She's Not Afraid
Chapter 31
*About 2 weeks later..*
Harry's POV:
"Harry, come and have some dinner." Niall says as he knocks on my door. I shout out to him that I'm fine but he continues to knock knowing that I'm going to get irritated by his repetitive behaviour. "Come on.." Niall groans and suddenly the door opens and the light from the corridor shines it's way into my room, I look away.
"I'm not hungry.." I say quickly as I avoid Niall. I don't want to be around anyone, not tonight. I just need a little bit of peace and quiet, that's all I ask. Niall sighs and turns the light on and my eyes instantly begin to burn at the sudden shock. I put my arm up covering my face, "Can you turn that off? I snap.
"Why are you sat in the dark?" He asks as he sits down next to me. I slowly lower my arm as my eyes begin to adjust to the light. I glance up at him and he looks at me with a worried look, I shrug as I look back away.
"I was just trying to relax." I mumble as I run a hand through my hair. Niall pats me on the back and stands up.
"You can relax later, come and eat." He repeats and I look up at him, I nod and stand up knowing he won't leave me alone unless I follow him. I turn the light off as I walk out with him and I take my coat from the hook, closing the door I double check I have my key, luckily it's in my pocket.
"Have you been okay lately, I've just noticed you've been acting different?" Niall asks as we begin to make our way to the restaurant across the street. I put my in my pockets and walk beside him. I shrug as I don't want to lie, but I don't want to go into it either.
"I'm fine." Is all I say. Niall stops me and turns to me with a concerned look that I'm quite used to seeing lately from the boys, "Why are we stopping here?" I ask even though I know the answer myself.
"You can't keep going the way you are mate." Niall says gently as if he's cautious at my reaction. I look away as I reach up and ruffle my hair, "I said I'm fucking fine, okay."
"Your not okay harry, Because if you were, You'd be getting over Charlotte."
I close my eyes and take a deep breathe, hearing her name give me chest pains. I miss her so much, I haven't seen her since the break up, the boys tell me she's doing fine, but she just doesn't want to see me.
Suddenly tears begin to stream from my face as memories come flooding back. but I quickly wipe them away. I didn't mean to get so emotional around Niall, I hate that I get so sensitive sometimes...
"I'm sorry mate," he apologizes, "I didn't mean to upset you, let's forget about it over some drinks, It's on me."
"Okay." I mumbled, as we enter the grill. The same grill Charlotte and I were at just weeks ago, smiling and laughing. As we talked about visiting Paris one day together.
"What can I start you two with?" The waitress asks as we sit down, bring me back to reality. It remains silent between us two until the food arrives.
As Niall begins to scarf down his bacon cheese burger and fries, I move my fork around my steak. He continues to stare at me, when I hardly take a few bites, pushing the plate away. I know I should eat more, but I feel so sick to my stomach. Niall doesn't push the issue, instead he waves over a bartender.
"4 beers and 4 shots please." He says, handing the man some money from his pocket.
When the drinks come, I down them without any hesitation, When I begin feeling the buzz kick in, I hope it'd be enough for me to get my mind off things. But honestly I think that all the alcohol in the world wouldn't help me forget her. I don't even think there has been a second where she left my thoughts, it's unhealthy.
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I stare looking out of the window at the dull grey sky of London city, As niall appears beside me, grabbing my arm, attempting to drag me out from the booth. My head is spinning and so is my vision, I haven't been this drunk in a long time. I struggle to stand up without almost feeling like i'm going to fall over.
"Let's Goooo Homeeeee, I'll callll a rideeee, y-y-you wait outside while I pay for.." Niall stutters while trailing off, releasing me, as I stumble outside.
Minutes pass that feel like hours pass, as I stand laying with my back against the wall. Something with in me, tells me to go to Louis's house, the ache in my heart to see her has grown, I feel so empty without her.
I begin to walk down the side walk, occasionally tripping over air, and stumbling onto people's apartment stairs. Until eventually I make it to what looks like Louis's flat.
I grip onto the railing tightly, following the steps to his door, before knocking loudly. My eyes lazily wander, before Charlotte appears, making my heart almost stop in my chest.
Harry's POV:
"Harry, come and have some dinner." Niall says as he knocks on my door. I shout out to him that I'm fine but he continues to knock knowing that I'm going to get irritated by his repetitive behaviour. "Come on.." Niall groans and suddenly the door opens and the light from the corridor shines it's way into my room, I look away.
