I Should've Kissed You
Chapter Seven ღ
It’s been three weeks and I’m still in bed with my TV on, call me dramatic but I call it being a human being. He just played with my feelings like I was a nobody.. That idiot, the night he stopped by my place I should’ve just picked up the keys drive to his house and just beat him up, he didn’t take the picture out, I was the joke of the University and Directioners hated me, including myself. I just couldn’t get over this no matter how hard I tried, I hadn’t dated since my 11th grade… when a guy seriously broke my heart, you know it’s that time when he truly said he loved you he introduced you to his family then its prom, and he ditches you for the new hot slut of the school… and I went back to be a Zero. This, almost same thing but I’m in college, I’m an adult, wait scratch that IM NOT! DAMNIT! I’m in a scholarship for the Arts Uni, I’m 17, SEVENTEEN! I should still be in my 12th grade, but I just did the fucking exams and went to college, I WISH I HADN’T! I wish I was still in the high school dream, with my group of friends and hanging out in the lunch room and just be me, but I decided to grow up to fast and now I had to face it.
“Hope?” a familiar voice said knocking on the door.
“Come in” I say grumpily
The door opened and Lily came in “You can’t stay in there forever” she said pointing at the door.
“I know” I say turning the TV off. “But I’m sleepy I’m going to sleep.”
“Sure you are” she said patting me on the head then leaving the room. Of course I wasn’t sleepy I just didn’t want to see anyone. Maybe just someone but that someone was probably really busy with work. I might as well try and sleep…
A few hours I woke up and felt someone stroking my hair, I knew it wasn’t Lily, but I recognized these fingers, the fingers that were once intertwined with mine a few years ago. I open my eyes and show signs that I had woken up.
“Hey, your awake” his sweet voice said to me.
“Harry, what are you doing here” I said with a still sleepy voice.
“I came to check on you” Harry said,
“I’m not sick you know” I tell him
“I know, but friends stick for each other right?” he said giving me a smile
“Yeah they do” I said then scooting giving him more space to sit on the bed. He sat
there beside me and put his arm around me giving me a hug. I stay there with my head on his chest begging my tears not to fall, as if he knew he turned the TV on and my mind drifted away from the pain. We stayed there for a while me with my head on his chest, it was comforting, all the pain that was in me, I was disappointed in myself, how could I think that that type of guy would like me, and even worst he was a player, I was just blinded! And if I could I’d go back and undo everything I did to make me feel this way.~
“You alright?” Harry asked.
“Yeah, just thinking” I reply
“You know you’re being too hard on yourself”
“What’d you mean?” I ask sitting up and taking my head out of his chest
“Blaming yourself”
“Pfttt. I don’t blame myself” I said, by the way I’m a terrible liar.
“Hope.. you know you’re a terrible liar”
“I know..” I say looking down “but it kinda is my fault, I was the one that fell for him
you know”
“I’m not saying it wasn’t a mistake, but its not your fault he was an asshole and did
what he did, you just gotta put your chin up” he said taking a breath putting his
hand on my chin that was looking down and “I’m not saying it wasn’t a mistake, but its not your fault he was an asshole and did what he did, you just gotta put your chin up” he said taking a breath putting his hand on my chin that was looking down and made my eyes look right into his “and be strong” he continued, his eyes were beautiful “just live life, you are 17, you have a lot in front of you and you can’t let a little heartbreak bring you down, it was the past and this is present, just rub it in his face that you’re happy and you don’t need him, at all” wow he was so deep, and that was just what I needed to hear.
“Thank you Harry” I say still gazing into his eyes.
“Any time Hope” he said breaking out eye contact and turning to the TV.
“What’s for lunch?” I heard a familiar voice shout from downstairs.
“Yeah I brought the boys” he says with an innocent smile.
“Haha, great, really its what I needed now” he looks at me confused “I’m not
being sarcastic silly!” I laugh at him.
“Oh” he laughs “well you better give Niall some lunch or he will kill you” he said jokingly.
“haha, I know” I tell him “let me just put on decent clothes, I look down at what I was wearing, damnit embarrassing!
