Am I Out of Time?
Last night the boys all came home pissed drunk. I got them all into there rooms quietly so they wouldn't wake Bella. Tonight was the concert, Bella was coming. Bella. I'm such an idiot, I should have kissed her. At 9:30 she came out of her room in a baggy singlet and another pair of her tight shorts. Fucking hell was she seriously trying to kill me or something? She went to the kitchen and made some toast before sitting down on the couch next the me and Liam.
"Hey," she smiled. My eyes widened. She hasn't initiated a conversation with us in two weeks. Maybe last night actually helped, she was acting more like herself.
"Hey, so you're coming to the concert tonight, right?" Liam asked. I heard a small amount of doubt in his voice. If Bella heard the doubt she chose to ignore it.
"Wouldn't miss it." She smiled. I noticed she was acting awfully.... normal I guess.
Alright, so obviously Harry didnt want to kiss me last night. But I was NOT going to go through another few days of awkward 'hi's and avoiding each other again. I also wasn't going to put up with any more sweet crap from the guys. So if I wanted them to act normal, I needed to act normal. Over the course of the day the boys got used to me acting like I used to, and they started to act normal as well, but they still were acting a little cautious.
"Ok so at 4 we need to leave to go to the venue, the concert starts at 7. Bella you can get there whenever. If you come at 4 you can watch us rehearse, explore the venue, meet a few people. You pretty much can do whatever until the concert. Or you can just come at like 6.30. Either way just do whatever suits you best. After the concert you can come backstage again, there's 2 ways to go, either outside or inside." I listened as Liam explained.
"Aright, Ill come with you guys at 4. I'm gonna go get ready, k?" They nodded and I went back to my bedroom picked out what I would wear. I had a shower, got dressed, did my hair and went into the kitchen to grab something to eat. I looked at the clock. 3.50. The boys all came downstairs and looked at me. They nodded there heads approvingly.
"You just look really nice," Zayn said. I smiled and thanked him. We all went down to the car. On the way the boys all talked about useless crap like usual while I listened shaking my head every now and then at a comment.
We got to the venue and I went to there dressing rooms while they practiced. After a while Josh came in.
"Hey Bella. How are you?" I smiled at him.
"I'm good thanks. What about you, how's Anna?" He smiled giddily when I mentioned her name.
"She's great, actually she's coming to visit in a week. She's can only stay for 5 days but its better than nothing."
"Yeah it is. Oh My God You have take her to the Sydney harbour bridge, its really beautiful at night." He nodded.
"Yeah I will, thanks. Oh Bella, is something going on with Harry? He's acting really strange and he can't keep a straight head." Uh oh. Could this be about last night? Of course not last night was nothing to him. Or me. Nothing happened.
"Uh I don't know, I'll talk to him later." Josh nodded again.
"Alright, I've gotta get back to rehearsals. See ya later."
"Bye," after he left I decided to go watch the boys practicing. I walked in during Up All Night. This was the one song the boys had done a full dance choreography with. I watched for about 3 seconds before Harry mucked up. He moved on to the next move but mucked up, then he missed his cue for singing. The music stopped.
"Haz seriously you've been stuffing up everything what's going on." You could tell Louis was really frustrated and not saying half as much as he wanted to.
"Sorry," Harry mumbled. Louis rolled his eyes.
"Sorry isn't going to fix up your mistakes." Louis snapped. I saw hurt cross Harry's face as he walked back to the starting position for the song. My heart dropped, he looked so sad. I know Louis was frustrated but c'mon.
I know I probably shouldn't have said that but Harry needed to get his act together. I knew it was something to with Bella that was bothering him, and that made me a little less compassionate. When I told him that I think he should stay away from her, I didn't know about Ky or anything. Now I am even more determined to keep him away from her. She's gone though a lot and there's still a lot we don't know about her. Harry has a shit track record and I don't want Bella to be a part of that. I noticed Bella at the back of the room, watching. We made eye contact and I could tell that she didnt think I should have said what I said to Harry. I sighed. We continued on with rehearsals, and I noticed Bella stayed at the back in the shadows watching for a while, then left.
Louis knew something was up.
He knew it was about Bella.
And he was not happy about it.
It hurt me to think he had no trust in me with Bella. I stopped mucking up so much after Louis snapped at me. At about 5:30 we went backstage to get ready for the concert. Bella was in my dressing room talking on the phone. I decided to wait for her to get off the phone before barging into the room, I listened to what she was saying.
"-oh common stop being such a bitch about it all. They aren't that bad." I heard someone talking on the other side of the phone.
"Ok Eliza you need fucking grow up. It. Was. Not. There. Fault. The fact that Ky found me again wasn't there fault. Can you get that through your stubborn little head. Jesus! I let this all slide at first but its getting ridiculous. You hate them. You think they are idiots. You think Im an idiot. You think they are bad for me. I get it. Do you have to tell me this every time we speak! If all you called for is to yell at me about what a stupid fucking idiot I am then just fuck off! I'm so sick of this!!!" After Bella said this, I heard Eliza's response loud and clear because she was yelling so loudly.
"Oh your sick of this? Are you? Well you know what I'm sick of? You giving everyone chances. Ky, we tell you he's bad news, you give him a chance. He starts beating you up? You don't break up with him! And when he raped you, you didn't even tell anyone! And I am not going into everything else because otherwise you and I both know I'll be talking for hours. I'm sick of looking out for you because you don't! Your studying fucking phsycology and your brilliant at it yet you can't even look out for yourself. I'm sick of picking you up off the floor and looking after you when you can't!" My eyes widened. That fucking bitch! I thought at this Bella would be sure to hang up, instead she spoke in a low steady voice, gradually becoming louder until she was again yelling.
