You Lost Me
Chapter Sixteen
FLASHBACK
Bella’s POV
One month from today One Direction will officially be done touring before they take their hiatus. Harry invited me to stay with them for the rest of it and then when we get home in London, our house will be ready to move into. I designed it mostly, I mean Harry did some stuff while he’s been on tour but I did most of it. We’re just excited to start fresh in our new home in London. I can’t wait!
Anyways, tonight we’re going out to celebrate me joining the lads on tour. I have a feeling we’re all going to get pretty drunk tonight, knowing the guys we definitely will. And that’s good, I haven’t gone out with the guys in a long time because of tour.
“Bells, you ready?”, Harry calls out. I’m wearing a tight black mini skirt and a black crop top with cute heels so I’m not an entire foot shorter than Harry like I usually am without them.
“Yep”, I pop the “p” as I walk out of the hotel bathroom. He looks up from his phone and smiles to show his dimples as he drops his phone on the bed and walks over to me. I love the way his smile shows his dimples and his eyes crinkle. I can’t help but blush whenever he looks at me like that. I get the butterflies in my stomach like I used to when we first met and started dating. I love that about us. Our relationship never gets old, I’ll never get tired of him. Ever.
“You’re so beautiful, I love you so much”, he says pulling me into a soft, yet passionate kiss, “I’m so happy you’re here.” Ah, there are those dimples again! Have I mentioned how much I love them? Not enough, it’s definitely never enough.
“You have no idea how happy I am to be here.” It’s 100% true.
We’re interrupted by pounding on the door, “Harold! Stop hogging Bella and bring her out so we can go get her drunk!”
We laugh and I go grab my purse as he gets the door. Liam, Niall, Louis, and Eleanor are standing at our hotel door.
“We were supposed to leave five minutes ago, let’s go!” Louis pouts.
“Damn, Bells! Looking hot!”, Eleanor says walking into our room to come to me. She pulls me into a hug, this is the first time I’ve seen her since I’ve come to see the guys on tour. She’s leaving in about a week which makes me sad. We can never seem to get our schedules together so that we’re visiting the lads on tour at the same time. At least we have a week with the entire group though!
“C’mon girls, we wanna go!”, Liam pouts. He’s just crabby because Sophia can’t come visit him, but Eleanor and I can. She really wanted to, but she couldn’t make it out last minute.
“Fine, fine! The hot ones are coming”, I take Eleanor’s hand and lead her out of the hotel room.
Harry grabs my other hand and pulls me away from El, “Oh, I don’t think so. You’re staying with me tonight.” He winks, successfully making me blush. I roll my eyes playfully and grin as the rest of the group passes us.
“Come on! You guys aren’t even drunk yet and you can’t keep up with us!” Niall exclaims as we get to elevators.
***
The club is surrounded by paparazzi and fans flashing cameras, but thanks to One Direction’s amazing security we make it in okay. We make their lives a little bit more difficult when we go to busy clubs like this, but hey, everyone likes to have a little fun every now and then. I have the feeling we’re gonna be having a lot of fun tonight.
We’re quickly lead to the corner by the dance floor where the VIP section is. Louis orders shots for everyone as Eleanor and I have our own conversation. Harry snakes his arm around me and pulls me closer into him. I lean into him and continue talking to El as 12 shot glasses filled up appear at our table. Louis’ starting us off strong, he ordered two for each of us! Everyone quickly takes them and feels the familiar burn run down our throats. Twice.
Eleanor and I keep talking until she announces that we’re going to get more drinks and then going to dance. She grabs my hand and drags me to the bar, ordering 6 shots. Three for both of us. Yup, we’re gonna be plastered tonight. We take them as fast as we can without thinking about tomorrow so we can go to the dance floor and let loose.
***
El and I have been dancing for awhile now, I don’t know exactly how long. Long enough for the boys to come and dance with us and then go back to the VIP section because they got tired of dancing. But here’s Eleanor and I still tearing up the dance floor.
“Bells”, Eleanor shouts over the music, “My feet hurt and I’m tired. Let’s take a break?” I agree and we make it back to the guys table in the corner. We make it over there to see Louis, Liam, and Niall sitting there without Harry.
