Loving Is Not Easy
Blast to the past
This"PICKLES"
I suddenly said when woke up slightly confused as to where I was I blinked a couple of times and looked at the room noticing that it wasn't my room but Lucy's.
I looked over and she was at her vanity mirror with an eye liner near her eye and she was staring at me. Like I was a freak
"What the hell" she had an amused look on her face but tried to hide it.
"I don't even know"
"What were you dreaming about" she started laughing uncontrollably
"Burgers" I said slightly embarrassed of how much of a glut I am
This made Lucy laugh even harder and clenched her stomach. I don't know why I was so funny but she made me laugh just by the site of her over reacting.
"Okay enough" she wiped a tear from her eye
"If I keep laughing I will never get to school"
That brought up a question to my mind
"Lucy have you even been going to school" I raised an eyebrow at her
"Nah" she shrugged like it was no biggie
"Why not?"
" i was worried sick about you and couldn't focus" she shrugged it off I just nodded and went over to my bag
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I walked out of the bathroom wearing This
"Dam gurl you looking hawt" she jokingly circled around me.
"Ah shut up" I pushed her shoulder
"Alright, alright " she put her arms up and finished backing her bag when I was doing the same.
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We finally arrived at the hell hole people called school.
"Goodie" I said sarcastically
"Cheer up " Lucy beamed and I just sighed and opened the car door and slide out of the car making my outfit rise a bit.
As my feet landed on the ground I re arranged my outfit and went to the back to get my school bag.
"Lets go" Lucy took the lead, she was always the one who who lead me through a tough time which I was thankful for, if it weren't for Lucy by now I would be a wreck, I'd probably get back into self-harming.
As we walked down the walk way people stared not at Lucy just eyes glued to me, I felt really uncomfortable but what I heard them murmuring brought fear into me.
"It's that girl" a snide girl pointed while whispering to her friends little did she know I could hear her
I continued walking shrugging it off, maybe she was talking about me running out of school.
But oh boy was I wrong.
I could hear murmurs all around me about ME
"Isn't that the girl who got raped"
"Look it's the slut, who even slept with her step dad"
"How disgusting"
"Even with her step dad"
"I heard she went to an abortion clinic"
"She was in the hospital"
"I bet she's pregnant, she's a bitch so she'll abort it, what a hoe"
That last one hurt.
ALOT
No wait everyone of those felt like ting things stabbing my heart 1000 times
Lucy quickly gathered what was going on and turned to me, seeing worry in her eyes made my chest go heavier and I couldn't control my breathing p, I felt like I was going to puke from the nausea in my gut, it felt like everywhere was going numb, before I knew it i couldn't breath at all.
Lucy ran to me and pulled me into a vacant dark class room and sat us down since we.. No I cause so much attention drawn to us.
"Luka calm down, your having a panic attack and the doctor said for you to take it easy" she looked me straight in the eyes.
But my breathing became ragged and my eyes started to flow
"Luka, breathe in"
I took a short shaky breath in.
"And let it out"
And I copied her words until I was calm enough to speak. But the nausea and numbness hadn't gone away.
Everyone and I mean every one knew about it, but who could have told it wasn't luc-
It was HIM
It was Harry Fucking Styles
He was the one who eavesdropped on our conversation
"I-I want to go" I said while standing up slowly wobbling then falling back down
I let out a grunt since my wounds had still not healed
I tried to get up once again but had Lucy's assistance this time.
We where walking once again and I saw HIM and he unfortunately saw us and started walking over to us
Greeeaaatttt
This is what I need
"I didn't think you would come tod-" he didn't get to finish he sentence cause I bitch slapped him
"Don't ever fucking talk to me again" I fumed at him turned around and walked back to Lucy's car.
I lent against her car and looked In my bag to desperately get my phone, once I grabbed the magical black device I called the only number that was running through my head.
-hello?-
"Dad" I said with tears dreaming down my face
-luka whats wrong- he said with worry In his voice
"I-I want to go to Japan right now"
I suddenly said when woke up slightly confused as to where I was I blinked a couple of times and looked at the room noticing that it wasn't my room but Lucy's.