“I think the One Direction PJ’s are cute” he said winking at me, my cheeks turned a light shade of red as he closed the door. I changed into something decent and headed downstairs. It was sunny today, it was weird, it was September, supposedly still summer but here in England you don’t know what to expect. I’ve been in the university here since August, university started on the 12 of August and it has a two week break every month, that’s why I was now in a break, I had been really down in classes and my grades were going down, today was the 20th of September and I was in break until the 1st of October. I head down and start cooking.
“Here you go” I say serving everyone, out of a sudden I had the boys El and Dani and Lily even Perrie was there having luch over at my place, as I said before it was sunny and so we were at my backyard, I had a deck, and a pool and a little garden.
“ITS AMAZING!” Niall said looking at me.
“Thanks Nialler” I reply.
“It is really good” the others agreed. We finished eating and were chatting about rumors and gossip, Danielle and Liam were in the couch I had in the garden cuddling looking absolutely in love, Eleanor and Louis were on the grass sitting with his arm around her, so cute! And Zayn and Perrie were having a rather adorable argument, Niall and Harry were chatting and I was cleaning the table. I few seconds after I hear a huge SPLASH outside, wait, who fell in the pool?
“OMG YOUR GUNNA PAY FOR THIS ZAYN!” I hear Perrie shout. Omg Zayn pushed Perrie inside. “If I could I would throw you in but you would just panic and I care for you so I wouldn’t do that to you, but I’ll get my revenge!”
All the girls were laughing at Perrie all the boys exchanged looks.
“Louis?” Eleanor said. “What are you doing, LOUIS PUT ME DOWN FOR THE LOVE OF-“ SPLASH! Eleanor was in the water.
Danielle burst out laughing “Come in here you little!” Eleanor said grabbing Louis arm and throwing him in the water. Wow they were so happy and I felt happy just being there witnessing such cuteness. Danielle’s laugh was so cute, Niall went to join Liam at the couch but didn’t sit down, he grabbed one of Danielle’s arm and instantly Liam grabbed her other arm and they swung her into the pool. Liam joined and hugged Danielle in the water.
“CANON BALL” Niall shouted and jumped in the pool grabbing Lily and she fell in the pool. I laughed like a crazy girl looking at them, these idiots where my best friends, my family, the ones I could depend on forever. Harry passes and goes into the kitchen, for a second I thought he was gunna tell me to join them but thank god he didn’t. He did something worst.
“HARRY NO! PUT ME DOWN NOW! RIGHT NOW” I shout he picked me up like a potato sack and threw me in the pool. To late I was soaked, he had jumped with me. “I hate you” I say staking my tongue at him.
We stayed in the water for hours.
*after dinner*
It was awfully late and the boys had headed home, the girls decided to stay over the night, a girls sleepover.
I go into the bathroom change into my PJs. I was washing my teeth when my phone buzzed, I take my tooth brush out of my mouth clean my mouth and answer.
“Why are you calling me silly?” I say to the phone.
“I don’t know” he said into the phone.
“Hum sure Harry very normal”
“Shush, I just missed your voice, does that one suit you?” he said playfully.
“Oh yes curly” I put my phone down clean my face and head to the room, El rushed to the bathroom, she clearly was waiting for me to get out. Lily showed Dani where the other bathroom was since she also had to use the toilet. I was in my room alone I throw myself to the bed and lay down comfortably.
“What you guys up to?” I ask
“They are just playing around I was planning on sleeping but with the noise they do
pretty impossible”
“Yeah I can hear” I complain
“Guys keep it down the girls are trying to rest” I could hear on the background.
“Better?” he said this time into the phone.
“Much” I say, “thank you”
“For what?” he said in a confusing tone.
“Today, you took my head off all my problems and you guys made me laugh and, just thank you”
“You’re welcome Hope, I’d do everything to hear that cute laugh and look at that amazing smile” that sentence could make a thousand girls blush, now imagine all those girls blushing inside one body, yes I looked like a tomato.
“Haz, I’m really tired, I’m not trying to leave you just-”
“Go to sleep” he immediately said.
