Changing My Life

Amy's POV
After last night's concert I got a call from Alex saying he wants to talk to me urgently. I got dressed and had breakfast, left Liam a note and went to the arena.
"Hey Alex what's up ?" I said smiling but my smile soon faded as I approached a worried looking Alex.
"Amy, you know I love you right ? This is not my fault. I didn't have any say in it. It's just they're more experienced than you, not that you're not. The fans love you but I can't do anything. Please don't hate me." He said pleading.
"Wow, Alex. Take a breath and calm down. Please explain because I didn't understand anything." He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
"5SOS's manager called and he said that they are going to be One Direction's opening act from now on because they need the job and that you have to fly home." I was shocked.
"W-why ? Did I do something wrong ? I know I'm not that good, I told Simon not to sign me."
"No no no, that is so not the reason, they said that they had to do this. They honestly loved you but since you are not as experienced as 5SOS they picked them over you. I'm so sorry."
"I-I have to go home ? W-where will I live ? How can I leave Liam ? what about Emily ?" I was full blown panicking. I lost everything. Just as I was feeling confident with performing. It felt so good to perform with the boys. I felt my world crashing down.
"No, what are you saying ? You and us, meaning Ashley and your crew will fly home and rehearse for your own tour. You will do shows and interviews and perform and release singles. You career is not over. I guess you have to take Emily with you and see Liam during the break. You will still live in the house don't worry. But we have to leave, tonight." My jaw dropped. How will I not see Liam until Christmas and then not until Summer ? How will I handle Emily on my own ? I had tears in my eyes, I nodded and left. I couldn't stay there anymore.
I took a walk from the venue to some park near by. I sat on a bench thinking things through. I guess I would have to enroll Emily in school to be able to handle my career. I just don't want to be apart from Liam this long, what if I screw up ? What if I end up hurting myself again or worst Emily. How will I raise her on my own ? I'm sure Ashley will help but I can't bother her. She's my only friend I don't want to loose her by being bitchy and make her help me all the time. Oh god we leave tonight !
I ran as fast as I could to the bus. I had to spend the time I had left with Liam and the boys. Emily will miss them so much.
I made it to the bus and found Emily playing with Freddie in her playing area and the boys all on the sofa. By now I had tears stained cheeks and tears streaming down my face. When they saw me Liam shot up and hugged me while the others stopped what they were doing and turned their attention to me.
"Amy, what's wrong babe ? Breath." Liam instructed as we sat down and he rubbed soothing circles on my back.
"They-they're sending m-me a-and Emily h-home tonight" I choked out and they all looked shocked.
"What ?why ? You're our opening act." Niall exclaimed. I shook my head no.
"Not anymore, 5SOS is flying in because apparently they're more experienced and they need the gig." Liam's jaw clenched and he removed his arm from my back and started calling someone.
"Simon, what the fuck is all this ?!" He was so pissed.
"Liam calm down, it's fine really. I will miss you but we'll get through this." I said trying to calm him down but he ignored me.
"Out of many god forsaken gigs you had to replace Amy. She only did 2 shows. How will I live without her ? And have you seen how much our fans love her ? Are you out of your mind ?"
Harry tried to calm him down but it was no use he was pissed. Louis hugged me because I was sobbing a lot. I couldn't take it seeing him pissed like that and knowing I wouldn't see him soon. Niall left to keep the kids from coming, thank god I don't want them to witness this.
"Screw you" And with that he hung up. His fists were clenched and you could see anger and frustration in his eyes. He took a look at me and I guess my broken appearance was enough to calm him down.
"Oh baby, don't cry. We'll get through this. I know we will." He rocked me gently trying to calm me down but he was crying too.
"How will I raise Emily on my own Liam ? I'll screw up, they said I will be doing shows and interviews and releasing singles. I have to put her in school. How will I live without you ?" I sobbed on his chest and he was full on crying as well.
"Don't say that. You will get through this, I will Skype you all the time and call you. I will wake you up and have lunch with you and then tuck both of you in at night. We'll get through this, we'll get through this." He kept repeating I think he was trying to convince himself as well.
"You won't feel lonely, you will raise Emily right and you will enjoy your career. I promise."
"I'm gonna miss you Liam" I sobbed.
"I know love, me too. I love you."
"I love you too"
We cried on each other for a while, even the boys were upset. Soon Niall came in with the kids. I guess we have to explain, we leave tonight.
"Mommy, daddy what's wong ?" I placed her on my lap and we both hugged her.
"Me and you have to go back home sweetie, we're leaving tonight." She.did.not.like.the.idea.
"No, I not leave" She crossed her arms, demanding.
"Baby, I don't want to leave either. We'll miss daddy and uncles very much but we have to leave." She looked calmer but had tears in her eyes. She saw all of us upset and I guess she realized we had to.
"Why does Freddie get to stay ? No fair. I like it here."
"I have to go home for my job and you will go to school during the day. Daddy has to stay because this is his job." That's it. She cried. I cried as well seeing her like that. We hugged her together and after a while we settled down.
"Let's go get ice-cream and then go to the park, yeah ?" Liam suggested.
