Clarity

I won't lie I felt pretty damn cool when I pulled into work that day in my new car.
Of course I wouldn't dare tell Carson, who was bombarding me with questions about where I had aquired such a wonderful piece of machinery. I had simply told him it was a gift from a friend. Of course though I did cringe a bit at the word friend for I was reffering to Harry.
Yet it would've sounded weird if I had said an aquaintence, and I didn't want to sound like I was in need of charity.
I could've lied and said my parents gave it to me but I know that the truth would resurface so I stuck with my half lie.
Practice had gone smoothly that day, even though we had been a team mate short, for our girl was still on the side lines because of that broken ankle.
So Scruff got alot of extra attention from the bored kid.
Once practice had finished me and Carson went out for lunch after dropping off Scruff at home then saw a new horror flick, The Conjuring before parting ways to get ready for our afternoon classes.
For whatever the strange reason my intern as a football coach only covered my English, Music, and Theater classes. I only had to work on Tuesday's, Friday's, and Saturday's making it a pretty easy job especially considering I was getting paid a minimum wage, which covered my apartment just barely.
I hated relying on my parents for things, it was so unfair to my four little sisters. I wonder if Harry has any siblings? I doubt it. He seemed like the type of guy to hate children, and grow up as an only child. Someone help the poor girl who has to marry him, or guy. Though then again he didn't seem to bad, now that I got to see a little bit of his friendlier side.
"Stop it!" I then snapped at myself as I slammed my cup down on the counter and Scruff jumped in surprise as I exhaled then stroked his head.
Since the stream of events last night Harry had been frequently in my wandering thoughts, and it was bothering me. I shouldn't be thinking about him this much, it wasn't natural.
Heck since the night we both had drunken sex in the bathroom of a bar he'd been weasling his way into my thoughts.
It was so confusing.
I do admit though a little piece of me was starting to grow fond of him, and interested in what he was like behind closed doors.
Maybe the big bad teacher thing was an act?
Then again his short temper didn't seem like an at. More like a unavoidable flaw.
"Do you think I'm crazy?" I ask my companion as he barks and licks my hand then I sit on the kitchen floor and he sits inbetween my legs.
"Yeah I thought so." I respond taking his face inbetween my hands and kissing his nose before he started licking my face and I laughed as I pushed him away and he took as a playful gesture so he started nipping at my hand.
"Stop it goof!" I tease my animal as I grab the edge of the counter and pull myself up which results in him jumping up on me with a whine. "Aww baby!" I coo as I swat him away gently and he licks my hand.
My phone alarm then with in that moment starts to blar the annoying alarms and screeches to signal it was time to get off my arse and get to history, which I had mixed emotions about.
A little part of me wanted to see again actually then again the rest of me still wanted nothing to do with him.
Stupid car, screwing up my emotions.
It was weird that he gave me the car, it must've been a way to butter me up or kiss up.
Then the more I thought about it he did say it was just a charitable favor. It was just so confusing.
"Hey give me that!" I whine as Scruff grabs my shoe while I was pulling on the other and runs for it. "Scruff!" I called after him as I chased him around the apartment and by the time I got my hands back on the shoe it was covered in slobber.
"Gross boy, really gross." I say lightly tapping his snout as I went in my room to replace my slobbered tom and clean one with a pair of nike's.
Once I had my shoes on I grabbed my keys off of the end table in the front hall, threw Scruff a chew toy to keep him accupied, then rushed out and took the stairs down to the lobby which led me out to my freaking awesome car.
"Hello baby." I say running my hand over the hood as I unlock the door and turned off the security system, that was a little bonus minus the fact it scared me half to death when I leaned on the hood a few hours ago, then got into the drivers seat and started the car.
The drive to the school seemed quicker today because of my car not blitzing out on me every five minutes. When I got into the parking lot I did my usual rutien of parking in my normal place then kicking me door open as I grabbed out my bag.
"Whoa Tomlinson did you steal that?"
Shailene then calls out as she appears from two cars down, probably getting back from her lunch break.
"No! It was a gift." I say sticking out my tongue as she laughed, "It looks awesome!" She says walking over to me and looking over the car briefly to check it out.
"This is so cool!" She exclaims as she ran her hand over the hood then moved over to my side so we could walk in together.
"I second that, I flipped out when my friend gave it to me." I tell her nearly choking on the word friend.
Please God if your there don't let that get back to Mr. Styles.
"Well you seem to have a generous friend." She comments as I hold open the door for her and she thanks me with a smile. "You could say that." I mutter as I shove my hands into the pockets of my jeans as we both walk down the noisy halls in comfortable silence.
That was the thing about me and Shailene, there was rarely an awkard moment. Even that one time she walked in on me completely nude wasn't awkward.
We laughed about it for days on end.
