She's Not Afraid
Chapter 32
Charlotte's POV:
A gust of cold wind blew, causing me to shiver. Even after all this time, I longed for those arms to pull me in and shelter me from the frigid air. I felt pathetic.
“Three, two, one... Happy new year!” Music and banging and screaming came from inside. I’m glad I wasn't in there, being subjected to watching all those happy New Year kisses. I wished someone was here with me to celebrate, too bad Louis had other plans.The happy banter exuding from the small building was getting to me, mocking my isolation.
I stood up, not bothering to go back inside for my coat, and started walking the block that it took to get home, in my sleeveless red dress. Walking in the snow was made all the more difficult by my heels and so it took real concentration for me to walk. Eventually, the cold made me clumsy, and I quickly lost my balance.
I stayed down, lying in the snow in the middle of the street. Some tears escaped, but they froze before they could travel too far down my cheek. My arms looked like they were turning blue, but I didn’t care. I lost track of time, minutes passing with little meaning as things got cloudy. I laid there just thinking of him, not caring if I'd ever would get out of this situation.
I felt arms around me, lifting me from the snow. I imagined that they were Harry’s arms; I pretended that he wanted me. I felt like I was flying, my body was weightless, floating above the ground. Then it went from cold to warm, dark to bright, and I didn't understand, so everything faded into darkness.
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I woke up in our bed. Looking over and seeing Louis was still sound asleep, it was still dark out. I didn't think he'd come home like he promised, since he went to the bar with his buddies, but he also promised he wouldn't drink.
I sat up, and my head hurt. I didn't know how I got back to Louis and I's flat, but I remember imagining that Harry was here. I must have been experiencing hypothermia or something.
Louis moves beside me, murmuring "You okay, love?" he moves his arm over to the nightstand, flicking on the lamp. I realize i'm in his t-shirt and sweat pants, that was really sweet of him.
"I'm fine, babe." I say quietly, laying back down onto his chest as he sighs.
"I was really worried about you earlier, luckily I came back in time to see you almost passed out in the snow in front of the flat, what happened?" Louis asks concerned, playing with my hair.
"I don't know, I just fell, I don't really remember why I just didn't get up.." I say glancing up at him. I don't speak further even though I know why, its because of him. Lately I've been acting rather reckless, not really caring. My behavior has been worrying everyone, I just hope I don't slip into old habits.
"Come here," Lou whispers, pulling me up to the pillow, so were face to face. "I love you." He leans in kissing my lips so softly, gently, and lovingly, it makes my head spin. Bringing me back to reality for a moment, realizing this was my life now, I had to forget Harry.
Even thinking about his name, made my heart ache, I missed him. I had wished I wasn't so harsh to decide not to see him. But I honestly think its for the best that we don't see each other until the time is right, or we might slip back to what things used to be.
I pull away nodding, I've heard him say it many times before, I just don't know if he means it, or if I feel the same way. I haven't even said it back yet, I always stay silent because i'm a freaking coward to my feelings.
A knock on the door, makes me slightly jump back, looking over at Louis confusingly. Who would be here knocking so rudely and so loudly at this hour of night?
"i'll get it," I say crawling from the bed and making my way towards the bedroom door.
"Charlotte wait.' He says as I turn around, my hand on the knob. "I'll be right behind you, Let me just throw some thing on."
I nod, noticing he's sleeping in his boxers, as I make my way downstairs. Nervously I pull the door open, My eyes not believing what I see.
Harry stands there leaning sideways on the railing, breathing heavily, as he opens his mouth to speak.
"Ch-Char," He stutters my name out in a daze, i'm not sure if he recognizes its me, "I'm s-so cold."
"Louis!" Come down here!" I shout, wrapping my arm around harry, as he leans against me, his tall frame almost tumbling us over.
Lou arrives, looking at me then at harry before helping me, get him inside. We lay him down on the couch. I toss a blanket over him, as Louis makes his way back upstairs. I begin to leave but then Harry begins to talk again, "H-hold me"
I feel bad when I listen to his teeth chatter, seeing his face makes my knees weak. "Just for a little bit, I have to get back upstairs." I say quietly, so Louis won't hear me.
I lay down in front of him, as he wraps his arm around my waist, covering us in the blanket. He feels really cold, being this close, reminds me of how perfectly we fit together.
As I feel the rise and fall of his chest slow, I hear him say "Tell Charlotte, I love her."
A gust of cold wind blew, causing me to shiver. Even after all this time, I longed for those arms to pull me in and shelter me from the frigid air. I felt pathetic.
