I woke with a stiff neck in the morning, thanks to Harry laying on my back, resting his head on mine.

"Haryy." I whine, trying to get him up from bed.

"Shhh, I'm sleeping!" He mumbles, constricting his arms tighter on me.

"Harry, you're squishing me!" I giggle, squirming harder.

"Baby, I'm serious, I don't feel good." He grouches, rolling off of me and on to his stomach next to me. Sitting up I look down at him, hes covering his face with his arms.

"Aw, whats wrong?" I baby, laying on his back, wrapping my arms around his chest, his hands find mine...

"Withdrawal...." Oh.... I realized he hadn't been doing drugs for about two days now. I figured this would happen....

"Oh...." I wasn't sure what to say... What were the symptoms of this kind of with drawl? He elbows my ribs slightly, trying to get me off of him. I kiss his head but obey.. "Sorry." I says softly and get up, go to the bathroom and get dressed.

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Even though I take my time, when I come back to the bedroom he's still in bed, covering his face. I wasn't sure what to do for him... I make my way to the bed and lay next to him, rubbing his bare back with my palm. His skin was hot.

"What can I do, baby?" I murmur, kissing his shoulder. He doesn't reply but I know hes not sleeping.... OK.... I sigh and make my way to the kitchen, Perri is rushing through the apartment, throwing her tops on, jumping as she gets her shoe on her right foot.

"Hey, where you headed?" I ask, going to the fridge.

"Zayn is having withdrawal.." She snaps. OK, is everyone crabby?

"Yeah, so is Harry." She stops and turns to me, catching her head....

"He'll be a little bitch all day, just don't let him leave your side, they'll have huge cravings..." She says softly. We stare at each other for a moment before she crosses the room and pulls me in to her hug.

"It'll be OK pez..." I tell her, rubbing her back. She nods and gives me a weak smile before leaving.. I get myself busy with the kitchen, determined to make my boyfriend some breakfast. While the eggs are frying I pull out my cellphone and bring up google....

I felt awkward as I typed Cocaine With drawl....

Clicking the first option I read

Primary symptoms and withdrawal may include:

• Agitation and restless behavior
• Depressed mood
• Fatigue
• Generalized malaise
• Increased appetite
• Vivid and unpleasant dreams
• Slowing of activity

During withdrawal, there can be powerful, intense cravings for cocaine. However, the "high" associated with ongoing use becomes less and less pleasant, and can produce fear and extreme suspicion rather than joy (euphoria). Just the same, the cravings may remain powerful.

Well today will be interesting... One the food is done I scoop it up on a plate and retreat back to my bedroom. Harry's on his back, a pillow over his face and the sheets a twisted mess around his waist. Taking a deep breath I walk to the window, close the blinds before sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Are you hungry?"..... No answer. Still not sleeping though... I rub my hands up his abs and squeeze his bicep, trying to get an answer. When I get nothing I place the plate on the nightstand, kiss his collar bone, and go to the living room where the dogs are waking up.

-

"No! Why would you chose him, number three is so much hotter! Boo you!" I throw a chip at the TV. I have been laying on the couch all day and now I'm watching baggage. Leroy barks at my food wasting. "Shh, daddy doesn't feel good." I scold him, patting his head. He whines and cocks his head at my bedroom door. "That's a puppy."

-

I'm dancing
To the sound
Of my words in the crowd
Too high to come down
So let me see your hands in the air,
Let me see your hands in the air
Let me see your hands in the air

I pick up my cell, signaling a call from Lauren.

"Yyyellloo?"

"Hey, girly, it's me!!"

"Hiii, what are you up to?"

"Party tonight, get Harold and lets go!"

"Umm. Harry is not available to go out -"

"Hes the idiot who decided to get hooked on drugs, and you Are coming out with the girls and I." She interupts me. I sigh.

"I don know if he would like if I went out alone..." I trail off.

"Too bad for him! Get dressed. I bet you have been sitting at home doing nothing all day!" Lauren whines.

"Not true!''

"I bet you ten dollars your in your living room with the dogs watching baggage."

Well then...

"OK, yeah. I do need to get out!" I laugh, getting up. "I'll meet you there." We say our goodbyes and I hang up, the dogs follow me in to the room. Harry is still! laying in the bed, this time his face is exposed. He looks terrible! I frown coming to him, he's sweating lightly but he's really pale. I straddle his bare chest and he slowly opens his pretty eyes.

"Not now.." He grouches, trying to close them. I sigh down at him. I know hes not feeling well but damn!

"I'm going out." Harry opens his eyes again and glares at me.

"I don't feel good so no.... I won't be able to watch you."

"I don't need a babysitter Harold." I tell him, getting off of him I head to bathroom. He says something but I don't listen just close the door.

-

I'm very very pleased with the outcome!

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I smile and go back to the bedroom, Harry is slightly leaning up. Still looking like shit. His eyes don't come to me as I walk to him.

"OK, I'm off then.." I says nonchalantly, his eyes finally go to me. He makes a weird little cough as his eyes rack up my body. That's right Harold. Who's on her A game tonight?

"Lilian..." He warns, sitting up more.

"No, I have been inside all day. I'm going out, with or without you!" I snap, putting my earrings in.

"I don't feel good! I don't want you to go out alone with Jake around... looking... like that!!" He says exasperated.

"Who's fault is it that your having withdrawal?" I snap, he glares at my tone. We have a stand still, when I put my hand on my hips he makes a huge groaning noise before slowly getting out of bed, without another word he gets ready, mostly ignoring me. But I still catch him checking out my ass a few times. It was annoying when he was so irritable...

