The new start
Chapter fifty-three, "I forgive you"
“Amy, calm down! I am sure it´s just something she says. I mean what do you think she will do? Kill him?” Logan said but it didn´t make me feel better at all. I felt sick and like I wanted to throw up. I just couldn´t believe I had actually trusted this girl, I mean she is clearly insane.
“I wouldn´t be surprised or she will do something even worse. I don´t know all I know is that this is for real, not some joke.” I said and started typing back to her.
“What are you doing? You are not making that deal with her, are you?” Logan said but I ignored his angry voice.
“Yeah, of course I am. Otherwise this will not end good.” I said and was just about to press send when Logan stopped me.
“Look Amy, You can´t go back there and pretend like everything is fine. You have to stand up for yourself. You can´t just let her say or do whatever she wants without any consequences.” I knew he was right, of course I knew that. But I was scared to death, this girl obviously has some problems and if I don´t do anything she will just keep doing this not only to me but to others too.
“But what am I suppose to do? I have no plan and I am not like her. Everything I do just stays in me and it just gives me nightmares and all kinds of horrible stuff.” I said and wiped away a tear from my cheek.
“But do you know what you have that she doesn´t?” He asked and I shook my head.
“People who cares about you and if you have that you have the best thing in life.” He said and in all my crying I smiled. Smiled because Logan was so nice to me, smiled because maybe I was finally going to do the right thing.
“But what about you and your mum? Will you be okay without me?” I asked and Logan hugged me.
“Of course I will. I am almost there and I think it will be better if I go alone.” He said in my hair and it just made me cry more.
“But you have to hurry, the only night bus is leaving in thirty minutes.” He said and I got quickly up on my feet.
“Thank you, Logan. You are a really good guy.” I said before I started to get dressed. The tired feeling that I had felt was gone and all I felt was a feeling that I was doing the right thing. I had no idea how I was going to stop Summer but I was. I was going to do it for Logan, for Chloe, for my dad, for my mum, for Niall but mostly for myself. It felt good, it was a long time ago since I had done something for myself. When I was done with my outfit and makeup I was actually really looking good.
“Wow, do you know that you are just taking the bus?” Logan asked when he saw me and I laughed.
“I got to look good when I stop Summer.” I said before I applied some more lipstick on my lips.
“Let me show you the way to the bus station on this map.” Logan said and showed me how to walk. Even if I was really bad at finding stuff I learned the way pretty fast. Maybe because I was so purposeful. I grabbed my bag and realized that I was actually going to miss Logan. He had been so nice to me even though I had almost murdered him.
“I will miss you, do you promise to call and tell me if you find your mum?” I asked and hugged him one last time.
“I do. Good luck then.” He said before we let go and I started walking towards the door.
“Thanks, bye.” I said and just when I was about to walk out of the room Logan started talking again.
“Amy?” He said and I turned around.
“Yeah?”
“I forgive you.” He said and I smiled. It was like something inside of me heeled when he said the words and I gave him a blow kiss before I closed the door and hurried outside. I had only ten minutes to get to the bus and it was a pretty long walk. The feeling of when he had said that he forgave me was still bubbling inside of me. I was so nice to finally feel like you had done something good. Like you had righted your wrongs. When I had walked for a while I really regretted that I had taken heels. I felt how the blisters were growing on my feet and how my toes were hurting. But the smile didn´t leave my lips, I mean he had forgiven me! When I arrived to the bus station no one was there. It was just me and my bag along with the darkness. A sting of nervousness went through my body. Had the bus already left? Am I too late? Just when I was going to try to get a lift the red bus stopped in front of me. I hadn´t missed it. I walked inside and dug in my bag for my wallet. There were no one else on the bus and a creepy feeling snuck up on me. The bus driver was an old man with a bald head and eyes that looked just on the wrong spot. I shuddered and hurried to pay before I sank down at the back of the bus with my bag in my hand. Just in case the bus driver tried to steal it. But then I felt so tired, I hadn´t slept for so long. I closed my eyes and fell asleep right away.