I had met Shailene a little bit before Carson, we had met sort of in a boring cliche way.
One day I was at the playground with my mum and sisters and when Lottie had gotten stuck in a tree good little Shailene ran to the rescue. At the time I had been merely eight so of course I naturally panicked but Shailene (who was also taller then me at that time) didn't.
After the rescue had been complete me and her swung on the swings for a good hour while talking then later found out she was in the class next to mine.
For the whole eleven years we've been friends I have come to the conclusion that she was the female friend made for me. I always had this little theroy that the big man makes three special someone's for everyone.
Their soul mate, best girl friend, and best guy friend.
I had the last two now I just needed to work on getting a girlfriend, which I honestly had no urdge to do right now because I liked the freedom and I haven't met anyone that swept- Excuse me, that I could sweep off their feet.
I did have a special someone back when I was eighteen, Hannah. Yet as fate would have that relationship didn't work out in the end so we decided to mutally end it and go back to being friends, though I haven't talked to her in nearly a year so I guess the friend thing didn't work out?
"Louis!" Shailene then shouts pulling me out of my world of thought that seemed to be frequently consuming me lately, and I realized I was about to walk into the wall instead of making a turn. "Oh, sorry." I say as I side step and avoid it while drifting with the crowd into the other hall that Mr. Styles class was located at.
"Did you sleep well last night?" She asks probaby assuming my recent actions had something to do with my concious being sleep deprived. "Yes mother I slept just fine last night and took all my medicine!" I say sarcastically as she mimicks my facial expression in a taunting way and gives me a light shove.
"I'm serious Tomlinson." She states as I laugh, "Yes I did. I just have alot on my mind with..erm..tests and all.." I assure as she cocks an eyebrow but makes no move to continue to argue with me.
The warning bell then rings the moment my feet stop at Harry's door and instantly almost as if I had flipped on a switch my stomach knots up and heart beat quickens.
Strange.
I must be nervous, but then again that made no sense.
"I better run! See you later!" My bright eyed friend calls as she smacks me lightly upside the head then takes off down the hall towards her class. "Hey Lewis!" I then hear Carson call as he runs down the hall and smashes into me as I let out a cry of surprise.
"Carson!" I protest as I loose my footing and fall backwards but he catches me by my shirt and pulls me back up against him causing us to laugh at the near accident.
"I thought I was going to be late." He informs me as I roll my eyes, "No surprise there." "Hey watch it." He warns as he wraps an arm around my shoulders and squeezes my upper arm affectionately and we walk into the classroom.
"Just on time, Mr. Dean. Mr. Tomlinson." Harry's deep voice calls out as he looks up from his messy desk and Carson pulls me closer to his side,
"Either way we would've showed up." He sasses as I bite my bottom lip.
I didn't know if I should add on to his comment or keep quiet because of the two hundred thousand dollar car out in the parking lot.
"Better late then never." Harry counters as I give him a weird look, "Did you just quote A Walk To Remember?" I blurt out and he gives me a surprised look, "Yes, you've seen the film?" He asks and I nod, "I saw it more then once with my sisters and friend." I say in reference to Shailene who absolutely adored the movie, and always had mascara smeared over her face at the end.
"It's a good movie. All movies based off of Nicholas Spark novels are." He admits as Carson snickers, "That's a bit girly don'tcha think?" He asks as Harry narrows his eyes at him, "Did you both bring your fourty dollars for the books?" He responds completely blowing off Carson's girly statement as I try to squirm away from my friends grip and leave the room because I had forgotten the money.
"I can give you a pack of gum, you could use it." Carson says as Harry pinches the bridge of his nose and huffs, "I expect the cash at the end of the week. From both of you." He says giving me a knowing look and I nod remaining silent as he gestures to our desks, "Take your seats."
He then turned back to the work spread out on his desk and I shrugged at Carson as he moved his arm out from around me and we took our seats as Harry leaned under his desk and unzipped his bag before pulling out a lollipop.
No. No. No. Not again. Please.
I silently beg as I try to assure mysef that me getting a boner from him sucking a lolli was just a one time thing and I nothing to worry about.
"Today we're going to take a test on the China unit, and continue to read Romeo and Juliet. I want you all to stop at chapter four, if you've already read pass that then do your homework while everyone else is reading." Harry announces standing up and smoothing over his blazer as he adjusted his tie then ran his tongue over the lollipop before sticking it in his mouth and his eyes drifted over to me as I try to focus on placing my bag at my side on the floor.
He was trying, he was going to try.
Yet as I said that was a one time thing, I was not going to get a boner again.
Nor will I get those images.
"Don't forget to use something you can erase because if you make a mistake I don't want scribbles all over the paper." He then adds as people fumble for pencils and eraseble pens. "I'm definately going to flunk this." Carson mutters as he pulls out two pencils and offers me one and I nod as I place it on my desk then zip up my bag as I watch Harry passing out the tests, as he made that lollipop cry and I felt my breathing alter.
