The new start
Chapter sixty-three, "Me, myself and I"
Five months later:
I looked out the car window, saw how we were getting closer and closer. Soon I would meet everyone again. I was very nervous, nervous and excited. I mean five months is a really long time and what if they had forgotten about me? Maybe it was a bad idea to surprise them after all, I thought and now even if I didn´t want to ruin my outfit and makeup, that had take more than an hour to pick out, I started sweating like an old cow. I looked down on the pink skirt and wished I had picked a blue one instead. I mean come on I don´t even like pink, it just looks like I have tried too much which I have but it´s not suppose to be seen. But deep down inside I knew it wasn´t about the dress or my hair or my makeup it was about that I hadn´t spoken to anyone of them in five months not even sent them a text. I had just postponed it all the time and then suddenly here I was on my way back after five months. I couldn´t believe it had gone by five months already. It felt like one month. I was happy Summer would get out tomorrow though, if everything was crazy I would at least have her here. But maybe she would just hang out with her new girlfriend.
“We are here, Ms.” the taxi driver said and interrupted my thoughts. Okay, now or never, I thought and gave him a smile.
“Here you go, keep the change.” I said and gave him enough money for two tours. Then I stepped out of the car and carefully started walking towards the apartment. But just when I was about to step inside I looked around. I remembered when I came here for the first time. When I thought I was a murderer. It was horrible but all I could think of was that park! I smiled, so much have happened ever since but still here I was just as nervous as the first time. I opened the door and ran upstairs where I knocked three times on the front door. It took a long time before someone opened but soon I saw dad´s familiar face in front of me.
“Hi stranger.” he said and hugged me. I smiled, at least my father hadn´t changed.
“Hi daddy.” I whispered and suddenly I noticed how much I really had missed him, missed the city, missed my friends. Just missed everything!
“Oh my god!” I heard a scream from the kitchen and suddenly my mom´s face showed up and before I knew it she was in the hug too. My smile grew even bigger, this is what a family should look like and I just knew that from now and on it will.
“Come on in.” Mom almost screamed and I walked inside while dad picked up my bags.
“If I would have known you would come today I would have made some cookies but now all we got is this, I hope it´s fine.” Mom said and brought out a plate of sandwiches. But I was too shocked to say yes, what had happened to her? I had never seen her like this in my entire life.
“We have news honey.” She said after a while when all of us were sitting around the table.
“Okay tell me.” I said with my mouth filled with bread.
“Well, your father and I are getting married.” She screamed and now I was in real shock, what had I missed?
“You are? But… I thought you already were married.” I said and tried to swallow the bread but it just didn´t want to fall down into my stomach.
“Yeah but we wanna do it again and this time it is for real.” She said and now my smile grew even bigger than before. She wasn´t kidding.
“Well that is great.” I said and hugged both of them. But in my mind it was everything but great if my mom had changed this much what has happened to Niall? And to Chloe for that matter?
“Hey mom I am really happy for the news, I love that we are finally at least trying to be a normal family. But I have to leave, I have to go and see Niall.” I said and gave mom a kiss on her cheek.
“I heard that there is a party at five pm in the school to celebrate the summer break, why don´t you go to that?” She asked and I nodded. That would be perfect, doing my comeback at a party. I looked at the watch, it showed half past four which meant I had to leave in twenty minutes.
“Thanks mom, I gotta go and change.” I said and hurried to my room where I ripped all of my clothes out of the bag and tried to pick out a dress. It was kind of sad that after all the time I had spent on my old outfit had gone to waste but I couldn´t wear this at a party, I just couldn´t. After a lots of ifs and buts I was done and even I got to admit it, I looked fabulous. The dress might be really simple but it really fitted with the blue accessories. I was ready for my comeback.
“Mom I will head down to school.” I screamed and hurried towards the door, I was already late.
“Wait honey there is something you need to know about Nia…” She started but I didn´t listen I just hurried down the stairs, grabbed a cab and then suddenly I was there. I was finally back, outside the school. Finally I was going to meet everyone again. It was almost as I could feel their present, feel Niall´s present. The butterflies were back and I had almost forgotten how great it felt being in love. Everyone should at least be in love once in their life. I walked briskly towards the building, feeling like a kid on her birthday. I opened the doors and the music hit me. It was an old song by Elvis Presley, I smiled, could this evening get any better? But I knew it could and all I needed to make it the best night was a kiss from Niall. I looked around in the dark room, there were people everywhere. I looked around to see if anyone I knew was there but I literally couldn´t see anything. I sighed, this wasn´t exactly the comeback I had pictured.
