Five Lovestories

I ran as quiet as I could. I didn't know where I was going, or how far I would run until my legs would give up. The only thing I knew was that I had to find Bim, whatever it would take. God, I loved Zayn, I loved Harry, I loved them all. But I loved Bim too, and I had to prove it to her, before it was too late.
It was still dark outside, and so was the endless halls I was running through. Suddenly, I found myself on the top of the stairs, the ones that were running down to the huge cafeteria. I took a few breaths and started to walk down.

"Bim..!" I shouted, but quickly realized that my voice echoed louder in the massive room than I thought.

I walked around, to new rooms I had never been to, through corridors I had never even heard of. I ended up at some place I had never been at, and decided to go back.

"Fuck.." I mumbled under my breath. "Where is she?"

I felt like things were a disaster, and it was all my fault. I may have just lost Bim, I had fighted with Zayn for absolutely no reason, I left Louis standing like an total idiot, with the three little words stumbling out in the air, non responded.. and here I was, walking around like a fool, all by myself.
I suddenly jumped high into the air. A low noise in the middle of the dark I had in front of me made me almost trip backwards. What was that? Terrified, pushed up against a wall, I was listening while holding my breath. But the noise in front of me suddenly didn't seem as scary anymore, once I realized what it was.

"B-Bim..?" I stuttered low.

The repeating snoring I had in front of me was getting louder for every step I took closer. I knew for a fact, it was Bim. I may not have been roomies with her for more than a few weeks, but that snore had kept me awake many nights.

"Bim!" I hissed.

Once I got closer, I saw what was actually in front of me. It was a built-in table, and Bim was under there, surrounded with a big sleeping-bag and some fluffy pillows. Seeing her looking so small, so scared, it made my decision to forgive her even easier. I sat down besides her and just watched her tiny face, and her loud snorings, that suddenly didn't seem as annoying as before. I sighed, and leaned back, against the wall. The enormous and high windows, that were taking up the entire walls, were letting the moonlight slip through. It was beautiful, actually. What a night, I thought and sighed.

"Kath..? What the.."

I flinched when I saw Bim sitting up, looking at me with a sleepy frown.

"I-I.. I just.. I found you here, and.."

"And what?" She asked tired.

I looked at her for a long time, tried to read her eyes. Tried to feel something, but she was impossible.

"Can I sleep here.. with you?"

Bim sighed, and avoided my asking gaze. But I kept staring at her, and she was getting more and more nervous by the second.

"Okay, fine.." She said low and I quickly shambled closer to her.

"Here, I got two blankets.." She said and handed me one.

I gladely accepted it, and layed down besides her. I immediately felt relieved again, like I could breathe again. I would solve things with Zayn in the morning, and Louis would get his "I love you too", sometime. I just suddenly knew, things were going to be okay. And so would I and Bim be.

It was the crowded room, full of excited talking, happy laughing, and unpatient scheduling that woke me up. That, and the bright sunlight in my eyes. Everyone was smiling because of the trip, the amazing trip to USA. I smiled for a whole different reason. Even though the words weren't said, I knew that Bim and I were cool. And that was the only thing that mattered. Now, I could finally just let it all go, and focus on me and Zayn. Wait, I thought and swiftly sat up from my sleeping position. Zayn. As much as I didn't wanna remember, the previous night were still there, haunting me.

"Bad dream?" Bim asked with her back against me.

"Uh, no.." I mumbled. "What are you doing?"

"Just packing my stuff."

"Oh, right! The trip." I said and tried to sound happy for her.

It didn't matter what she was going to do. I already knew that I was staying home. I just didn't feel like it, and no matter how harsh it may have sounded.. me and Zayn maybe needed the time apart. We had gotten ourselfs a great week. We had bonded in a way me and Harry never had, he had been there for me, we had naked with each other, emotionally and in real life.. My feelings for him had grown a million times stronger, and I loved him very much. But right now, I just felt like staying home.

"No, I'm not going.. You.. you have a safe flight." She said and ran away.

I sighed once again. But being home may in that case be something good, maybe we could talk things really through? I thought. My thoughts were interrupted by two handsome boys.

"Kath, is that you?"

"Woah, what are you doing here love?"

I instantly recognized the voices. I leaned forward to see the faces, and there they were. Harry and Liam. They were holding bags and suitcases, and they looked so cute.

"Hi, I.. I, uh.. this is not.." I stuttered. "It's a long story."

They both chuckled.

"I get it, but you can't be hungover on the plane, babe." Harry said with a wink.

"Okay, first of all.." I said and stood up. "Don't call me babe. And second, I haven't been drinking. Like I said, it's a long story."

"So, where's your packing?" Liam asked with a smile. "The bus is leaving in twenty, you know."

"Yeah, about that.." I said. "I'm not feeling it. I'm just gonna stay home."

Harrys eyes widened, and Liams smile faded.

"Well.. I hope you'll feel better then." Liam said, with a somewhat real smile.

"What, no?!" Harry said with a frown. "You can't skip this! What did Zayn say about this?"

"He.. he got mad.." I said low.

"Well, I would've been too." Harry said. "It's his week, Kath. If you're not spending it with him, what are you going to do?"

"Okay, don't be so harsh, Haz." Liam said and patted his shoulder. "Look, Kath, if you two left it at a bad place, I can call him over. I know where he is."

I smiled big at his suggestion. But Harry was shaking his head.

"I would love it if you could do that." I said and layed my hand on his arm.

Liam gave me a blushing nod and turned around. Harry was left with me, still not understanding what I was doing.

"Okay, tell me again." Harry said after taking one step too close to me. "What is really happening? You don't like Zayn?"

"I love him!" I almost spat at him.

I was just so offended that he would say something like that. Kind of like he still couldn't let go of me.

"Okay, okay.. so what is it? How do you not wanna spend time with someone you love?" He said with and ironic tone on 'love'.

"I do! It's just because.. I don't know, okay?! Look, this is killing me too, it's just.."

"Harry, I'll take it from here." Zayn suddenly said behind him.

"Good luck, kid." Harry said with a cheeky smile.

Harry and Liam took off, and left standing was me and Zayn.

"Hey.." I said shyly and tried to take eyecontact with him.

Zayn smiled, and grabbed my hand.

"Hi."

"Look, I'm so sorry for what I said.. You didn't do anything wrong, and I don't deserve you, and you're too good for me.." I rambled.

"Shh.." Zayn said and held a finger on my mouth. "I'm not mad at you, and I accept the fact that you wanna stay home. That's why I hope that you.. I mean, really like you, Kath.."

My heart shattered a little when he used the wrong words.

"Or.. Goddamn it, I love you. I do, and it's going to be hard to do this, but I hope that you'll understand that I won't change my mind. I have to go on that trip, I'm not as good at singing as you are, and now that I'm here.. I just gotta do everything to succeed, I mean, this is a great opportunity.."

"You don't have to explain." I smiled and softly kissed him. "I love you so much.. and I'm happy that you choose to go. I mean, I'm happy for you.."

Zayn chuckled, and he kept kissing me. I was more than happy. And all it took was to find Bim, and let Zayn be his understanding self, and bam. The happiness I was feeling was incredible, things were finally working out.

"Will we see each other? Before you go home for Halloween, will we meet?" He asked with his hands on my hips.

"I'm going home on Monday, my moms party is on Tuesday.."

"And we'll be back on Monday.." Zayn sighed.

"Well.." I said and stood on my tip toes. "I won't leave until you're home."

Notes