*NIALLS POV*
Tears streaming down my face.
i stand on the bridge and look down.
the water looks pretty deep. I wonder how long it is before i go.
I clentch my fists and shut my eyes and jump.
Goodbye world forever.

*MYAS POV*
I was looking for ni like crazy.
WHERE THE FUCK WAS HE???
Finally i saw him. But i was too late.
He jumped off.
I was crying and i could tell my eyes were puffy
i got to where he jumped off from. I yell his name as loud as i can and collapse on the floor.
Then a car pulls up beside me . Its Liam.
"M-M-Mya is he..." all i managed to do was shake my head yes.
He started crying and looked over the bridge.
"Im going to go see if i can get him out.!!!" I heard Louis
"Its no use." Liam said as he sat next to me an hugged me
"Shhh its going to be okay Mya" Liam tried to comfort me but i just kept crying and couldnt stop.
i just lost the love of my life.
i need to be with him. He completed my life.
he was my everything.
My thoughts were interrupted
"Hey Louis has him!!" Zayn yelled.
I jumped up almost falling but Harry caught me.
I looked into his eyes.
they were full of sadness. who knew he would actually feel something.
his eyes were watery and i just kept crying. He pulled my into a hug and i looked back at Louis.
He had Nis body in his hands and they were both dripping wet.
"Nooo Ni please come back to me!" I ran to his side. But he didnt move. He wasnt breathing either.
i just saw his body in Louis arms and couldnt help it. I kissed his lips one last time. I was crying and collapsed on the floor one more time.
he looked so dead. so out of life.
i wish i was here earlier. Myabe i had been he would have not jumped.
myabe if i hadnt run out on him we wouldnt all be crying amd hoping for him to come back to life.
Maybe i should just die with him.
"We need to take him to the hospital." harry spoke up
"i-i-its no use."
"Yes it is maybe the doctors can do something!" Louis yelled
"HE WANTED TO FUCKN LEAVE!!!! JUST LET IT BE!!" I yelled back. even though i wanted him back her happy and full of life. i know he did this because he didnt want to be here.
"Hes my best mate and i agree im taking him to the hospital no matter what." Liam said while putting Ni in the car.
"Then im going" i said sobbing.
I got in the back of his car and let Nialls head fall on my lap.
i messed with his hair.
Tears streaming down my face. Ugh i miss him. I love him.
We got to the hospital
"Doctor Doctor!!" A nurse came next to usand asked what happened.
we explained and they took him from me.
I was crying
2 hours went by and all i was listening to was 'Moments' by them.
Shut the door, turn the light off
I wanna be with you
I wanna feel your love
I wanna lay beside you
I cannot hide this even though i try
Heart beats harder
Time escapes me
Trembling hands touch skin
It makes this harder
and the tear streams down my face
If we could only have this life
For one more day
Of we could only turn back time
You know I'll be
your life, your voice, your reason to be
my love, my heart
Its breathing for this
Moments in time
i'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today
Close the door,
Throw the key
Dont wanna be reminded
Dont wanna be seen
Dont wanna be without you
My judgements clouded
like tonights sky
Undecided, voice is numb
Try to scream out my lungs
it makes this harder
and the tears stream down my face
If we could only have this life
for one more day
If we could only turn back time
You I'll be
Your life, your voice, your reason to be
my love my heart
Its breathing for this
Moments in time
i'll find the words to say
before you leave me today
going back to the time
Playing games in the street
kicking balls with my feet
dancing on with my toes
Standing close to the edge
Theres a pile of clothes at the end of your bed
as i feel myself fall
Make a joke of it all
You know I'll be
Your life, your voice, your reason to be
My love my heart
Its breathing for this
moments in time
I'll find the words to say
Before you leave me today (2x)

okay so the song was over and tears were streaming down my face. Liam was there supporting me

Its been two hours since we brought ni in i was getting really worried now. The doctors never came out and told us any news.
Its been about 30 more minutes
"Umm me and perrie are gonna go to the cafeteria and get some to eat" Zayn said standing up.
"ok" was all i managed to say
"We will come with..do you want anything love?" El asked kindly
"no im not hungry thanks anyway"
"no problem call us if there is any news"
"Yeah we will" Liam spoke for me.
Just as they were about to leave the doctor came out and they stopped in their tracks.
"Umm are you friends of Niall Horan?"
"Yes" Louis responded quickly
I was still sitting down i felt super bad.
"Well it seems that niall hit his head on a rock when he jumped in. Hes in a coma..."
"And?!?!" I finally said something
"Hes very lucky..."
"Why?" Zayn asked worried.
"usually people who hit their heads as hard as Niall did lose their memory but it seems he still has his brain cells in the right place so hes fine. i just dont know when he will wake up from his coma. I know what i said about his brain cells being fine. But this is rare. We dont know if he will even wake up..."
i was so confused yet so mad at myself its all my fault he might die.
I need to see him
"Can we go in and see him now?" "yes you may"
We walked in and there was Niall.
A cut and bruise on his head.
i couldnt stand this i ran out to the bathroom.
looked through my bag for my blade.
i found it.
one cut..twoo cut..three cut for my shitty self
Then i heard a familiar voice
they came in my stall
"What the hell are you doing?!" the person said looking at me.

Notes

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