Brianna's POV

I dropped my bag on the floor as we shambled inside Alison's flat. I watched as she walked straight on the coach in the living room and heard her opening the tv. I struggled to get my shoes off before I went in the kitchen to grab a glass of water. I felt sick, frustrated and numb at the same time and the worst thing was that there was absolutely nothing I could do to make Alison feel any better. I couldn't even think how she must felt right now.

We had spent the night in the hospital and I didn't get any sleep there and neither Alison. My eyelids felt way too heavy and all I needed now was to get some sleep. But I had to make sure Alison wouldn't do anything stupid. Maybe the best thing I could do now was to just be with her.

I grabbed two bananas before I headed in the living room. I stopped in the door way when I saw her. I had never seen her so fragile before. She hadn't cried at all which I thought wasn't a good sign. She just sat there and looked at the telly but didn't really watch it.

"Alison, I'm so sorry about what happened but now you need to take care of yourself I..." I talked as gently as I could as I carefully sat next to her but she cut me off. "These things happen," she repeated in monotone what the doctor had said. I felt pain when I watched my best friend's pale face.

"Please love, do it for me," I said begginly as I ordered her the banana. She looked at me before taking the banana and peeling it slowly. Her hands were shaking probably because she hadn't really eaten since yesterday. We ate in silence and then I switched off the tv. "You need some sleep," I said but didn't wait her answer as I took her hand and guided her in the bedroom.

She went in the bed and I laid next to her. "I'm gonna help you to survive from this... Just... I'll be there for you no matter what," I whispered and petted her hair. It didn't take long when she fell asleep but even though I was really tired I just couldn't sleep. There was too much things going in my head. First I didn't know should I call Harry. She didn't want to tell him but I knew she couldn't think straight at the moment so I didn't know what should I do. But he was coming back in a couple of days so maybe it was better if she told him face to face.

Second I didn't know how she would survive from this. She had had enough shit in her life for one person already. If I could take her pain away.

Alison looked peaceful next to me. I had to test if she was breathing by putting my hand in front of her mouth but the warm breath washed over my skin. I watched her for a while before I made a decision and got up of the bed.

"Hi Harry. it's Brianna," my voice cracked at the end and I buried my face in my hands. "Huh is everything alright?" I heard his deep and concerned voice in the other end. I leaned against the kitchen table and sighed out closing my eyes and concentrating to keep calm.

"No, not really. You need to get back now," I said and then held the phone away from my mouth so he wouldn't hear me sniffling. He was silent for a moment as he was probably thinking about something. I could hear his breathing which somehow made me think of Daniel and I realised how much I missed him now. All the things that happened in less than 24 hours started to flood in my mind and I couldn't stay calm anymore.

"Oh my... Brianna are you there? Tell me what it is? Is Alison and the baby alright?" he wasn't making the situation any better as he paniced. "The baby," I cried and now he was yelling something I couldn't really hear. "...Brianna take it slow just keep breathing," I heard Louis saying and I tried to follow his instructions. I was hyperventilating so I tried to keep calm and I sat on the floor leaning against the wall.

"Now tell me what happened... Take your time just slowly," I heard him saying quietly. I told him briefly what happened in the morning and then when we went in the hospital. "She... she... the doctor said..." I couldn't say the word and he told me to breath once again. "So Alison is alright?" he asked. "Well yeah... I mean physically yeah but I don't know..." I said.

"And the baby is...?" he asked then carefully. First I just nodded but then I realized he couldn't see me so I cleared my throat. "She lost it," my voice cracked but I tried to hold the tears. "These things happen," I added.

"Oh my... That is just... Where is she now?" he asked and I told him Alison was sleeping. "You need to tell Harry... Or I can tell him just give him the phone," I said much more calmly than earlier. "No... I'll tell him it's just... He is going to be a wreck... I locked myself in the toilets and he is banging the door so I guess I need to go... I'm so sorry," he faltered with his words. After I had ended the call I just sat for hours on the kitchen floor crying.

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