“Ma´am you need to leave the bus now. You haven´t paid for any longer.” The bus driver screamed in my ear and I woke up quickly. I looked around and it took a while to remember where I was. But when I saw the bus driver´s angry eyes I knew I had to get off. So I jumped of the bus and I had barely touched the ground before the bus started driving again. When I got out I knew I wasn´t at the right station, nothing looked familiar, not even the trees were the same. I looked to see if there was someone I could ask and in a park just across the street a man and a woman were standing. I hurried over the street and I almost got hit by a car but I was in such a rush that I didn´t notice.
“Excuse me, where am I and how do I get to London?” I asked and the woman turned around. She looked kind, it was the right choice to ask her and not the man.
“Where in London? She asked and I desperately tried to remember the name of my school it started with London but that was all I could remember.
“The boarding school there, something with London. Uhm… oh now I remember, London´s international academic school.” I said and gave her a smile but the truth was that I was really stresses out. I had no idea how long time it was to get there, could I walk? And what time is it? It must be morning, it´s so sunny. It was actually a really good weather even if it was autumn. The sun was high up on the sky and it wasn´t a cloud in sight. Just a little windy but nothing you couldn´t handle.
“It´s a quarter there with car. I am going there myself, why don´t you go with me?” She asked and I smiled.
“Really? That would be great!” I said even though I knew mum and dad had told me to never leave with a stranger. But this woman looked really nice with her brown hair and beautiful brown eyes, she reminded me a little of Zayn. I shuddered, Zayn is such a jerk. What he did to Chloe, it´s just horrible. She nodded and started walking towards a white car and I followed her.
“So why are you going to that school?” I asked before I stepped into her car.
“My son goes there, Zayn. I thought that I was going to visit him.” She said and I saw how her eyes lighted up when she said his name. But I couldn´t help it but think, poor girl. I mean she thinks Zayn is such a wonderful boy but he tried to rape Chloe.
“Oh.” I said because I couldn´t come up with anything else. I didn´t say anything about him and Chloe, I thought that was something between him and her. The rest of the trip we were totally quiet, I just thought that if I opened my mouth it would slip out and she would probably throw me out on the street. From what I could see she and Zayn had a good relationship.
“We are here.” She said and I smiled.
“Thank you for the ride.” I said and to my surprise Zayn´s mum hugged me. I hugged carefully back, I am not so comfortable hugging strangers.
“You are welcome.” She said and just when I was going to answer my phone started buzzing. It was a text from Summer.
Summer: You haven´t answered so I take it as you backed out.
I snorted, really happy that I hadn´t.
Amy: No, I am not baking out. You are a whore and you will live a lonely and miserable life. I won´t let you do anything to Niall or Chloe but I won´t either be your friend.
I smiled when I pressed send, it felt really good to finally stand up for myself. When I walked into the school it was empty. Not a single soul was in there and I started to panic. Had Summer killed everyone in this school because of my text? Are you going crazy now, Amy? Of course she haven´t, I thought and decided to go to the principal’s office to see if Mrs. Adams was here. I knocked five times on her door, just for her to open faster. But it had the opposite effect, she opened even slower than last time, if that was possible. But there she was at least, just as stubby as yesterday.
“Amy, are you already back? Come on inside.” She said but I shook my head.
“No, I just have a question.” I said but Mrs. Adams gave me a look that said “come on inside now, you son of a bitch. So I walked inside and she didn´t have to say anything I knew that she wanted me to sit on the chair in front of the desk and stare at the cow painting. Mrs. Adams sat down on the small chair behind the desk just like last time.
“So Amy what is your question?" She asked and leaned forward just like she was some sort of psychologist. Just the stank of her breath made me flinch and lean as far away as possible from her.
“Where is everyone?” I asked simply.
“At the history museum. If I had known you were coming back I would have gotten you a ticket too but you didn´t mention anything.” She said and leaned a little longer forward. The stank embraced me again and I stood up quickly. I didn´t know if it was because I had to hurry to the museum or if it was because she stank so badly.
“Thank you, bye.” I said and before she even had reacted I was gone outside the door. I picked up my phone to call Niall but inside my attention was drawn to a text Summer had sent me.
Summer: Your choice. Just remember that a museum is big and that there are lots of places to hide where people can´t see you.
I looked down at the text a million times and I couldn´t believe it. I had thought that I was making the right decision. But apparently there was no limit for how far Summer would go to prove something. Something I already knew, she is better than me and she always gets what she wants. But this time, I knew it was too late. She had already won. I was too far away to do something. I had lost against Summer. Again.
