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Through The Dark(Niall Horan)

I Can't Love Him

I had to admit, it had been a really long time since I had gone shopping with a friend. I've missed Alis and I've missed being able to hang out and do normal things. I didn't have a lot of friends back in London. Alis and Niall were really all I had, and since they were gone most of the year I spent a lot of my time at home. Or at least what used to be home. There was nothing left of my home.

We moved out of the house I grew up in once my dad passed. Besides, Jim had a way bigger house anyways. My mother lived for the posh life, she had always wanted it. Always ragged on my dad for not making enough money to please her. It was only a matter of time before she found her way into a rich mans arms. Even if he was completely mental behind closed doors.

I sighed looking through another rack of clothes. It wasn't going to be long until they realized I wasn't coming home..would they even care? Would they look for me, or call the police? What would they tell people when they asked where I was?

“Hello? Earth to Teagan!” Alis waved her hand in front of my face. “Is anyone home?”

“I'm sorry, what did you say?” I noticed she was holding a few dresses in her hands.

“I said, what about these? Jeez Teag, you've been out of it all day.” Alis shook her head and handed me the dresses. “Go try them on.”

“Alis you know I don't like dresses.” I huffed.

“Tough shit.” Alis snapped as she pushed me towards the fitting rooms.

I groaned and went in and slipped on the first dress. It was all black, and extremely tight. It pushed my boobs together in just the right way, barely covering my bum.

“Teagan Elizabeth, get your bum out here so I can see!” Alis ordered outside of the room.

“Alright, alright. Calm your tits.” I sighed and opened the door, stepping out. “I can barely breathe in this thing, Al.”

Alis' eyes scanned me up and down. The look on her face was very mischievous, very Alis. “You are getting that dress, no ifs ands or buts.”

I opened my mouth to protest but she shut me down by spinning me and pushing me back into the fitting room. “Change back into your clothes, we've got to get going if we're gonna make it to the show tonight. And you know I love to watch my boy perform.”

I slid out of the dress, careful not to rip it in anyway. I let out a deep breath, relieved I could actually breathe again. I put the dress back on the hanger and stepped out of the fitting room. “Lets go.” I went to set the dress on the 'return' rack, but Alis snatched it out of my hand.

“Don't even think about it.” She glared at me, making her way to check out.

A few hours later, we were standing side stage watching the boys perform. It was always a pleasure to get to watch Niall do what he does best. The way he smiled when he was on stage..it was incredible. You could tell that he loved being able to do this every night. The night was filled with pranks and lyric changes. These boys were actually ridiculous, but for the first time in a really long time, I was laughing. I was dancing, I was smiling. I was having fun. Harry did a lot of glancing over at Alis during the slow songs, especially “Little Things” which was one of my favorite songs.

I heard Alis let out a squeal during Niall's solo. His eyes were locked with mine. “You'll never love yourself, half as much as I love you.” I gave him a small smile, thinking nothing of the innocent lyrics.

When the song finished, I looked over at Alis. Her mouth agape. “What?” I asked, confused.

“You seriously don't see it?” She scoffed.

“See what, Alis?” I looked around.

“Oh I don't know, that Niall is in love with you.” She practically yelled.

“Have you gone mad?” What on earth was she talking about, Niall wasn't in love with me. I mean yeah, he loved me...but like a sister. Right? There was no way Niall Horan was in love with me.

“You honestly don't see the way he looks at you? That's not the look of a best friend. That's the look of 'I really love this girl and she just can't see it because apparently she's blind'” Alis shook her head. “I'm pretty sure everyone on the planet can tell how much Niall cares about you, except for you. Just think about it. He was willing to leave tour, possibly ruining his career, for you. He flew you to New York and handed you his credit card. He takes any free time he has to talk to you. He will stay up late, knowing he's got interviews early the next morning, just so he can catch you at a good time and not wake you up. Everything Niall does is to please you, Teagan.”

I just looked at her, dumbfounded. I thought about everything she said. He did call me a lot, or text me. Just to make sure everything was alright. I looked back at the stage, watching him run around with Louis, acting a fool.

Alis leaned closer to me. “I see the way you look at him, too.” She whispered. “I don't think you know it yet, but you love him too.”

I swallowed hard. Where did all of this come from? I don't know how Niall felt about me, but I knew how I felt about him. I think. I mean, I felt safe when I was around him, like I was home. All of my problems seemed to disappear when I saw his smile. I could get lost in his baby blues. His laugh, don't even get me started on his laug- okay Teagan, it's time for you to stop. You don't love Niall Horan. You can't love Niall Horan.


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Please upload you only have a few chapters left. This was my first fanfiction. I have read so many after yours but no ones is as good as yours please update! I love you! If your sick or something and you can't upload you will be in my prayers.

Love your story. First fanfic I have ever read and is still my fav. Take all the time you need to write this and for personal matters. And my friends say they LOVE you to death cause of your story. Yea there sitting right next to me. Thanks


Rebekah Knapp Rebekah Knapp

Take a brake u need it we love u and ur story

Winter rose Winter rose

I agree with @The Renegade. Take your time girl. We understand that you have more important things in your life and I know a lot of us can relate. I hope things get better for you soon :)