DARKER DESIRES
CHAPTER 13: Hearts And Flowers
Jessica’s P.O.V
Harry pulled up against the curb slowly, he turned off the engine and we just sat there not saying anything to each other, the car was only filled with the sound of our whispered breathing.
I grabbed my jacket and slid it on one arm at a time then grabbed my purse. Before he can get out the car, I opened my side door and eased myself out; just when I felt my feet about to touch the pavement Harry grabbed my wrist. I stopped moving but I sure in hell didn’t look at him. “Don’t be mad…..it’s my fault, and was never yours in the first place” He stopped, expecting me to answer but, what was there to say? Stay? I can handle your killer sex?
“You’re fucked up, you know that?” I took one last look at those eyes; he took a deep swallow, his pupils widened and his lips grew into a tight line. I yanked my wrist out his hand and slammed his car door as hard as I could. I started my way down the path to my house, I fondled in my purse for the keys but I couldn’t find them. I kept digging and digging, Harry was still watching of course, with his over protective ass.
I scrambled my fingers into a side pocket, still nothing. I looked up at the windows obviously mom wasn’t home since the lights were off and her car was gone. I stood there not knowing what do, I can’t go back to Harry after saying he was fucked up and I don’t want to stand here all night waiting for mom. I took a deep breathe then circled around and started down the sidewalk. Fine, I’ll go to Ana’s
I heard Harry’s engine behind me come to life. I increased my speed, hugging my arms tighter around me. Then I felt a drop of rain fall from the sky and drip on to my face, I quickly glanced up at the clouds there was a big gray cloud scurrying itself over towards our town. I walked a little bit faster than I normally was. Then the second rain drop came, than the third, then showers of rain started flowing down from the sky. Seriously? This can’t….be happening.
I gave up. I stopped walking fast and just took one step at a time slowly. My hair was no longer in curls; it was just boring straight the long strips of hair stuck to my cheek and neck. Harry’s car came easing up beside me “Why…are you still…here?” A raindrop dripped down my lip; I blew it off my face. “I wanted to make sure that you were okay?” His tone was convincing and adorable but I really don’t want to get inside his car. “You told me to leave you alone…..so that implies Visa versa” Good one Jess! “You look hot when you’re wet” I puckered out my lip and snapped a snarky look at him. “Don’t” I held my head high, trying not for him to get the impression that I was giving into his sexual comments.
“So where are you going?” “None of your damn business” I stopped walking and stood where I was, so did his car. “Can you just leave?!” I had to scream over the loud showers of rain
cascading down and popping on the concrete. “Please just leave what do you want from me? I’m fine, I’m safe okay? That’s all you wanted to know if I was okay, and no I’m not okay mentally but physically I’m all right! So just take you and your alluring eyes and bright smile somewhere else, probably to a girl that can fuck you hard!” I stormed down the sidewalk again.
But of course a couple of minutes later a black range rover comes easing up beside me again. “You can yell at me all you want love! But can you just get your stubborn ass in the fucking car?!” His snippy tone was scary and intimidating. “No asshole! Leave me alone…please?!”
Suddenly the range rover came to a stop, the engine died out and all I could hear was the beating of the rain. I kept walking; I didn’t care if he followed me I’m not getting in his car. Harry came walking up behind me trying to keep up with my pace. “So help me god…Jess, please I’m begging you for the love of Jesus get your ass inside….the fucking…..car”
“Or what?” I stopped instantly, and turned around. He backed up a little bit, trying not to run into me. “What? Are you going to….to….hit me again Harry huh?” He came towards me slowly.
“Jess…why would you say that, your manipulating me…I don’t like it!” I watched as his fingers slowly balled into a fist, once he caught me staring he slowly released his hand. “Yeah Harry…I wonder what was that? Do you hit the ones you love?” He clenched his jaw “Who said I loved you?” I can’t believe he said that! I quickly turned around. “You know what….” Before I could get a few steps away Harry locks his arms around my hips, quickly turned me around and throws me over his shoulder. “Let me go!”
I kept hitting his back hoping he would release me. “Stop, Help! Help!” He opened the car door and threw me in, I tried to fight against him to get out but his strong biceps were blocking the car door. He slammed the door, than came to the other side before I could have a chance to
escape; he slid into his seat and locked both doors. “Now listen here love, you’re going to my house…..and you can sleep there” I crossed my arms “Who said I want to go to your house?!” He gave me a *Are you kidding me* Look. “And no! You’re not sleeping on the fucking floor…you’re going to sleep with me! And you better enjoy it, because this is the last time”
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Harry’s P.O.V
I hope that she knows that she’s nowhere sleeping on the floor, I always thought that anytime she would come over to my house would be to have sex…but no, not this time! She gave me a scornful look “The last time? Enjoy? Well I will enjoy sleeping on the floor, I don’t want to be anywhere near your body”
“Uggghh, yes you will you’re going to go to sleep with me, whether you like it or not!” I started up the car, I don’t know why I’m making a fight about this either I like fighting with her or I don’t want to go to sleep alone tonight.
