Changing My Life
Chapter 30 What Now?
I heard the doorbell ring snapping me out of my thoughts, I glanced at Emily and Thomas and couldn't help but smile.
She was letting him play with her hair while she did funny faces at him. I sighed and closed my laptop walking towards the door. I had been staring at the same e-mail ever since I hung up with Danielle.
Wondering how things will be now.
What happens if her mother wins and I loose Emily?
And how to break this to Liam. It surely isn't something he wants to hear after a long day at the studio.
Danielle and Freddie where standing there with baby Maci in her carseat, I smiled as soon as Freddie ran into my arms.
"Aunty. Are you otay? Cause I worried." I laughed and nodded. "Yeah I'm okay. How about you guys go play and I talk to your mum yeah?" He nodded and ran to the play pen. Emily smiled so big when she saw him.
I lifted Freddie into the play pen and we put Maci there as well. Then me and Danielle sat on the couch where we could see the kids and talk.
"So, mind telling me what's going on?" She asked and I sighed. "I got an e-mail today and long story short, Emily's m-o-m is taking me to court to fight for custody."
Danielle gasped and she pulled me into a hug. I still didn't let any tears fall, I don't want to. Not yet.
"You will get through this I promise, does Liam know?" She asked and I shook my head.
"No and I don't know how to tell him. I don't want to add more to his stress but he's her dad. He has to know." I said and she patted my knee giving me an encouraging smile.
"Find the time and tell him, you need his support in this. I know you'll get through it." She said and I gave her a small smile.
"I don't know right now, can we forget about it because I've been racking my brain with possibilities ever since I read it." She nodded and we looked at the kids briefly before continuing.
"How's Maci been doing?" I asked her, "Really great. Freddie loves her to death, it's so adorable seeing him take care of her but I swear his love for Thomas will never be topped. He's all he talks about." She said giggling.
"Yeah, he's pretty obsessed. He's such a good kid, you can't not love Freddie." Danielle nodded and we looked at him and Emily playing with the babies.
"So how are things with you and Louis?" I asked and she sighed. "I'm not gonna lie, it's been hard on both of us. With his mum in the hospital, work, juggling Brianna, Freddie and a new born has been hard for him. I haven't seen my Lou is months. Not that he's been missing but because he's been so stressed that sometimes I don't know how to help him and end up stressing about it myself. I mean what if I'm not good enough for him?" She ranted and I pulled her in a hug.
"Hey, calm down. Breath okay?" I told her as we pulled away and instructed her to take deep breaths. "I understand that Louis has a lot on his plate at the moment but the way I see it is that you're his only piece of mind. You don't have to do anything for him to know that you're there for him, love." She nodded and I continued. "Has he bonded much with Maci?"
"Yeah, you should see him when he's with her. It's like he's another Lou." She said smiling. "What has been going on with Brianna?"
"Well, you know father's day was last week right?" I nodded and she continued. "They're fighting because he barely sees him and on such a special day she didn't let him be with him. She says it's because he's too busy for him but the truth is that Brianna should see how he is whenever Freddie's around. Lou has a big heart and for him to share it between me, Freddie, Maci and his mum is a challenge but he manages to show all of us how much he loves us. I just hope he knows we love him too. I'm really scared for him, Amy." She said with a worried look on her face.
"Sometimes, I hear him mumble things in his sleep. Horrible things. And after hat interview where he said he was nothing in One Direction I grew concerned. What if he has depression or something? I don't know how to help him, I feel so lost." She said as she started crying. I pulled her into another hug and comforted her the best I could. "I'm sorry to put this on you especially after what you have just found out."
"Nonsense, Louis's state is very important to me just as much as keeping Emily. I think you should talk to him. If he needs help he needs to know you are open to offering it to him." She nodded and cleared her face from her tears.
"Thank you for listening Ams." She said as she hugged me. "Anytime."
That afternoon, Brianna and Freddie left and it was just me, Thomas and Emily. I took them both upstairs for a nap and Emily insisted on a family cuddle saying that she doesn't care that Liam isn't here, she just wants to cuddle, plus he'll join us later.
