A New Family

Lily's POV:

I had no idea what came over me. When Luke shook my hand, I didn't want to let go. When he made a joke I laughed so hard, I almost cried. I could feel his eyes upon me in class but I didn't dare to return his gaze. At the end of the school day, when Jacob showed me to the buses, I noticed Luke on his bike, riding away. I smiled, I used to bike everyday to school in Minnesota, everyone did. When winter rules most of the year, it's fortunate to be able to ride bike outside. Here, it was already getting cold but no one was biking. Luke was one of the few. Maybe I could do it with Luke. Wait. What am I thinking? I'm riding alone.

When I got home all of One Direction was there with large suitcases. Oh yeah, they're leaving. I ran up to give them all one last hug, saving Louis for last. Louis picked me off the ground and swung me around, I squealed in delight until he set me down.

"Promise me that you won't date anyone" said Louis, I laughed.

"Promise... Dad." Louis smiled and gave me a kiss on the cheek. They started to head to their limo.

"Be good!" Yelled Niall.

"What! I'm always good!" I protested.

"Oh, Niall was talking about Eleanor!" Shouted Liam, we all laughed. Just as the limo pulled out of the driveway, Eleanor ran out of the house and shouted:

"Wait!" Louis opened the door to the limo and ran into Eleanor's open arms. He hugged her so tight and kissed her so passionately that no one could ever doubt that they were deeply in love. Eleanor came back into the house with fresh tears on her face, her shoulders uncontrollably shaking. She ran into my waiting arms and I took her to her room. I stroked her hair and wiped her tears until she cried herself to sleep.

I ran upstairs, tears falling down my cheeks. I was sobbing by the time I reached my floor and I wrapped myself in my comforter. I was going to miss them all so much and poor Eleanor has done this so any times and she still hasn't gotten used to it. How will I manage it for the rest of my life?

Then I realized I had been holding my tears back since I met Luke. I realized that Luke was so similar to Nick, he could make me laugh so hard. I wished Nick was here, I wished he could come to England and hold me in his arms. Give me that kiss now, that I was supposed to get at camp.

But I had messed it all up. Just because I wanted Louis's sisters to be jealous. I'll break up with Jacob tomorrow, tell him the real reason why I'm going out with him. Maybe he'll hate me or maybe not, I just want to make things right. I hope that Nick will listen to me soon, I sent him a few more emails. He didn't reply, I drowned my sorrows into my sheets. Sinking deeper onto the mattress.

I'm such a terrible person, I thought. I'm supposed to be a perfect daughter but I'm a two-timing bitch. I should leave, Louis and Eleanor don't deserve to put up with me. I'm a disgrace to this perfect family. I'll leave tomorrow, I promised. Goodbye Louis and Eleanor. Goodbye One Direction. Goodbye Charlotte, Georgia, Felicite, Phoebe, and Daisy. Goodbye Jacob and Luke. And goodbye to Nick, after tomorrow I won't have any connections with you. I'll miss you the most. I fell asleep, hating myself.

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