Harrys` POV:

“Stop it, Harry! I´m not running away from anything, I just got that this chat is stupid and unnecessary!”, she shouted at me. Did she still really thought, she had done the right thing thath night?

“You ran the last time and now act like I´m the bad guy in this mess!”, I remembered her angrily.

“Dick!”, she breathed out and turned away from me.

“Clary, I force you to say and figure things out with me! I won´t let you run walk just away from this!” This time her reaction was bigger.

“When did I had the chance to figure things out with you at all? Somewhere in between while I got to know your new girlfriend or she was flirting with you in front of my face?”

I saw pain flash up in in her eyes before she headed to the kitchen. This was going all wrong and the last thing I wanted her to do was leaving me here, standing like a fool. How could I stop her from doing it? My brain came up with a horrible idea. I shouldn´t be that honest, but my mouth opened and took the order from my brain.

“I missed you”, I confessed. There, I said it. The three words I wanted to let her know from the second I saw her dancing in the dark club. She froze, but still had her back to me before I saw her shoulders drop.

“Don´t say something like that”, she said quietly and it was hard to understand her like that.

“Believe me I wouldn´t, if it wasn´t true, but unfortunately it is. I missed you since the moment you walked out of my room the week you left and the day I saw you dancing in the club on Saturday night.”

That was to honest and I shut up fast after the last word had left my mouth. What would she say? Scream, yell or shout back? But stumbled the most ridiculous thing she could come up with.

“You never called, not even for my 18th birthday.” Clary, believe me I wanted to so badly, I thought sadly.

“I thought you didn´t wanted me to”, I said touched since she seemed to have no idea how big the urge had been and that I had put down that phone so many times that day.

“I waited like every day”, she confessed and she looked so tiny, hurted and vulnerable like she expected me to step her back any second.

“Clary...”, I breathed out. God, what was happening with me? I decided I had to face her and my hands shook hardly since I just wanted to touch her pretty face and make her feel better and to know that I was the reason for her sadness just made everything worse.

“I thought...”, I tried to explain, but I didn´t found the right words to let her know.

She looked me in the eyes and I saw me in her eyes. Somebody I really liked to be, not just a lost guy, who had no idea what he wanted, but someone was had been loved and had loved so badly that it hurted. Her eyes flickered over my whole face and I could see my reflection in them. I saw the second she gave up and the words left her mouth:

“But that doesn´t matter know. You have a girlfriend and that´s it.”

She looked down and passed me. I wanted to stop her from walking away. I simply had to stop her since there was not even a question about it anymore.

But I couldn´t find the words, which would have made her come back to me.

That was the reason I reached out for her wrist and I pulled her back to me. She stumbled against my body and before she could protest in any way I kissed her.

Oh my God.

Clarys´ POV:

There was a war inside of me. A war between my mind and my body. Between right and wrong.

This is all wrong! Stop it, Clary you´re not thinking clearly!, my head told me and the loud scream echoed through my whole blood system.

He´s not even yours anymore! Don´t, just don´t!

But my body won anyways: You want this and you need this.

I sighed as I felt the victory and I finally stopped refusing his lips on mine and gave in. My body pressed against his and I breathed in his scent.

The moment I realized how much I had missed it. It felt like coming home.

I nibbled at his under lip and he moaned quietly. His tongue slipped over my teeth like it had thousand of times before, until he found an entrance to my mouth. His hands were everywhere.

On my back, holding me close. On my ass, trying to pull me even closer. On my arms, leaving hot trails.

God, how much I had missed my skin on his. Our lips moved on each other like they never had done something else and like they never stopped and Harry knew exactly how to drive me crazy. I let out a faint sigh. This was so good, I didn´t even find another words to describe it.

“Clary, could you help me with...?”, I heard Zayn´s voice like in the deepest back of my mind. I opened my eyes and realized what just happened as I quickly pulled away from Harry.

He groaned angrily and glanced over to Zayn. He only stood there at the front of the bakery and stared right back at us.

We must have looked caught since my hands still rested on Harry´s arms and his hands were still around me. Besides my lips prickled after the kiss and I knew you could tell my hands had been all over his curly hair.

“I´ll...I mean...sure”, I stumbled embarrassed and looked up to Harry.

What had we just done? My palm hit mostly his right side of his face as I slapped him. He looked surprised, but not angry as I lend closer to whisper horrified: “What were you thinking?”

With that I left him behind, for real that time and walked over by Zayn, who still stood frozen in the front at the entrance for the kitchen. What now?

…...................

“Say it”, I sighed as I was decorating the cupcakes with sugar flowers.

“Huh?”, Zayn´s voice was husky after he just came back, having a smoke.

“The words you´ve held back for the last entire hour”, I raised my eyebrows.

“I won´t. That´s your thing, not mine”, he stated and didn´t stopped to form little rolls out of the dough in front of him.

We both worked silently for the next few minutes, but I still felt him judge over me behind my back and I let out a relieved sigh as Zayn finally started to talk.

“I just don´t get it. Yesterday you seemed so injured and hurt about the whole situation and then you nearly suck on his face.”

Hearing the reality out of his mouth, only made me feel even more like a whore. What had I done?

“It just happened”, I tried to explain how we ended up like this.

“It happened? What did you trip and fell into his arms, while your lips surprisingly landed on his?”, Zayn´s voice was full of sarcasm.

“Oh God”, was the only thing I could respond.

I was officially a bitch. Making out with a guy, who has a girlfriend is definitely something you should never do, even though he is your ex-boyfriend, which only made the whole thing a lot more complicated.

Inevitable I had to think about Stella and Harry and how jealous I had been after I found out, they had something in the past. Wasn´t this just like the same situation?

What if Aimee would find out? Probably she wanted to punch me as well because that had been the only feeling I had around Stella. Aimee looked like she could fight pretty rough.

“I think I´m a slut”, I pressed out and felt stupid tears in my eyes.

The question was when did this happen? When did I changed so much to not even listen to my head anymore and let my body take over the control? Since you´ve been fallen in love, my inner voice told me, but I found it a pretty bad excuse.

“C´mon, Clary! You aren´t a slut for kissing this guy, even though he seems to be such a douchebag”, Zayn tried to cheer me up, but his voice got cold as he mentioned Harry. I shook my head and lend against the table.

“Can we just talk about something else and pretend like it never happened?”, I asked him and he gave in. He seemed still angry, but like always I didn´t even knew why since Zayn still was this big, unknown mysterious to me.

I was happy to get over the discussion. But I still felt his lips on mine.

Notes

Hey you lovely readers! New chapter and to be really honest I think this was probably my most favourite one of all the ones I´ve ever written. :O

What do you think? Which was your favourite until now?

I really like you to check out my new story:
An illegitimate Styles
It´s about a girl, who finds out that she is related to the Styles family, one of the richest families in Manchester. Please, let me know what you think! :)

L.O.V.E xx