Suicidal

Scarletts P.O.V.

I was a wreck after niall left. I drank way too much screamed at myself and well lets just say bad habits die hard. I was on my way to say bye to theo greg and denise. I reached the front door and knocked. "Hello scarlett"greg said. "Hi greg" I whispered I swallowed "Im leaving town....well more like the country" I whisperd staring at my shoes. "What is this about?when and why"he asked confused. "Today and I need to be alone" I said. That was a lie what I needed was a shoulder to cry on a friend I needed niall more than anything. All the things I couldnt have. "I see will you be back" He asked. "I'll be back for the summer" I told him. Lie. "Can I speak with Theo" I asked. "Of course whats the point in asking" Greg said. "Theo geuss whos here"greg called. "Risie!yay" Theo yelled running to me. "Sup my bro" I said picking him up. "Nothin. What about you" he asked. "Actually thats why I came" I paused. "Im moving back to london. And I won't see you for a while. Okay" I said. Theo was sniffling "okay" he croaked. "Hay dont cry. Look I bought you something. Wanna see it" I said. "Yeah" he whispered. "I pulled out a web camera. "I'll be able to see you through this. I can still sing to you before bed" I told him. "Cool" he said studying it. " I gotta go now" I told him. "As I started walking away theo screamed and cried. Greg picked him up and tried to calm him but he just kept screaming and thrashing. It was hard to walk away. I always treated him as my own I taught him hus first words how to walk everthing came from me. I was walking away from the little bit of happiness I had it was like leaving my own son.

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I was sittin in the airport when greg called. "Somethings snapped in him he keeps screaming I want my mommy" greg said. I could here theo in the backround. "Okay call denise" I said confused. "Thats the thing....shes right here" he sighed. I covered my mouth. Theo hadnt called me mom for months now. It hit me I was leaving my son. "I cant help much but whenever hes around dont speak of me. Hes going to continue this unless you make him forget" I said. I knew it was true because when we threw away his teddy bear he cried for it for almost a month. He finally stopped after we dropped the subject. "Scarlett your not a teddy bear its not that easy" greg said. "Take down all the pictures throw away the camera and tell him when he wakes up that I was just a dream" I said. "You think he'll fall for that" he asked. "It has to goodbye greg" I said and hung up. They called my plane and i got up and left. Before I got on I threw my phone away. This was my chance to over for the 2nd time. Where will I flee to next New york. No this will be the last time I run from now on I'll face my problems. The last house was already sold and now I was moving to some gated comunnity in london. I said goodbye to my old life and prepared to start over. All alone

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