I Understand. An AU/punk story.

After our nails were printed, we got our swimsuits on.

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"Ooh, I love that one, Rae!" I squeal, looking at her cute new suit.

"Do you really? I thought it was cute, total impulse buy." She laughs.

"C'mon, we need to go get Lauren!" Perri urges, rushing us out the door. Rae and I slip our plain jean shorts and sheer sweaters over our swim suits and went down to car, getting in we blasted the radio and drove off to Lauren's who was waiting on the curb.

"Hey, guys!" She chirps, getting in the back with me.

"Heeeyyyy." We all yell back, we stop at the liquor store and pick up some refreshments, Perri flashes her fake I.D. and we all roll out.

-

Arriving at the coast again we walk towards the more secluded part of the beach and spread our towels out again. I liked being here. It was so peaceful.

"So, have you talked to Harry yet?" Lauren asks suddenly. I look up at her, we're all laying on our stomachs in a big circle.

"Umm, no. Actually."

"Well the damn boy kept calling me all night! He was freaking out!" 'Shes going to brake up with me, what do I do!?' She laughs, saying the last part in her best impression of him which gets us all laughing.

"You're way to good at that!" I laugh, swatting her. "And I'm not breaking up with him!"

"So... you're not mad at him?" Her face becomes sheepish and all of the girls looks away.

"No?"

"So you would talk to him?"

"I guess.."

"Well thats good because they'll all be here any minute." She says quickly before rolling so I couldn't slap her.

"YOU GUYS!!!" I yell, they all burst out laughing at my exaggeration.

"Oh, you hush! He's your boyfriend!!" Rae says between giggles. I groan and drop my head in the sand. These girls would be the death of me. "BABY!" Rae squeals and gets up, I hear Niall grunt as she runs in to his arms. They had such a cute relationship. Our shirtless boyfriends joined our circle. Harry being the last one, laid his towel down across from me, dropping down on his stomach like the rest of us. I didn't meet his eyes...

"Well, I wanna go for a swim!" Lauren declares. Everyone agrees and we get up from our towels.

"Liam, help me up!" I whine, since he's laying right next to me and my knee is still throbbing. He reaches his hands down and I take one, slowly he hoists me to my feet and steadies me.

"Holy shit, that looks so gross!" Niall yells, pointing down at my knee. I scowl at him and Rae punches his arm. ''Well sorry but jese!" He laughs. Rae scowls at him but he leans down and pecks her mouth before throwing her over his shoulder, ignoring her screams. Jumps in to the blue water, submerging themselves.

The others run after them leaving me and Harry standing awkwardly. I meet his eyes but his are raking up my body... He doesn't get to see me very often so it was treat to be this exposed. I stand there, waiting for him to be done staring... His eyes snap back up... There ya go Harry....

"Hey..." I give him an awkward little wave. He motions towards the water and I nod, coming to me, he puts an arm around my waist and helps me to the water. Once I'm chest deep and can just balance on one leg in the water, my knee feels a lot better. Harry and I watch while the others swim and splash each other like lunatics.. The sun starts to set after a littler while.

I don't want it to be awkward anymore but I can't help it... I don't want to stop fighting because I feel he was wrong... then again I want him to just hug and kiss the crap out of me.

"Liam, I'm cold!" Lauren complains to her boyfriend, the other girls agree.

"Let's make a fire!" Niall yells, right before her was about to dunk Perri. She slaps him away and swims to the safety of Zayn which wasn't much because the poor man could barely swim, he stayed in the shallow part the whole time.... Everyone agrees so we make our way back to our towels. I'm a lot more cold than I though because by the time the boys get back from collecting drift wood, I'm shaking. Harry sees me and frowns, going to his bag and towel he pulls his sweater over his naked top half and makes his way to me. Sitting on my towel behind me, Harry takes my hips and slides my back to his front, wrapping his towel around my shoulders. Everyone 'awwws.' I smile but don't say anything.

The shivering stops after Harry starts rubbing up and down my arms, trying to make friction. He warms me up but doesn't really hold me or talk to me.

-

a while later Niall is drunk, Perri is exhausted, and everyone else is ready to go home. Rae supports her slurring boyfriend to Perri's car and then jumps on his lap. After saying bye to Zayn Perri and him go back to their own cars. Lauren does the same with Liam. That leaves Harry and I all awkward. It's clear he's not going to be apologizing or wanting one any time soon.

"Bye, Harry..." I say awkwardly, before getting in Perri's car.

-

"Why didn't you just apolagize!?" Niall asks, outraged. I'm sitting on the edge of Rae's bed. Rae is asleep in his arms yet Niall stay awake, still a little drunk, talking to me through my melt down.

"BECAUSE! He has to say it first!" I snap, drying my tears.

"Why?" Boys didn't know a lot.....

"Because thats just how it works! He messed up.. not me!"

