First Day of My Life

It’s the girls’ first day of school and I’m laying out their outfits that they helped pick out yesterday. Harry’s downstairs making breakfast so that it’ll be ready when I wake them up. After laying their clothes on mine and Harry’s bed I went into the room that the three of them are currently sharing in my apartment. Harry and I basically live together in my apartment and when he goes on tour Clemmie stays with me and the girls. Harry and I have been dating since the girls were about three months old.

“Mommy?” Violet questioned quietly as I brushed her hair out of her face.

“It’s me. It’s time to get ready for preschool. Why don’t you head downstairs while I wake up Nora and Clemmie?” I asked her and she nodded her head slowly as she sat up. She gave me a hug and kissed my cheek before heading downstairs. I soon woke the other two up in the same manner. Once I was sure all three were downstairs I made their beds, when I was done I walked downstairs and found them sitting at the table and eating along with Harry.

“I’m going to get dressed,” I said after grabbing a water out of the fridge.

“Nope. Sit down and eat,” Harry said standing up and coming to stop me. I sighed and sat down at the table with our girls as he brought a plate of pancakes and bacon over to me.

“Thank you,” I said to him and he nodded his head. Harry and the girls obviously finished before I did and since they were all sticky Harry decided to give them a bath together. When I was done I put all of our dishes in the dishwasher and then headed into the master bathroom where I found three giggling girls and one soaked Harry.

“What happened to you?” I asked him trying to stifle my own laughter so I wouldn’t encourage the girls.

“Well our daughters decided that I needed a bath so they gave me one,” He explained to me laughing slightly.

“I told you that you smelled,” I replied picking up Clementine’s towel and going and wrapping her in it while tickling her up and out of the shallow water, “Harry go dry off and change while I finish getting the girls out of the tub and dressed,”

“Mommy can we see Granna today?” Nora asked me as I lifted her out of the tub last.

“I’ll ask her later today. Now go join your sisters,” I said to her. Harry and I agreed that the three should consider each other sisters because they’ve grown up together, but it helps that all three share the same birthday. When I got into the room I dried each of them off and then had them put on their underwear. Once it was on I helped each of them put on their tights and by the time their tights were on Harry walked back into the room in a different set of clothes and dry.

“Can you help me put on their dresses while I do Nora’s hair?” I asked him and he nodded his head. Once I helped put Nora’s dress on her I sat down on the ground and she sat in front of me so I could do her hair. I parted her hair and then put a bubble braid going back on one side and put it in a bun then added a white bow and then I put the other side in a bun and added a bow to that. I picked the white bow since she’s wearing her rarity dress today.

“You are free to roam around as you please,” I said to her as Clementine came and sat down in front of me next. I parted her hair into two then on each side I braided two braids back and but it in a bun then added a blue bow on each side since she’s wearing her rainbow dash dress.

“Okay little miss you’re done,” I said kissing her cheek and then having her stand up. Now Violet, Lottie, came and sat down in front of me. I did two braids back and ended them in low buns and tied a pink ribbon around them to make bows. Today she is wearing her fluttershy dress. As you can tell all three girls are big fans of my little pony.

“I’m going to get dressed really quick then we can head out. First both of our parents want me to send then a picture of the girls though,” I said to him and he nodded his head. I went into the walk in closet and picked out one of my favorite gray shirts along with jeans and my light blue rain boots. When I got dressed I went downstairs and found all the girls in their ran boots and backpacks on as Harry took pictures.

“Can we jump in puddles daddy?” Lottie asked him and at the moment my eyes went wide Harry turned and looked at me. Neither of my girls have called Harry “daddy” before simply because their biological dad is in their life. This is uncharted territory and Harry and I don’t know what to do.

“How do I respond?” He mouthed to me, “Do I acknowledge it or just let it go?” In response I just shrugged and put my hands up. He sighed and turned back to the girls.

“Go get your raincoats on and we’ll talk about it,” He said sending the girls running to the hall closet where there coats are.

“What are we going to do? She’s the first one to acknowledge either of us non-parents as a parent,” He said completely frazzled.

“That made no sense, but I unstood what you meant. I wonder if this is going to encourage Nora to call you dad and Clemmie to call me mom. I feel like before we even acknowledge what she said we might have to talk to Brandon about how he…” I started before stopping as soon as the girls walked back in with their coats on.

“Backpack time,” I said putting handing them each their backpacks that had their lunch boxes connected. Harry then handed each of them their umbrellas and we headed out of the house.

“We’ll talk more about this when we get back,” Harry said to me as I walked past him and I nodded my head. When we got to their school this is when I had to choke back my tears and smile at the three little girls who are my whole world.

“Harry’s crying,” Nora said laughing as he got her out of the car. I looked over at my fiance and found that he was in fact crying. This is when I knew that I could not cry or else the girls would cry as well.

“I’m fine, don’t worry about me,” Harry said taking Lottie out of the car after he unbuckled and helped Nora out. I got Clementine out and we all walked inside. Once inside I checked them in while Harry went to their classroom with them. I got all the paperwork and by the time I did back to the classroom finally the girls were already socializing with other kids in their class.

