Envy (Niall Horan) [BOOK 1]

ELIS POV:
A few days ago, I talked to Steve about my new job on the tour. He told me that I will still get paid until I have to leave with them. I feel kind of guilty because since I'm in a wheel chair, I can't do room service but I'm still getting paid. I told him that maybe I can still do room service, but on the first floor only. He refused. He said that he isn't allowed to do that. At least I tried.
When I went back to my room, I was shocked to see Harry sitting down at the edge of my bed. He didn't notice me at first since he was on his phone. When he did, he quickly stood up and looked like he was really nervous. I looked around me and noticed how Sofy wasn't there. The conversation went like this.
"Hey Harry. What are you doing here?" I asked him confused.
I saw how he bit his lip and was starting to fiddle with his fingers. Wow, why is he so nervous?
He didn't answer my question. He just stood there in silence staring at me.
"So um, have you seen Sofy anywh-"
"I need to ask you a question." He stated.
I felt worry spread through my body.
"Niall's okay right? He's fine? Please say he is I m-"
"This isn't about Niall, Eli."
"Then what is it about?" I asked.
He walked up to me. Our faces we're only a few centimeters away from each other.
He then put his mouth up to my ear and began to whisper.
"I like you sweetheart."
I shivered at his words. Goosebumps began to spread all over my arms.
"I-I." I tried to speak but I couldn't.
"A-are you playing me Styles, b-because you can't just play around w-with things like that." I whisper back.
He chuckles a little and stares into my eyes, which causes me to blush.
He then holds up my chin so I can look into his eyes.
"You're beautiful, you know."
He then leans in and kisses my cheek softly which causes my stomach to flutter uncontrollably.
What's happening?
"W-what do you want Styles?" I asked nervously.
"You." He retorted.
I felt my eyes widen.
"W-wha-"
"Go on a date with me." He added.
This time I was the one that was nervous. My jaw dropped and his words silenced mine.
"Is it a yes or no?" He asked.
"I thought you hated me." I whispered.
His arrogant smirk dropped and his face softened.
"That was the past, love. I got to know you better and I haven't been able to think about anything else other than you for weeks. I regret even thinking those ignorant thoughts. Please do me the favor, of going on a date with me. I want to show you in person, how I've changed."
He looked so innocent and guilty. I just wanted to hug him tight right at that moment.
"Harry, don't you think we're moving too fast? I mean we've only been friends for a few weeks."
He laughed a little.
"Sweet heart I'm not asking you to be my girlfriend. I just want a date."
The arrogance returned.
I felt myself blush and I face palmed, which caused him to laugh.
"I'm so sorry. I feel so embarrassed."
I looked away from him. I felt so embarrassed.
He lifted my chin up once again.
"So yes?" he asked once again.
I nodded and gave him a soft smile which he returned.
"Friday, at the French restaurant across the street at eight?"
"Sounds great." I reply.
He smiles, gives me a hug, and walks away.
That's how I got invited to go on a date with Harry Styles.
It's seven thirty right now and I'm waiting for Harry to come by my room, so we can walk together.
Sofy lent me one of her strapless dresses and a pair of heels. She also did my hair for me.
The dress is a short strapless dress. It's up to my knees and it hugs my whole body. It's a simple black dress. No beading or anything of the sort, just plain black. I'm wearing her red suede pumps, a gold chain necklace, gold pearl earrings, red lipstick, eyeliner, mascara, and my hair is in big loose curls. Two days ago Sofy came with me to a wig store and we got a special hair extension to hide the bald spot in the back of my head.
Sofy says I look gorgeous, but I feel like I'm dressed too much. I don't know.
I hear a knock on the door and I quickly get into my wheelchair. Wow he's early. I brush off the bottom of the dress, I grab my black clutch, and I go to open the door. Sofy already left to work a few minutes ago, so she's not here with me.
