Changing My Life
Prologue
I rememeber it like it was yesterday when I got the news.
"I'm sorry Miss Roderiguez, we were too late." The doctor told me as I stared at him dumbfounded.
No they can't be dead.
My parents can't be dead.
Who will I live with?
How will I live alone?
Malta is a small island, soon everyone will know and many rumors will start.
I can't stay here, I have nothing to keep me here.
I have to take this to a fresh start, a better life.
Can I have a better life?
All my life, my only escape was music. I would get lost listening to 5SOS, Demi Lovato and 1D songs. I don't have a social life, I was always bullied. My only salvation is music. I get lost in singing and listening to the rhytmn and it helps me from self-harming.
Since I was 13 I started cutting and I haven't been caught since. Watching 1Ds video diaries helped me find a tiny bit of happiness. I'm not looking for a singing career, just something to do with music since I'm very shy even though I can hit all Adele and Demi notes but I still don't consider myself as good or decent.
I hate how I look and all my 'talents' like singing and drawing. I don't like to call them talents they're just what I like to do when I'm bored. I may have been congratulated on how good I am when I was little maybe that's why I stuck with them since but I don't consider myself as good.
I have to think of a plan and soon, I thought and that's what I did.
After a month of looking I found a music school in London. I applied to go there though I don't believe I will get in.
My flight is in an hour, from now on I will be living in England for good.There is nothing keeping me her, all I can try to do is look for a better life elsewhere. Maybe if I change myself I can be accepted.
I guess we'll see when I get there. Let's hope I will at least find some happiness in my life because so far all I've learnt from life is that you have to fight to survive this cruel world that we live in.
Notes
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All the love,
Aime
