Obsessed

Paisley's POV


He was incredibly kind to me. And I know that it was an awkward moment and all, but that's not what I was worried about.
Harry knew.

He knew about it all.
He knew about the secret I have been keeping from most of the world for over 3 years.

I don't even understand how he saw it on my phone.

It's been a couple of days and on the bright side, I successfully completed my first 2 shows.
Don't get me wrong, they were the most nerve wracking moments of my time, but after the first few songs, I warmed up a little.

Everyone wanted to have a celebration after the first show, but I wasn't feeling up to it because of the recent events.
I was in my room, while everyone was in Harry and Liam's room having a nice celebration. I don't think anyone realised I wasn't there.

After the show, I just silently gathered into a different car to the rest and went straight to the hotel.
Where as the others all went out for dinner and then back to the same hotel but onto the boys floor for the party with more crew and friends. I could hear the celebrations above me that night. The laughs and cheers. But I just wasn't in the mood for any of that.
I'm not going to lie, I was a little gutted when nobody messaged me or called to see where I was. I didn't get any knocks on my door that night either.
But I don't mind. I can't blame them for being excited for finally kicking off the huge tour they were pumped to start.

The following morning, all they would talk about was how much fun they had in Harry and Liam's room.
And still today, they are talking about it.



I am sitting here, eating lunch with the girls and guys. But I stay silent as they talk about and american game called 'Beer Pong' and how Raya and Louis were the best at it.
"It was so fun, wasn't it Paisley?", Skylar giggled, nudging me.
"Hmm?", I asked, paying attention.
"The party was fun. Wasn't it?" Skylar repeated, smiling at me.
I shrug, "I-I'm not sure. I-I guess", I whisper say.
"What do you mean you don't know! We played heaps of games and all got smashed", Raya chuckled.
"I-I was tired after the show and didn't feel to good, I guess. I just went straight back to my hotel room", I say in a small shy voice.
I watched as Raya frowned and Skylar and the boys eyes fell sympathetic.
"W-We didn't realise", Raya continued to frown.
"It doesn't matter. I wasn't up to it anyway", I look down at my food.
"But I feel bad that none of us noticed that you weren't even there", Skylar said.
"Skylar, it doesn't matter", I give a small smile before continuing to finish my food.




The lunch was extremely silent, in the catering room backstage at the arena.
After I was done, I put my plate in the little tray thing for the dirty cutlery and plates and walked out of the room.

I have only seen a the little toddler named 'Lux' a few times. And it breaks my heart, seeing the way Lou loves her and everyone here plays with her.

I try to avoid running into them at all costs. But it hurts a little more each time I think about what my life would be like if I got to be with the one I love more than my own life.





I made it back to my dressing room and sat down on the couch.
There was a knock on the door.
"I-It's open", I call and watch as the door opens.
"It's only me", I heard Lou's voice.
She became visible, smiling gently.
She closed the door behind me and I felt sick to my stomach.
She sat down beside me gently and said, "I'm so sorry"
"F-For what?", I say, trying to act like nothing is affecting me.
"It fell out of Harry's mouth. We're really close and I was pressuring him into telling me what was wrong because he looked so down. I didn't know it would be so serious or that it even had anything to do with you. I feel horrible about doing that to you. If I knew I would never have meant to hurt you", she says, looking extremely sorry and upset.
"H-He told you?", I choke.














He hasn't told anyone else has he?

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