“Amy is that really you?” I heard a voice behind me and slowly I turned around. There in front of me Liam was standing only a much hotter Liam. His hair was cut in a little shorter hairstyle and he wore a red shirt that really fitted him. Even if I barely knew him it was great seeing someone familiar.
“Hi Liam, how are you?” I asked and smiled.
“Well great but I mean… when did you get back?” He asked and drew his hand through his hair.
“Just an hour ago or something like that.” I said and just when he was about to answer a little scream came from a very familiar now brown haired girl.
“Oh my god, Amy! It´s great to see you, how have you been?” Chloe shouted and throw her arms around me. I smiled and drew in the sweet smell of her perfume. Finally it felt like I was whole again, man how I had missed this girl. No way I was never letting her go again.
“Now I am great.” I smiled and I heard the sweet little giggle.
“You have missed so much but we will talk about that later. First you need a drink, and then we will listen to my handsome boyfriend and his friends play.” She said and kissed Liam on the mouth. All I could do was to stand there and stare at them. I really had missed a lot of things.
“Well I would actually love to hear everything I have missed.” I said and smiled. She laughed and dragged me towards the bar.
“Two martinis, please.” She said to the handsome bartender who surprisingly didn´t ask for an id. Which was really weird because after all we were at a school. But I didn´t care, all I cared about was that I was back where I belonged. He gave us our drinks and just when I was about to take a sip I thought I saw the familiar blond hair I had missed the most. I felt how the blood started rushing in my veins and how my heart started beating fast, I could almost hear it through the crowd.
“Hold this, please.” I said to Chloe and handed her the glass. Chloe looked confused around and when she saw Niall she stiffened.
“Amy I am not sure if that is such a good idea.” She said but I was too near my goal to stop now. I knocked carefully on Niall´s shoulder and when my eyes met his it was as the other piece of me I had missed in five months finally was back. All I wanted to do, all I could think of was to kiss him but just when I leaned forward he turned away.
“Amy…you are back…” He stammered and I didn´t see the smile I had hoped for on his lips.
“I am, and I have been thinking. I just wanted to say I love you and I will never leave again.” I said but still there was no smile on his lips.
“You look amazing.” He said and soon a stiff smile took place on his lips. Well, it´s a start, I thought ad grabbed his hand. But he carefully pushed mine away.
“Amy there is something you should know before…” He started and soon a brown haired girl came up to us and kissed Niall on the cheek.
“Honey, who is this?” She asked and suddenly I began to realize it. Niall hadn´t waited for me, he had moved on. Suddenly a wave of anger came towards me. It started to spread in my body and it felt like I was out of control. I had become some monster no one knew. But I wasn´t going to hit her, I wasn´t going to show my anger. God, how stupid of me? Thinking he´d wait, thinking we were soul mates after only two weeks. I mean there has to be a limit for how crazy I can be? Or is it?
“Can you give us a minute?” Niall whispered to the brown haired girlfriend who was really pretty even if I didn´t like to admit it.
“So a girlfriend, hugh?” I asked and felt how the tears were on their way. Don´t let him see you cry, don´t let him see you cry, I repeated in my mind.
“I waited, Amy, for a really long time but when you didn´t call, didn´t text I just…what was I suppose to do? Wait forever? I had to move on.” He said and even f I didn´t want to, the tears started pouring like a waterfall.
“No I get it, you couldn´t wait for me for five months, I didn´t mean that much to you.” I said and I knew it wasn´t fair to blame it all on him but life isn´t fair. And it was easier that way. But deep down inside I knew it was just as much my fault as his fault.
“Amy, don´t cry… I just…” He started but got interrupted by the speakers.
“And now give it up for the new boy band, one directions.”
“I am sorry I have to go, but we will talk later, okay?” He said and soon he was gone. I had no idea how many times I had seen him walk away from me. All I knew is that it was too many and it hurt like shit every single time. Soon I knew the tears would stop, I couldn´t spend anymore tears on him but just soon. Now all I could do was to spend tears on him. He is the only guy I have ever loved and he will probably be the only guy I will ever love. I just couldn´t do it to myself any longer, I couldn´t lose him one more time. I just couldn´t and that is why this time I will fight for him. Fight for what I want. And I will do it for myself, not anybody else just myself. Now it is all about me, myself and I.
