I Understand. An AU/punk story.

Lily's P.O.V.

"Ughhh." I groan and cover my head as the blinding light shines in to my eyes from the window. My mouth dry, body aching, and head pounding. Louis chuckles and gets off from the bed and goes to some where in the room while I bury myself under the blankets and messed sheets, hiding form my embarrassment and hangover.

"Get up, lazy bunny." Lou says, coming back from what must have been the bathroom. Groaning I shake my head and cup my ears closed. The events all flying back tonight. The stranger dancing with me, the pink Perri hair in the bathroom, even seeing his eyes. Then being rejected by Louis.... Like... what?

The bed dips and I can tell he's laying next to me. But to be frank I'm a little pissed. I slowly get off, ignoring the breaks and pops of my body and head to the bathroom, not meeting his eyes even though I knew he was watching me. Once the door is clicked shut and locked I turn on the hot water and strip off my underwear since they turned out to be the only thing I wore to bed.

Stopping in front of the mirror as the steam billows around me I glare at the reflection. Self loathing returning as the previous rejection reminds me; not only did he not want me, not Louis doesn't. I pull my hair back. Was it my face? I had a pixie nose I guess you could say. Big cheek bones and groomed eyebrows, and full lips. I never though I was ugly, yet again I never thought I was beautiful...

I drop my hair as it billows back down to my chest. My eyes prick to my frame. My chest was average size, nothing huge, not many girls would envy my cup size, but they weren't too small. I had wide hips, a little itty bit of ''fluff,'' on my tummy but my hip bones still protruded as well as my ribs from my "bed obsessed," time after the break up. My body wasn't extremely desirable either I guess. Not many curves and it wasn't like I flaunted anything to start with.

I wondered what I didn't have that they wanted.

I drop my eyes from the self judgement and go to my shower, scrubbing the sleep off my tired skin, and washing my pink hair before getting out. I wrap a towel under my arms and go to my drawer, Lou's not in the room so I take my time sifting through my clothes. Would he like it if I dressed more like his friends girlfriends? I frown and decide on a skimpy before towel drying my hair, letting it dry naturally in pink waves down my back, before going downstairs to find Lou in the kitchen.

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"Hungry?" He asks, not facing me as I sit down on one of the stools.

"No." I sigh, rubbing my eyes, ignoring my headache. I don't look at him when he comes around to me and spins the stool around so I'm forced to face him. I really didn't want to talk to him at the moment. I felt strange about the other night.

I thought he wanted to be with me? He made it very clear that's what he wanted before.. Had he changed his mind? The thought nauseates me and I turn my head as he stands between my knees.

"Hey.." He mumbles, searching my face for my true emotion. I don't meet his gaze.
"About last night.." I sigh as he starts. He frowns and leans down, putting each hand on the counter top beside me, he eyes deep and blue. "I didn't mean to upset you." But before he can finish the front door swings open with out a single knock or ring of a doorbell.

"Hey!" Angela calls, flanked by Beth and Mariah. Louis groans and rolls his eyes, straightening up he walks away from me, saving me from the the awkward conversation.

"What are you doing here?" He snaps, crossing his arms over his chest, leaning against the counter next to the stool I sit in.

"We're taking Lily shopping!" Mariah gushes, her pretty eyes full of excitement. I internally groan, it took every ounce of strength and self motivation just to go out and sit in the club with them. But shopping during the bright day, hours of girl talk?

Still not myself, and still not ready.

I frown and look up to Louis.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no. I chant to myself. He takes his lip between teeth and swallows.

"OK, be back soon though. Theres a party at Niall's."

Fucking great.

"Niall?" Beth asks, Louis glares at her... alright?

"Old friend." I mumble for the first time. The words being true tasted bitter on my mouth as I remembered my little blonde buddy and his spunky girl. The girls nod and go and wait in the car, before I can follow suit Louis grabs my hand and spins me back around.

"I didn't get to finish." He pouts, placing each inked hand on my waist. I shrug. "I don't want you to be angry with me.."

"I'm not. I have to go. See you later, OK?" I say, trying to walk from his grasp. He frowns harder

"OK.." He mumbles, taking my hand he pulls me close, wrapping me up in to a big hug before letting me go out after the girls.

Once at the mall I stalled like a lost puppy behind them, occasionally giving my two sense or being shoved in to a fitting room with one of their own choices. They were great friends and girls, don't get me wrong...

I just missed my friends..

All of them.

Even him.

Ecspecially him.

I pinch my own arm. I can't do that. Think about it that way.

If he wanted me, he would have chased me.

He hasn't contacted me in person in weeks.

He was over me, probably dating again.

My stomach lurches at the thought of his arm around another girl. His green eyes swimming as he watches her, his dimples popping when she says something funny.

No.

Noo.

I can't do this to myself. I shake my head and follow the girls.

"Coffee?" Beth asks. She has still been distant and strange with me and I don't like it. Not at all. It weird's me out like she knows something about me that I don't.

We agree and head to the Gloria Jeans next to the Wet Seal when I see something that makes me want to run away and squeal happily all at the same time.

Perri's eyes meet mine at the same time as mine do her.

Our jaws drop and her face quickly distorts to anger as she grabs the wrists of Rae and Lauren.

My heart aches at the sigh of his cousin, their matching eyes and dark brown hair... god it's uncanny.

I meet them a few feet forward.

"Wow so you're not bed ridden anymore, I see." Perri snaps, crossing her arms. The other girls jaw's drop. I haven't talked, heard from, nor seen them since the spilt which was weeks ago.

"Yeah." Is all I'm capable of saying.

"Wheres Louis?"She asks, looking over my shoulder for him.

"At home. I'm not here with him I -"

"Lily?" Angela calls as her Mariah and Beth make their ways to us.

Oh boy.

"Who the hell are they?" Perri scoffs. Her eyes lingering on Beth for a moment longer, a smirk on her pink lips.

"My friends, members of Louis's gang too." I say, avoiding all three of their gazes as my new friends stand beside me. My voice is hoarse and not my own.

"Oh, I see how it is." She laughs, sticking one of her hips out, raising her eyebrow in her "bitch please," face. I frown at her.

"What is that supposed to mean?" I ask her, keeping my voice light, not wanting to fight with my best friend.

"Nothing. Just that you have just disappeared out of thin air for practically a month and while we thought you were all depressed and losing it. You're out with new friends." She snaps.

"Oh, Perri. Knock it off! I would have been home by now if I knew you wern't doing your usual scheming!" I snap back, finding my sassy self again for what feels like the first time in a life time.

"What?" Her eyes fly open farther, her lips in a thin line as panic washed over her cream skin. Her eyes flicker to Beth. "What did you tell her!?" She snarls at the quivering Beth to my right, pointing a finger in her face, taking a step closer.

"What the hell?" I exclaim, pushing her hand away from the girls face. "I meant when on the phone you kept telling me him and I belonged together!" I add, confusion washing over my face at the little display that just went down. Relief washes over Perri's feature as she takes a step back.

"Oh.... Well that's not scheming. That's just factual information. You know you still love him! You're all three being naive like usual." She says curtly. I know she hit a nerve, mentioning not only me but him and Louis being naive about all of our feelings in our little.... love triangle thing.

It hit a nerve in my new friends too being that Louis was their friend and I knew they shipped us.

"Excuse me? Lily can be with whom ever the fuck she wants!" Angela snaps, taking a step forward, pushing Perri's shoulder back lightly.

"Did you just fucking push me?!"

And that's where it went bad.

Notes

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EW.

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