When I open it, I see Niall standing right in front of me. His eyes roam up and down my body, from my head to my toes.
"Wow, someone's dressed fancy." He states.
"Really? That's all you have to say?" I ask with my arms crossed.
Ever since the day I got out of the hospital, Niall hasn't been answering my calls, texts, or anything. He's been avoiding me for days.
There's silence. He's just staring at me.
I sigh and look away.
"Why have you been avoiding me?" I whisper a little hurt.
He puts his hand through his hair quickly and turns away to think.
"Um I've been sick." He replies.
Niall's a horrible liar.
"Niall I know you're lying... just tell me the truth. What did I do?"
He sighs and looks at me.
"I'm sorry El, I mean I guess I was a little disappointed at the fact that you didn't tell me that you liked Harry in that way." He replied in a sad tone.
I felt my face softened and I realized that he was right.
"I'm sorry Ni. I wanted to tell you, but I felt that you would find it weird. I guess I was just afraid of what you would think."
"It's okay. I guess I understand what you're saying. But I want you to know that you can talk to me about anything. Okay? "He retorts.
I nod, and he bends down to hug me.
He then stares at me again while smiling a little.
"What?" I ask.
"What?"
"Why are you staring at me?"
"You just look really beautiful tonight." He comments.
"You don't think I'm dressed too much?"
"Nah, you're perfect. I mean you are dressed perfect and um ya."
His cheeks turn a little red.
"Thanks Ni. Why don't you come in and we can hang for a while until Harry comes?" I suggest.
He contemplates over my suggestion and then decides to come in. He sits down at the edge of my bed and I wheel myself to him.
"Where's the lucky lad taking you?" he asks.
"To the French restaurant across the street in the corner."
"Are you guys going to wear disguises or.."
Wow I never really thought about that? Are we?
"Oh I actually don't know." I reply honestly.
"Well just in case, stay safe." He says seriously.
"Don't worry Niall, I think Harry will protect me." I say with a little smile.
I see a little sadness in his eyes and he turns away for a second.
"Niall are you ok-"
Knock Knock
"I think your date's here." Niall states.
I'm about to wheel myself to the door, until Niall steps in front of me.
"I got it. Stay there." He says.
I nod and stay where I am. While he's opening the door, I begin to fix my hair and I hold my clutch tighter due to my nervousness.
"Oh Um hey Niall." I hear Harry say with annoyance in his tone.
"Hey. She's over there lad." I hear Niall reply.
I then see Harry walk in wearing a black suit, a red tie, and holding a bouquet of red roses.
He walks up to me and smiles.
"You look beautiful love."
I feel myself blush which causes Niall to cringe. What's wrong with him?
"You look beautiful too.... I mean you look nice." I say while blushing even more.
Harry chuckles and I feel my stomach twist.
He then hands me the amazing bouquet of roses.
"These are for you." He shyly says.
"Thank you Harry, there gorgeous." I excitedly reply.
No guy has ever bought me flowers.
"Wrong flowers mate." I hear Niall comment from behind.
Harry turns to Niall.
"What do you mean?" Harry asks.
"Her favorite flowers are sunflowers, not roses."
"Niall!" I state in shock.
Why would he say that!
"No it's ok Eli. I'm sorry I got you the wrong flowers I should-"
"Harry I adore them. There perfect." I interrupt him before he makes himself feel even more embarrassed.
He gives me a soft smile, takes my hand, and kisses it softly.
He then goes behind me and begins to wheel me out of the room.
Before we leave he stops next to Niall.
"I'll bring your daughter back by twelve sir." He tells Niall
I can't help but laugh at his comment.
Niall rolls his eyes and puts the roses on the table for me.
"Have fun guys. I'm just going to head back to my room. Bye."
We both wave bye to Niall and we head to the restaurant.