I just let her because right now I feel like I need to enjoy my time with her while I have it. Maybe I shouldn't have promised her that she would be with Thomas forever. What if something happens? How am I suppose to tell Liam?
At around 4pm I woke up to someone kissing my forehead, I knew it was Liam. He lifted Thomas to lay him on his chest and Emily was already on me in a hugging position. He slid next to me and pulled me to his side.
"Hey." I whispered and he kissed me. "Hey."
Emily stirred and rubbed her eyes. "Morning sunshine." I told her and she groaned. "Hey princess." Liam said and she shot up grinning from ear to ear. "Daddy. See, mum. I told you daddy will join our family cuddle anyway." I laughed and nodded.
"You're such a smart girl." I told her messing her curls. She pouted and glared at me. "I know but don't mess my hair." She whined, patting her hair to attempt to fix it and we laughed. "Can I cuddle with you dad?" She asked Liam and he nodded.
"Come here munchkin." He told her as he pulled her slowly on his chest. "Daddy, your chest is like a pillow." She told him and he laughed. "Oh my god, you just gave me a good lyric." He told her and she sat up confused.
"What do you think babe?" He said as he turned to me. "Don't be quick to say no, my chest is your pillow." He sung and I nodded. "Yeah that is so good dad." Emily said and we laughed.
"Of course it is, you wrote it." He told her and she giggled and cuddled back up to him. "Who says kids aren't inspiration?" I told him and he laughed. "Yeah."
"What about you Mr. Thomas, can you help daddy with work?" He whispered to Thomas who was sleeping soundly on his chest. Emily laughed and traced her finger on Thomas's back. "He can't talk dad, he can't help you." We laughed but she stayed quite.
"Okay cuddle time is over, I need to go draw. Move your hand dad." She said sassily. "Excuse me missy? Forget something?" He told her and she sighed. "Please." She added and Liam nodded.
"That's better, is your uncle Louis your dad by any chance? How come you got his sass?" I laughed but Emily had already ran out of the room.
"Liam?" He hummed in response and looked down at me, running his hand through my hair. "What's wrong babe?" I couldn't hold it in any longer, I let my tears fall freely as Liam attempted to calm me down. Seeing him with Emily like that how could I keep my tears bottled up any longer?
"Hey, Hey honey what's wrong?" He asked, "Sit up, you need to breath." I did as he told me and tried to get my breaths evened out. He sat up too and set Thomas on the pillows. He stirred but didn't wake up.
"Now tell me, what's wrong?" He asked and I looked at him, straight in his eyes. I have to tell him. He has to know. He moved to sit between my legs and grabbed my hands in his rubbing soothing circles with his thumb while I sat with my legs crossed leaning my back on the bed's head board.
"I got an email today," I started and he nodded. "We're going to court." He looked confused at what I told him so I continued, "Against Emily's mom for custody."
His grip on my hands tightened and his mood changed from calm to pissed in a matter of seconds. "What?" He asked rather loudly. "Keep it down, I don't want her to hear us." I scolded and he sighed. "She has to know though because she will have to testify about living with us. She's not stupid Liam, she's the smartest girl I know, what are we gonna tell her?"
He seemed to think for a bit but soon replied. "The truth." I raised my eyebrows at him and he sighed. "Like you said, she's not stupid. We'll tell her she needs to tell the police about living with us and what she remembers of her mother, if she does."
"What if she doesn't? We only have papers from Emily;s orphanage against her mother, no concrete word against hers or evidence for that matter." I told him.
"Don't worry we'll get through this, no matter what I promise you that." I nodded and looked at Thomas who had woken up and was looking around silently.
"Look who woke up. Hi Thomas, Hi baby." I cooed as I picked him up. I placed him comfortably in my arms and looked down at him. "He's not our only child Liam, he may be blood but she's family. She made us parents in the first place. We have to fight for her."
"I know love and I promise you no matter what I will always fight for you guys no matter what. Everything will be alright, I'll make sure of it."
He said and I trusted him, I believed in him. I had faith in his words. But maybe I was wrong to do so.
