The new start
Chapter fifty-four, "The third option"
I sank down on a stone and felt how the coldness spread in my body. I felt how my organs froze not only because of the stone but because of the fact that Summer won. Again. All I could do now was wait and hope she didn´t do anything too bad. I wanted to let the coldness out of me, to just cry it away. To just cry away all the sadness that was inside my body but it was impossible. Even if the tears were flowing like a waterfall inside of me they didn´t reach my eyes. It was like I was so broke that something stopped them from pouring down my cheeks. Like there was this big hole where they float down instead.
"Excuse me little girl." I heard a voice behind me and I woke up from my thoughts. I turned around and in front of me an old lady was standing. But even if she was old she looked happier than ever. It was like her eyes were shining and like her mouth wouldn´t stop smiling. I want to be that happy, I thought.
"Yes?" I said, trying to not sound angry. Trying to remind myself that this was not her fault and that I shouldn´t take it out on her.
"You look sad what´s on your mind?" She asked and it was like the words opened something up inside of me. It was such a long time since someone had asked me something so simple as if I were okay. The tears started pouring down from my cheeks and it felt so good to just let it all out. I thought the old lady would walk away because of my weird behavior but she sat down beside me and held me in her arms.
"You can talk to me." She said and suddenly I stopped crying. I didn´t care that she was a complete stranger or that she might be a killer or something. All I cared about was that she seemed to care about me. For once someone actually seemed to care about others and it was nice to see that those people still exist.
"Well, it´s just this guy. I am about to lose him and there is nothing I can do about it." I said and the words made my tears start pouring again. But in this women´s arms I felt safe almost as safe as I felt in Niall´s arms. But when I said the words she let go of me and stood up quickly.
"Girl, you will for sure lose him if you sit here. You can´t cry before it´s over. You have to fight until you know that there is nothing more you can do." She said and I looked surprised up on her. Her caring self was gone and replaced by complete anger.
"But it´s too late..." I said but she shook her head.
"No, it´s never too late. Where is he?" She asked and suddenly I realized that she was right. Summer hadn´t won, not yet and I was for god sake not giving up that easily.
"At the history museum." I said and she smiled.
"Come with me, little girl." She said and we walked over to a brown car. Maybe it was weird, maybe I shouldn´t go inside the car, maybe she is some crazy freak. But I didn´t care, this was my one chance to save Niall and I was going to take it. I stepped inside and the old lady started the car. I have to say that I really had underestimated old people. This women drove like an angel. The car moved fast and ably past every kinds of cars and faster than ever we were there. We were outside the museum. We were outside the love of my life. Outside my best friend. And outside a crazy freak. I gave the old lady a smile.
"Thank you so much, Ms...?" I started and the old lady grabbed my hand.
"Mrs. Clarkson I recently got married you know, good luck!" She said and I stepped out of the car. I started walking briskly towards the museum and just when I was about to go inside I turned around to just see the brown car drive out of sight. I took a deep breath before I stepped inside the building and then I realized that I had been so caught up in the moment that I didn´t even have a plan and not only that. I had no idea what Summer´s plan was. I was just about to turn around when I remembered how the Mrs. Clarkson had reacted when she realized that I had given up. If I wasn´t doing this for myself or for Niall I was doing this for her. Because of that she believe in me. She had cared for people that she doesn´t even know. Before I had regretted it again I walked towards the history section. I have no idea where they are but I was going to find them somehow.
"Amy?" I heard Zayn´s voice behind me and I really wanted to ignore it. To just keep walking but I couldn´t not after what his mum had done for me.
"What is it?" I asked and turned around.
"I heard that my mum... had like driven you here and I just... you didn´t tell her, did you?" He asked and his shy side was back. But I was not going to get fooled of that side again. I remembered the look of Chloe´s face too well.
"No I didn´t but it was not for you I did it. It was for her, she thinks you are so kind. I think you should tell her though. She needs to know." I said and Zayn breathed out.
"Look I am sorry Amy. I don´t know what got into my head. I mean I thought she wanted to and then she didn´t and then it was like I couldn´t control myself. I...I... I am just sorry. Could you say that to Chloe?" He asked but I shook my head.
"That was the lamest excuse that I have ever heard. You couldn´t control yourself." I said, and I was almost spitting out the words. This boy was insane.
"Your right, it´s a lie. It wasn´t because of that and I wasn´t trying to rape her if that´s what you think. I was angry, what she said about my mum, how see used what I had told her. It was mean and it´s not an excuse but right at the moment I felt pure hate and it kinda took the control over me." He said and I looked surprised at him.
"Chloe would never say anything mean to anyone she is everything but mean." I said and he nodded.