"But you have a show, you have rehearsals, Liam. As much as I want to we can't."
"Screw rehearsals. I don't care. It's the last time I see you before Christmas." Liam said.
The boys all nodded. "You're way too important." I sighed.
"I don't want to interfere in your life Liam. It's okay really."
"I love you, you mean more to me than anything else. There is no way in hell that I'm wasting my last few hours with my girls, over rehearsing songs which I practically sing in my sleep." I laughed a little at his comment. I sighed and nodded, knowing that I can't convince him. I wanted to spend my last hours with him too.
"Okay let's get ready and go then." I grabbed Emily and Liam followed behind. I was already dressed so I only dressed Emily while Liam got ready himself. When we were all done we headed to the ice-cream shop and everyone ordered their favorites.
We walked to the park and pushed Emily and Freddie on the swings. We tried to had fun but everyone was upset and you could tell.
I left Emily to play with her uncles while me and Liam walked down a path with our hands entwined. This was our last alone time in a while.
"I don't want you giving up okay ? You will do great. I want you to stay strong and take care of our daughter while I'm gone and also move further in your career. I know we won't be together but at least look at the bright side. You will be doing what you love and you won't be alone, you have Emily and Ashley and I will talk to you everyday."
"I know Liam, but it's gonna be tough without you. I'll miss your face in the morning and your warm hugs and soft kisses. I'll miss your laugh and cheeky smile. I'll miss you distracting me while cooking and tickling me and playing with Emily. God I'm gonna miss you." I hugged him as a tear escaped my eye cascading down my cheek followed by several other tears up to the fact that I was sobbing.
"I will miss your beautiful face when I wake up and your marvelous cooking. I will miss your beautiful voice at every concert and your amazing million dollar smile." I chuckled. "I will miss raising our daughter with you and taking her on her first day to school and watching you record. I love you so much and I'm so sorry this happened." He said and we just stood there hugging.
"I love you too, I can't believe she's going to school. Wait her semester starts in January. We'll get to take her together." I smiled in relief that he won't miss her first day.
"Oh yeah, thank god. I was going to be really bummed if I missed that. I'll bet she'll love having both of us there."
"Yeah, she loves us so much. I'm so glad we have her. I will see what I will do until January though. Put her in day care or something, helps her get to know society's environment as well."
"Yeah I agree, that way it won't be hard for her to start school."
"I'm still gonna cry though on her first day." We laughed
"I think I'll cry too, she's growing up so fast." We walked for a bit and then sat on a bench. I put my head on his shoulder and tried to savor our moment because it's going to be a while until I will get to be in his arms again.
"Now you will know how I felt when I was in love with you but you were a billion miles away, except that you didn't know me." I said joking.
"Yeah, it's gonna suck." We sighed and laid there in peaceful silence.
"Can I ask you a favor ?" I said. He nodded.
"Can I sleep in your bed at home ?" He laughed. " As if you had to ask. Of course love, that is not my bed. It's our bed." I giggled "I think I'll make Em sleep with me because I'm gonna be lonely" I said pouting. "Lucky you, I have no one." He said pouting too. "Aw, you can sleep with Niall." We laughed "Or I will convince Em to let you keep one of her stuffed animals." We laughed more knowing how attached she is to them. "As if she will ever give them up" We laughed and stayed in silence again for a while.
"I love you Liam James Payne and don't you dare forget it." I said.
"And I love you Amy Marie Rodriguez to infinity and beyond." I chuckled knowing his love for that movie. We kissed and it was very passionate. We showed our love for each other in just a kiss. It was enough to assure me that he meant what he said. We pulled away after a while and rested our foreheads together smiling.
"We should get back so you can enjoy your time with Emily for a while." He nodded and kissed me again and we made our way back.
"Daddy" He picked her up and twirled her in his arms. "Listen to me now princess, I'm going to miss you so much, please be good to your mother. I will buy you something from every country I will visit only if you behave. Soon enough I will be home for Christmas, okay ?" She nodded and rested her head on his shoulder.
"I miss you daddy" I let a tear fall and joined their hug. "I will miss both of my girls, but we'll see each other everyday and I will call you okay ?" she nodded "Otay daddy, I obey I pwomise" She said. "That's my girl, I love you so much" He said kissing her cheek. "I love you too daddy" We hugged and enjoyed our little moment.
"How about we go to McDonald's then go to the movies ?" I suggested.
"Yay" She cheered.
"To McDonald's we go" Liam said doing a superhero move. We laughed and joined the others to go get food.
After McDonald's we went to the movies and then got home to pack since it was like 5pm and they needed to get ready for their concert at 8 while our flight was at 7.
I packed Emily and mine's suitcase and put them in the living room then joined everyone on the sofa.
"Now, Amy. You can't refuse this so just take it." He handed me his card. I shook my head no. "I can't take this Liam, I have my own money saved up and I should be getting my paid check in a few weeks. Don't worry." I said giving it back. "No, she's my daughter too and I can't let you pay for everything. I know how much I have in there so I will know if you used it or not. I will check in a week and if you won't use it I will transfer all of it to your account" God he's so sweet.