“Good night Harry” I whisper to the phone with a sleep voice.
“Good night beautiful”
He turned off the call. I couldn’t let all these butterflies in my body control and take over my feelings, I let it happen before, I can’t let it happen again. I’m not saying it would be a mistake, I’m saying I need to be sure before I consider anything. I’ll just sleep on it. I close my eyes and drift to sleep.
“Hope?” a familiar voice said knocking on the door.
“Come in” I say grumpily
The door opened and Lily came in “You can’t stay in there forever” she said pointing at the door.
“I know” I say turning the TV off. “But I’m sleepy I’m going to sleep.”
“Sure you are” she said patting me on the head then leaving the room. Of course I wasn’t sleepy I just didn’t want to see anyone. Maybe just someone but that someone was probably really busy with work. I might as well try and sleep…
A few hours I woke up and felt someone stroking my hair, I knew it wasn’t Lily, but I recognized these fingers, the fingers that were once intertwined with mine a few years ago. I open my eyes and show signs that I had woken up.
“Hey, your awake” his sweet voice said to me.
“Harry, what are you doing here” I said with a still sleepy voice.
“I came to check on you” Harry said,
“I’m not sick you know” I tell him
“I know, but friends stick for each other right?” he said giving me a smile
“Yeah they do” I said then scooting giving him more space to sit on the bed. He sat
there beside me and put his arm around me giving me a hug. I stay there with my head on his chest begging my tears not to fall, as if he knew he turned the TV on and my mind drifted away from the pain. We stayed there for a while me with my head on his chest, it was comforting, all the pain that was in me, I was disappointed in myself, how could I think that that type of guy would like me, and even worst he was a player, I was just blinded! And if I could I’d go back and undo everything I did to make me feel this way.~
“You alright?” Harry asked.
“Yeah, just thinking” I reply
“You know you’re being too hard on yourself”
“What’d you mean?” I ask sitting up and taking my head out of his chest
“Blaming yourself”
“Pfttt. I don’t blame myself” I said, by the way I’m a terrible liar.
“Hope.. you know you’re a terrible liar”
“I know..” I say looking down “but it kinda is my fault, I was the one that fell for him
you know”
“I’m not saying it wasn’t a mistake, but its not your fault he was an asshole and did
what he did, you just gotta put your chin up” he said taking a breath putting his
hand on my chin that was looking down and “I’m not saying it wasn’t a mistake, but its not your fault he was an asshole and did what he did, you just gotta put your chin up” he said taking a breath putting his hand on my chin that was looking down and made my eyes look right into his “and be strong” he continued, his eyes were beautiful “just live life, you are 17, you have a lot in front of you and you can’t let a little heartbreak bring you down, it was the past and this is present, just rub it in his face that you’re happy and you don’t need him, at all” wow he was so deep, and that was just what I needed to hear.
“Thank you Harry” I say still gazing into his eyes.
“Any time Hope” he said breaking out eye contact and turning to the TV.
“What’s for lunch?” I heard a familiar voice shout from downstairs.
“Yeah I brought the boys” he says with an innocent smile.
“Haha, great, really its what I needed now” he looks at me confused “I’m not
being sarcastic silly!” I laugh at him.
“Oh” he laughs “well you better give Niall some lunch or he will kill you” he said jokingly.
“haha, I know” I tell him “let me just put on decent clothes, I look down at what I was wearing, damnit embarrassing!
“I think the One Direction PJ’s are cute” he said winking at me, my cheeks turned a light shade of red as he closed the door. I changed into something decent and headed downstairs. It was sunny today, it was weird, it was September, supposedly still summer but here in England you don’t know what to expect. I’ve been in the university here since August, university started on the 12 of August and it has a two week break every month, that’s why I was now in a break, I had been really down in classes and my grades were going down, today was the 20th of September and I was in break until the 1st of October. I head down and start cooking.
“Here you go” I say serving everyone, out of a sudden I had the boys El and Dani and Lily even Perrie was there having luch over at my place, as I said before it was sunny and so we were at my backyard, I had a deck, and a pool and a little garden.
