old feelings
Saying no to temptation.
I wake up to the alarm.
i push my head from my pillow and see all the tear stains on it. I ignore them and walk into the bathroom, brushing my teeth and hair.
"You okay?" Louis says making me jump.
"Damn you Lou! Don't scare me like that! But...no, I'm not ok." I say and he turns me around from the sink and hugs me tightly. "Wait Lou? How did you get in?" I say into his shoulder.
"We fell asleep in your living room." He says.
"we?" What he mean "we"??
"Oh...um...I need to go." He says trying to walk away but I pull on the back of his shirt, yanking him back.
"LOUIS! Who is "we"?!" I say and hear a bang noise.
i walk to the living room and see Kaitlyn and Harry sleeping. Kaitlyn is on the couch and Harry looks like he fell from the chair to the floor.
I walk over to him to see of he is okay,"Harry....wake up..." I say and his eyes open slowly while his mouth forms a smile.
"morning love." He says and his arms wraps around my waist.
"Harry, let go..." I say lightly tugging on his arms off me, he doesn't budge, "Harry! Let go!" I snap at him and he comes back to reality.
"I'm sorry I thought it was still a drea-" he stops himself. Dream?
Harry's POV
yes I had a dream that I wish I hadn't because it just brought me into a deeper whole to dig myself out of.
*Harrys dream*
Alice was laying on the couch with her head in my lap, drifting off into sleep. I play with her hair until she opens her eyes immediately.
"Harry. I need to tell you somthing." She says.
"what is it?" I ask
"I don't have any other way to say this..." She says and her lips crash into mine.
"I love you too..." I say and we fall asleep on each other.
Alice's POV
i wish I could let me and Harry be together but I can't bare the thought if hurting him. I can't stand breaking any guys heart... When I broke up with my first boyfriend he had tears in his eyes and I felt my heart drop, and we only dated for a week!-anyway, point is I can't do that to Harry.
"um, we should get ready for today guys...we are performing at 6..." I say and Louis kisses my forehead and Kaitlyn hugs me goodbye. I walk back to my room and sort through my clothes.
"I want to wish you good luck." Shit. I forgot Harry was here.
"you too, but please go..." I say trying not to face him.
"I just want you to know that i don't care if you hurt me. Hurt me every second of everyday! Just let me love you..." He says tuggin in my waist, putting his hands on both sides of my hips.
"Harry, I love you but I won't hurt you. I can't be with you..." I say and his eyes fill with anger.
"Dammit Alice! You can't you just accept that you slipped up once! Ya it hurt me but I got over it, can't you!" He screams at me pinning me to the wall.
"you want to know why that little 'slip up' bothered me so much?! The hurt that was in your eyes was the worst thing that I ever saw! It hurt me so bad to know I hurt the one I love! My dad cheated on my mom and it changed her, she gave him another chance and he broke it again! She was in the worst condition ever. I didn't want that to happen to you!" I say as a tear rolls down my cheek.
Harry leans in and his soft lips touch my cheek and lead down my neck. I stop him by pushing his stronge chest from me.
"I am not giving up.." He says and leaves my room slamming the door.
i slide back on to my door and let my tear fall from my eyes as I bury my head in my knees.
Why am I so stupid? If he can trust me why can't I trust myself. Or why can't he just understand that I can't hurt him, I just...can't.
i push my head from my pillow and see all the tear stains on it. I ignore them and walk into the bathroom, brushing my teeth and hair.
"You okay?" Louis says making me jump.
"Damn you Lou! Don't scare me like that! But...no, I'm not ok." I say and he turns me around from the sink and hugs me tightly. "Wait Lou? How did you get in?" I say into his shoulder.
"We fell asleep in your living room." He says.
"we?" What he mean "we"??
"Oh...um...I need to go." He says trying to walk away but I pull on the back of his shirt, yanking him back.
"LOUIS! Who is "we"?!" I say and hear a bang noise.
i walk to the living room and see Kaitlyn and Harry sleeping. Kaitlyn is on the couch and Harry looks like he fell from the chair to the floor.
I walk over to him to see of he is okay,"Harry....wake up..." I say and his eyes open slowly while his mouth forms a smile.
"morning love." He says and his arms wraps around my waist.
"Harry, let go..." I say lightly tugging on his arms off me, he doesn't budge, "Harry! Let go!" I snap at him and he comes back to reality.
"I'm sorry I thought it was still a drea-" he stops himself. Dream?
Harry's POV
yes I had a dream that I wish I hadn't because it just brought me into a deeper whole to dig myself out of.
*Harrys dream*
Alice was laying on the couch with her head in my lap, drifting off into sleep. I play with her hair until she opens her eyes immediately.
"Harry. I need to tell you somthing." She says.
"what is it?" I ask
"I don't have any other way to say this..." She says and her lips crash into mine.
"I love you too..." I say and we fall asleep on each other.
Alice's POV
i wish I could let me and Harry be together but I can't bare the thought if hurting him. I can't stand breaking any guys heart... When I broke up with my first boyfriend he had tears in his eyes and I felt my heart drop, and we only dated for a week!-anyway, point is I can't do that to Harry.
"um, we should get ready for today guys...we are performing at 6..." I say and Louis kisses my forehead and Kaitlyn hugs me goodbye. I walk back to my room and sort through my clothes.
"I want to wish you good luck." Shit. I forgot Harry was here.
"you too, but please go..." I say trying not to face him.
"I just want you to know that i don't care if you hurt me. Hurt me every second of everyday! Just let me love you..." He says tuggin in my waist, putting his hands on both sides of my hips.
"Harry, I love you but I won't hurt you. I can't be with you..." I say and his eyes fill with anger.
"Dammit Alice! You can't you just accept that you slipped up once! Ya it hurt me but I got over it, can't you!" He screams at me pinning me to the wall.
"you want to know why that little 'slip up' bothered me so much?! The hurt that was in your eyes was the worst thing that I ever saw! It hurt me so bad to know I hurt the one I love! My dad cheated on my mom and it changed her, she gave him another chance and he broke it again! She was in the worst condition ever. I didn't want that to happen to you!" I say as a tear rolls down my cheek.
Harry leans in and his soft lips touch my cheek and lead down my neck. I stop him by pushing his stronge chest from me.
"I am not giving up.." He says and leaves my room slamming the door.
i slide back on to my door and let my tear fall from my eyes as I bury my head in my knees.
Why am I so stupid? If he can trust me why can't I trust myself. Or why can't he just understand that I can't hurt him, I just...can't.
Update
1/30/14