There was something about the way he ran the tip of his tongue slowly over the ball of sweetness, then hallowed his cheeks around it causing his jawline to become more profound as his eyes showed pleasure in the delicious taste.
It was the type of innocent looking action that put un-innocent images in your head, which was what was happening to me. The moment I had gotten a good view of him abusing the treat with his mouth I felt my body react as the images of him blowing me reacurred a second time only stronger and I was instantly turned on.
My pants had gone slightly tighter and I couldn't help but feel my nerves kick in as he approached our desk.
He was going to notice, he was going to notice. I was so tempted to grab my bag and place it over myself but then he would definately know, so I had to just pretend it wasn' t there then maybe he would take no notice.
"No cheating, no cheating." His voice states to each person as he then comes up to our desk and I fiddle with my pencil as I tried to avoid eye contact.
"Neither of you better cheat or there will be consequences you both will not enjoy." he warns as a pure white packet with neat ink is placed on my desk and another placed on Carson's before walking back over to his desk and leaning against it.
"You all may write your name on the front then begin." He instructs as everyone makes a shuffle noise from their fingers wrapping around their writing devices as they begin to write their names and I do the same needing destraction from my slightly hardened and throbbing member that I wanted to slap so bad.
But that would hurt.
"Now start!" Harry announces as all my classmates flip open the packet and begin to quickly answer the questions occasionally stopping on a difficult question.
My focus did remain on the test before me most of the time but I couldn't resist the urdge to glance over at Harry every now and then, and observe him.
He was writing on a piece of paper with one hand and twirling the lollipop in his mouth with the other.
Suddenly upon seeing that the image of him taking my gayginity in the bathroom of the bar, comes to mind and I swallow thicky as my bum starts to throb.
If I put my mind to it I could almost feel him moving in and out of me and hear his raspy deep moans as the pleasure shot up my spine and spread across my neck.
I then exhale sharply as I shifted in my seat and spread my legs apart while I slouched a bit and rested my cheek on my hand, biting my tongue in concentration.
This one question about the slaves was really hard, and after reading it over a few times I circled the first answer that looked right and flipped to the next page.
''Fifteen minute warning!" My frustrating Professor then calls out as I bite my bottom lip harshy while glueing my gaze to the paper while he walked slowly by each desk making sure no one was peeking at the others work for answers.
Then once he got to my desk he stopped walking and I mean dead stopped, at my side as he tapped his fingers lightly on his leg and I bit both my cheeks hard, as I pretended to be concentrating on one of the explain questions. I swear I could feel his gaze drifting over me repeatedy almost as if he was examining me while I tried to work.
Was he suspicious I was cheating? Or was he just trying to annoy me? Maybe even test me to see if I was intimidated under his gaze?
I then inhaled slowly as I looked up at him and our eyes met for just a moment and I felt my heart flutter.
What? No. My heart wasn't fluttering it was panicking.
"Good job Mr. Tomlinson." He then compliments softly as he bites down on the lollipop making a crunching noise then moves on to the next desk leaving me in a confused daze.
This made no sense. Finally after he had scoped my peers to make sure they were being honest he walked back over to his desk and slipped into his desk chair.
"Five minutes! Wrap it up." He calls as he opens his back and pulls out his third sucker for today and I resist the urdge the groan.
I needed to get out of this classroom soon or I was going to have a painful boner, which was half way there and my body was starting to burn.
Yes burn.
The way it did when I had sexual tendencies towards someone. But these were different and they were scaring me. I shoudn't be getting turned on by a guy, it wasn't natural.
"Alright close your tests, put your pencils down and pass them up to the front!" Harry then announces as I circle my last answer then close my test and hand my pencil to Carson who puts it in his bag as our tests are passed to the front.
"Good now plea-" Harry starts as he gathers the crazy large pile of tests in a bin but the bell interupts him and he shakes his head.
"Okay new plan, on your way out grab a numbered copy of Romeo and Juliet,"
He then pauses to put the bin of tests on his desk as he pulls out a blank piece of paper,
"and put your first and last name on this sheet along with the number of your book. I expect them all back tomorrow and all of you to read up to chapter four. If you already have then don't bother grabbing one."
The body of students nod in understanding as the room breaks out into loud chatter as bags are packed and swung over shoulders then books checked out by some people and the room empties of the others as me and Carson slip into line. "Leave it to curly to run out of time." Carson mutters and I laugh as we remain silent the rest of the time in the line then Carson being the rude arse he is cuts me when it's my turn.
Jerk.
"Oh no Mr. Dean! Your taking this one." Harry tells him in a firm tone as he pulls out one of the copies we had damaged of Romeo and Juliet then hands it to Carson who rolls his eyes as he grabs it then shoots me a smirk with a wink before walking out of the room.
