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Zayns PoV
I froze, shocked at what I had just done. Did I just slap Perrie? Oh god I did not mean to do that. She was just yelling so much and....oh my god I slapped her. I could hear everyone behind me gasping. Perrie slowly brought her hand up to her face, where a red handprint was showing. I took a step towards her, reaching out to her. And she stepped back, her face full of surprise and fear. Fear.

"Perrie-" my voice cracked. She shook her head, turning and running over to where Bella and the others were. I looked at all there faces. Luke and Jamie looked absolutely disgusted. Harry looked like he was wondering if that had actually just happened. El looked red with anger. Bella's face was a mix of hurt, betrayal, anger, shock and fear. Perrie had tears brimming in her eyes and looked scared.

"Perrie baby I'm so-"

"Just leave," Perrie cut me off. Her voice was small and weak.

"No baby please just-"

"Zayn. Leave." This time her voice had more firmness in it. I shot her a pleading look. She just shook her head and looked down as a single tear fell down her cheek. I looked at the others for help, but they just looked away. As I felt a tear of my own escape, I slowly walked out of the apartment, shutting the door behind me, I ran to the staircase, which I know that nobody uses, and punched the wall. I didnt realise how hard I had punched it 'till I took my now bloody and bruised hand away from the hole in the wall.

"Fuck!" I swore, sinking to the ground with my head in my hands. I fucked up. I fucked up real bad. Well nah shit. You slapped your perfect girlfriend when she was just standing up for her friend. My subconscious scolded me. Oh shut up. I....I abused my girlfriend? Does one slap count? How am I supposed to know, I never thought I'd do anything like this. Tears of frustration, anger, guilt and self-disgust flowed down my cheeks. I wiped the tears away but more kept streaming down, like a fucking river. I faintly heard a door open and close, then footsteps. When I looked up Harry was sitting down next to me. I waited for him to say something but he just sighed and shook his head. Another few minutes of silence went by before he finally said something.

"You really fucked up." I couldn't help the anger bubbling inside of me from this.

"Na shit! If all you came out here to do was tell me fucked up then just leave! I already know that!" I yelled at him. He scoffed and stood up mumbling something about Bella being right. I didnt bother trying to stop him when he went back into the apartment. Shortly after, Bella came out. It surprised me when she sat down next to me. I would expect her to be the most pissed at me. She looked at me, and for a little while didnt say anything, she just looked at me, her face showing no clue to what she was going to say. When she spoke, it was one word. Simple,

"Why," But that was all it took for me to break down.

I started sobbing uncontrollably into my hands, not being able to look up at Bella, too ashamed. What shocked me most was when I felt Bella's arms around me, trying to comfort me. I leaned into her, still sobbing like a fucking baby. Once I had calmed down I pulled away and looked at her. I couldn't tell what she was thinking. Her face was completely neutral.

"Do you have any idea of what you've done?" She asked. Her voice had no anger in it, but also no comfort. The tone one might use when asking someone to 'pass the remote' or something. When I didnt answer Bella continued.

"Perrie is an angel. Literally, she is an angel. She is the most beautiful and sweet girl I've ever met. You slapped her. You slapped an angel. Do you have any idea of what you've done. You hurt her so bad. And not just physically. You'd better make things right with that angel, before she decides to fly away." With that Bella stood up and walked away.






Perrie's PoV
I still couldn't process what happened. Zayn slapped me. Hard. He slapped me. I was just trying to help Bella. And he slapped me. I never thought he would do something like that. Well obviously you were wrong Perrie. After Bella came back in the apartment her and I went into her room.

"Let me see your face," She spoke softly. Silently, I tilted my head towards Bella. I heard her sigh and rub some cool cream on it.

"Hon I'm so sorry. Come here," We walked over to her bed and layed down together. She wrapped her arms around me and I let the tears fall freely down my face.

"What do I do?" I whispered. Bella sighed and kissed the top of my head.

"That's up to you darl, I can't tell you what to do." I sobbed, feeling terrible for what I was about to say.

"Do you think he'd hurt me again? Bella please tell me what to do. Your the only one who knows how I feel right now...." I trailed off, hoping that I had not crossed a line.

"I don't think Zayn would ever do that again. I can tell how bad he feels. He was bawling his eyes out. He knows he hurt you bad. Just because I had an abusive boyfriend doesn't mean I can tell you what to do. These are completely different circumstances. Perrie its up to you what you decide to do. Ok? Not me. Not Zayn. Not anyone. Only you can decide." There was a knock at Bellas door, and I heard my name being called. I knew who it was. Bella looked at me

"Can I open the door?" I weakly nodded. Standing up from the bed as Bella got up and opened the door. Zayn was standing there, his eyes were red and puffy and he had tears still on his cheeks. Bella stepped out of the room and closed the door. Zayn looked at me with a broken look. He stepped towards me, but thankfully keeping his distance.

"Perrie....I-I can't tell you how sorry I am. I don't know what happened. I didnt mean to....I'm so sorry." I could tell he meant it, but for some reason it made no difference.

"Perrie baby please say something." He stepped forward and I instinctively took a step back. His eyes widened in both shock and hurt as a tear rolled down his cheek. My heart broke into a million little pieces.

"Perrie.." He whispered taking another smaller step towards me, this time I used all of my will power and stayed where I was. I flinched when I felt the tips of his fingers tracing the handprint on my cheek. I knew it would fade soon, but for now it was bright red, showing the damage he had done.

