Gold
Broken, Yet Still Beautiful
Niall's POV
I thought she'd understand the this was the worst ultimatum for me. It broke me inside as I muttered just those 6 words but they just slipped out. Kirsten was literally my soul mate. I don't give a fuck about people saying we're too young. She was my everything even for just that little time. I can't believe I left her at that time, but I couldn't forget about Alicia and Veronica. They're family for pete's sake. I called it off with them even though it hurt. I just needed to be alone. Now here I am, in our flat, listening to the guys pound on my door, but their screams are drowned out by the sound of my tears. "Niall! Mate! We need to talk to you!" That was the only yell that came through. I walked over to the door and slowly opened it. Abbie, Zendaya, Zayn, Perrie, Leigh-Anne, Jesy, Harry, Jade, Louis, Eleanor, and Liam all ran into my room. "What's wrong?" Eleanor started. But the thought of Kirsten's friends in here killed me. I felt like someone was repeatedly stabbing me. "Kirsten." Was all I get out. They all crowded around me. The girls, ready for the juicy details, they guys, waiting to say their 'sorry's. "What did she do?" Harry asked. "She-- ITS ALL MY FAULT! GOD DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!! EVERYTHING MY FAULT!!!!!!!!" I screamed to no one in particular. "What happened?" Zayn asked skeptically. "She- she- she- became something and I had to go--- and she- she- didn't understand- she thought I didn't care- she-- she-- she left me." I managed to get the words out. But the words cut like knifes and their stares put me at gunpoint. "What is she?" Jesy asked. "I - have no idea..." I said. "Why'd you have to leave?" Perrie asked. "Alicia, and Veronica.... They said they could only see me today." I said. Jade facepalmed herself. "You left her in her time of need? God, men." She said rushing out of the room with Perrie, Leigh-Anne, Zendaya, Abbie, Eleanor, and Jesy following her. While the guys stayed to question me. Kirsten's POV: I decided not to go to the doctor's "special" meeting place. I was too hurt so I just went home. As I walked up my steps I saw the 10 girls on my couches. I couldn't tell who they were, but I knew that I knew them. I walked in to the familiar faces of my sisters, Little Mix, Eleanor, Zendaya, Abbie and Brooke. I didn't even say hello, I just curled up in a ball in front of Kaylin and Jenessa. "Aw, babe, you okay?" Perrie asked. I shook my head 'no'. Kaylin, Jenessa, and Brooke said nothing but started to stroke my hair. I cried about ×20 harder than when I did when I first found Jason and that slut. "We heard what happened." Abbie said. "How?" I choked out. "Niall." Zendaya answered. "Oh." I felt so little, like I didn't matter anymore. Alicia, Veronica, and Niall are probably out somewhere having fun, while I'm here crying like the little girl I want to be. I wish I was 5 again. No drama, no love. "Niall's not good either." Eleanor informed me. I looked up at her and then at the others. Jesy, Jade, Leigh-Anne, Zendaya, Abbie, and Perrie nodded. "He's crying harder than Harry did when Carolina cheated on him." Leigh-Anne informed. I could see Zendaya shift slightly in her seat. "Harder than I've ever seen any guy." Jesy agreed. "K, I'm sorry I wasn't there." Brooke said out of nowhere. "We all are, Brooke." Kaylin said matter-of-factly. "Ain't that the truth." Jenessa said in the most quiet tone I've ever heard her speak in. Jade looked straight into my eyes. "Babe, you need to talk to him. He's a wreck too."
I thought she'd understand the this was the worst ultimatum for me. It broke me inside as I muttered just those 6 words but they just slipped out. Kirsten was literally my soul mate. I don't give a fuck about people saying we're too young. She was my everything even for just that little time. I can't believe I left her at that time, but I couldn't forget about Alicia and Veronica. They're family for pete's sake. I called it off with them even though it hurt. I just needed to be alone. Now here I am, in our flat, listening to the guys pound on my door, but their screams are drowned out by the sound of my tears. "Niall! Mate! We need to talk to you!" That was the only yell that came through. I walked over to the door and slowly opened it. Abbie, Zendaya, Zayn, Perrie, Leigh-Anne, Jesy, Harry, Jade, Louis, Eleanor, and Liam all ran into my room. "What's wrong?" Eleanor started. But the thought of Kirsten's friends in here killed me. I felt like someone was repeatedly stabbing me. "Kirsten." Was all I get out. They all crowded around me. The girls, ready for the juicy details, they guys, waiting to say their 'sorry's. "What did she do?" Harry asked. "She-- ITS ALL MY FAULT! GOD DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!! EVERYTHING MY FAULT!!!!!!!!" I screamed to no one in particular. "What happened?" Zayn asked skeptically. "She- she- she- became something and I had to go--- and she- she- didn't understand- she thought I didn't care- she-- she-- she left me." I managed to get the words out. But the words cut like knifes and their stares put me at gunpoint. "What is she?" Jesy asked. "I - have no idea..." I said. "Why'd you have to leave?" Perrie asked. "Alicia, and Veronica.... They said they could only see me today." I said. Jade facepalmed herself. "You left her in her time of need? God, men." She said rushing out of the room with Perrie, Leigh-Anne, Zendaya, Abbie, Eleanor, and Jesy following her. While the guys stayed to question me. Kirsten's POV: I decided not to go to the doctor's "special" meeting place. I was too hurt so I just went home. As I walked up my steps I saw the 10 girls on my couches. I couldn't tell who they were, but I knew that I knew them. I walked in to the familiar faces of my sisters, Little Mix, Eleanor, Zendaya, Abbie and Brooke. I didn't even say hello, I just curled up in a ball in front of Kaylin and Jenessa. "Aw, babe, you okay?" Perrie asked. I shook my head 'no'. Kaylin, Jenessa, and Brooke said nothing but started to stroke my hair. I cried about ×20 harder than when I did when I first found Jason and that slut. "We heard what happened." Abbie said. "How?" I choked out. "Niall." Zendaya answered. "Oh." I felt so little, like I didn't matter anymore. Alicia, Veronica, and Niall are probably out somewhere having fun, while I'm here crying like the little girl I want to be. I wish I was 5 again. No drama, no love. "Niall's not good either." Eleanor informed me. I looked up at her and then at the others. Jesy, Jade, Leigh-Anne, Zendaya, Abbie, and Perrie nodded. "He's crying harder than Harry did when Carolina cheated on him." Leigh-Anne informed. I could see Zendaya shift slightly in her seat. "Harder than I've ever seen any guy." Jesy agreed. "K, I'm sorry I wasn't there." Brooke said out of nowhere. "We all are, Brooke." Kaylin said matter-of-factly. "Ain't that the truth." Jenessa said in the most quiet tone I've ever heard her speak in. Jade looked straight into my eyes. "Babe, you need to talk to him. He's a wreck too."
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