"I guess that means I'm getting the other one to?" I ask as Harry licks his lips and nods while opening the same draw he removed Carson's copy from the frowned,
"Uh oh." He mumbles as I instantly feel a strange rushing water feeling brush over me.
I didn't like that 'uh oh' not one bit.
"Something wrong?" I ask rocking on my heels as seven more kids waited impatiently behind me.
"It seems Mr. Tomlinson I've forgotten to grab your copy, I must've left it in my office at home." He informs looking up at me and I swallow for what seemed to be the hundredth time that class period.
"Then I guess I'll have some catching up to do tomorrow." I comment as I turn to leave and he clears his throat, "Mr. Tomlinson may you please wait?" He asks his tone non threatening nor harsh but I couldn't help but feel alarmed. Not ony because I hated staying after longer, but because my boner was still lingering and the last thing I wanted was for him to call me out on it.
"Is it nessicary?" I ask and he nods curtly before turning back to the remainder students and I let out a hesitent sigh as I take a seat in one of the desks in the front.
I sat there in complete silence as Harry helped the remainder of the students check out the books then one by one like ants in a hurry to return home before dark they scurried out of the classroom.
"If this is about the car, yes I like it." I say that being the only logical reason for him asking me to stay in mind as I satback in my chair and he laughed softly as he stood up and begin to gather the papers.
"No I just wanted to know if you would like me to drop the book off at your apartment?" He asks as he removes his tie.
Always seemed to be the first article of clothing to go.
"No, that won't be nessicary. I'm able to catch up on work." I say the thought alarming me yet slightly exciting me at the thought of him coming to my apartment.
See why I was so confused?
"No it is nessicary Mr. Tomlinson. I don't like to see my students fall behind, unless it's for a good cause." He states as he stuffs his tie into the suitcase, then a stack of papers. "Harry it really isn't-" I start then he raises his hand for silence, "If your uncomfortable with me coming to your apartment Mr. Tomlinson then your more then welcomed to follow me home and retrieve it there. Either way I'm going to make sure you get the book tonight." He states and I scoff,
"Do I seriously get no choice in this matter?"
"Nope, not at all. Make your choice."
I then exhaled deeply as I chewed the inside of my lip,
"I guess I'll be dropping by your's then." I say hesitently as I rose from my seat and placed my back pack straps back over my shoulders and the tiniest of smirks curled onto his face.
He planned this. He had to. Or karma was trying to do me over.
Yet the idea of walking into the house grabbing the book then leaving seemed much easier then having him come to my place and finding an excuse to stay, which I knew he would.
"Good. Lets go then. You can follow me in your car." He says as he picks up his suitcase and gestures for me to follow him as he walked over to the door and held it open for me. "Thanks." I muttered as I passed through it and out into the hall where we walked side by side down the coordier.
That was when I really noticed the height difference between me and Harry. The top of my head was exactly half an inch below his shoulder.
I had to give him some credit, he was a big guy.
Definately cleared six feet with out a sweat, had well defined biceps giving me the hint he must work out and just looked over all intimidating then innocent.
Almost as if his looks and physical presence were bi-polar as well.
I guess in the long run it wasn't much of a surprise he beat me in body structure for he was twenty-three and I was merely nineteen with what my mum like to call a petite male body topped off with a squishy tummy.
"Something bugging you?" Harry then asks as he notes my uneasy temperment and movements. "No, I'm just tired." I say using a time old excuse. "You should try to sleep more then." He says in a mother hen type way as he holds open the door for me and I nod at him as I walk outside into the cool crisp air.
It wasn't cold, but it wasn't hot. It was lukewarm.
"I sleep plenty." I inform as we both walk over to our cars which were parked a few spaces away from each other. "Sometimes plenty is never enough," He say in a smart arse kind of tone as he unlocks his car and I unlock mine.
"Just follow me!" He calls out and I give him a thumbs up to signal I had heard him as I slide into my ride and start the engine. "Just going to get the book." I remind myself as I buckle in and wait for Harry to pull out, then when he does I peel out behind him and follow him out onto the road.
Deep down inside I knew he didn't want to be in house with me just to give me a book, he wanted more. I wasn't sure if he wanted sex or friendship but the car kind of tipped me off that he wanted something.
I would love to say he liked me, but I wasn't sure if he had feelings for me that way. If he did I would not hesitate to reject him and tell him up front I wasn't interested in him in the slightest, yet I felt as if he wouldn't take no for an answer.
He didn't the first time I went to his house and told him point blank I had no interest in going to his home.
I was also horribly confused right now.
I could definately feel myself softening up towards the oversized curly haired lad but then again I couldn't seem to understand why.