“ITS AMAZING!” Niall said looking at me.
“Thanks Nialler” I reply.
“It is really good” the others agreed. We finished eating and were chatting about rumors and gossip, Danielle and Liam were in the couch I had in the garden cuddling looking absolutely in love, Eleanor and Louis were on the grass sitting with his arm around her, so cute! And Zayn and Perrie were having a rather adorable argument, Niall and Harry were chatting and I was cleaning the table. I few seconds after I hear a huge SPLASH outside, wait, who fell in the pool?
“OMG YOUR GUNNA PAY FOR THIS ZAYN!” I hear Perrie shout. Omg Zayn pushed Perrie inside. “If I could I would throw you in but you would just panic and I care for you so I wouldn’t do that to you, but I’ll get my revenge!”
All the girls were laughing at Perrie all the boys exchanged looks.
“Louis?” Eleanor said. “What are you doing, LOUIS PUT ME DOWN FOR THE LOVE OF-“ SPLASH! Eleanor was in the water.
Danielle burst out laughing “Come in here you little!” Eleanor said grabbing Louis arm and throwing him in the water. Wow they were so happy and I felt happy just being there witnessing such cuteness. Danielle’s laugh was so cute, Niall went to join Liam at the couch but didn’t sit down, he grabbed one of Danielle’s arm and instantly Liam grabbed her other arm and they swung her into the pool. Liam joined and hugged Danielle in the water.
“CANON BALL” Niall shouted and jumped in the pool grabbing Lily and she fell in the pool. I laughed like a crazy girl looking at them, these idiots where my best friends, my family, the ones I could depend on forever. Harry passes and goes into the kitchen, for a second I thought he was gunna tell me to join them but thank god he didn’t. He did something worst.
“HARRY NO! PUT ME DOWN NOW! RIGHT NOW” I shout he picked me up like a potato sack and threw me in the pool. To late I was soaked, he had jumped with me. “I hate you” I say staking my tongue at him.
We stayed in the water for hours.
*after dinner*
It was awfully late and the boys had headed home, the girls decided to stay over the night, a girls sleepover.
I go into the bathroom change into my PJs. I was washing my teeth when my phone buzzed, I take my tooth brush out of my mouth clean my mouth and answer.
“Why are you calling me silly?” I say to the phone.
“I don’t know” he said into the phone.
“Hum sure Harry very normal”
“Shush, I just missed your voice, does that one suit you?” he said playfully.
“Oh yes curly” I put my phone down clean my face and head to the room, El rushed to the bathroom, she clearly was waiting for me to get out. Lily showed Dani where the other bathroom was since she also had to use the toilet. I was in my room alone I throw myself to the bed and lay down comfortably.
“What you guys up to?” I ask
“They are just playing around I was planning on sleeping but with the noise they do
pretty impossible”
“Yeah I can hear” I complain
“Guys keep it down the girls are trying to rest” I could hear on the background.
“Better?” he said this time into the phone.
“Much” I say, “thank you”
“For what?” he said in a confusing tone.
“Today, you took my head off all my problems and you guys made me laugh and, just thank you”
“You’re welcome Hope, I’d do everything to hear that cute laugh and look at that amazing smile” that sentence could make a thousand girls blush, now imagine all those girls blushing inside one body, yes I looked like a tomato.
“Haz, I’m really tired, I’m not trying to leave you just-”
“Go to sleep” he immediately said.
“Good night Harry” I whisper to the phone with a sleep voice.
“Good night beautiful”
He turned off the call. I couldn’t let all these butterflies in my body control and take over my feelings, I let it happen before, I can’t let it happen again. I’m not saying it would be a mistake, I’m saying I need to be sure before I consider anything. I’ll just sleep on it. I close my eyes and drift to sleep.
Notes
OMG GUISEE IM SO SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED! I was in X-Mas break and i went out of the country and so i didnt have internet or a computer or ANYTHING so i couldnt continue...... sorry! well ill post much more since now I'm home and i only start school on the 7th ;DWell i hope you like it!!
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7/11/13