"Oh god.." He spoke so softly I could only just hear him. "Perrie I love you so much and I never meant to do this, I'm so sorry," I didnt respond, just looked down. I gasped when I felt his lips kissing my cheek, along where I knew the hand print was. I stood there, feeling his soft lips delicately brushing over my skin. I let out a small sob, and Zayn brought his head back, his face now in front of mine. He blinked, one last tear falling down his cheek. He slowly leant in closer to me, but at the last second I shook my head, stepping away from him, taking a deep breath.

"No baby please." He shook his head frantically, knowing what was coming.

"I'm sorry..." I choked out.

"Baby please don't do this we can work it out I'm sorry, Im so sorry please don't leave me," he pleaded, kneeling down in front of me and wrapping his arms around my waist. I chocked on a sob, grabbing his wrists and removing them from around me. He snapped them back to there place securely around me though.

"Zayn," I cried quietly, taking his wrists more firmly this time and stepping out of his grip. I looked at his face, his eyes were bloodshot red with tears still pouring down his cheeks as he cried.

"Perrie baby don't do this. You know I love you I didn't mean to hurt you please," I swallowed, more tears falling down my cheeks. I knew he was sorry, and that's what made it worse, because when he was next to me, and when his arms were wrapped around me. I was scared. Scared of what this beautiful boy could possibly do to me.

"Goodbye Zayn," I took one last look at his angelic face. His broken angelic face. He was my angel. Was. I turned around squeezing my eyes in attempt to stop some of the tears. I let out one last sob and took a deep breath, then I walked out the door of the room, ignoring the plea's form Zayn behind me. I walked into Bellas open arms, sobbing into her chest, only for a second though, Zayn was still in the other room. I sighed and spoke quietly to Bella.

"I'm going back to the girls place, I'll see try and you before we leave." Bella nodded sympathetically.

"Bye Perrie, stay strong, I love you baby," Bella kissed me on the cheek before walking me to the door.

"Thanks Bella, I love you." With that. I left.




I left my angel.






Zayns PoV
That can't have happened. That didnt just happen. Perrie was an angel. She was my angel. And I love her. I love her with all my heart, but she walked away. She left. I broke her and she left.

"Zayn?" I could hear Bella's soft voice as she approached me, but I continued to cry into my hands. I heard her sigh and she sat down next to me.

"Zayn please, look at me?" I slowly lifted my head up, everyone else was standing in the doorway. The guys all looked like they would punch me if the girls weren't here, and the girls had looks of hurt, disbelief and just pure sadness. I looked away from them, as the guilt was too much. The look on Bellas face was quite different to the others, in fact, it was quite unreadable. Disbelief, sadness, sympathy, annoy--wait a second. Sympathy? How the hell can she be sympathetic?

"Zayn lets get off the floor, ok?" When I didnt move she grabbed hold of my hand, causing Harry eye me, skeptical and clearly annoyed.

"C'mon Zayn. We're gonna get off this floor, go to the couch and watch stupid chick flick movies while eating tubs of ice-cream." She stood up and I sighed, standing up next to her. When I looked at all the others I broke down again, tears flowing down my cheeks. The girls came from the guys arms to hug me. What really hurt was the fact that the guys tried to pull them back, and were now watching me even more intently. Did they--did they think I would hurt them?

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry," I whispered and sobbed while the 4 girls tried to comfort me. But only one girl could make me feel better now. But she's gone.





Bellas PoV
I knew Zayn was feeling like absolute shit. We spent hours watching chick flicks, eating ice cream and crying with him. Well, I didn't eat ice cream, but I did the rest. Eventually we all split off into our own rooms. Before I went into mine Harry grabbed my hand and turned me around. I gave him a small smile. The other guys were still ignoring Harry, Niall wasnt though, because Niall knew Harry was still pissed at him so he apologised.

"They'll all come around Bella. They just need a little time," He sighed. I could tell all the things they said had really hurt Harry.

"I know, soon they'll see how good you are for me," I smiled and his eyes lit up.

"I love you Bella. So much," he gave me a soft kiss on the lips.

"I love you too Harry." Then he left and I got ready for bed. I couldn't get Perrie's face out of my head. The fear in her eyes. Fear of Zayn. I recognised that fear. I had felt that fear before. The first time Ky had hit me. The surprise of it. The surspise that my sweet, wonderful man who I had loved had hurt me. I never thought he would hit me, but he did. Again and again and again. I shook off the thoughts and got into bed. The second I closed my eyes I saw Ky's. I gasped and opened my eyes again. Every time I closed my eyes, all I could see was Ky. So I kept my eyes open. I knew I would feel better if I was with Harry, but I don't want to wake him up. After I don't know how long, I finally drifted off to sleep, but oh how I wish I had kept my eyes open.

Notes

PLEASE READ:
Its been a week since I updated with a chapter! I'm sooo sorry. I was going to update last night but since I had to get up at 5:45 in the morning to watch 1D Day (HOW AMAZING WAS IT!!!) I went to bed earlier. Then I had a ton of homework to catch up on this afternoon (actually I should be doing it right now aswell buttt....it's too boring)

ok, so I'm quite angry with myslef with this chapter. I <3 Zerrie so fricken much and i have no idea why i broke them up....but I'm really exited about the next chapter. I've actually already written most of it so ill post it much quicker then I posted this chapter.

ive been doing a lot of planning for the sequal which I personally am really excited for, I think it will be better then this one. But with the planning I sort of forgot to write this fic....whoops. That's why it took me so long to update. I've also been listening to Midnight Memories non stop....literally I've listened to every song at least 20 times, no joke, (please don't judge I feel bad about listening to them but I couldn't help it)


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Why do you think Bella says she should have not fallen asleep?

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