Hold On
Chapter 17
Chapter 17
I didn’t move. The others hadn’t come in either. I wasn’t sure if I was happy for the space or not. I just laid my head in my arms and felt the dried tears tracks on my face. I haven’t cried for a few minutes now. I think I may have run out of tears.
I was proved wrong as they began to slide down my cheeks again. I couldn’t control them right now, I was too scared.
I would periodically give Sarah’s hand a squeeze, praying that she would squeeze back or wake up or do something that would prove to me that she wouldn’t die. I felt a shiver run through me as I was consumed in a wave of sadness. I couldn’t think about that. Sarah was not going to die, she couldn’t. She was too strong for that.
“Isn’t she lovely,” I started singing softly, “Isn’t she wonderful? Isn’t she precious?”
My voice cracked and I couldn’t say another words as I began to sob loudly. I could hear myself muttering those lyrics over and over again.
“Isn’t she lovely? Isn’t she wonderful? Isn’t she precious?”
Everything I would finish, I would think yes. She was lovely. She was wonderful. She was precious. She was all of those things and more to me. She was my first true friend, my best mate for life, and my one true love. I bit down on my lip as I forced myself to be quiet. The tears were now endless streams that ran down my face.
Then everything went bad. I realized that Sarah’s monitor sounded different so I looked over to see that her heart rate and blood pressure had dropped. As I watched, I noticed that they were still dropping. I began to panic.
“Sarah, hold on for me,” I pleaded. “Just hold on.”
I shot to my feet and ran to the door screaming, “Someone! Please someone help!”
A nurse ran over, darting passed me into the room. I followed her as she walked over to Sarah. She suddenly ran back out of the room yelling for the doctor. I stood there in horror as people began to come running into the room. The doctor began to bark orders, but none of it registered. Only three words that he said reached my ears.
“We’re losing her.”
I began to tremble as I watched a nurse wheel in a crash cart. The room was filled with that nerve shaking screech of Sarah’s heart monitor. I stared in fear as that little machine showed a flat line where her heart rate should be. The images from before fled my mind as I pictured Sarah’s lifeless body in her coffin.
“Sir, you need to leave.”
I barely understood the nurse’s words, but I remained frozen in place. She continued to speak to me, but I didn’t hear any of it until, “Someone get him out of here.”
I felt hands grab my shoulders and stir me out of the room. I don’t remember walking into the hallway, but I do remember the looks that I was getting. Every person that I saw was looking at me with pity. My eyes finally landed on Louis, Liam, and Niall. They all stepped forward and engulfed me in a hug as Zayn hugged me from behind.
“We’re here, Harry,” Louis whispered to me.
“Stay strong,” added Liam.
I nodded to them, trying my hardest. But it was no use. I crumbled right there between them.
I didn’t move. The others hadn’t come in either. I wasn’t sure if I was happy for the space or not. I just laid my head in my arms and felt the dried tears tracks on my face. I haven’t cried for a few minutes now. I think I may have run out of tears.
I was proved wrong as they began to slide down my cheeks again. I couldn’t control them right now, I was too scared.
I would periodically give Sarah’s hand a squeeze, praying that she would squeeze back or wake up or do something that would prove to me that she wouldn’t die. I felt a shiver run through me as I was consumed in a wave of sadness. I couldn’t think about that. Sarah was not going to die, she couldn’t. She was too strong for that.
“Isn’t she lovely,” I started singing softly, “Isn’t she wonderful? Isn’t she precious?”
My voice cracked and I couldn’t say another words as I began to sob loudly. I could hear myself muttering those lyrics over and over again.
“Isn’t she lovely? Isn’t she wonderful? Isn’t she precious?”
Everything I would finish, I would think yes. She was lovely. She was wonderful. She was precious. She was all of those things and more to me. She was my first true friend, my best mate for life, and my one true love. I bit down on my lip as I forced myself to be quiet. The tears were now endless streams that ran down my face.
Then everything went bad. I realized that Sarah’s monitor sounded different so I looked over to see that her heart rate and blood pressure had dropped. As I watched, I noticed that they were still dropping. I began to panic.
“Sarah, hold on for me,” I pleaded. “Just hold on.”
I shot to my feet and ran to the door screaming, “Someone! Please someone help!”
A nurse ran over, darting passed me into the room. I followed her as she walked over to Sarah. She suddenly ran back out of the room yelling for the doctor. I stood there in horror as people began to come running into the room. The doctor began to bark orders, but none of it registered. Only three words that he said reached my ears.
“We’re losing her.”
I began to tremble as I watched a nurse wheel in a crash cart. The room was filled with that nerve shaking screech of Sarah’s heart monitor. I stared in fear as that little machine showed a flat line where her heart rate should be. The images from before fled my mind as I pictured Sarah’s lifeless body in her coffin.
“Sir, you need to leave.”
I barely understood the nurse’s words, but I remained frozen in place. She continued to speak to me, but I didn’t hear any of it until, “Someone get him out of here.”
I felt hands grab my shoulders and stir me out of the room. I don’t remember walking into the hallway, but I do remember the looks that I was getting. Every person that I saw was looking at me with pity. My eyes finally landed on Louis, Liam, and Niall. They all stepped forward and engulfed me in a hug as Zayn hugged me from behind.
“We’re here, Harry,” Louis whispered to me.
“Stay strong,” added Liam.
I nodded to them, trying my hardest. But it was no use. I crumbled right there between them.
7/23/13