Maybe he was just one of those self-centered, rude, inconsiderate jerks that grow on you.
Or screw up your emotions by being nice then mean.
Then again it was sort of my fault he yelled at me in class, but in my defense he had a short temper unlike all of my other teachers who seemed to contain a sense of patience.
Harry then turned into his neighborhood and I followed him slowly careful not to slam into his bumper because I couldn't imagine what he would do if I broke his car. The neighborhood looked even grander in the day light then it did at night.
There was really no perfect way to describe how beautiful and fancy this place was. You'd have to see it yourself to understand.
Gosh I wish I was rich.
My curly haired Professor then made a sharp turn into his driveway and I followed as well and parked my car behind his before climbing out. "Lets please make this quick." I beg as I lock my car and turn on the securiy, "If that is what you desire lov- Louis." He says correcting himself from saying another word that I knew ended with an e.
"It is." I respond my voice quiet as he smiles and hoists his suitcase up on his shoulder as we walked up the front steps and he rings the doorbell.
"I forgot my key to." He tells me as Maddie, opens the door and she smiles at Harry then smiles widder at me. "Oh Louis! I wasn't expecting to see you around here again." She says as she hold open the dor for us to walk in and Harry gives her a weird look that she waves off. "Don't forget to take off your shoes." She reminds once we both are inside, in the front hall and I inhale as the delicious smell of chicken pot pie and mash potatoes fills the air and Maddie and Harry share a look.
"Smells good in here, is it a brand of candle or something?" I ask and Harry laughs as Maddie rolls her eyes with a smile and shakes her head,
"No love I'm making dinner, which your more then welcomed to stay for if your hungry." She offers as Harry removes his blazer revealing a white button up and kicks off his shoes showing a pair of odd color socks.
"Oh no that's not nessicary." I say even though the temptation was there.
All I had left for me in my apartment was frozen waffles I had bought last week.
"Why not? We rarely have company." Harry comments as Maddie nods slowly. "I'm making french fries, chicken pot pie, and ice cream sundaes for desert." She says as I suck in my lips. I really didn't want to stay, but then again I kinda did.
The offer of free food was tempting but the resistence of Harry thinking I was warming up to him lingered. I really didn't want to do something I'd regret later. Also I would be cintridicting myself on not wanting to be here long.
"Sounds tempting, but I don't want to trouble you." I say trying to be polite even though I wanted to flat out say,
"No. I'm sorry. I don't eat dinner with my teachers, it's not proper procedure, let alone being in his home."
But I held the words back as Maddie shook her head, "No love I insist!" She presses and I brush a hand through my hair as I bit my lip. I didn't know what to say. I wanted to just get the book and run but now I was seriously begining to wonder if this was planned. Then again maybe it wasn't?
"Alright, I guess I could stay for a little taste of your cooking but then I have to go because..well..yeah.." I say not wanting to use my dog as an excuse as I felt my insides jump in surprise from my words.
Stupid.
"Wonderful! Just go take a seat in the kitchen and I'll serve you a taste of my cooking." Maddie then disappears with a beaming smile as I kick off my nike's and Harry looks at me with a half smile before pointing to my shoes,
"Those are a nice color."
"Thanks." I mumbe and he sighs, "Louis you don't have to stay if you don't want to." He informs and I shake my head, "No I will. I rather eat a homecook meal then frozen waffles." I admit as we both walk down the hall then Harry guides me right and leads me into one of the largest, finest kitchens I had ever seen.
The floor was a light blue marble, the counters were grey marble, there was a shiny black stove, pure white fridge, and a long island that had an opening carved into it for feet so people could be comfortable sitting on the stools placed there.
"Wow, this makes my kitchen look shameful." I breath and Harry chuckles as he sits on one of the stools and pulls one out for me which I scramble onto quickly while gazing over at Maddie who was filling up two plates with delicious looking food.
I actually felt kinda bad now that I mistook her fench fries for mash potatoes though.
"Here you boys go! Eat up." She says placing two steaming plates in front of us and I feel my mouth water. The smell was absolutely consuming and I felt starved.
"Did you make this all yourself?" I ask picking up a fry and nibbling at it with causion to make sure they weren't sweet potato, then I shoved the whole thing into my mouth once I realized how scrumptious it tasted.
"Yes, that's part of my job. Cook the meals, clean the house, keep him in check!" She says waving around one of the cooking untensils and I laugh as I go for more of the fries then moan softly from the delicious salty taste that filled my mouth, and Harry choked on his food.
"You okay Harry love?" Maddie asks as he grabs a glass and downs some of the water stuck in his throat while looking at me with a blank gaze.
"Yes dear I'm fine." He then says once he had downed half the glass and I shrug it off.
The three of us then remain silent as I fork down one good bite after another and Harry eats a bit more slowly, in a gentlemen kind of way.
Rich boy.