“I wouldn´t be surprised or she will do something even worse. I don´t know all I know is that this is for real, not some joke.” I said and started typing back to her.
“What are you doing? You are not making that deal with her, are you?” Logan said but I ignored his angry voice.
“Yeah, of course I am. Otherwise this will not end good.” I said and was just about to press send when Logan stopped me.
“Look Amy, You can´t go back there and pretend like everything is fine. You have to stand up for yourself. You can´t just let her say or do whatever she wants without any consequences.” I knew he was right, of course I knew that. But I was scared to death, this girl obviously has some problems and if I don´t do anything she will just keep doing this not only to me but to others too.
“But what am I suppose to do? I have no plan and I am not like her. Everything I do just stays in me and it just gives me nightmares and all kinds of horrible stuff.” I said and wiped away a tear from my cheek.
“But do you know what you have that she doesn´t?” He asked and I shook my head.
“People who cares about you and if you have that you have the best thing in life.” He said and in all my crying I smiled. Smiled because Logan was so nice to me, smiled because maybe I was finally going to do the right thing.
“But what about you and your mum? Will you be okay without me?” I asked and Logan hugged me.
“Of course I will. I am almost there and I think it will be better if I go alone.” He said in my hair and it just made me cry more.
“But you have to hurry, the only night bus is leaving in thirty minutes.” He said and I got quickly up on my feet.
“Thank you, Logan. You are a really good guy.” I said before I started to get dressed. The tired feeling that I had felt was gone and all I felt was a feeling that I was doing the right thing. I had no idea how I was going to stop Summer but I was. I was going to do it for Logan, for Chloe, for my dad, for my mum, for Niall but mostly for myself. It felt good, it was a long time ago since I had done something for myself. When I was done with my outfit and makeup I was actually really looking good.
“Wow, do you know that you are just taking the bus?” Logan asked when he saw me and I laughed.
“I got to look good when I stop Summer.” I said before I applied some more lipstick on my lips.
“Let me show you the way to the bus station on this map.” Logan said and showed me how to walk. Even if I was really bad at finding stuff I learned the way pretty fast. Maybe because I was so purposeful. I grabbed my bag and realized that I was actually going to miss Logan. He had been so nice to me even though I had almost murdered him.
“I will miss you, do you promise to call and tell me if you find your mum?” I asked and hugged him one last time.
“I do. Good luck then.” He said before we let go and I started walking towards the door.
“Thanks, bye.” I said and just when I was about to walk out of the room Logan started talking again.
“Amy?” He said and I turned around.
“Yeah?”
“I forgive you.” He said and I smiled. It was like something inside of me heeled when he said the words and I gave him a blow kiss before I closed the door and hurried outside. I had only ten minutes to get to the bus and it was a pretty long walk. The feeling of when he had said that he forgave me was still bubbling inside of me. I was so nice to finally feel like you had done something good. Like you had righted your wrongs. When I had walked for a while I really regretted that I had taken heels. I felt how the blisters were growing on my feet and how my toes were hurting. But the smile didn´t leave my lips, I mean he had forgiven me! When I arrived to the bus station no one was there. It was just me and my bag along with the darkness. A sting of nervousness went through my body. Had the bus already left? Am I too late? Just when I was going to try to get a lift the red bus stopped in front of me. I hadn´t missed it. I walked inside and dug in my bag for my wallet. There were no one else on the bus and a creepy feeling snuck up on me. The bus driver was an old man with a bald head and eyes that looked just on the wrong spot. I shuddered and hurried to pay before I sank down at the back of the bus with my bag in my hand. Just in case the bus driver tried to steal it. But then I felt so tired, I hadn´t slept for so long. I closed my eyes and fell asleep right away.
“Ma´am you need to leave the bus now. You haven´t paid for any longer.” The bus driver screamed in my ear and I woke up quickly. I looked around and it took a while to remember where I was. But when I saw the bus driver´s angry eyes I knew I had to get off. So I jumped of the bus and I had barely touched the ground before the bus started driving again. When I got out I knew I wasn´t at the right station, nothing looked familiar, not even the trees were the same. I looked to see if there was someone I could ask and in a park just across the street a man and a woman were standing. I hurried over the street and I almost got hit by a car but I was in such a rush that I didn´t notice.