"Well to be fair to Harry, you both messed up..." He says honestly, I groan and run my hands through my hair..

"Yes I know that! I didn't want to admit it to myself!" Niall bursts out in his perfectly amazing laugh.

"Thats one way to go about it..! If it's any help.. I know Harry is crazy about you. And he is probably just as upset about it all." He says, as he leans his head on Rae's... so cute.

Then my phone starts singing

Baby, baby, are you listening?
Wondering where you've been all my life
I just started living
Oh, baby, are you listening?
When you say you love me
No, I love you more
And when you say you need me
No, I need you more
Boy, I adore you, I adore you

Harry's ringtone...

"HOLY SHIT! Should I answer it!?" I squeal.

"Um, DUH!" Niall laughs. I muss his hair and run back to my room.Jump back in my bed and press accept.

"Hey.." His perfect voice, makes something feel something in my stomach..

"Hey.." I say back softly. The emotions getting the better of my voice. I don't sound too hot.

"How are you?" He doesn't either.

"Umm, I've been better.." I mumble.

"Me too." I look around my empty room. I haven't slept alone in a loooong time. I frown at the empty and lonely darkness. He should be here.....

"My room is really dark...." I randomly find myself saying in to the phone as I'm curled up in a ball.

"Mine too......" He gives a big sad sigh in to the phone.

"Harry?"

"Yeah?"

"I - um... can you please -"

"I'll be there in ten minutes." Relief washes over me and my heart flutters in my chest. I won't be alone tonight..

"I'll be waiting..." The line goes dead and I wait for him.

-

The front door opens and closes quietly, the dogs run around excitedly, happy to see their daddy. I don't think but find myself crawling to the edge of the bed, kneeling on it as he comes in.

Freezing in the doorway, Harry takes in what I changed in to. A pair of his boxers and a tank top that rides up my hips, exposing my flat belly. He crosses the room in three strides, closing the door his body crashes in to mine. His hands find my ass and my mouth finds his. My hands pulling small curls. He wastes no time in pushing me on my back, crawling on top of me.

I wrap my legs around his waist as his mouth goes to town on my throat, loving the heat that runs through me.

"Oh, Lilian. I'm so sorry." He mumbles through the wet kisses.

"Me too, babe." I breathe, feeling the stirring in my core. Feeling the hardness in his jeans.... I grab his hips and demand them to start rubbing against mine. He chuckles deeply on my mouth but obeys, but I need more friction...

I grab his jeans and unzip them, he freezes, I pull them from his hips and he rids them off of his body. I moan since I can feel him right on me now. It's amazingly perfect but it's not doing much for the wetness.

"Harry..'' I whimper, wanting him to help me with the distress. He pulls away and studies my face.. Head going back to mine, he slowly pulls his boxers off of me and tosses them aside as well as my panties. And let me tell you. That felt so. damn. good.

He keeps rocking hips on mine, pressing harder and going slow and then speeding up and going softer but I wasn't very close to climax but was still incredibly turned on...

"Harry!" I whine again, I can tell he's getting close. He hips stop and he pulls away.

"Do you wan't to go farther, baby?" He asks huskily. Nervousness grows in my tummy.

"Yes... but I don't want to have sex..." I say quietly, dropping my eyes in shame.

"Thats fine." He tilts my head up and kisses my mouth. "You want me to take care of it?" Oh boy.... A million different possibilities go through my mind. But I find myself nodding yes. He flashes me a beautiful smile.

Reconnecting our lips he rocks his hips on mine until I know he comes... When hes done he doesn't waste anytime on peeling his boxers away... Before I could question him he rests his manhood on my bare sex.

The heat and hardness bring me close to the edge... He rubs up on me, my wetness covering his member..

"You're so damn ready for me baby." He chuckles between breaths and kisses. I moan and throw my head back in reply, before I think it could get any better, two of his long fingers enter me. I wince at first, not used to something inside of me..He stops for a second and looks down at me, frowning. He takes one of his fingers out and pumps until I come undone too.

Leaving one last kiss on my mouth, he get out of bed and comes back with some kleenex, cleaning me and himself away, he throws it away and crawled beck in bed with me.

"I love you, doll face." He mumbles, sleepily..

"I love you too, Harold." I sigh happily and snuggle in to him.

"Lilian?"

"Harry?"

"I'm kind of been thinking something...." Uh oh..

"yeah?"

"You're really tight..." well then.....

"Yeah, I know...." I say awkwardly.

"It makes me nervous.... I don't wan to hurt you when.. you know... whenever that time comes..." Oh boy..

"Well, me too... Even though I'm not a virgin... I feel like one... But it's OK because, I trust you.. And I know you'll take care of me." I say confidently..

"That I will... Me and you hun.." I smile on to his neck. I liked the sound of that

Notes

song is Adore You by Miley Cyrus. theeyrree getttinggg cloosseerrrrr