"She is, but she was mad at me too. It´s complicated. You have to talk to her. I just hope that someday you might forgive me." He said before he turned around and at this moment I was almost about to do it, just because I had seen what kindness was. But I wasn´t that kind. The sight of Chloe´s face wouldn´t get out of my head. So instead of running after him I ignored it and continued searching for Niall. I looked everywhere behind dinosaurs, in all kinds of corners. I even looked inside a coffin but all I found was dirt and a huge zombie. It was hopeless, I was never going to find Niall and Summer. But then I saw him, the blond hair, the blue eyes, the beautiful smile. Everything was there in front of me. Summer´s words had just been empty threats. My stomach got filled up with relief and nervousness. Because even if Summer wasn´t attacking him he would be mad at me or maybe he had a new girlfriend. I mean he hadn´t answered my voicemail. I sighed, I had to talk to him. I had to.
"Niall, wait up!" I screamed and he turned around. The blue eyes met me and I felt how the thrill of excitement went through my body. The butterflies had also found their way back to my stomach.
"What is it?" He asked and when I heard the anger in his voice the butterflies was gone and a sting of sadness replaced them.
"Did you get my message?" I asked and he shook his head.
"I have lost my phone and I would be really happy if you would just leave me alone." He said and the butterflies were back. There was still hope for us. But just when I was going to tell him a text message popped up on my phone.
Summer: You think you´re smart but don´t you get it? This is what I wanted, you to see everything.You have him now but he will be gone any minute, with me. He has eyes for me now, only me.
I couldn´t believe it, Summer and Niall? No it can´t be true. She has to lie.
"Are you and Summer together?" I asked and really tried to keep the tears inside. Keep them from flooding down from my eyes. Keep them from turning myself into water. Because soon that´s all I am going to be, water.
"Not that it´s any of your business but yes." He said and the words made my whole inside break. This girl is just crazy, a psychopath. I shuddered, she had taken everything from me and still she was the one that was happy and I was the one with a broken inside.
"But Summer is dangerous." I said but Niall just gave me an angry look.
"No you are. She actually makes me happy, you broke my heart. And you are so selfish that you can´t even be happy for me. I am so done grieving for you." He said and ran away.
"But I love you." I whispered before I sank down on the floor. Again. This cold fucking floor could just go to hell. I was tired of it, tired of myself, tired of crying, tired of this damn it black hole inside of me. Just when I thought it couldn´t be any worse another text from Summer popped up.
Summer: I have him, truly in love with me. Sadly I don´t feel that about him. What do you said about a new deal? I won´t hurt him, in return you will be my friend and only my friend. One last chance Amy, take it.
I looked down at it. Whatever game this girl was playing, I didn´t like it. But that didn´t matter because no one cares what I think. I was just this player that everyone liked messing with and that girl had a choice. Either she could sit here on the cold stupid floor or she could stand up and save the love of her life the consequence of that was that she had to live in a hell. None of the options sounded very tempting but life is life and I knew what to do. Somewhere inside of me I knew it. And it was neither of those options.
"Excuse me little girl." I heard a voice behind me and I woke up from my thoughts. I turned around and in front of me an old lady was standing. But even if she was old she looked happier than ever. It was like her eyes were shining and like her mouth wouldn´t stop smiling. I want to be that happy, I thought.
"Yes?" I said, trying to not sound angry. Trying to remind myself that this was not her fault and that I shouldn´t take it out on her.
"You look sad what´s on your mind?" She asked and it was like the words opened something up inside of me. It was such a long time since someone had asked me something so simple as if I were okay. The tears started pouring down from my cheeks and it felt so good to just let it all out. I thought the old lady would walk away because of my weird behavior but she sat down beside me and held me in her arms.
"You can talk to me." She said and suddenly I stopped crying. I didn´t care that she was a complete stranger or that she might be a killer or something. All I cared about was that she seemed to care about me. For once someone actually seemed to care about others and it was nice to see that those people still exist.
"Well, it´s just this guy. I am about to lose him and there is nothing I can do about it." I said and the words made my tears start pouring again. But in this women´s arms I felt safe almost as safe as I felt in Niall´s arms. But when I said the words she let go of me and stood up quickly.
"Girl, you will for sure lose him if you sit here. You can´t cry before it´s over. You have to fight until you know that there is nothing more you can do." She said and I looked surprised up on her. Her caring self was gone and replaced by complete anger.
"But it´s too late..." I said but she shook her head.
"No, it´s never too late. Where is he?" She asked and suddenly I realized that she was right. Summer hadn´t won, not yet and I was for god sake not giving up that easily.
"At the history museum." I said and she smiled.
"Come with me, little girl." She said and we walked over to a brown car. Maybe it was weird, maybe I shouldn´t go inside the car, maybe she is some crazy freak. But I didn´t care, this was my one chance to save Niall and I was going to take it. I stepped inside and the old lady started the car. I have to say that I really had underestimated old people. This women drove like an angel. The car moved fast and ably past every kinds of cars and faster than ever we were there. We were outside the museum. We were outside the love of my life. Outside my best friend. And outside a crazy freak. I gave the old lady a smile.
"Thank you so much, Ms...?" I started and the old lady grabbed my hand.
