Little Things

That Monday I decided was going to talk to Harry. I didn’t see him in the cafeteria in the morning like usual, which was very odd. Until I found out in homeroom the boys had a radio interview and they would be coming in late. It always seemed that when I was avoiding Harry he was everywhere but when I needed to talk to him he was nowhere to be found.

Me and Alex we were sitting in history passing notes back and forth when Harry and Zayn crept into the classroom. They both pulled up chairs and sat down going unnoticed by Miss Bee (Miss Bee is kinda a ditz.) Zayn started chatting with some of his soccer mates while Harry simply waved and put his chair right behind me. I decided now is as good a time as any so I scribbled him a note and tossed it in his lap. He raised his eye brows at me and opened it like a Christmas present. His eyes lit up and a slow smile crept on his face.

Hey I'm not mad at you anymore.

He pointed to my pen which I handed to him and he quickly wrote back;

What made you change your mind?

Just call it a change of heart.

He read it and smiled again. He put his hand on my knee and moved his thumb back and forth and I tried to suppress the butterflies in my stomach. One rule I set for myself when i decided to talk to him again was I could not fall for him again. No matter how flirty no matter how much want to I will not cave in.

“Harry, Zayn what are you doing in here?” Miss Bee finally realizing they were in the room.

“Nothing Miss Bee we were just leaving.” Harry says standing up and winking at me.

“Good because you boys are distracting me. Now where was I…”

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So over the next two weeks Harry was his forever flirty self and I was letting it bounce off me. I knew not to look for too much meaning in his flirting because it would get me nowhere. Which is complete utter bullshit because I was still in love with him and on the inside I still freaked out every time he winked at me or hugged me or held my hand, even though I hated myself for it. I just learned to keep my expectations low.

In other news though Louis still hasn’t had the balls to ask Alex out… so she asked him out. They are so unbelievably adorable. He brings out her inner child. I feel like I'm babysitting them when they are together (in the best way possible.)

And then there is Rylan and Niall. Niall has not only got on better terms with her he has actually gotten her to go on a few dates with him. They go to this little Italian place because basically all Rylan eats is pasta. They still don’t know what they are but hey as long as they’re happy. Speaking of happy Harry had learned deal with the possibility of “Ryall” which in turn has made him clingier to me which I wish I minded but I don’t.

But as much as I tried to resist we both fell back into our old flirty ways. Half the time we acted like a couple but weren’t really going out which absolutely sucks. But seeing as this was as close to dating him as I was going to get I'm letting it happen.

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So me and Harry were texting last night and the absolute strangest thing happened. He was talking about how he was playing soccer and got hit in the face with the ball and cut his lip open. And me being me I said;

“Aww poor baby want me to kiss it and make better?”

“I was actually going to tell you to do that Monday.”

“Don’t tempt me Styles I’ll actually do it.”

“I know you will ;)”

We kinda planned a kiss. And I'm actually going to do it… if I don’t chicken out first.

So I got to school at my usual time but instead of going in the cafeteria I sat anxiously against the wall outside the door. I wanted to catch him before he got into the caff so I could do it right then and there. I decided to kiss him in the morning so he would have all day to think about it. I don’t know why because that’s a double edge sword but I forced myself not to think about it. This might be my only chance I can’t afford to chicken out now.

I sat and waited patiently listienng to my music as the minutes which seemed more like hours ticked by. Then that dreadful bell sounded telling me it was time to get to homeroom. I pushed myself off the wall and brushed myself off and as I looked up Harry turned the corner on his way over to me. I swear I stopped breathing.

“Hey-”

“Hey sorry I can’t chat I just came to grab a quick snack for later I missed breakfast this morning.”

“It’s okay but wait oww you really did hurt you lip.” I said cupping his chin and lightly brushing his lip with my thumb. I looked up at him and quickly leaned into kiss him. It lasted about 3 seconds before I torn myself away and turned and ran down the hall throwing a “See yah later” over my shoulder so he couldn’t see how red my face was. I turned the corner to get upstairs and ran smack dab into Rylan and Niall.

“Whoa there where’s the fire?” Rylan said steadying me.

“Harry told me last night he hurt his lip I said I’ll kiss it and make it better so I just saw him and I kissed him and I got so embarrassed that I ran away and ran into you two.” I said at the speed of light.

“NO FUCKING WAY!” Rylan said freaking out with me.

“I’m sorry what just happened?” Niall said eyeing the both of us.

“God Niall get with the program. Jazz kissed Harry!” she said swatting his arm.

“Didn’t she do that at our little party?” he said confused as ever

“Ugh no that was different it didn’t count. You such a boy.” She said rolling her eyes. Then the warning bell rang and we all ran off to homeroom.

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So the day dragged on and I didn’t even get a glimpse of Harry which was really weird because I usually see him in-between almost all my classes. So that made me really paranoid that he didn’t like the kiss. Or he didn’t like me. I just can’t wait until the bell rings so I can see him. He is driving Louis home today after drama rehearsal so he is going to watch. I'm just going to try and talk to him between scenes or maybe I’ll wait till after.

As I was creating scenarios in my head of what could happen later the bell finally rung. I bolted out of my seat and ran to my locker to get my stuff. I ran faster than I ever ran in my life and usually I take my sweet time when it comes to going to drama. I was the first one there unsurprisingly so I sat and waited. Every time I heard someone come through the door I shot up thinking it would be him but it wasn’t. Then I would slump back in my seat depressingly and wait some more.

With only 2 minutes to spare before the rehearsal started Harry, Louis and Alex came waltzing in with coffees. Of course they would go to Dunkins what was I thinking coming straight to the theatre.

“One coffee coolatta no whip cream.” Harry said handing me the drink.

“You remembered?” I said taking a sip.

“Of course it’s your favorite.” He smirked at me.

“Harry listen about the kiss-”

“Alright everyone onstage for warm ups!” The drama instructor yelled to everyone. I reluctantly dragged myself away from Harry and on stage.

I went through the warm up and thought I could escape to go talk to harry but my one of my scenes was up first. Then another and then another. I was stuck on stage almost the entire rehearsal. The few times I wasn’t Harry would have just dragged me into his lap and before I could say a word I was needed again. I was desperate to talk to him.

So finally as the rehearsal ended he took my hand and smiled at me.

“You did great up there.” He said gave me a peck taking me completely off guard.

“Wait Harry what does this mean for us?” I said reluctantly pushing him away.

“It means I want to give us a shot. For real.”