“We should probably go,” Harry said putting his arm around my shoulder as my tears finally fell and his stopped.

“Yeah, you’re right,” When we got in the car Harry drove this time and I stared out the window. I was broken out of my trance as he took a hold of my hand and gave it a squeeze.

“If anything goes wrong they have each other. Plus we’ll finally have time during the day to just spend cuddled up with each other or to plan the last little bit of the wedding before I leave for tour. Which I really want you to fly out to Paris with me on the 12th for your birthday,” He said glancing at me really quick.

“Harry, I’m pregnant,” I just blurted out. I’ve known for a month or so now and I couldn’t figure out how to tell him and my filter decided to shut down at this moment in time. The only person who knew so far was Tuppie because she was with me when I took the test.

“You are?” He asked in a slightly panicked tone.

“Yeah. I know this isn’t the best time with your tour and then the wedding a couple of months after that, but it’s happening,”

“How far along are you?”

“Two months this week,” I sheepishly mentioned.

“So you’ll be in due in October. At least I’ll be home for the birth I guess. I just really wish this wasn’t happening,” and that took me by surprise. I get not being prepared, but wishing away a child is where I draw the line.

“Nice to know,” I replied as I took my hand out of his and went back to staring out the window.

“That’s not what I meant and you know it,” He sighed in frustration as he stopped at a red light. I just ignored him and continued to stare at the window and the rest of the ride home was like this. When I got inside the apartment I took off my raincoat and boots then went into my room and laid down. I just laid there and let the tears of hurt and frustration fall. I just laid there and let his words sink in. I just laid there and thought about what this means for our future. It doesn’t help that I’m an overthinker either.
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“Come on Lila Rose. You need to eat lunch,” Harry said from outside the door a couple hours later. He’s been trying to get me to come out and eat for the past twenty minutes, but I’ve just been lying in bed ignoring him.

“I’m coming in,” He warned before the door opened. I pulled the blanket over my head and felt the other side of the bed dip.

“Go away,”

“Nope. Not going to happen. Now come out of there so I can talk to you,” Harry said. I made a little hole for my face and stuck it out while keeping the rest of my head covered.

“What do you want?”

“I wanted to tell you that when I said that I really wished this wasn’t happening I mean I wish it wasn’t happening now,”

“Great thanks for clarify for me,”

“If you would let me continue I would’ve told you it’s because I won’t be here to experience everything with you. I wasn’t able to experience Jennifer’s pregnancy with Clemmie and I knew that I wanted to experience your pregnancy with our first child. That’s why I wish it wasn't happening right now. I’m beyond excited that we’re having a child together either way though,” He said as I scooted closer to him.

“Really?”

“Really, really. You and those three girls are my whole world and I can’t wait to add little bean to this mix,” He said right before meeting his lips with mine for a kiss.

“That makes me really happy,”

“It makes you really happy huh? Maybe we should go out for lunch to celebrate our happiness,” he said and I nodded my head still holding onto his side. We sat like that for two minutes and then we both finally took it upon ourselves to get out of our bed and head to our favorite place for lunch.

“So will you join me in the city of love for your birthday?” Harry asked me as we were eating our lunch.

“Who would watch the girls?”

“Well you can talk to Brandon about Nora and Lottie staying with him and I’ll talk to Jennifer about Clemmie staying with her. It’s about time that they step up and spend time with their children again,” He said in frustration at their lack of involvement in their daughters’ lives.

“I’ll text Brandon now,” I said to him.

“Why don’t you wait until we get home. Lunch is all about us today,”
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It’s 6:30 pm and Harry and I are in our bed cuddling with the girls while watching episodes of My Little Pony. We just finished dinner and are now trying to get the girls to unwind. We both also figured now would be the best time to tell them that they’ll be staying with Brandon and Jennifer while Harry and I are in Pairs for two days.

“Hey buggies listen,” Harry began muting the tv making the girls look up at him from their spots in between us.

“Next week you guys are going to spend two days with your mom and dad while Lilia and I go to Paris,” He explained to them.

“I don’t want to leave Clemmie,” Nora said latching on to the little girl next to her.

“I want to go with Nora and Lottie,” Clemmie said looking up with Harry with watering eyes. It was this moment I realized how much like sisters our girls actually are.

“It’s only for two days though,” I said reminding them about the short time frame, “Plus you guys will see each other at school,”

“No mommy,” Lottie said looking up to me angry.

“We’ll see what we can do,” Harry said finally giving into the three little girls that have him wrapped around his finger. He then unmuted the tv and let the girls watch and picked up his phone. Soon my own phone buzzed and it was a text from him suggestion that maybe I talk to my parents to see if they’re okay with watching all three girls that day. I told him it was worth a shot before sending a text in my family’s group chat asking them if it was ok.

“Time for jammies,” Harry said around 7:30 turning off the tv. All three girls climbed to the end of my bed and used the stool to get out. Harry went and put their pajamas on while I went downstairs to prepare their lunch for tomorrow.

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