I looked over and she was at her vanity mirror with an eye liner near her eye and she was staring at me. Like I was a freak
"What the hell" she had an amused look on her face but tried to hide it.
"I don't even know"
"What were you dreaming about" she started laughing uncontrollably
"Burgers" I said slightly embarrassed of how much of a glut I am
This made Lucy laugh even harder and clenched her stomach. I don't know why I was so funny but she made me laugh just by the site of her over reacting.
"Okay enough" she wiped a tear from her eye
"If I keep laughing I will never get to school"
That brought up a question to my mind
"Lucy have you even been going to school" I raised an eyebrow at her
"Nah" she shrugged like it was no biggie
"Why not?"
" i was worried sick about you and couldn't focus" she shrugged it off I just nodded and went over to my bag
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I walked out of the bathroom wearing This
"Dam gurl you looking hawt" she jokingly circled around me.
"Ah shut up" I pushed her shoulder
"Alright, alright " she put her arms up and finished backing her bag when I was doing the same.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
We finally arrived at the hell hole people called school.
"Goodie" I said sarcastically
"Cheer up " Lucy beamed and I just sighed and opened the car door and slide out of the car making my outfit rise a bit.
As my feet landed on the ground I re arranged my outfit and went to the back to get my school bag.
"Lets go" Lucy took the lead, she was always the one who who lead me through a tough time which I was thankful for, if it weren't for Lucy by now I would be a wreck, I'd probably get back into self-harming.
As we walked down the walk way people stared not at Lucy just eyes glued to me, I felt really uncomfortable but what I heard them murmuring brought fear into me.
"It's that girl" a snide girl pointed while whispering to her friends little did she know I could hear her
I continued walking shrugging it off, maybe she was talking about me running out of school.
But oh boy was I wrong.
I could hear murmurs all around me about ME
"Isn't that the girl who got raped"
"Look it's the slut, who even slept with her step dad"
"How disgusting"
"Even with her step dad"
"I heard she went to an abortion clinic"
"She was in the hospital"
"I bet she's pregnant, she's a bitch so she'll abort it, what a hoe"
That last one hurt.
ALOT
No wait everyone of those felt like ting things stabbing my heart 1000 times
Lucy quickly gathered what was going on and turned to me, seeing worry in her eyes made my chest go heavier and I couldn't control my breathing p, I felt like I was going to puke from the nausea in my gut, it felt like everywhere was going numb, before I knew it i couldn't breath at all.
Lucy ran to me and pulled me into a vacant dark class room and sat us down since we.. No I cause so much attention drawn to us.
"Luka calm down, your having a panic attack and the doctor said for you to take it easy" she looked me straight in the eyes.
But my breathing became ragged and my eyes started to flow
"Luka, breathe in"
I took a short shaky breath in.
"And let it out"
And I copied her words until I was calm enough to speak. But the nausea and numbness hadn't gone away.
Everyone and I mean every one knew about it, but who could have told it wasn't luc-
It was HIM
It was Harry Fucking Styles
He was the one who eavesdropped on our conversation
"I-I want to go" I said while standing up slowly wobbling then falling back down
I let out a grunt since my wounds had still not healed
I tried to get up once again but had Lucy's assistance this time.
We where walking once again and I saw HIM and he unfortunately saw us and started walking over to us
Greeeaaatttt
This is what I need
"I didn't think you would come tod-" he didn't get to finish he sentence cause I bitch slapped him
"Don't ever fucking talk to me again" I fumed at him turned around and walked back to Lucy's car.
I lent against her car and looked In my bag to desperately get my phone, once I grabbed the magical black device I called the only number that was running through my head.
-hello?-
"Dad" I said with tears dreaming down my face
-luka whats wrong- he said with worry In his voice
"I-I want to go to Japan right now"
Notes
At I know I said that I would update twice yesterday buuuutttti stayed up until 2:45 am trying to finish this because I got distracted during the day and night so here it is.
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5/25/14