I looked out the car window, saw how we were getting closer and closer. Soon I would meet everyone again. I was very nervous, nervous and excited. I mean five months is a really long time and what if they had forgotten about me? Maybe it was a bad idea to surprise them after all, I thought and now even if I didn´t want to ruin my outfit and makeup, that had take more than an hour to pick out, I started sweating like an old cow. I looked down on the pink skirt and wished I had picked a blue one instead. I mean come on I don´t even like pink, it just looks like I have tried too much which I have but it´s not suppose to be seen. But deep down inside I knew it wasn´t about the dress or my hair or my makeup it was about that I hadn´t spoken to anyone of them in five months not even sent them a text. I had just postponed it all the time and then suddenly here I was on my way back after five months. I couldn´t believe it had gone by five months already. It felt like one month. I was happy Summer would get out tomorrow though, if everything was crazy I would at least have her here. But maybe she would just hang out with her new girlfriend.
“We are here, Ms.” the taxi driver said and interrupted my thoughts. Okay, now or never, I thought and gave him a smile.
“Here you go, keep the change.” I said and gave him enough money for two tours. Then I stepped out of the car and carefully started walking towards the apartment. But just when I was about to step inside I looked around. I remembered when I came here for the first time. When I thought I was a murderer. It was horrible but all I could think of was that park! I smiled, so much have happened ever since but still here I was just as nervous as the first time. I opened the door and ran upstairs where I knocked three times on the front door. It took a long time before someone opened but soon I saw dad´s familiar face in front of me.
“Hi stranger.” he said and hugged me. I smiled, at least my father hadn´t changed.
“Hi daddy.” I whispered and suddenly I noticed how much I really had missed him, missed the city, missed my friends. Just missed everything!
“Oh my god!” I heard a scream from the kitchen and suddenly my mom´s face showed up and before I knew it she was in the hug too. My smile grew even bigger, this is what a family should look like and I just knew that from now and on it will.
“Come on in.” Mom almost screamed and I walked inside while dad picked up my bags.
“If I would have known you would come today I would have made some cookies but now all we got is this, I hope it´s fine.” Mom said and brought out a plate of sandwiches. But I was too shocked to say yes, what had happened to her? I had never seen her like this in my entire life.
“We have news honey.” She said after a while when all of us were sitting around the table.
“Okay tell me.” I said with my mouth filled with bread.
“Well, your father and I are getting married.” She screamed and now I was in real shock, what had I missed?
“You are? But… I thought you already were married.” I said and tried to swallow the bread but it just didn´t want to fall down into my stomach.
“Yeah but we wanna do it again and this time it is for real.” She said and now my smile grew even bigger than before. She wasn´t kidding.
“Well that is great.” I said and hugged both of them. But in my mind it was everything but great if my mom had changed this much what has happened to Niall? And to Chloe for that matter?
“Hey mom I am really happy for the news, I love that we are finally at least trying to be a normal family. But I have to leave, I have to go and see Niall.” I said and gave mom a kiss on her cheek.
“I heard that there is a party at five pm in the school to celebrate the summer break, why don´t you go to that?” She asked and I nodded. That would be perfect, doing my comeback at a party. I looked at the watch, it showed half past four which meant I had to leave in twenty minutes.
“Thanks mom, I gotta go and change.” I said and hurried to my room where I ripped all of my clothes out of the bag and tried to pick out a dress. It was kind of sad that after all the time I had spent on my old outfit had gone to waste but I couldn´t wear this at a party, I just couldn´t. After a lots of ifs and buts I was done and even I got to admit it, I looked fabulous. The dress might be really simple but it really fitted with the blue accessories. I was ready for my comeback.
“Mom I will head down to school.” I screamed and hurried towards the door, I was already late.
“Wait honey there is something you need to know about Nia…” She started but I didn´t listen I just hurried down the stairs, grabbed a cab and then suddenly I was there. I was finally back, outside the school. Finally I was going to meet everyone again. It was almost as I could feel their present, feel Niall´s present. The butterflies were back and I had almost forgotten how great it felt being in love. Everyone should at least be in love once in their life. I walked briskly towards the building, feeling like a kid on her birthday. I opened the doors and the music hit me. It was an old song by Elvis Presley, I smiled, could this evening get any better? But I knew it could and all I needed to make it the best night was a kiss from Niall. I looked around in the dark room, there were people everywhere. I looked around to see if anyone I knew was there but I literally couldn´t see anything. I sighed, this wasn´t exactly the comeback I had pictured.