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We were down the street from the house and my anxiety was already starting to creep up on me. I’m so stupid! Why would I bring her here? The guys are just going to judge me and Louis probably going to suck the life out of here. Just as I was about to slow down, I sped up again driving pass the house.
“What the…..was that your place back there?”
“Yes” I said proudly. “Well where the hell are we going?” I slowly watched as her coat eased up causing the dress to reveal her smooth mid-thigh. Oh god! She nonchalantly grabbed the hem and pulled it back down over her thigh. I know I said I didn’t want to see her anymore and that she should stay away, but I badly want to touch her at least one more time before we separate. I slowly reached over and caressed her leg “I’m taking you somewhere else to sleep” She quickly smacked my hand away. “Don’t think there will be sex involved buddy because I’m not that type of girl and obviously you don’t want to have sex with me”
Oh if she only knew! “I do want to have sex with you, but I can’t because I want to fuck you. Every time I see you, I just want to rip off your clothes and fuck you…hard” She swallowed deeply in the back of her throat. Okay maybe I was too straight forward. “So….you made it clear you can never, ever, ever have sex?”
I sighed. “I know that you want me to have normal sex, take your clothes off slowly, kiss you passionately, grope your body and caress your desires but I can’t. Now fucking is what I’m good at, I rip your clothes off, grab your hair, bite your lip, smack your ass hard and even leave you sex marks….and I just don’t want to do that to you”
“But why can’t you turn this weird sex madness off?” Her eyes were searching for hope, but there’s no hope when you’re dark. “Story short. Met a girl, fell in love practically almost married her, she took her anger out on me in sex, then it condoned to me. She found out something about me, we broke up that’s it.”
“You….were in love, and did you give her hearts and flowers?” She mocked me with a devious smile. “Yes, but that was one time and will never happen again”
“You think it won’t happen again because you’ve been hurt before when you were a hearts and flowers type of guy….but you can never say never, and hopefully the next victim…girl you get, you’ll be a hearts and flowers guy for her.”
My knuckles tightened around the wheel. Getting caught up in our deep conversation I forgot that we weren’t together. Knowing something that I couldn’t have made me want it even more.
Harry pulled up against the curb slowly, he turned off the engine and we just sat there not saying anything to each other, the car was only filled with the sound of our whispered breathing.
I grabbed my jacket and slid it on one arm at a time then grabbed my purse. Before he can get out the car, I opened my side door and eased myself out; just when I felt my feet about to touch the pavement Harry grabbed my wrist. I stopped moving but I sure in hell didn’t look at him. “Don’t be mad…..it’s my fault, and was never yours in the first place” He stopped, expecting me to answer but, what was there to say? Stay? I can handle your killer sex?
“You’re fucked up, you know that?” I took one last look at those eyes; he took a deep swallow, his pupils widened and his lips grew into a tight line. I yanked my wrist out his hand and slammed his car door as hard as I could. I started my way down the path to my house, I fondled in my purse for the keys but I couldn’t find them. I kept digging and digging, Harry was still watching of course, with his over protective ass.
I scrambled my fingers into a side pocket, still nothing. I looked up at the windows obviously mom wasn’t home since the lights were off and her car was gone. I stood there not knowing what do, I can’t go back to Harry after saying he was fucked up and I don’t want to stand here all night waiting for mom. I took a deep breathe then circled around and started down the sidewalk. Fine, I’ll go to Ana’s
I heard Harry’s engine behind me come to life. I increased my speed, hugging my arms tighter around me. Then I felt a drop of rain fall from the sky and drip on to my face, I quickly glanced up at the clouds there was a big gray cloud scurrying itself over towards our town. I walked a little bit faster than I normally was. Then the second rain drop came, than the third, then showers of rain started flowing down from the sky. Seriously? This can’t….be happening.
I gave up. I stopped walking fast and just took one step at a time slowly. My hair was no longer in curls; it was just boring straight the long strips of hair stuck to my cheek and neck. Harry’s car came easing up beside me “Why…are you still…here?” A raindrop dripped down my lip; I blew it off my face. “I wanted to make sure that you were okay?” His tone was convincing and adorable but I really don’t want to get inside his car. “You told me to leave you alone…..so that implies Visa versa” Good one Jess! “You look hot when you’re wet” I puckered out my lip and snapped a snarky look at him. “Don’t” I held my head high, trying not for him to get the impression that I was giving into his sexual comments.
