Obsessed

Paisley's POV

I had to clear my head. I really did.
And the only way I could do this was to go for a run.

Exercise was my favourite way to get everything off my mine and think things through one by one.

Maybe he didn't tell anyone else.
Lou did say that she practically forced it out of him.
But what if someone heard? What if that someone decided to tell everyone and now people are thinking of me differently.

Everything will be okay.
I can get through everything.

I just don't want her to get hurt.
I don't want her to feel unsafe.
I don't want people thinking I'm not worthy of getting her back. I need to show them that I can be the perfect carer for her.






After my extremely long run, I found myself back at the hotel.
It was the evening time and there was fans outside, waiting for the boys.
I took my back entrance where security was waiting and I climbed in an elevator and went up to my room.
I hadn't spoken to anyone on my way up, but I had managed to see Harry walking out of someone room as I as walking into mine.
I don't think he saw me though.
I slipped in my bathroom for a shower and stood under the running water for what felt like hours.
This was another gret thing to do to think things through.















The very next morning, we were travelling to a new destination.
But instead of being in two different vans to travel in, it was mixed.
Meaning some of the boys were in one with some girls and the same with the other one.


I knew I wasn't in the mood to be around people and act like I am happy, so I spoke to Tully and Iasked if I could sway the car with her and I go by myself and she goes with the others.
After agreeing, she walked out of my hotel room and down to the cars, where everyone was already waiting.



As I made y way down, I could see everyone piling into the cars, but I knew they were all staring at me as I climbed into a separate one.
I wish I was the type of person who could forget about all my problem and put a fake smile on my face. But it hurts to much.







I was the last car to leave and sitting in it by myself, with a lovely driver is actually quite nice. "You alright love?", the man asked, turning down the volume of the music.
I nodded my head, "Yeah. I'm ust not the sort to pretend everyhting is okay. I guess I'm just not in the mood to be around everyone", I say truthfully, pouring my heart out to this man i didn't even know.
He gave me a sympathetic smile, "Yeah. I like the peace and quiet of being alone too"
I smile before looking back out the window as he turned his music up slightly.

The first to leave. And the last to arrive.
It was he evening now. Around 9PM and as soon as I got to the hotel, Tully was waiting.
we got in the elevator together and she smiled, "i understand you want to be alone. But the others are confused as to why you don't speak to them and why you want to be alone all the time. We are all on the same floor and they are in the girls room at the moment but I won't tell them you arrived until you are ready"
I nodded my head.


I was given my key to my hotel room and I slipped inside silently, wishing Tully goodnight before i changed into my pyjamas before climbing into bed and looking through my pictures.



I'm just hoping everything will work out. Whether it does or not, is entirely out of my hands.
But I want her back.

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