At the restaurant
The ride over here was very...well, guarded. A load of security guards surrounded us as we went to the back of the hotel to Harry's car. Police cars followed us, making it obvious that we were in the car. We're in the restaurant now and police are in front and in back of the restaurant to make sure no one disturbs us. At least we didn't have to wear disguises.
"There are a lot of security guards." I blurt out.
"Oh ya. I just want to make sure that your safe and that this date goes perfect."
"Thanks. I must admit... This is kind of my first real date." I say a little embarrassed.
He looks shocked.
"What? That can't possibly be true." He replies.
I chuckle.
"It is. Why are you so shocked?" I asked curious.
"Well I mean look at you. You're kind of gorgeous." He stated while blushing.
"Aww am I making you blush?" I tease.
He laughs.
"Nah." He playfully says.
"Then why are you so red?"
"It's stuffy in here." He defends while laughing.
"Just admit. You think I'm absolutely perfect and I made you blush." I playfully say.
He looks down at his hands and then back at me.
"Fine. You made me blush and I think you're absolutely perfect." He says in a serious tone.
I feel bombs in my stomach explode and my cheeks burn crimson red.
Harry chuckles.
"I love how I can make you blush."
"You're right it is stuffy in here." I comment.
He laughs even more and then stares into my eyes.
"I'm really glad you said yes."
"I'm really glad you asked." I retort.
He smiles so wide that his adorable dimples begin to show.
We then look into each other's eyes deeply. I see how he's trying to read me. See what I'm thinking about.
"Have you ever been kissed?" He randomly asks.
I'm a little startled by his question.
"Well um no." I reply awkwardly.
"No guy has ever tried to kiss you?" He asked very interested.
"Well ya, but I didn't let them."
"Why?"
"Some girls want to lose their virginity to someone they love. I want to have my first kiss with someone I love." I reply honestly.
"So you won't kiss someone unless you love them?"
"No."
"Wow." He simply says.
"Wow?"
"You're really different from most girls."
"Oh is that bad?"
"No. It's different and new."
The waitress then comes in and asks us what we want to order.
Back at the hotel
The date went really well. We laughed and we talked the whole night. He told me about his life in London before the x factor and I told him about the life of a maid and room service attendant. I didn't tell him anything about my past yet because I feel like I have to know him longer. I really want to go on another date with him though. He was a perfect gentleman. Let's see where this goes...
Three weeks later
Nialls POV
We've been on tour for two weeks now. We're right now going to Virginia. I'm really excited especially since I get to see every state! That's one of the great things about being on tour, getting to visit new places. The only bad thing so far is that I'm forced to see Harry and Eli flirt with each other twenty four seven. Yes, Harry and Eli are now officially dating. Even though she rides in a different tour bus than us, they still talk to each other through the phone or she goes on our tour bus during stops to talk to him. Am I jealous? Hell yes. Am I sad? Hell yes.
Am I going to do anything about it? No. I will never try to break them up. Harry is one of my best friends and I will never try to hurt him in any way. He even asked me before he asked Eli out if it was okay with me. I lied of course, and told him that it's fine.
I never really get to talk to her anymore... We only talk by text pretty much. Every time I see her now, I savor everything. The hugs, her attention, her beauty, the eye contact, everything. At least my acting is getting better. I put on a fake smile around them and they don't seem to notice my hidden feelings.
It's hard when you see the person you love with someone that you know is good for them. I feel selfish, sad, heartbroken, and every other emotion I wish I wasn't feeling.
Right now we're at a gas station, pumping gas into the tour busses. Eli is in our tour bus right now sitting on Harry's lap and giggling uncontrollably. I pretend I'm not noticing by locking my eyes on my phone screen, but it's really hard to do so. I wish she was on my lap....that I was the one that made her blush and laugh. But I'm not. Harry is.
I can't take it anymore. I need fresh air. I get out of the chair I'm sitting in and begin to walk towards the door.
"Where are you going Ni?" I hear Eli ask behind me.
I turn around to face her.
"I'm just going to take a walk." I reply.
