Forget To Remember Me

Annabelle's POV:

...What?! You have got to be kidding me. Here I am, sitting on the couch with Louis, listening to him confess all of his feelings for me... And I can't do anything about it. When he finished his rant and stared at me with his big beautiful blue eyes full of hope, I knew that I would never be happy again. I've had so much disappointment to last a lifetime. Every time i've been hit with it I have been able to be strong and get back up again. This time... i'm not so sure. I know I can't give him what he wants no matter how much I want it too, but I had to force myself to say, " Oh...Lou. You don't know how much this means to me,.. but, I can't do this to you." I finished. I looked down at our entwined hands and saw how perfect they fit together. I don't want to do this, but I have to and the only thing that I could do that I think surprised us both was...


I ran.


I ran right up the stairs and into Louis' bedroom. I slammed the door shut and slid my body down onto the ground while putting my head into my hands. I started bawling. I never really thought about how much I loved Louis as more than a friend until I realized that I couldn't keep him. That's what hurts the most. If I just had a normal life, without this god damn cancer, none of this would be happening. I would be with my best friends right now having the time of my life and possibly being Louis' new plus one. Not running away in tears from him and feeling nothing, but heartbreak. Why me? Why did I have to be cursed with this uncurable disease? It's not fair and it never has been. Not with the life I have today. It's too great to pass up, but I don't get a choice do I? I have to pretend to live my life and act like nothing is wrong every single day and i'm finally sick of it. Sick of all the secrets. I need to tell Louis about this..

And I have to do it now.


Louis POV:

I ran after her. I ran right up the stairs and into the only room where she would go. My room. I heard sobbing coming from the inside of the room. I gently touched the handle and pushed. When I got a good view of the room, I saw Annabelle sitting against my bed, crying with her head in her hands. I rushed over to her. "What is going on Belle? I thought you felt the same. Is there a reason you're holding back on me? Whatever it is I can help you through it. It can't be all that bad.."I started. I was about to continue, but Annabelle soon sprang up and started yelling,

"Yes it is that bad! This is something you can't help me through. I'm in this alone and there is no way out of this hell hole I call my life!" Where was this coming from?

"Why would you say such a thing Belle? Where is all of this coming from?" I asked, frantically searching her tear-stained eyes. We were met with a silence. She started to calm down and she stopped shaking. After what seemed like a lifetime, she spoke and finally said, " I can't go on like this. I can't keep secrets from any one of you boys. It's not fair and it's time the truth comes out." she said. What? What is she talking about?! "Just tell me what's going on Belle, you aren't making any sense" I said. She took my hand and walked me over to her bed.

"Listen. I want you to just listen to me. Don't say anything until I'm done, because for the third time today, i'm saying something that is really hard to talk about. Louis... "She started with a deep breath. "I have cancer." My heart dropped. No... This is not happening. Not now. She rushed to finish, " I was told a little over a year ago that I have it. The doctors told me that I only had 3 years to live. Now, I'm left with only one. I was going along fine with it because I knew I had no control over it, but that was before I met you and the rest of One Direction. I live alone. I don't live with my parents anymore and I don't really have any friends. Until now. After I started to meet you guys I was ecstatic, but also guilty. Ecstatic because I finally had some people to call my friends, and guilty because I knew that one year later, I would never see them again, and they soon would have to find out about this cancer. Then I met you. Yes, we started off hating each other, but we got through it. It might have taken away a year of us being best friends, but I was just glad that we settled our differences. I had no intention of falling for you in the process. I swore to myself when I found out about my cancer, I would not fall in love. Why may you ask? Because if I did, it wouldn't be fair to them to watch me die right in front of them. I was careless, and i'm sorry, but regardless of my feelings for you Louis, we can never be together." She finished as her tears started to flow once more.

I can't believe that this is happening to me. Just when I thought that me and Belle could be something together, it blew up in my face. Now I only have a year to be with Belle, but not as a boyfriend, but as a backbone, a comforter. I needed to be strong for her because we have so little time left. I looked at her and lifted her chin to look me in the eyes.

"Listen to me Annabelle. You are the bravest, most strong women I have ever met. When you were diagnosed with this, you didn't do what most girls would do. You stood tall and that's all you really can do now. Still, me and the boys will never leave your side. We care way too much for you to let you just slip away from us. We will be here every step of the way, until your heart stops beating." I finished. We then just stared at each other for a while. Both of our eyes glistening with old tears as new ones were starting to flow on top.


We took one good look at each other. Because we knew that this is the final month of the year. December. December 12th to be exact.


The last full year that we would ever see each other in our lifetimes again...