“So where are you going?” “None of your damn business” I stopped walking and stood where I was, so did his car. “Can you just leave?!” I had to scream over the loud showers of rain
cascading down and popping on the concrete. “Please just leave what do you want from me? I’m fine, I’m safe okay? That’s all you wanted to know if I was okay, and no I’m not okay mentally but physically I’m all right! So just take you and your alluring eyes and bright smile somewhere else, probably to a girl that can fuck you hard!” I stormed down the sidewalk again.
But of course a couple of minutes later a black range rover comes easing up beside me again. “You can yell at me all you want love! But can you just get your stubborn ass in the fucking car?!” His snippy tone was scary and intimidating. “No asshole! Leave me alone…please?!”
Suddenly the range rover came to a stop, the engine died out and all I could hear was the beating of the rain. I kept walking; I didn’t care if he followed me I’m not getting in his car. Harry came walking up behind me trying to keep up with my pace. “So help me god…Jess, please I’m begging you for the love of Jesus get your ass inside….the fucking…..car”
“Or what?” I stopped instantly, and turned around. He backed up a little bit, trying not to run into me. “What? Are you going to….to….hit me again Harry huh?” He came towards me slowly.
“Jess…why would you say that, your manipulating me…I don’t like it!” I watched as his fingers slowly balled into a fist, once he caught me staring he slowly released his hand. “Yeah Harry…I wonder what was that? Do you hit the ones you love?” He clenched his jaw “Who said I loved you?” I can’t believe he said that! I quickly turned around. “You know what….” Before I could get a few steps away Harry locks his arms around my hips, quickly turned me around and throws me over his shoulder. “Let me go!”
I kept hitting his back hoping he would release me. “Stop, Help! Help!” He opened the car door and threw me in, I tried to fight against him to get out but his strong biceps were blocking the car door. He slammed the door, than came to the other side before I could have a chance to
escape; he slid into his seat and locked both doors. “Now listen here love, you’re going to my house…..and you can sleep there” I crossed my arms “Who said I want to go to your house?!” He gave me a *Are you kidding me* Look. “And no! You’re not sleeping on the fucking floor…you’re going to sleep with me! And you better enjoy it, because this is the last time”
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Harry’s P.O.V
I hope that she knows that she’s nowhere sleeping on the floor, I always thought that anytime she would come over to my house would be to have sex…but no, not this time! She gave me a scornful look “The last time? Enjoy? Well I will enjoy sleeping on the floor, I don’t want to be anywhere near your body”
“Uggghh, yes you will you’re going to go to sleep with me, whether you like it or not!” I started up the car, I don’t know why I’m making a fight about this either I like fighting with her or I don’t want to go to sleep alone tonight.
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We were down the street from the house and my anxiety was already starting to creep up on me. I’m so stupid! Why would I bring her here? The guys are just going to judge me and Louis probably going to suck the life out of here. Just as I was about to slow down, I sped up again driving pass the house.
“What the…..was that your place back there?”
“Yes” I said proudly. “Well where the hell are we going?” I slowly watched as her coat eased up causing the dress to reveal her smooth mid-thigh. Oh god! She nonchalantly grabbed the hem and pulled it back down over her thigh. I know I said I didn’t want to see her anymore and that she should stay away, but I badly want to touch her at least one more time before we separate. I slowly reached over and caressed her leg “I’m taking you somewhere else to sleep” She quickly smacked my hand away. “Don’t think there will be sex involved buddy because I’m not that type of girl and obviously you don’t want to have sex with me”
Oh if she only knew! “I do want to have sex with you, but I can’t because I want to fuck you. Every time I see you, I just want to rip off your clothes and fuck you…hard” She swallowed deeply in the back of her throat. Okay maybe I was too straight forward. “So….you made it clear you can never, ever, ever have sex?”
I sighed. “I know that you want me to have normal sex, take your clothes off slowly, kiss you passionately, grope your body and caress your desires but I can’t. Now fucking is what I’m good at, I rip your clothes off, grab your hair, bite your lip, smack your ass hard and even leave you sex marks….and I just don’t want to do that to you”
“But why can’t you turn this weird sex madness off?” Her eyes were searching for hope, but there’s no hope when you’re dark. “Story short. Met a girl, fell in love practically almost married her, she took her anger out on me in sex, then it condoned to me. She found out something about me, we broke up that’s it.”
“You….were in love, and did you give her hearts and flowers?” She mocked me with a devious smile. “Yes, but that was one time and will never happen again”
“You think it won’t happen again because you’ve been hurt before when you were a hearts and flowers type of guy….but you can never say never, and hopefully the next victim…girl you get, you’ll be a hearts and flowers guy for her.”
My knuckles tightened around the wheel. Getting caught up in our deep conversation I forgot that we weren’t together. Knowing something that I couldn’t have made me want it even more.
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