“Amy is that really you?” I heard a voice behind me and slowly I turned around. There in front of me Liam was standing only a much hotter Liam. His hair was cut in a little shorter hairstyle and he wore a red shirt that really fitted him. Even if I barely knew him it was great seeing someone familiar.
“Hi Liam, how are you?” I asked and smiled.
“Well great but I mean… when did you get back?” He asked and drew his hand through his hair.
“Just an hour ago or something like that.” I said and just when he was about to answer a little scream came from a very familiar now brown haired girl.
“Oh my god, Amy! It´s great to see you, how have you been?” Chloe shouted and throw her arms around me. I smiled and drew in the sweet smell of her perfume. Finally it felt like I was whole again, man how I had missed this girl. No way I was never letting her go again.
“Now I am great.” I smiled and I heard the sweet little giggle.
“You have missed so much but we will talk about that later. First you need a drink, and then we will listen to my handsome boyfriend and his friends play.” She said and kissed Liam on the mouth. All I could do was to stand there and stare at them. I really had missed a lot of things.
“Well I would actually love to hear everything I have missed.” I said and smiled. She laughed and dragged me towards the bar.
“Two martinis, please.” She said to the handsome bartender who surprisingly didn´t ask for an id. Which was really weird because after all we were at a school. But I didn´t care, all I cared about was that I was back where I belonged. He gave us our drinks and just when I was about to take a sip I thought I saw the familiar blond hair I had missed the most. I felt how the blood started rushing in my veins and how my heart started beating fast, I could almost hear it through the crowd.
“Hold this, please.” I said to Chloe and handed her the glass. Chloe looked confused around and when she saw Niall she stiffened.
“Amy I am not sure if that is such a good idea.” She said but I was too near my goal to stop now. I knocked carefully on Niall´s shoulder and when my eyes met his it was as the other piece of me I had missed in five months finally was back. All I wanted to do, all I could think of was to kiss him but just when I leaned forward he turned away.
“Amy…you are back…” He stammered and I didn´t see the smile I had hoped for on his lips.
“I am, and I have been thinking. I just wanted to say I love you and I will never leave again.” I said but still there was no smile on his lips.
“You look amazing.” He said and soon a stiff smile took place on his lips. Well, it´s a start, I thought ad grabbed his hand. But he carefully pushed mine away.
“Amy there is something you should know before…” He started and soon a brown haired girl came up to us and kissed Niall on the cheek.
“Honey, who is this?” She asked and suddenly I began to realize it. Niall hadn´t waited for me, he had moved on. Suddenly a wave of anger came towards me. It started to spread in my body and it felt like I was out of control. I had become some monster no one knew. But I wasn´t going to hit her, I wasn´t going to show my anger. God, how stupid of me? Thinking he´d wait, thinking we were soul mates after only two weeks. I mean there has to be a limit for how crazy I can be? Or is it?
“Can you give us a minute?” Niall whispered to the brown haired girlfriend who was really pretty even if I didn´t like to admit it.
“So a girlfriend, hugh?” I asked and felt how the tears were on their way. Don´t let him see you cry, don´t let him see you cry, I repeated in my mind.
“I waited, Amy, for a really long time but when you didn´t call, didn´t text I just…what was I suppose to do? Wait forever? I had to move on.” He said and even f I didn´t want to, the tears started pouring like a waterfall.
“No I get it, you couldn´t wait for me for five months, I didn´t mean that much to you.” I said and I knew it wasn´t fair to blame it all on him but life isn´t fair. And it was easier that way. But deep down inside I knew it was just as much my fault as his fault.
“Amy, don´t cry… I just…” He started but got interrupted by the speakers.
“And now give it up for the new boy band, one directions.”
“I am sorry I have to go, but we will talk later, okay?” He said and soon he was gone. I had no idea how many times I had seen him walk away from me. All I knew is that it was too many and it hurt like shit every single time. Soon I knew the tears would stop, I couldn´t spend anymore tears on him but just soon. Now all I could do was to spend tears on him. He is the only guy I have ever loved and he will probably be the only guy I will ever love. I just couldn´t do it to myself any longer, I couldn´t lose him one more time. I just couldn´t and that is why this time I will fight for him. Fight for what I want. And I will do it for myself, not anybody else just myself. Now it is all about me, myself and I.
Notes
Hello guys! Gotta rush but hope you liked this one, love E<3Do you think Amy and Niall will get back together?
What more do you think have happened while Amy was gone?
@stolemyheart
Did you die because of your beauty or something? :0
4/27/14