"But-" He cut me off " I love both of you" He kissed me. We pulled away and I looked down. "Thank you so much, I promise I will take care of it." He gave me a look as if to say 'I know you will, I trust you' and kissed me again. "We have to leave since the flight leaves at 7 and we have to go through security and stuff." He nodded and we all stood up.
We got to a car and we all piled in. We made it to the airport where all my crew was already and started our goodbye's. I hugged Harry first and we promised to keep in touch. Then Niall, he promised that we will continue our guitar lessons which made me chuckle since we haven't done a lesson in a while and it reminded me of when I first met them. Then I hugged Louis and Freddie. I told him to call me if he had any problems with Freddie since he knows how attached we are. Freddie loves me like his own mother which is very cute. I love him like my own as well. Then I got to Liam. I sighed and approached him. We hugged while Emily said goodbye to her uncles and Freddie. I saw Harry and Ashley hugging as well, they're so cute together. it must be hard for her too.
"Call me when you get home, so I can put you to bed." He told me.
"Okay and you can tell me about the concert." We pulled away and kissed. It was our last kiss for a while, I couldn't help but let a tear fall when that thought came to mind. He was crying too. We pulled away and wiped each others tears, laughing when our hands got stuck.
"I love you so much" We kissed.
"I love you too" We pulled away and he hugged Emily. That's when me and Liam cried the most. There is nothing worst than the feeling of having your daughter being taken away from you. I can't imagine what Liam's feeling. It's hard for me to be without him, I can't imagine being without Emily as well. We hugged for a while until it was time to leave. But I still had a guilty conscious which I had to clear.
"Liam, can you do me a favor ?" He looked in my eyes and nodded.
"Please apologize to Simon, I know that this is hard but I don't want any trouble between the two of you. Okay ?" He looked at me for a few seconds then spoke up, "He's taking you away from me." I sighed. "I know babe, but please. For me." He sighed and nodded. "Thank you" I kissed him again and he gave me Emily. That was a challenge. She gripped on his neck and wouldn't let go.
"No, Daddy. Don't let me go." She screamed. We were all crying.
"I'm sorry baby, I will see you soon and I will call you I promise. Please be good for mommy. I love you princess." He kissed her cheek and hugged her again and then gave her to me. She cried on my shoulder and I cried too. I kissed Liam again and assured him that she'll be fine. It was a heart breaking scene having us all crying. I kissed him one last time and grabbed my luggage walking away with Ashley. I mouthed 'I love you' and he did it as well. I blew him a kiss and me, Ashley and Emily waved to all of them. I saw Liam crying on Niall and all of the boys soothing him.
I got through security and after hours of hell at that airport we were on the plane. Emily was asleep in my arms, exhausted from all the crying. I soon slept after take off, feeling like I had something ripped out of me.
Liam's POV
I can't believe they're gone. Seeing Amy and Emily so broken was like having my heart ripped out. I can't believe I let them go. I can't believe they replaced her with 5SOS. Sure they're my mates and I get that they could use the gig but out of all the gigs they had to take Amy's away ? She wants me to apologize to Simon, I agree that I said harsh words that I didn't mean but what do you expect ? He took them away from me. But I promised her so I will do it tomorrow.
At least she can focus on her career now but I miss them.
Tonight's concert I was a wreck. I managed a fake smile until the last song. Singing 'You and I' broke me. I ended up crying but somehow managed to keep it hidden. The lads noticed because they all gave me sympathetic looks but I don't think the fans noticed. Because I kept my head down pretending that I was jamming in case they put me on the big screen and kept away from the edge of the stage. I'm sure that some fans were disappointed by that but I couldn't help it.
I'm waiting for Amy to call so that I would know that they're safe at home. It's 1am and I will not sleep until she calls. I promised to tuck them both in to sleep and I will.
My thoughts were interrupted when my phone rang. Amy and Emily's picture appeared on my phone, it was Amy requesting a face time. I cleared my face from my tears and my smile grew wide as I pressed answer. She was with Emily in my, I mean our bed.
"Hey girls, how are you ? Safe trip ?" I asked their faces lit up when they saw me.
"Yes daddy, I miss you" Emily said excitedly yet sleepy as she yawned cuddling to Amy.
"I miss you too princess, get some rest okay ?" She nodded.
"I sleep in here today with mommy" We chuckled.
"How was the concert Li ?" Amy asked.
"Good I guess" I lied shrugging she knew I would be upset.
"Liam James Payne how dare you lie to me" She always knows when I'm lying. I sighed.
"Fine, I was upset but can you blame me ? During 'You and I' I cried but no one noticed."
"Oh babe, I miss you so much. I cried on the plane as well. I know it sucks. I'm here in our bed with Emily. I wish you were here. I miss your arms around me." She said.
"I miss you too babe, I know I wish I was there too." She yawned.
"How about we all sleep because it's late and then I'll call and wake you up tomorrow ?"
They both nodded.
"Good night daddy I love you", "Good night babe, I love you" They said.
"Good night girls, love you more" They blew kisses and then hung up.
I felt a little better now that I talked to them but I wish I was with them. I closed my eyes and a tear fell as I drifted off to sleep.

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