Once he's ready we leave with out another word, he groans lowering himself in to the car. I feel a little bad knowing he doesn't feel good but he owes me and I told him he could of stayed home but nooo!

-

Pulling up to the bowling alley we walk silently up to the door, Harry makes a feeble attempt to take my hand. I accept the request but he doesn't really hold my hand in his, I roll my eyes and let our hands separate.

"LILY!" The girls scream to me when we get there, I smile and come to them. Zayn and Niall look like shit too. The boys sit next to each other, not saying much. I volunteer to get the drinks so I march up to the bar, except Henry isn't working. A young woman is...

Oh my gosh.

"Rhonda??!" I ask bewildered. She gives me a huge smile.

"Hi, hon." I squeal and make my way around the bar, pulling her in to a hug.

"Where have you been!?"

"Just around! I see you've finally went back to your friends." i blush, I met her on my little 'partying vacay' with Jess.

"Yeah, I did. Do you work here now?"

"I did, I quit since I needed to spend more time with my daughter and the hours didn't work but Henry's sick so Harry asked me to come in for the week."

"Oh my gosh, you have a daughter?" I ask happily, I loved kids! My mom used to own a daycare when my dad was alive, I used to always help out.

"Yeah, little Aurdey." She smiles warmly, pointing to a high chair next to the bar I didn't even notice. I turn and see one of the cutest little babies ever.

"Oh my gosh!" My heart just floods with some weird gushy feelings as the toddler smiles up at me.

"I feel bad having to bring her to work at a bar, but, it's money." She says bitterly, I don't respond, just find my self zipping towards the little baby.

"Can I hold her?" I ask breathy. Rhonda laughs and says yes. I put my hands under the happy little girl and put her on my hip. "Hi, angel!" She coos and screams, reaching for my curled hair. "Can she talk?"

"Yeah, shes just kind of quiet." Rhonda says, getting out some shot cups. "Isn't that right, baby?" Rhonda laughs, pinching her daughters cheeks.

"Mama!" Audrey yells. I put her back in her high chair. I play with the babies fingers until Rhonda has our drinks ready.

"Here take my cell number, is you ever need a babysitter call me. I'm serious, I just love kids!" I gush, writing my cell number on the scratch pad on the bar top. Rhonda smiles and takes it. I kiss Audrey's cheeks bye and say bye to Rhonda before carrying the drinks on a try back to our group. The boys have just now joined us.

"What took you so long?" Harry pouts, I give him 'the look,' and he quickly shuts up. None the less I sit on his lap as I put the shots down in front of everyone, his hands don't hold me back so as soon as everyone has their drinks, I scoot off his lap.--

-

"No, I swear, he knows the word mom!" I yell to Perri. Of course we're arguing about my dogs...

"NO he doesn't! He's a stupid dog, Lily!" This bitch?

"Don't you talk about my babies like that! I yell back. We were tipsy but not wasted, the guys didn't drink though, just sat around looking miserable. Serves them right! I collect our empty cups and bring them back to the bar, just an excuse to talk to Audrey and Rhonda.

"Quit doing my job!" She jokes, taking the cups, I shrug and make a peek a boo face at the little girl. She giggles and reaches out for me. I cover my eyes,

"Where's Lily?" I ask her, she screams when I take my hands away. "Here she is!" Rhonda looks at me like I'm the biggest nerd on the planet.

"That's cute." Someone chuckles, I spin around and find Louis smirking at me. "Hey, L." He says sadly..

"What are you doing here?" I hiss, taking his arm I drag him back in to the little serving room behind the bar so Harry won't see him.

"I wanted to check on you... talk to Harry and Josh too. We're deciding what we're going to do about our good friend Jake."

"Wait, Harry asked you to come?" Confusion overwhelming my face as he leans back on the wall in front of me.

"Well, yeah, but he had Zayn ask. My gangs been covering some ground." He adds a wink and I slap his chest. I lift my eyebrows in surprise.

"Oh, so why are we hiding?"

"I'm not sure." He laughs, coming out from the room, I follow him as we make our way back form around the bar. "Here, let me see that knee of yours." Louis says assertively, gesturing towards a bar stool. I look back to Harry who is standing, talking to Josh, flanked by his boys. Josh by his.

"Be quick." I jump up on the stool. Desperate for a second opinion since it still hurt like a bitch.

"I like to take my time though, baby." He adds a wink before leaning down, prodding my knee. His mom was a nurse so he knew more than I did. I smack his arm. "Just keep icing it and the color will go back to normal." He concludes, straightening up, he helps me down. I nod and we make our way, slowly, to Harry. "How are you? You and Harry, I mean?"

It feels weird talking to him... He used to mean so much to me. I mean hell, I loved him. But after that night at the club, the things he said, the way he acted. I just can't deal with that. I look up in to his amazing eyes.

"Um, you know.. OK. He's been crabby with the withdrawal though..." Oh shit. I didn't mean to say that. Hopefully he didn't hear me.

"Withdrawal?" He stops and looks down at me. I look up at my Louis. He seems older. More tattoos and I can't help to notice the stronger definition of muscle on his arms.

"Lets go." Harry suddenly appears, gesturing for Louis to follow him. But he doesn't he just keeps looking down at me, I give him a pleading look and with a huff he musses my hair and follows Harry.

I missed him.

"Hey, lils." Josh smiles, coming up to me. I smile at him.

"Hey!"

"How have you been, long time no see."

"I know, you need to text me more!" I laugh, the girls call me back. "Well I gotta go but don't disappear on me again.

"OK, sounds good." He laughs before following the other guys to the basement.

Notes

song is Miley Cyrus Hands In The Air

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