"Oh Maddie did you get my lollipops today?" Harry then asks and it's my turn to choke as I grab my glass of water and take a large gulp before pretending the question didn't have an effect on me even though it did.
"Yes, the whole bag." She says pointing to one of the draws, "I put them all in there for easy access." She adds then turns back to cleaning up her cooking mess as Harry drains the remainder of his glass then gets up, and walks over to the draw and slides it open before removing two suckers from it.
"Want one?" He asks as he sits back down and hold one out while using his other hand to unwrap the second one and pop it into his mouth.
"No, I'm good." I promise as I proceed to eat the last of my food and Harry shrugs as he twirls the treat in his mouth and pockets the other.
Was this a joke?
"What is it with you and lollipops anyways? Didn't you out grow them as a kid?" I ask and he shakes his head,
"I have like an addiction to these!" He says pulling the sucker out of his mouth for a moment and licking it causing my jeans to become uncomfortable.
"Oh, that makes sense. Sorta."
I then pick up my empty plate and hop down before placing it in the sink as Maddie patted my shoulder, "Oh love you didn't have to do that." She says and I wave her off with a smile, "It's not a big deal." I promise walking back over to Harry and shoving my hands in my pockets,
"Can I have my book now?"
"Wait, you aren't going to stay for desert?"
"Well.."
"Oh no! You have to stay for desert! Maddie sundaes are the best." He says hopping off the stool as he sticks the lollipop in the side of his cheek and sucks slowly.
"Okay fine, but then I really have to go." I warn and Harry smirks.
"Want to come and sit in the pool room with me? While Maddie makes our sundaes?" He asks and I shrug in response as he begins to walk out of the room, so I decide to follow him since I didn't really want to sit in the kitchen and I kinda wanted to check out the pool and hot tub again.
"You sure do have alot of empty frames. Are they just decoration?" I ask as we walk down the hall and he shakes his head,
"No, not exactly."
"Then what's it for?"
"Secret."
he says looking back at me with a playful smile which I don't bother to return as I glance up at the high ceiling that made me feel so, small.
"Feel free to explore. I don't care if you see what color towels I have." He says as we walk through the see through door into the steamy pool room and I nod as I wander over to the hot tub and run my fingers through the warm water as he takes a seat and watches me, while doing naughty looking thing's to another innocent treat with his mouth.
"This hot tub is amazing." I compliment after checking it out for a couple of moments then moving on to the pool and squatting down next to the edge as I ran a hand through that water as well, which was a bit more chilled.
"I assume you like running your fingers through water?" he asks and I crack a small smile as I look up at him the regret it because he was hallowing his cheeks around the lollipop again and my jeans tightened even more.
"No! I was just..no!" I say standing up and walking back over to the pool chair and sitting in the one next to him.
"You have a nice boner." He then points out and I feel my heart jump as I look over at him, I knew he was gonna call me out.
"No I don't!"
"C'mon Louis your jeans aren't that tight."
"I thought we were past this."
I comment my voice going flat and Harry laughs as he sits back,
"As did I, but I saw your reaction in class today."
Great, just great. I guess I was seriously turning into Mr. Obvious, and thanks to it I was now in another awkward position.
"It means nothing."
"Oh but it does. Your turned on. You get excited when you see my pretty, pink, plump lips wrapped around the lolli." He teases as he runs his tongue over it,
"Mmm.." He moans softly and I feel my need grow stronger.
"Harry.." I warn as he blows me off,
"You want my tongue pressed against your throbbing member, and you want me to clean it off." He says as he looked over at me with those green eyes that made my heart lurch.
"You want me to move my lips up and down you and you want to grip my hair and tug at it as I make you fall apart." He growls and I feel my breath literally stop as the images he was decribing became planted in my head.
"You want me to swallow every little bit of you afterwards, don't you Louis. Don't you?" He says and I grip the armrestsof the,
"No!" I protest and he shakes his head smiling,
"And that right there is what your problem is. Here I am offering you exactly what you want yet you deny your need and protest against the reality." He states as he begins to suck on the lollipop and moan softly, tauntingly, as he moved it in and out of his mouth and I felt my jeans start to tear from how hard I was and how bad I needed him.
This was horrible what he was doing, just plain awful but like I said before he didn't like to hear no.
He didn't like to hear someone protesting against his will.
"Stop.." I beg my voice coming out whiny and thick with need.
My resistence was shattering, it was shattering.
He was using me being horny in his favor along with that little treat I was begining to despise.
"Why should I? This is amusing." He comments as he sits up and grips the stem of the lolli and moves it rapidly up and down while closing his eyes.
The urdge was actually starting to become overwhelming. "Not on..my..end.." I whimper softly and he smirks as he swirls his tongue over the tastiness and I crack.