"You think I like you guys house bounding me all the time. You think I like you trying to do everything for me and control my life? You think I like it when you treat me like a fucking 5 year old who doesn't know shit about anything? YOU THINK I FUCKING LIKE THAT!!!!! I didn't tell anyone about Ky because I knew how you would react! I knew you would treat me like glass like you do every time something happens. Maybe living with the guys won't work out. But maybe it will. I'm letting them stay with me because I don't judge everyone on first impressions like you do! You think Louis is always such an ass? No! Only because you were such a stuck up bitch to him and the other guys so he decided to return it. The other guys try to be nice, they try to get you to like them but you won't even give them a chance! I don't need you trying to shield me from anything. Just because my Mum and Dad aren't here to do it doesn't mean you have to. And you know that! you know im perfectly capable of looking out for myself when everything turns south like it always does! I'm a big girl, I know how to fucking handle myself!" Her eyes were glossy and I was astounded that she wasn't crying. Finally, Eliza spoke again, one word.
"Fine." With that, she hung up. Bella threw the phone at the wall and swore. I decided to go in now. She looked up from the couch when she saw me with sad eyes. I had figured out a while back that her and Eliza didnt have many fights, but when they did they must be big, and the look in her eyes proved that. I didn't say anything, but instead sat down right next to her and pulled her into my arms. We sat like that for a while. Than she looked up at me with glossy eyes, I was surprised no tears had spilt.
"Is she right?" She asked in a whisper so quiet i almost didnt hear it. I sighed. I didn't know how to answer, so I just went with the open ended answer people hate.
"Only if you think she is." Bella rolled her eyes, clearly seeing I would be no help. She leant back into my chest. After a few minutes she pulled away.
"You need to go get ready for your concert." Oh right, the concert, I had almost forgotten....
"Yeah... I guess. Are you ok Bella." She looked like she was deciding how to answer. Eventually she slowly shook her head.
"No not really, but I'll get over it. We'll make up eventually." She smiled unconvincingly. I gave her one last hug before she left and I got changed and got my hair done. Now. It was time for the concert.
I took my seat next to a bunch of screaming fans. You've never experienced loudness until you have been to a One Direction concert. Na Na Na started playing and the boys all jogged onto stage.
"Hello Sydney! It's great to be back" Louis' comment was met with screams. They talked for a little while before moving onto there songs, they did One Thing, Gotta Be You, I Want, Everything About You, Up All Night (the choreography went great,) Moments and Save You Tonight. The whole time I was watching Harry. I couldn't help it. The way he looked so free when he sung and when his face lit up after he successfully did a dance move. It was amazing. I tried looking at the other boys but my eyes always wondered back to Harry. Every now and then one of the boys would look over at me and smile. The girls next to me eventually figured out who I was. Thankfully, they were really nice, thanking me for letting the boys stay with me and stuff. There was just one girl who gave me a look, but I just brushed it off. Finally the boys got to the encore.
"Alright that's about it for tonight. We've loved performing for you guys and love your support and enthusiasm. We have one last song for you though." The music for I Should Have Kissed You started playing. I frowned when it got to Harry's part, because Zayn was singing it. I thought Zayns solo wasn't until the bridge. All my questions were answers when it came to the bridge and Harry started singing.
When you stood there
Just a heartbeat away
When we were dancing,
And you looked up at me
If I had known then
That I'd be feeling this way
If I could replay
I would have never let you go
Never have let you go
Am I out of time?
Throughout his solo he kept looking at me, as if he was singing the lyrics to me. Was he singing to me? Of course not why would he be singing that. Was he thinking about last night? When he sung the last part, he looked straight into my eyes, and I knew he was talking to me. The song finished and the boys all left the stage. I rushed outside in the way that the boys told me I could go. But when I reached the door I didn't go in, I couldn't. I couldn't stop thinking about Harry. I backed away from the door till I was about 20 meters away. Then I just stood there with my arms around my body because I was cold. Just standing there.
I sung the song to her, and she knew it. I could see it in her eyes, she knew I was talking to her, that's why I asked to switch solos with Zayn right before the concert. She needed to know. Bella needed to know that I wanted to kiss her, and I should have. But, like the song said, was I out of time? After the concert I waited for her to come back stage, only she didnt. It had been about 15 minutes and still there was no sign of her.
"Guys I'm gonna go find Bella, she probably just got lost," I said before walking out. She must have gone the outside way, otherwise we would have seen her. I walked outside and saw Bella standing about 20 meters away in the shadows with her arms wrapped around her body facing away. So she wasn't lost, I didn't think she was. I observed her for a minute, just taking in her beauty. Slowly I walked up behind her.
His deep voice echoed behind me.
"Bella?" I turned around so I was facing him. None of us said anything, we were standing close. I looked into his eyes. Then he whispered something.
"Am I out of time?" He was quoting the song they sung and I think I know what he meant. I breathed and slowly shook my head. He stepped closer and placed his hands on my hips, leaning closer to my lips, he hesitated about a centimetre away, so I closed the distance. Kissing Harry styles.
Hey, sorry I was going to update last night but other things distracted me. Anyways hope this chapter is good enough to make up for it, I personally like it, but what do u guys think??? Always want to hear you comments! What do you think will happen next? Either 10 seconds later or 10 minutes or 10 days or..... You get the idea.