whispers, a tear streaming down her face.
"Don't say that. It's not true."
I hug her, "I love you, Bella."
"I'm sorry. I know I keep flipping out," she says, "I just-- I'm so s-scared."
"Don't be sorry," I say, "You never have to apologize to me."
She buries her face in my chest. She pulls away and looks at me. I take her hand, walking over to her closet. I walk in, and open a drawer, with bathing suits in it. I take one out.
"Put this on," I say, "We're going to the beach."
She looks down.
"Bella," I say, tucking her hair behind her ear, "You okay?"
She smiles at me, "Yes."
She takes the bathing suit, and goes into the bathroom. I sit on the floor of her bedroom, on my phone. She walks in.
"I see it," she says worriedly, looking at her stomach, "You see it too, right?"
"What?" I ask her.
She rubs her stomach, looking at me, "The bump."
"Not a bit," I say, smiling. I get up, and take her hand. We go back into the closet, and she pulls one of my t-shirts over her head. It's my Beatles t-shirt. I smile, and she takes my hand. We walk down the stairs, and put our shoes on. We walk out the door, and get on our bikes. We bike towards the beach, over the bridge, down the road. We pull into the parking lot, and park our bikes. We walk up the steps, and past the garden. As we pass the ping-pong room, I hear someone yelling Bella's name. We turn, and see Natalie, Lucy and Brooke running toward us. They all hug Bella. Cat comes up behind them.
"Feeling better?" Cat says, smiling.
"Much," Bella smiles, looking up at me. I bring my lips to hers in a lingering kiss.
"Aww," Brooke says. I pull away, cheeks red. We all walk into the ping-pong room, where Cameron, Brandon and Clayton greet Bella. We all sit around, playing ping-pong, and talking for a while.

Bella POV

I'm sitting on Harry's lap in the ping-pong room. We've been here for about an hour, talking about pointless shit. Brooke is sitting next to me, quietly telling me that her and Cameron broke up. I listen, even though I already heard. Suddenly, I feel a shot of pain in my stomach. I clutch my stomach, in pain. Harry sees, and takes my hand, putting it down.
"You okay?" Harry whispers to me.
I stand, "I--"
Everyone stares at me. I don't know what to do.
I run, as fast as I possibly can. I run straight to the girls' locker room. I hear the girls shouting my name, running after me. I run into the locker room. I go around the corner, and into the bathroom. I open a stall door, and put my head over the toilet. I don't bother closing the door behind me. I hear the girls run into the bathroom, as I'm throwing up my guts.
I hear the stall door open behind me.
"Bella," it's Cat. She takes my hair, and holds it back for me.
When I'm finished, I pull my head up from the toilet. I turn around. The stall door is closed, only Cat is there, holding my hair back. She ties it in a ponytail as I flush the toilet. She opens the stall door, and when I walk out, Brooke, Natalie and Lucy are standing there.
"Oh my god," Lucy says, "Are you okay?"
Natalie looks at me, shocked, not saying anything. Brooke looks at me with a blank stare.
"I-- I'm fine," I say. I walk towards the exit of the locker room. They follow behind me. Cat comes next to me, and links her arm in mine. We walk out of the locker room, and Harry, Cameron, Brandon and Clayton are standing there. Harry hugs me.
"Hello?" Brooke says, confused, "What's going on? Are you okay?"
Harry looks at me, then Brooke, "She's sick. I should take her home."
Cat looks at me, concerned.
"Harry," Cat says, "I think I'll take her ho--"
"No," I interrupt, "Harry can take me."
I try to smile at Cat, "Stay at the beach and have fun."
Harry takes my hand, and we walk down the stairs, and to our bikes. We get on, and start to bike towards Harry's house. We cross the highway, then down the street, pull into Harry's driveway. We park our bikes in front of his house. We walk in, and go to the TV room. I help Harry pull out the couch, and we lie down in the sheets.
"Let's watch," I say, "Let's watch--"
"Finding Nemo!" Harry shouts.
I laugh, "We just watched that!"
"MONSTERS INC!" he says, spotting it on the screen, "YES!"
I laugh, and look at him smiling, "Okay."
He starts the movie, and pulls me close. In the middle of the movie, Harry looks at me.
"Sleepover tonight?" he asks.
"If my parents let me," I say, "I'll say Brooke's house tonight."
"They'll let you. I love you," he kisses my forehead. We continue watching the movie.
He wraps his arm around my waist, and puts it on my growing belly. He reaches his fingers out to mine.


Notes

sry it took a little while! CAn you believe she's pregnant omg!
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Comments

@Xxxweljaxxx
tysm<3

bellabee09 bellabee09
3/13/14

It's good!

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3/12/14

OMG ALL OF CH 10 DELETED WTF IM CRYING
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2/24/14

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2/22/14

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2/22/14