"I can't take it anymore! Just blow me! Blow me please! Before I loose my bloody mind!" I beg shocking myself and him but he didn't hesitate as he stood up and threw the lollipop to the side before grabbing me off my chair and picking me up by my thighs, which I wrapped around his torse causing my burning core to press again his stomach.
Harry said absolutely nothing as he walked out of the pool room and towards the second staircase at a brisk pace while pressing kisses all over my exposed neck and I moaned softly.
"You don't know how long I've wanted to touch you again."
He murmers his voice raspy as he reaches the top of the stairs and walks down the hall while moving his kisses along my jawline and I groaned.
I couldn't believe I was going through with this. I thought that the moment he laid a hand on me I would flip out and the boner would fade along with the need but in this moment his hands gripping my thighs was making me harder.
"I'm gonna make you feel so good."
He promises as he stops at a giant door then kicks it open before I feel my back hit a bed and I see we're in a large, homey bedroom.
This must be his bedroom.
"I can't wait to taste you." He growls as I feel his hands undoing my jeans and I fist the blanket between my fingers as I watch him in antisipation.
I had never been blown before.
Even with my past girlfriends I had gotten a little touchy with, never did this action with me.
This would be my first time having someone suck me off and it was a guy.
This must be a joke.
Yet the sensation of Harry pulling off my jeans and tossing them to the side was no joke as he pressed his palm against my bulge and I let out a sharp breath followed by a soft moan.
"Don't tease me." I beg but he ignores me as he applies more pressure with his palm and I buck my hips.
"Harry please!" I beg for it was all to much.
"So hard baby." He whispers just loud enough for me to hear as he then presses down with an unbelievable amount of pressure that nearly makes me screech as I moaned loudly.
"Please!" I plead and he smirks as he brushes his hand over my member then leans over and pulls down my boxers with his teeth.
That wa so hot. I can't even deny it. That was so hot.
"Lovely." He breaths as my restrained member is released and he strokes it once before grabbing my tighs and pulling me foreward so my legs were hanging off the bed as he stood inbetween them, then leaned down and kissed my tip causing me to shiver.
It was so strange feeling someone else's lips and hands there, but I wasn't complaining.
"Poor thing." Harry coo's as he then takes half of me in his mouth and sucks lightly as I gasp then moan.
His warm mouth around me was a feeling of pleasure I had never felt before.
"More." I plead moving my hips then he sucks a little harder as my moans grew louder and I fisted the blanket tightly between my knuckles.
Harry then nodded slightly as he took the rest of my length in my mouth and gripped my hips to pin me in place as he sucked harshly, and I became a mess as my body jerked foreward and I fet myself tensing and untensing as I started to thrash around, only causing Harry to suck harder then before.
Deep throating me agressively and my moans became soft scream screams as I moved my hips against his face and my eyes screwed shut.
We had only been doing this for probably a few minutes at most and I already felt my high building my in stomach and my body tensing beneath his grasp.
The pleasure from this new experiance was actually overwhelming to the point I could barely breath.
"Harry..Harry..Harry.." I moaned over and over repeating his name as he dug his nails into my thighs creating a more unbearable sensation.
"Oh gosh!" I groaned arching my back as he bobbed his head up and down while moving his lips up and down quickly sucking, then licking, then sucking.
This was the most intence pleasure I think I've ever felt.
I'm sure the night at the bar was just as pleasurable but I could barely remember it so I was making this a first.
"Come for me Louis!" Harry then demands moving his lips away for a moment then places them back around me as he deep throats me once more and bites down softly at the end of my member as I started thrashing. Then I my shut eyes closed tighter and my knuckles went white from how hard I was gripping the sheets.
"Oh gosh..no..please..I..this.." I choke out inbetween my sounds of pleasure as my legs tense, stomach burns and heart pounds.
Then I felt my body thrust foreward metephoracly speaking and I arched my back nearly a foot off the bed as a shrill scream left my lips followed by Harry's name and my warmth filled his mouth, before I fell back onto the bed.
He then stopped sucking as he swallowed a couple of times then pulled his lips away slowly, purposely dragging his teeth along my skin causing me to shiver. Then once he completely released it he kissed the tip.
"I'll give you a moment to recover. I'm going to go check on desert, even though that was sastisfying enough." He comments with a wink as I breath in out and deeply, sweat pouring down my face and my knuckles aching as I nodded slowly, and he snickered as he walked out of the room closing the door behind him.
I could seriously not believe that had just happened.
I was shocked.
No I was beyond shock.
There no emotion for the way I felt right now.
I laid there for a couple of minutes, my body weaker and more worn out from my racking orgasm and chest moving rapidly as I struggled to catch my breath.
Once I felt as if I could stand with out collasping, I sat up then climbed off the bed before grabbing my boxers and jeans and pulling them back on.
Then I took a moment to look around the room.
