The Last Goodbye

Harry's POV

Lavender and the smell of ocean air. It was like I was smelling it through the vents. I could still smell her scent even though I was lying beside someone else.

She clung to me in her sleep.I felt the heat of her skin next to mine. Her hand was rested on my bare stomach holding it out for me to hold. I grabbed her hand, but pushed it away. Getting up from the bed an pulling on a pair of jeans. I had the idea in my head to go for a walk just until I felt tired enough to go to sleep. Only I never got tired enough. It could've been for a ton of different reasons. Tonight I was looking it in the face as she slept in my bed. It wasn't just random either I had intended to find a girl to distract me tonight with the satisfaction that I believed I needed twenty four hours ago. After all this time I'm still trying to fill the void inside me. I'm still searching for a reason so that my thoughts will finally leave me alone. But no matter what I do I'll always smell the lavender.

Liam's hotel room was only a few doors down. The band was staying the night in Houston,Texas so that the everyone could get some rest. Back to back we performed shows where would I sing my verses, interacted with the crowd , and made nice with everyone. I played the part that was given to me well.

"Liam! Open your door." My voiced called out. It took him a while before he answered. I heard him on the other side of the door talking to someone.

"Are you sure that's exactly what the little one told you?" I heard him say. When he came to the door he was still talking to the person he was on the phone with.

"He's going to find out eventually you know that?" He said in a hush tone when he looked up at me.

"What was that about?" I asked him.

"That was Niall it was nothing." Liam said tossing his phone. "Harry do you know what bloody time it is?" Liam asked looking down at his invisible watch on his wrist.

"Almost morning." I answered back.

"And why the hell are you naked?" Liam yawned. I wasn't naked, I was nearly naked. My shirt was currently being worn by someone else.

"I'm too tired to watch another one of you episode and not all of us are vampire's like yourself so I need sleep." He said preparing to shut his door before I wedged my hand to stop it from closing.

"An episode? What is that suppose to mean Liam?" I argued. I took a step back and tried to find the quickest solution for me to calm down before I got upset.

"I don't know Harry you become this dark cloud and everyone knows it but you." Liam said. I wouldn't agree with his words and say that I've changed. I have been trying to adjust to things and maybe my methods have come across a little solemn , but what else was I suppose to do? How else was I suppose to feel knowing I was physically okay and my girlfriend was wasting away in a hospital. Being apart from each other was like my own illness and missing her was came with all kinds of side effects.

"I wasn't aware I had become an important topic to discuss these days." I spoke sarcastically.

"Don't get me wrong you had every right to grieve. She was our friend too, but you acted like you were the only one who had the right to be upset." He said. Listening to Liam I regretted the decision to come talk him as my friend. But I will go insane if I keep hearing how fucking depressed people think I am. I was finished with our two minute conversation. I started to head back to my room and continue on with my mistake that was in my room.

Niall jogged down the hall stopping at Liam's door. Bending down trying to catch his breath he finally leaned back up collecting his air. Niall stared at Liam and then watched me.

"You told him?! I thought you said wait?" Niall asked Liam still breathing heavily. Liam leaned in closer to Niall.

"I didn't." He replied.

"Told me what?" I asked Niall. Niall's face was red and he an unreadable expression on his face. I couldn't tell if he was happy or horrified. Niall I'm sure heard me ask him a question just decided to keep on talking to Liam.

"I'm not sure if I heard exactly what the little sister said but I'm pretty sure I heard the word conscience." He said sinking to the ground still trying to catch his breath. I was literally standing in the middle of their conversation. Yet somehow I understood nothing.

"Who're you talking about?" I asked repetitively. I started to sound like a broken record. Niall sat on the floor in some kind of shock. Liam looked at Niall like he put his own foot in his mouth. I turned around and left them there. I could still see them once I reached my door. Going inside Liam called out the name they were supposedly talking about.

"Victoria!" He shouted.

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