“Three, two, one... Happy new year!” Music and banging and screaming came from inside. I’m glad I wasn't in there, being subjected to watching all those happy New Year kisses. I wished someone was here with me to celebrate, too bad Louis had other plans.The happy banter exuding from the small building was getting to me, mocking my isolation.
I stood up, not bothering to go back inside for my coat, and started walking the block that it took to get home, in my sleeveless red dress. Walking in the snow was made all the more difficult by my heels and so it took real concentration for me to walk. Eventually, the cold made me clumsy, and I quickly lost my balance.
I stayed down, lying in the snow in the middle of the street. Some tears escaped, but they froze before they could travel too far down my cheek. My arms looked like they were turning blue, but I didn’t care. I lost track of time, minutes passing with little meaning as things got cloudy. I laid there just thinking of him, not caring if I'd ever would get out of this situation.
I felt arms around me, lifting me from the snow. I imagined that they were Harry’s arms; I pretended that he wanted me. I felt like I was flying, my body was weightless, floating above the ground. Then it went from cold to warm, dark to bright, and I didn't understand, so everything faded into darkness.
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I woke up in our bed. Looking over and seeing Louis was still sound asleep, it was still dark out. I didn't think he'd come home like he promised, since he went to the bar with his buddies, but he also promised he wouldn't drink.
I sat up, and my head hurt. I didn't know how I got back to Louis and I's flat, but I remember imagining that Harry was here. I must have been experiencing hypothermia or something.
Louis moves beside me, murmuring "You okay, love?" he moves his arm over to the nightstand, flicking on the lamp. I realize i'm in his t-shirt and sweat pants, that was really sweet of him.
"I'm fine, babe." I say quietly, laying back down onto his chest as he sighs.
"I was really worried about you earlier, luckily I came back in time to see you almost passed out in the snow in front of the flat, what happened?" Louis asks concerned, playing with my hair.
"I don't know, I just fell, I don't really remember why I just didn't get up.." I say glancing up at him. I don't speak further even though I know why, its because of him. Lately I've been acting rather reckless, not really caring. My behavior has been worrying everyone, I just hope I don't slip into old habits.
"Come here," Lou whispers, pulling me up to the pillow, so were face to face. "I love you." He leans in kissing my lips so softly, gently, and lovingly, it makes my head spin. Bringing me back to reality for a moment, realizing this was my life now, I had to forget Harry.
Even thinking about his name, made my heart ache, I missed him. I had wished I wasn't so harsh to decide not to see him. But I honestly think its for the best that we don't see each other until the time is right, or we might slip back to what things used to be.
I pull away nodding, I've heard him say it many times before, I just don't know if he means it, or if I feel the same way. I haven't even said it back yet, I always stay silent because i'm a freaking coward to my feelings.
A knock on the door, makes me slightly jump back, looking over at Louis confusingly. Who would be here knocking so rudely and so loudly at this hour of night?
"i'll get it," I say crawling from the bed and making my way towards the bedroom door.
"Charlotte wait.' He says as I turn around, my hand on the knob. "I'll be right behind you, Let me just throw some thing on."
I nod, noticing he's sleeping in his boxers, as I make my way downstairs. Nervously I pull the door open, My eyes not believing what I see.
Harry stands there leaning sideways on the railing, breathing heavily, as he opens his mouth to speak.
"Ch-Char," He stutters my name out in a daze, i'm not sure if he recognizes its me, "I'm s-so cold."
"Louis!" Come down here!" I shout, wrapping my arm around harry, as he leans against me, his tall frame almost tumbling us over.
Lou arrives, looking at me then at harry before helping me, get him inside. We lay him down on the couch. I toss a blanket over him, as Louis makes his way back upstairs. I begin to leave but then Harry begins to talk again, "H-hold me"
I feel bad when I listen to his teeth chatter, seeing his face makes my knees weak. "Just for a little bit, I have to get back upstairs." I say quietly, so Louis won't hear me.
I lay down in front of him, as he wraps his arm around my waist, covering us in the blanket. He feels really cold, being this close, reminds me of how perfectly we fit together.
As I feel the rise and fall of his chest slow, I hear him say "Tell Charlotte, I love her."
Notes
Aggh, What's gonna happen when harry wakes up? Will he remember? Probably not.. sadly. I hope you'll be glad to hear, that another chapter is on it's way very soon, i'm just going to take a break for a couple hours. No hard feelings right? Hope you enjoyed :) Next chapter is gunna be good.. (not trying to spoil anything) ;)PLEASE COMMENT, VOTE, SUBSCRIBE, RATE!
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1/11/15