It was actually really nice, despite the fact there were scattered music sheets across his desk and floor. I guess he was into that?
His carpet matched the cream colored ones downstairs, and his black canvas bed was actually quite cozy.
It wasn't what I had been expecting either.
Shocker.
"C'mon Louis! the desert it ready!" Harry then calls and I bite my tongue as I nod to myself and open the door, "Coming!" I call as I walk down the hall, the stairs, the other hall, then into the kitchen where Maddie was handing Harry two bowls of ice cream lathered in sprinkles and whip creme.
"Here." Harry says holding out the larger bowl for me and I suddenly felt a wave of awkwardness pass over me.
Yet it didn't make me want to run from him.
I actually didn't regret letting him blow me, well not yet at least.
"Thanks." I say grabbing it and scooping up a bite before he smiled and gestured to the and gestured to the living room.
"We can go eat there." He says as he walks out of the kitchen with me following him at his heels. I knew I should've probably stayed in the kitchen to avoid him teasing me, but again something inside of me wanted to stick with him.
"If I spill some of this on your couch I'm blaming you." I warn while we both take a seat on opposite sides of the couch.
"Don't worry, this couch is easy to clean off." He informs taking a greedy bite of his ice cream while looking at me with those eyes that never seemed to stay away from me.
"It's a nice couch." I compliment taking a bite of mine as well then Harry sighs as we both evolve into silence with ursing our deserts then once the silence becomes consuming Harry breaks it,
"Do you trust me?" he then asks completely off topic, and out of no where.
I had no clue how to answer this or why he was asking.
"I don't know." I say deciding to keep my answer netural for I truely had no clue.
"Can I change that answer?" He then sits up straight as I look at him curiously,
"Why does it matter."
"It just does."
"Is it nessicary that I trust you?"
"Yes, because it will put my mind to rest."
"What's that suppose to mean?" I ask curiously as I place my bowl in my lap and he shakes his head,
"Can I change that answer?" He asks again and I lick my lips as our eyes meet.
"Depends how." I respond softly and he stands up and motions for me to do the same.
"Come here Louis." He says and I place my ice cream on the end table as I slowly get up and he walks over to me silently, an intent look on his face.
"What are you going to do?" I ask my mind fraying out from what he could possibly be planning.
Luckily, thanks to his blow job, I had no desire or need for him to touch me.
So if he tried to I would have an easier time resisting, because more things happened during this visit then I intended.
"Shh..." He says softly as he presses a rough finger to my lips then dips it into the ice cream before smearing the delight across my neck.
I honestly didn't know what to do.
I didn't know if I should push him away or just wait and see where he's going with this.
He then dipped his finger into the bowl again and smeared it across my jawline as I gave him a confused look.
"Trust me." He whispers before placing the bowl down on the end table next to mine then he grabbed my hips gently and did something that shocked me.
He poked out his tongue between his lips then glided it over the ice cream smeared over my neck and I let out a sharp breath.
"It's okay." He mumbles against my neck as he then licks along my jawline and I feel my heart beat increase as I gripped his wrists gently.
I don't know why but what he was doing right now felt more instense and heart wracking then the moment we had just had up in his bedroom.
I felt like he was trying to make me comfortable with the thoughts of him touching me in ways no man has ever touched me.
"Tastes better on you." He comments as then licks up the last of it and I look up at him still confused but had a slightly better understanding.
"That made no sense." I say as he keeps his grip on waist then presses his forehead against mine.
"Most of the things I do doesn't." He admits his hot breath fanning my face, and I felt it. I felt a strange feeling that I didn't know how to describe.
Yet I wasn't sure if it was good or bad.
"Please let me have my way with you again." He then begs bearing his eyes into mine, "Please." He says again brushing his lips against mine and then a small surge of anger passed through me as I pushed him away.
"I have to go." I state and a small look of rejection crosses his face but he says nothing in protest as he releases me from his grip,
"I put your book near your shoes." He mumbles looking down as I nod sharply then walk into thefront hall, my heart still pounding an imprint in my chest.
Once I had gotten my shoes on and the book under my arm I left the house with the slam of the doot. I knew it.
Somewhere tangled in my thoughts I knew it, all he wanted was sex.
All he wanted was to lay his hands all over me, and use me for pleasure.
This wasn't about friendship nor was it about him being interested in me, this was about him being selfish.
He probably just wanted me to trust him so he could shove his dick up my arse.
"Stupid, stupid." I muttered to myself as I climbed into my car, fired up the engine, then peeled out of the drive and onto the road with a loud squeal.
I had to stop giving in. I had to stop letting him win, I don't even know why I do.
Yet even with this all being said I didn't regret letting him blow me, but I do wonder why this was bothering me so much.
We were never gonna go anywhere's anyways, not by my choice anyways.

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