I watched as the ambulance took her away. She was covered in a sheet so you couldn't see her face. She was gone. No longer here.
I didn't know what to do.
I look over to my mom sobbing by the door. The ambulance just left.
I looked all around me.
I darted inside. I ran up to her bedroom
I looked at her stuff. All of her things they surrounded me. S-she was gone.
She had left me here.
I ran our of her room and franticly into mine.
And shut and locked the door behind me.
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"Kaitlin open up. Please baby open up" mom mom called from the other side of the door. I ignored it. Slumped down and cried.
Jessica was gone. She Was gone.
The word gone echoed in my head.
My head was pounding from my sobbing.
I heard my mom sobbing from the other side of the door. But I didn't dare move.
"Gone, she's gone. Gone" I repeated sobbing.
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I must have cried myself to sleep because I woke up the same way.
I didn't dare get up. I began to cry again. Letting it all sink in.
Jessica had killed her self last night. She had left me.
And it was my fault. she was right. Mom and I ruined her life. And she was gone. Gone forever.
I stayed there huddled against the wall crying my eyes out.
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It's been about two weeks.
Two weeks since I've been to school, or talked to anyone.
My sister had killed herself because I ruined her life. She even said so.
I've stayed up in my room. For the past two weeks.
Tomorrow's Friday . My moms making me go to school, just to get back into things.
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I got dressed.
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I decided I have to face the world one way or another.
I texted ruby and mark.
They where excited to hear I was actually leaving my hell hole.
I took my time walking down stairs,
My mom was talking to be but I shut her out.
I walked outside.
Ruby and mark where right by my door.
They greeted me with hugs.
They gave me concerned looks also.
"Don't look at me like that" I snapped.
And we walked to school.
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When we got to school It was almost as I could feel everyone staring at me.
"Kaitlin!" Perrie shouted.i glanced over.
Harry almost looked Harry to see me,
He got up and walked over.
Oh great.
"You left this at the party" he said taking my hand and putting my phone in it.
I nodded. And thanked him.
I could see mark glaring at him.
But I ignored it.
I decided to get to class early so the three of us entered the school.
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Harry's pov.
She left me standing there.
I haven't seen her in almost 2 weeks.
I think I might of actually missed her.
But I shouldn't. Because she isn't mine anymore. She's probably dating mark by now.
I see the way he looks at her. It's the way I look at her.
And it fucking pisses me off.
It pisses me off that I have no idea how she feels.
And it pisses me off that I care! I'm fucking Harry styles! I shouldn't care about this one girl.
I walked back over to the group and pulled out a cigarette.
I had to act like it was no big deal. I have a reputation to keep.
They all looked at me giving me concerned looks.
"What" I shot at them.
"We know you miss Kaitlin" Louis said calm and quietly.
"She's just a girl man. I don't miss her" I snapped.
"Stop trying to fool yourself Harry, you know for a fact that she's not just a girl. You know she's different to you. Your not a big bad boy. When she's around. When she's around you actually care" he said standing up from his position.
"Then that shows how much you know about me. Because she's JUST A GIRL" I replied getting in his face.
"Break it up" Niall said getting between us.
I stormed off.
Where was I going. No fucking clue.,
Did I care. No.
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Kaitlin's pov.
Harry wasn't in first class.
It was the first thing I noticed. Why? I don't know.
I don't like him. I realized I was just trying to think I did because he liked me. But he's probably moved on. I mean really? I just a girl and he's just a guy. Simple as that. We are nothing more to each other then people who used to date.
That's all we where ex's
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At lunch I sat at my regular table. With ruby and mark.
No Melissa and no Harry. It was just the three of us.
I don't know exactly what they where talking about.
I shut them out.
Not because I was thinking about anything else.
Because I just didn't want to talk to anyone. Or listen for that matter.
-
The rest of the school day was a blur.
I didn't pay attention at all.
-
Ruby Mark and I walked back to my house.
We walked upstairs and did the usually study circle we did.
But less talking this time.
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Harry's pov.
I walked around town instead of going to school.
There was nothing to do really.
I walked up the steeps and into Louis house,
The entire gang was there.
"Harry party tomorrow?" Louis asked.
Tomorrow was Saturday.
It was normally our thing to have a party on Saturday.
I shrugged,
"Im taking that as a yes" Louis said.
"Lets invite Kate!" Eleanor said.
"Doubt she'll come" I replied.
"We'll it's worth a shot" Perrie said.
I was hoping she'd come.
I need to ask her about that secret that Eleanor said wasn't hers to say.
It's been eating away at me.
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"Lets go now!" Danielle said pointing out the window.
Kate was waving good bye to ruby and mark who where leaving.
The girls rushed out of the house and across the street.
We piled over the window to watch.
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Looks like they had a lot on convincing to do.
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They came back after a few minutes.
"What'd she say?" Liam asked.
"It took a while but we broke her down" Danielle said smiling. Obviously proud.
I was really happy when I heard that. But I didn't show it.
Again, I have a reputation to keep. I can't ruin it for one girl who might not even mean anything in the end,

Notes

Well obviously she's depressed.
whats gonna happen at the party?
What's Melissa going to do? Don't think I forgot about her.
what about mark?
What ever happened to Parker? Don't think I for got about him either.
what about the secret. Will she tell Harry? What's going to happen if she dose?