Never In a Million Years (Zayn Malik)

i woke with the sound of my phone ringing,i guess i fell sleep with it in my hand.
it took me a moment to remember everything,
Zayn had cheated on me.
unwanted tears blocked my eyes,i blinked a couple of times not wanting let this hurt me,i knew this from the beginning,what did i expect?to get married to him?this was going to happen sooner or later,i should be glad it's over,i should be glad because it was over before anything happened.
but something did happen.\
i shook my head breathing deeply trying to stop myself from crying.
after i was calmer i looked at my phone only to see Waliyha's number on my screen.
great just what i needed (note the sarcasm...)
should i answer it?i mean i know zayn was the one who cheated on me not Liyha,but it's 11 o clock and Liyha never calls me unless it's something important.....oh who am i kidding she always calls me for nothing.
but maybe there is something important she wants to say to me.i mean maybe she found out Zayn cheated on me.of course she has.it's her brother and from what i found out,its the most popular story on every website.
i finally slid my finger across my phone and brought it to my ear saying:
"hello?"
"Anne!it's me Liyha,i'm so sorry,i just found out what zayn did,oh my god,i'm gonna kill that bastard.i'm so sorry Anne,really i had no idea,are you ok?do you want me to come there?did he-......"
"Liyha,it's ok,you and i both know this wasn't going to work out,better sooner than later right?"
"but Anne,Zayn was-is crazy about you!i don't know what has gotten in to him!i swear to god there has to be something going on!there's no way he would do that!it's not like him to!"
"Liyha,it's fine really,i'm just tired,it's been a long week and i need to rest,i'll call you tomorrow ok?"
"Anne,are you sure?do you need me to come over?i will-...."
"It's alright Liyha,just.......i need some time alone."
"ok,just don't hesitate on calling me if you need anything,i'm gonna kill him!i swear to god i will"
"no you will not Liyha,he's your brother and you don't need to get in a fight with him because of me.i really need to go now liyha,i'll call you"
she didn't answer for a while and after that i heard her sigh.she said:
"ok,i'll talk to you later,bye Anne"
"bye Liyha"
i hung up the phone and lied down on my bed once again.i looked to my left and all of a sudden i had this idea,i stood up from my bed and walked towards my stereo,there was a pile of CD's on top of it that i haven't touched in over what seems like years.but one in particular caught my attention.just looking at the CD brings memories back,before i came to this town,before i met Liyha,before i met Zayn,before any of this happened,....it reminded me of a time when everything was...easy.i didn't have a worry in the world,i was....happy.
i put the CD in and the sound of the piano which came out of the Speakers,made me close my eyes and think.(the song Plz listen it's beautiful!)
i thought about my child hood,when my mother took me to my ballet classes,when my father would teach me piano lessons,when Jason taught me how to play Xbox,when i met Avin and Alex,When i met the other girls,when i got my first A+ on a test,when i met Liyha,when i met Zayn.
i couldn't help but smile at the memories,i slid my finger across the speakers surface absentmindedly but then i had other thoughts about my life,thoughts not so happy,thoughts which made my eyebrows furrow,thought which made my smile turn in to a deep frown.
i thought of all the times i cried myself to sleep because my parents weren't there to tell me the thunder isn't going to get me,i thought of the time my brother ran away from home because of the fight he got in with my father,i thought of the incident which had the biggest influence on me.
the incident that hurt me so bad i had to see a psychiatrist ,an incident so bad which made me cry and scream in my sleep,an incident so bad which made the old me disappear.
you want to know what the incident was?
when i saw my Best friend die in front of me,when i saw her jump of her balcony and there was nothing i could do.
i just went to her house to help her with her math problems,never in a million years i thought i would be met with what i saw that day.....

Flashbacks
"Alex!where the hell are you!come on i need to go home soon!"
i called her for the third time but i didn't get an answer this time neither,ok thats it i'm going up to her room.
i left my bag on the couch and jogged up the stairs to her room,i opened the door only to see her leaning against her balconies door frame her back to me,the wind going through her light brown hair making her look so beautiful,i wish i could look like her someday.
i shook my head and told her:
"Alex come on!i called you like 3 times but you didn't answer me!we need to start studying!my Mom is going to kill me if i call her another time to tell her i'm gonna sleep over."
she didn't answer me.
"alex?are you ok?"
no answer again.i was beginning to get worried.it's not like her to stay quiet for a long time.i was walking towards her when i heard her voice:
"Isn't the sun lovely Annabelle?"
ok this is freaking me out
"yeah,it's beautiful....Alex are you-..."
"have you ever thought about it?about what would it be like to be free?what would it feel like to fly?to do what ever you want?"
what the hell is wrong with her today?!
"i'd be lying if i say i haven't but Alex we're only 15,there's plenty of time to think about what we're going to do."
"Anna you and i both know we can't be free in this world."
where is she going with this?
"it depends on your definition of free Alexandria"
she finally turned around to look at me with her big Hazel eyes,she said:
"my definition of free is to be free!no more pressure!no more trying so hard to reach the point you don't have to try anymore but there is no place to reach too!we just have to keep on trying!what kind of life would that be!look at my parents for example!or yours!the are all workaholics who don't give a rats ass about their family!i don't want to live a life where i'd have to see my parents once in a month only to see them shouting their lungs out at each other!i don't want to see my Sister cut herself because of some douche bag people who tell her she's not good enough!to make her believe she's not good enough!this world is cruel Anna!you can never be who you want to be in it!people are cruel as well Annabelle!you're going to end up hurt someday by one of them!"
i couldn't help but gasp at her words.her sister cuts?how can she say those things about her parents?my parents?!this world is beautiful!
she continued:
"Annabelle,there's one way out of all of this,there is one way to be free again.there is a way to get to that point."
"And what is that Alexandria?"
she smiled at me and turned back towards her balcony saying:
"letting go"
before i could say anything else she ran towards the fence of her balcony and stood on top of it making me scream:
"Alex what are you doing?!!!"
she turned towards me laughing and saying:
"Annabelle come with me!we can go there!the only thing we have to do is jump!and we'll be free!"
i was crying my eyes out now and shouting and screaming at her to come back down.but she wouldn't listen.this wasn't the Alex i knew.
this wasn't my friend.
"Alex please!!!!!don't do this!get down!!Alex don't...."
i couldn't do anything and it was killing me!i was afraid to move.i was afraid to run for help.i was afraid to get her down.so i did the only thing i could.
i cried.
i screamed
i shouted
but none of that helped.
she smiled at me one last time looking at my eyes and said:
"Annabelle,i'll miss you.you know i love you right?"
i shook my head sobbing.i couldn't see anywhere because tears were blinding my vision.
"Alex please...."
"i know i can see you again.don't forget me,please?"
"Alex just come down...."
"Tell Avin i love her,i love you too,after all you were my first and best friends."
she turned around making me scream harder for her.she laughed loudly saying:
"Bye Anne!"
and with that,her body fell down of the balcony.
with that,i lost my best friend


End of flashback

i opened my eyes only to let silent tears run down my face,
i miss her
but her words echoed through my mind:
you're going to end up hurt someday by one of them!"
looks like Alex was right after all.
i did end up hurt.
by no one other than the boy i came to have feelings for
Zayn Malik

Notes

yeah sorry.........
tell me what you think.
i know i update lat but.....schools a bitch.
i try to update sooner from now on.
Love
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Anoosha
P.S:if you comment what you think for me,i promise i'll update sooner!