No Regrets?
4.
Bella's pov:
Ally's six am cries wakes me immediately. I turn my head, her face red and fresh tears pouring. I sigh and haul out of bed, lifting her up rock her back and forth. "Shh baby, come one. Shh."
With luck on my side she unwinds. My heart rate quickens when I hear noises coming from downstairs. Is there an intruder? Can't be this house is guarded and locked just as much as Buckingham Palace.
Hosting myself and Ally up I decent dow the stairs, of course Harry is still asleep his always been an heavy sleeper especially when alone.
The rattling comes from the kitchen. I halt immediately, My eyes widen, Ally asleep head over my shoulder while sucking on her thumb. His six foot slender frame standing behind me, Black skinny jeans, Chelsea brown boots, and a black t-shirt. Gazing intently at the stove flipping some pancakes.
Am I dreaming?
"Morning?" He notices me, he grabs Ally from me and she does not wake. "Hold this." I take the spatula.
"How's daddy's princess? "He takes a now awaking Ally to the couch. I stand here frozen with a spatula in my hand attempting to comprehend this certain change.
"Come on." Harry puts Ally in his chair, I am still speechless and my eyes wonder we he moves.
"Did you want Mapel Syrup?" He takes the spatula from me, flipping some pancakes. I reply with a subtle ah uh.
The table is beautiful decorated, flowers in the middle candles in the middle in a row, nice plates and cutlery, fresh squeezed orange juice and a steaming mug of coffee.
"Here." He pulls out the chair for me, gosh he hasn't done that ever since we were dating. "Thanks." I whisper, moving some hair from my face.
"One more bite for daddy." Harry feeds ally. She smiles and dribbles, he grabs a napkin and wipes it away. I go to stand to put my plate in the sink. "No, sit. I got it," He smiles. I obediently seat back down. "I also called Mum, she is going to take Ally for the day, so we can talk." He says emptying a plate of food on another.
"Ma." Ally chuckles she hasn't fully adapted to the word grandma.
"Thanks mum." Harry kisses his mum on the cheek and ally on the forehead. "Bye sweetie" I kiss her hand.
"Take your time, you two." Anne winks, Harry and I wave to them both.
"So." He says putting his hands in his pockets. "So." I repeat.
"Kitchen." he points, I nod following him.
We sit opposite each other and I appreciate his willing to try. But the problem is we don't really know what the problem is.
"Why is this awkward?" He chuckles
I chuckle, "I don't know" I say lapping at my hands for a distraction.
I sigh heavily this tension is overwhelming.
"Ok first of all." He clears his throat. "Bella."
"I'm listening." I meet his eyes. "No amount of sorry's will makeup for how poorly I have treated you and Ally. I've been useless, and non existent and I don't even know why."
A tear falls I grab onto his hands like a life support machine. "Hey, you are not useless.."
"I am, and it's ok to admit it." He looks down to the table tears spilling. "H." I sigh.
"What happened to us Bells?"
I slouch down closing my eyes and tears free fall.
"I have no idea."
Simultaneously our eyes meet again. "Do you want to fix, whatever this is?" I ask.
"Bella I love you, but whatever is going on, it's on me." He drops his head in defeat.
"Umm I'll be back to get more stuff." harry picks up his bag and drives off.
We have decided we need some time apart so he can work on whatever he is going through, leaving Ally and I in this massive home. I don't want this, but we always don't get what we want. I wish we could work this out together like a family. We are not separating nor any threats of it, just some time.
Anne took Ally and was obviously devastated.
I crawl into our bed we used to be so close in bliss , picking up our wedding photo we were so happy. Tears fall I get ready for bed my first night in this home alone.
Ally's six am cries wakes me immediately. I turn my head, her face red and fresh tears pouring. I sigh and haul out of bed, lifting her up rock her back and forth. "Shh baby, come one. Shh."
With luck on my side she unwinds. My heart rate quickens when I hear noises coming from downstairs. Is there an intruder? Can't be this house is guarded and locked just as much as Buckingham Palace.
Hosting myself and Ally up I decent dow the stairs, of course Harry is still asleep his always been an heavy sleeper especially when alone.
The rattling comes from the kitchen. I halt immediately, My eyes widen, Ally asleep head over my shoulder while sucking on her thumb. His six foot slender frame standing behind me, Black skinny jeans, Chelsea brown boots, and a black t-shirt. Gazing intently at the stove flipping some pancakes.
Am I dreaming?
"Morning?" He notices me, he grabs Ally from me and she does not wake. "Hold this." I take the spatula.
"How's daddy's princess? "He takes a now awaking Ally to the couch. I stand here frozen with a spatula in my hand attempting to comprehend this certain change.
"Come on." Harry puts Ally in his chair, I am still speechless and my eyes wonder we he moves.
"Did you want Mapel Syrup?" He takes the spatula from me, flipping some pancakes. I reply with a subtle ah uh.
The table is beautiful decorated, flowers in the middle candles in the middle in a row, nice plates and cutlery, fresh squeezed orange juice and a steaming mug of coffee.
"Here." He pulls out the chair for me, gosh he hasn't done that ever since we were dating. "Thanks." I whisper, moving some hair from my face.
"One more bite for daddy." Harry feeds ally. She smiles and dribbles, he grabs a napkin and wipes it away. I go to stand to put my plate in the sink. "No, sit. I got it," He smiles. I obediently seat back down. "I also called Mum, she is going to take Ally for the day, so we can talk." He says emptying a plate of food on another.
"Ma." Ally chuckles she hasn't fully adapted to the word grandma.
"Thanks mum." Harry kisses his mum on the cheek and ally on the forehead. "Bye sweetie" I kiss her hand.
"Take your time, you two." Anne winks, Harry and I wave to them both.
"So." He says putting his hands in his pockets. "So." I repeat.
"Kitchen." he points, I nod following him.
We sit opposite each other and I appreciate his willing to try. But the problem is we don't really know what the problem is.
"Why is this awkward?" He chuckles
I chuckle, "I don't know" I say lapping at my hands for a distraction.
I sigh heavily this tension is overwhelming.
"Ok first of all." He clears his throat. "Bella."
"I'm listening." I meet his eyes. "No amount of sorry's will makeup for how poorly I have treated you and Ally. I've been useless, and non existent and I don't even know why."
A tear falls I grab onto his hands like a life support machine. "Hey, you are not useless.."
"I am, and it's ok to admit it." He looks down to the table tears spilling. "H." I sigh.
"What happened to us Bells?"
I slouch down closing my eyes and tears free fall.
"I have no idea."
Simultaneously our eyes meet again. "Do you want to fix, whatever this is?" I ask.
"Bella I love you, but whatever is going on, it's on me." He drops his head in defeat.
"Umm I'll be back to get more stuff." harry picks up his bag and drives off.
We have decided we need some time apart so he can work on whatever he is going through, leaving Ally and I in this massive home. I don't want this, but we always don't get what we want. I wish we could work this out together like a family. We are not separating nor any threats of it, just some time.
Anne took Ally and was obviously devastated.
I crawl into our bed we used to be so close in bliss , picking up our wedding photo we were so happy. Tears fall I get ready for bed my first night in this home alone.
They are reconnecting. That's good.
8/18/17