"Mrs. Clarkson I recently got married you know, good luck!" She said and I stepped out of the car. I started walking briskly towards the museum and just when I was about to go inside I turned around to just see the brown car drive out of sight. I took a deep breath before I stepped inside the building and then I realized that I had been so caught up in the moment that I didn´t even have a plan and not only that. I had no idea what Summer´s plan was. I was just about to turn around when I remembered how the Mrs. Clarkson had reacted when she realized that I had given up. If I wasn´t doing this for myself or for Niall I was doing this for her. Because of that she believe in me. She had cared for people that she doesn´t even know. Before I had regretted it again I walked towards the history section. I have no idea where they are but I was going to find them somehow.
"Amy?" I heard Zayn´s voice behind me and I really wanted to ignore it. To just keep walking but I couldn´t not after what his mum had done for me.
"What is it?" I asked and turned around.
"I heard that my mum... had like driven you here and I just... you didn´t tell her, did you?" He asked and his shy side was back. But I was not going to get fooled of that side again. I remembered the look of Chloe´s face too well.
"No I didn´t but it was not for you I did it. It was for her, she thinks you are so kind. I think you should tell her though. She needs to know." I said and Zayn breathed out.
"Look I am sorry Amy. I don´t know what got into my head. I mean I thought she wanted to and then she didn´t and then it was like I couldn´t control myself. I...I... I am just sorry. Could you say that to Chloe?" He asked but I shook my head.
"That was the lamest excuse that I have ever heard. You couldn´t control yourself." I said, and I was almost spitting out the words. This boy was insane.
"Your right, it´s a lie. It wasn´t because of that and I wasn´t trying to rape her if that´s what you think. I was angry, what she said about my mum, how see used what I had told her. It was mean and it´s not an excuse but right at the moment I felt pure hate and it kinda took the control over me." He said and I looked surprised at him.
"Chloe would never say anything mean to anyone she is everything but mean." I said and he nodded.
"She is, but she was mad at me too. It´s complicated. You have to talk to her. I just hope that someday you might forgive me." He said before he turned around and at this moment I was almost about to do it, just because I had seen what kindness was. But I wasn´t that kind. The sight of Chloe´s face wouldn´t get out of my head. So instead of running after him I ignored it and continued searching for Niall. I looked everywhere behind dinosaurs, in all kinds of corners. I even looked inside a coffin but all I found was dirt and a huge zombie. It was hopeless, I was never going to find Niall and Summer. But then I saw him, the blond hair, the blue eyes, the beautiful smile. Everything was there in front of me. Summer´s words had just been empty threats. My stomach got filled up with relief and nervousness. Because even if Summer wasn´t attacking him he would be mad at me or maybe he had a new girlfriend. I mean he hadn´t answered my voicemail. I sighed, I had to talk to him. I had to.
"Niall, wait up!" I screamed and he turned around. The blue eyes met me and I felt how the thrill of excitement went through my body. The butterflies had also found their way back to my stomach.
"What is it?" He asked and when I heard the anger in his voice the butterflies was gone and a sting of sadness replaced them.
"Did you get my message?" I asked and he shook his head.
"I have lost my phone and I would be really happy if you would just leave me alone." He said and the butterflies were back. There was still hope for us. But just when I was going to tell him a text message popped up on my phone.
Summer: You think you´re smart but don´t you get it? This is what I wanted, you to see everything.You have him now but he will be gone any minute, with me. He has eyes for me now, only me.
I couldn´t believe it, Summer and Niall? No it can´t be true. She has to lie.
"Are you and Summer together?" I asked and really tried to keep the tears inside. Keep them from flooding down from my eyes. Keep them from turning myself into water. Because soon that´s all I am going to be, water.
"Not that it´s any of your business but yes." He said and the words made my whole inside break. This girl is just crazy, a psychopath. I shuddered, she had taken everything from me and still she was the one that was happy and I was the one with a broken inside.
"But Summer is dangerous." I said but Niall just gave me an angry look.
"No you are. She actually makes me happy, you broke my heart. And you are so selfish that you can´t even be happy for me. I am so done grieving for you." He said and ran away.
"But I love you." I whispered before I sank down on the floor. Again. This cold fucking floor could just go to hell. I was tired of it, tired of myself, tired of crying, tired of this damn it black hole inside of me. Just when I thought it couldn´t be any worse another text from Summer popped up.
Summer: I have him, truly in love with me. Sadly I don´t feel that about him. What do you said about a new deal? I won´t hurt him, in return you will be my friend and only my friend. One last chance Amy, take it.
I looked down at it. Whatever game this girl was playing, I didn´t like it. But that didn´t matter because no one cares what I think. I was just this player that everyone liked messing with and that girl had a choice. Either she could sit here on the cold stupid floor or she could stand up and save the love of her life the consequence of that was that she had to live in a hell. None of the options sounded very tempting but life is life and I knew what to do. Somewhere inside of me I knew it. And it was neither of those options.
Notes
Hi guys! So here you go the Thurday chapter and do you know what? This story is finished soon, lol! Weird, I know. It didn´t become excly like I wanted it but well well what the hell! Hope you liked this one/ kisses EWhat do you think Zayn meant when he tried to explain the whole rape situation? Do you think he told the truth?
What do you think is the third option? The one that Amy will do.
@stolemyheart
Did you die because of your beauty or something? :0
4/27/14