I Understand. An AU/punk story.

"What!?" A strange gargle comes from his throat.

And now I know. He's going to pretend I'm the fucking problem. Pretend he hasn't been just as terrible.

"YOU DON'T LOVE ME ANYMORE!" I shriek, I start pounding on his chest, trying to punch his body away from me, wanting to be alone. My emotion, flooded in Cherry Vodka, taking control of my heart.

"Stop, Lilian." He says softly, trying to take my hands away from him. I shake my head, trying to stop crying I push him away from him and make a run for the door but he grabs me from behind, and rips me to him, I double over, crying my eyes out. Wanting this night to never happen. "LILIAN!" He cries at me, trying to get me to stop. I shake my head as we slowly sink to the floor.

My heart is going to explode. Everything comes out. Every ounce of bad energy. Every single dirty look he has given me. Every doubt and tear comes out right now and right here on the floor as I sit between his legs.

Harry slides down the wall, I keep crying as he pulls me to him, stroking my hair, shushing me.

"I'm sorry!" I sob in to his chest, wrapping my arms around his neck and burying my face in his shirt I try to gain some sort of composure.

"Please don't say sorry.... please don't."

"B - but I am!" I whimper. Loving when he wraps his arms around me, hugging me close, digging his head in my purple hair.

"Why, doll face? Why? You never did a thing wrong?" His voice is breaking too.

"I m - must have! You don't want me the s - same. I must have done something!" I choke out, he shakes his head.

"That's not true baby. It's not true. Don't you dare say you're sorry!" He hushes. I just cry. He softly rocks me back and forth in his arms. "We need to leave, yeah?" But instead of letting me reply, he cups his hands under my knees and around my back before standing up. I bury my face in his neck. Not wanting him to ever, ever. Put me on the ground.

Harry carries me up the stairs where the loud party is still happening. No one says much as he rushes us through the back door and to his car. Opening my door he puts me in and jogs to his side.

The minute the door is closed he turns to me, holds his arm out, wanting me to come to him. I crawl to his side in the car and let him drive with one hand back to his place. There not being very much privacy at mine for the conversation we were about to have. As soon as we pull up he carries me up to his apartment, going straight to the bedroom.

Once in, he lays me on the bed on my back. I'm not sobbing but a few stray tears keep falling. Once I'm down he pulls off his own shoes before sliding mine off, placing them on the floor.

"Is it because I won't let you fuck me?" I whimper, he doesn't look up at me as he starts at my ankles and kisses all the way up my right leg.

"No, of course not Lilian. Now hush." He says softly, finding the button on my shorts, he pulls them off my hips. Once they're gone he kisses my tummy, his hands then going to my back he pulls me in a sitting position so he can unclip my top and pull it from me.

Laying me back down, he pulls his own shirt off, followed by his jeans. He lays next to me, supporting his head with his elbow, the other arm draped over my bare stomach.

''Please stop crying?" He begs, kissing the few other tears. I sniffle and wipe my eyes, trying to calm down.

"I wanna know what I'm doing wrong!" I whimper, reaching up I grab his shoulders and pull him down on to me. He does what I want, gently kissing each eye lid, he pulls the quilt over us.

"How could you ever think I don't lover you anymore?" It's breathy and I can tell it's tough for him to get out.

"You never talk to me. You never touch me or hold me! It's not the same between us anymore, Harry!"

"I know that I have been such a huge fucking ass..... I know... and I'm sorry. But I never thought you would think I wouldn't love you!" He drops his head on my collar bone, I wrap my arms around his upper shoulders and hug his head to my chest. "I'm sorry I fucked this up, Lilian."

I don't say anything... not sure what to say. Harry then suddenly sits up and pulls me with him. We sit criss cross in front of each other and his hands cup my cheeks, looking down at me.

"I am so sorry." I furrow my brows at the crazy sincerity in his eyes. "I love you. I love you so much it hurts. I don't want anything else in this whole world beside you, OK? I know this is a pathetic excuse for an apology, but it's all I have.... I was going to give you this at the party... but. That didn't work out." He chuckles, leaning on to the floor he pulls up a red box. "I know things have been terrible." He opens the box and the jewel takes my breath away. "But that's what makes us so perfect. Because we always pull through. And together."

"Harry...." I breathe, gently touching the silver chain. He chuckles and pulls it out.

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"Turn for me princess." I do as he asks and he secures it around my neck.

"Harry, I love it. It's beautiful." I smile, turning back to him. Wrapping my arms around his neck I crawl on to his lap, loving his arms that find my waist.

"You really like it?"

"Yes, It's perfect!" I say happily.

"OK, I'm glad.... No more tears?" He chuckles, dipping his head down so I look at him and not my necklace.

"Nope." I giggle, looking up at him. He smiles.

"Nope?" He mimics my voice and playfully nips my nose with his teeth. I giggle harder. "Nope!" He does it again, trying to bite my neck.

"Harold!" I squeal as his mouth tries to playfully bite me, pushing me back on my back, his hands tickle my stomach until he has me shrieking. I wrestle him off and push him to his back, mounting his chest, I pin his hands above his head, smiling down at him. He laughs and snatches his hands back, making me fall on him, meeting me half way he snaps me in to a bone crushing hug. I groan at how hard he holds me, rolling on to his back, I secure my legs around his waist.

I look up at him and his beautiful face. His flawless face and perfect smile. I know I would never be in the same league as him but it was OK because he was so incredibly perfect that I was lucky he called me his.

"I love you Lilian Forest." He says seriously.

"I love you Harry Styles." I tell him sweetly.

I knew in that moment I was going to give myself to him.

Completely and wholly.

"I'm going to spend the rest of my life making a mess of things... But will you spend it with me? Make me the happiest man on earth?"

"It would be my absolute pleasure.''

"Lilian?"

"Hmm?"

"One more thing.... I'm not going to fuck you." Confusion comes over me. "With you? It's making love." He says sternly. I giggle and peck his cheek.
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I wake up just so blissfully happy. After spending the night in his arms. I feel like myself again. Like the haze is gone and the happy is here to stay. My amazing boyfriend sleeps away. Getting up I sneak away, not feeling bad when I take his car keys with me.

Driving back to my apartment, I shower, shave my legs and ... parts. And get ready for the day. I needed to do something shopping.

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Driving to the mall and getting a coffee I head towards the intimates store when my phone vibrates.

From:Harry<3

Morning, pretty woman. Sad you weren't here to cuddle the day away:( Guessing you had prior engagements? (;

To:Harry<3

Morning baby, aww sowy! I had to do some shopping. Today is a very, very, special day.(;

From:Harry<3

No problem(; And ooh, how so?

"Hi, can I get your size?" The sales woman asks. I nod and smile and tell her, going back to my phone as she goes to a fitting room for me.

To:Harry<3

You'll have to wait and see!!(; Miss you tons xx Be home soon<3

From:Harry<3

Can't wait gorgeous, I'm counting the minutes. Hurry please.<3 xx

-

I go back to my place, the sun is now setting, I get ready again and drive to Harry's. Letting myself in I hear the TV in his room.

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"Baby, where have you been all day?" He pouts as I come in kneel in front of him. "You look beautiful, by the way." He smiles, admiring my dress.

"Harry?"

"Yes?"

"I'm ready."

Notes

PART THREE TONIGHT