"I'm not hungry.." I say quickly as I avoid Niall. I don't want to be around anyone, not tonight. I just need a little bit of peace and quiet, that's all I ask. Niall sighs and turns the light on and my eyes instantly begin to burn at the sudden shock. I put my arm up covering my face, "Can you turn that off? I snap.
"Why are you sat in the dark?" He asks as he sits down next to me. I slowly lower my arm as my eyes begin to adjust to the light. I glance up at him and he looks at me with a worried look, I shrug as I look back away.
"I was just trying to relax." I mumble as I run a hand through my hair. Niall pats me on the back and stands up.
"You can relax later, come and eat." He repeats and I look up at him, I nod and stand up knowing he won't leave me alone unless I follow him. I turn the light off as I walk out with him and I take my coat from the hook, closing the door I double check I have my key, luckily it's in my pocket.
"Have you been okay lately, I've just noticed you've been acting different?" Niall asks as we begin to make our way to the restaurant across the street. I put my in my pockets and walk beside him. I shrug as I don't want to lie, but I don't want to go into it either.
"I'm fine." Is all I say. Niall stops me and turns to me with a concerned look that I'm quite used to seeing lately from the boys, "Why are we stopping here?" I ask even though I know the answer myself.
"You can't keep going the way you are mate." Niall says gently as if he's cautious at my reaction. I look away as I reach up and ruffle my hair, "I said I'm fucking fine, okay."
"Your not okay harry, Because if you were, You'd be getting over Charlotte."
I close my eyes and take a deep breathe, hearing her name give me chest pains. I miss her so much, I haven't seen her since the break up, the boys tell me she's doing fine, but she just doesn't want to see me.
Suddenly tears begin to stream from my face as memories come flooding back. but I quickly wipe them away. I didn't mean to get so emotional around Niall, I hate that I get so sensitive sometimes...
"I'm sorry mate," he apologizes, "I didn't mean to upset you, let's forget about it over some drinks, It's on me."
"Okay." I mumbled, as we enter the grill. The same grill Charlotte and I were at just weeks ago, smiling and laughing. As we talked about visiting Paris one day together.
"What can I start you two with?" The waitress asks as we sit down, bring me back to reality. It remains silent between us two until the food arrives.
As Niall begins to scarf down his bacon cheese burger and fries, I move my fork around my steak. He continues to stare at me, when I hardly take a few bites, pushing the plate away. I know I should eat more, but I feel so sick to my stomach. Niall doesn't push the issue, instead he waves over a bartender.
"4 beers and 4 shots please." He says, handing the man some money from his pocket.
When the drinks come, I down them without any hesitation, When I begin feeling the buzz kick in, I hope it'd be enough for me to get my mind off things. But honestly I think that all the alcohol in the world wouldn't help me forget her. I don't even think there has been a second where she left my thoughts, it's unhealthy.
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I stare looking out of the window at the dull grey sky of London city, As niall appears beside me, grabbing my arm, attempting to drag me out from the booth. My head is spinning and so is my vision, I haven't been this drunk in a long time. I struggle to stand up without almost feeling like i'm going to fall over.
"Let's Goooo Homeeeee, I'll callll a rideeee, y-y-you wait outside while I pay for.." Niall stutters while trailing off, releasing me, as I stumble outside.
Minutes pass that feel like hours pass, as I stand laying with my back against the wall. Something with in me, tells me to go to Louis's house, the ache in my heart to see her has grown, I feel so empty without her.
I begin to walk down the side walk, occasionally tripping over air, and stumbling onto people's apartment stairs. Until eventually I make it to what looks like Louis's flat.
I grip onto the railing tightly, following the steps to his door, before knocking loudly. My eyes lazily wander, before Charlotte appears, making my heart almost stop in my chest.
Notes
Uh oh. I wanderrrr whats going to happen? Hmm.. I guess your going to have to wait until later today to find out. Poor harry though.. also *Hint Hint for next chapter* I wonder what Charlotte's been up to? ;)PLEASE COMMENT,VOTE,RATE,SUBSCRIBE!
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What day a week will you be posting just so we know it's fine if you take a week but I would like to know
1/11/15