“Excuse me, where am I and how do I get to London?” I asked and the woman turned around. She looked kind, it was the right choice to ask her and not the man.
“Where in London? She asked and I desperately tried to remember the name of my school it started with London but that was all I could remember.
“The boarding school there, something with London. Uhm… oh now I remember, London´s international academic school.” I said and gave her a smile but the truth was that I was really stresses out. I had no idea how long time it was to get there, could I walk? And what time is it? It must be morning, it´s so sunny. It was actually a really good weather even if it was autumn. The sun was high up on the sky and it wasn´t a cloud in sight. Just a little windy but nothing you couldn´t handle.
“It´s a quarter there with car. I am going there myself, why don´t you go with me?” She asked and I smiled.
“Really? That would be great!” I said even though I knew mum and dad had told me to never leave with a stranger. But this woman looked really nice with her brown hair and beautiful brown eyes, she reminded me a little of Zayn. I shuddered, Zayn is such a jerk. What he did to Chloe, it´s just horrible. She nodded and started walking towards a white car and I followed her.
“So why are you going to that school?” I asked before I stepped into her car.
“My son goes there, Zayn. I thought that I was going to visit him.” She said and I saw how her eyes lighted up when she said his name. But I couldn´t help it but think, poor girl. I mean she thinks Zayn is such a wonderful boy but he tried to rape Chloe.
“Oh.” I said because I couldn´t come up with anything else. I didn´t say anything about him and Chloe, I thought that was something between him and her. The rest of the trip we were totally quiet, I just thought that if I opened my mouth it would slip out and she would probably throw me out on the street. From what I could see she and Zayn had a good relationship.
“We are here.” She said and I smiled.
“Thank you for the ride.” I said and to my surprise Zayn´s mum hugged me. I hugged carefully back, I am not so comfortable hugging strangers.
“You are welcome.” She said and just when I was going to answer my phone started buzzing. It was a text from Summer.
Summer: You haven´t answered so I take it as you backed out.
I snorted, really happy that I hadn´t.
Amy: No, I am not baking out. You are a whore and you will live a lonely and miserable life. I won´t let you do anything to Niall or Chloe but I won´t either be your friend.
I smiled when I pressed send, it felt really good to finally stand up for myself. When I walked into the school it was empty. Not a single soul was in there and I started to panic. Had Summer killed everyone in this school because of my text? Are you going crazy now, Amy? Of course she haven´t, I thought and decided to go to the principal’s office to see if Mrs. Adams was here. I knocked five times on her door, just for her to open faster. But it had the opposite effect, she opened even slower than last time, if that was possible. But there she was at least, just as stubby as yesterday.
“Amy, are you already back? Come on inside.” She said but I shook my head.
“No, I just have a question.” I said but Mrs. Adams gave me a look that said “come on inside now, you son of a bitch. So I walked inside and she didn´t have to say anything I knew that she wanted me to sit on the chair in front of the desk and stare at the cow painting. Mrs. Adams sat down on the small chair behind the desk just like last time.
“So Amy what is your question?" She asked and leaned forward just like she was some sort of psychologist. Just the stank of her breath made me flinch and lean as far away as possible from her.
“Where is everyone?” I asked simply.
“At the history museum. If I had known you were coming back I would have gotten you a ticket too but you didn´t mention anything.” She said and leaned a little longer forward. The stank embraced me again and I stood up quickly. I didn´t know if it was because I had to hurry to the museum or if it was because she stank so badly.
“Thank you, bye.” I said and before she even had reacted I was gone outside the door. I picked up my phone to call Niall but inside my attention was drawn to a text Summer had sent me.
Summer: Your choice. Just remember that a museum is big and that there are lots of places to hide where people can´t see you.
I looked down at the text a million times and I couldn´t believe it. I had thought that I was making the right decision. But apparently there was no limit for how far Summer would go to prove something. Something I already knew, she is better than me and she always gets what she wants. But this time, I knew it was too late. She had already won. I was too far away to do something. I had lost against Summer. Again.
Notes
Hi guys! I don´t know why but this chapter didn´t become so good, sorry ;/ But anyway I hope you liked it even if it was kind of boring / kisses EWhat will Amy do now?
Do you think she made the wrong decision of not making that deal with Summer?
@stolemyheart
Did you die because of your beauty or something? :0
4/27/14