She then gets off of Harry and slowly walks to her wheel chair.
"I'll go with you." She comments.
I glance at Harry who looks a little mad.
"No Eli. I think I need to... I need to think about some things. Just stay here with your boyfri- Harry. I'll be fine."
I glance around the tour bus and notice how I caught the attention of all the boys.
Eli looked a little hurt. I've never denied hanging out with her.
"Oh um okay. Be safe." She whispers.
I nod and walk out.
I go to Paul who is pumping gas.
"Paul I'm going to take a little walk okay?"
Since the gas station is in the middle of nowhere, I'm not going to get mobbed or followed by anyone or anything.
"Okay just don't take long. We're going to get back on the road in fifteen minutes tops." Paul replies.
I nod and begin to walk.
I see a dirt road ahead and I begin to follow it. I glance up at the blue sky and notice the shimmering light from the blazing sun in the corner of my eye. It's really hot today.
I begin to think about Eli. I used to think about her a lot, but ever since she became Harry's girlfriend, she's all I can think about. Whenever we hang out, I feel so amazing like I can be myself. I don't hold back around her. She never held back with me either. I know everything about her... No one has ever opened up like that to me. Every time I see her, I just want to hug her tight and hold her small hand in mine. I'm not a "deep" person, but when I'm with her all I am is deep. Or that's all I want to be... I just want to tell her how much I feel for her.
Even if I got the chance to, it would be impossible to explain it with words. There aren't many words that can explain what I feel accurately. I'm falling. I'm falling hard.
I'm too young to have these feelings. There just too strong and passionate. I'm only nineteen. I shouldn't be this stressed out. I should just give up on her and move on. Live my life and just fool around with any girl I see. I mean I could if I wanted to. I'm famous. The thing is that giving up on her would probably be the hardest most impossible thing to do. It would be like walking away from an angel.
All these thoughts are exhausting. I sit down on the dirt road and just stare at the pigeons in front of me that are fighting over a dead lizard.
Maybe that's what I should do. Maybe I should just man up and fight for her. But Harry is my best friend and I can't just do that to him. I groan and I put my head on my knees.
I'm startled by a tap on my shoulder.
"Ahh!" I scream.
I look next to me to see Louis sitting down next to me.
"Hey mate." He simply states.
"You scared the living crap out of me." I reply.
"Sorry. Now tell me what's wrong."
"What do you mean? I'm fine"
Louis rolls his eyes and looks at me.
"Niall you never deny being with Eli. Tell me what's wrong?" he seriously says.
Louis is never serious so he must really be concerned. Maybe it's time for me to tell someone.
I sigh.
"It's Eli and Harry." I comment.
"You like Eli don't you?" He retorts.
"I love her Lou."
"Then why the hell is she with Harry and not you?"
"Harry is Harry. What girl doesn't fall for Harry? Besides she only thinks of me as her friend."
Louis pauses to think.
"That's the thing Niall. You have to fight for her. You can't just give up on her because she's with Harry."
"Maybe you're right."
"Damn hell I'm right." He replies confidently.
I laugh a little at his comment but then think.
"Louis, even though we're all best friends, you seem like you're closer to Harry... Why would you want me to sabotage his relationship?" I ask curiously.
"I'm not telling you to sabotage it, just to not give up. Also, I see the way she looks at you. She may not know it herself yet, but she's definitely in love with you. Besides Harry can get any girl he wants. He'll get over it."
"Thanks." I reply.
Louis gives me a soft smile, gets up, and helps me up as well.
"Now let's go back to the tour bus, your woman is waiting for you as well as twenty pounds for me."
"Wait what? Did you make a bet with Zayn? Do the boys know I like her too?" I ask a little embarrassed.
"It's a little obvious mate."
"Well you're going to have to wait a while for those twenty pounds. It's going to be a while until she's mine."
And Eli is going to be mine. I'm all in and I'm not backing down.

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