“You ladies finally tired of dancing?”, Niall smirks. It’s pretty clear they’re all about as drunk as El and I are.
“Where’s Harry?”, I ask as El and I take a seat.
“So are you ready to go back to the hotel now?”, Louis asks as he wraps his arm around El and pulls her close to him, making her giggle.
“Where’s Harry?”, I ask a little louder this time.
“Uh, I don’t know he went to get us another round of beers a while ago and hasn’t come back since.”, Liam answers me. Out of all of us, he seems the most sober.
“I’m gonna go find him so we can go”, I get up from the booth and leave to go find my lovely boyfriend.
He’s probably not on the dance floor, considering the fact he’s a horrendous dancer. Maybe he’s at the bar. Liam did say he was going to get them another round. At least three sweaty people bump into me by the time I make it to the bar. I quickly scan the area and he’s not there. The only place left is in the other far corner where everyone else is drinking. Now I’m starting to get a little worried. I don’t know how drunk he actually! He could’ve done something stup-
My stomach drops when I see it. His hands tangled with some bleach blonde, long hair, their mouths connected the way his usually is with mine. I just watch them from afar for what feels like hours when I feel a hand on my shoulder. I want to cry.
I turn to see Niall behind with a look of horror on his face, “Why don’t we get you back to the hotel, love?” I let him wrap his arm around my shoulders as I just stare at the floor in shock with unwanted tears filling my eyes. He leads me to the rest of the lads and whispers something in Liam’s ear quickly before he guides me to the back exit of the club.
We get in the car and I lose it completely. Poor Niall, he has to deal with a drunk me sobbing into his chest. He holds me while Harry is busy holding that other girl. Niall tries to rub my back softly the way Harry has always done to calm me down, but it’s not working. At all because by the time we make it to the hotel I’m still crying.
“C’mon, Liam’s taking care of Harry. Where do you wanna sleep tonight?”, he asks once we’re inside the elevator.
“With you?” I ask him as I wipe my face trying to clear the tears. He nods and uses my key to open the hotel room Harry and I share. I grab my suitcase and one of Harry’s t-shirts to sleep in before making my way to Niall’s room where I fall asleep.
***
“I was drunk I didn’t mean to! Niall open this door! Let me talk to her!”, Harry’s voice shouts through the door followed by non-stop knocks.
“Shut up, Harry. Let her sleep and we’ll talk about it in the morning.”, Niall says a little quieter through the door. I stand and walk to the door to see Niall sitting with his back against it, he looks tired.
“No! I’m not leaving until I know she’s okay!”, Harry shouts again.
“C’mon, Harry. Let’s go to sleep.”, I can hear a tired Liam say to him. These poor boys are probably all hungover and haven’t gotten any sleep.
“Not. Until. I. Know. She’s. Okay.”, Harry says calmer, but I knew his teeth are gritted together right now.
“Harry, I’m fine just please go to sleep and let Liam and Nialler get some sleep too”, I say gently through the door.
“Bella? Bella! Please open up! I’m so so sorry baby! I’m a stupid idiot, please just open the door and let me see you’re okay!”, his voice sounds urgent and worried.
And I believe him, but I’m not letting him have the satisfaction of having me tonight (This is my first night seeing him on tour by the way. We’re supposed to be doing something a little different right now…)
“No, Harry. Go to sleep and let Liam get some sleep too. You both need it.” my voice is steady even though I’m anything but that emotion-wise.
“Please, Bella, please-”
“No, Harry”, my voice cuts through his, “I’m going to bed and I want you to stop knocking on the door and waking everyone up. Goodnight.”
I hear him whisper an “I love you” through the door as I walk away and flop back onto my bed. It’s going to be a long day ahead. I just need to plan how I’m going to get through it.
But Harry and I have made it this far, over two years! We can make it through anything and everything as long as we’re a team and we do this together.
***
Bella’s POV
One month from today One Direction will officially be done touring before they take their hiatus. Harry invited me to stay with them for the rest of it and then when we get home in London, our house will be ready to move into. I designed it mostly, I mean Harry did some stuff while he’s been on tour but I did most of it. We’re just excited to start fresh in our new home in London. I can’t wait!
Anyways, tonight we’re going out to celebrate me joining the lads on tour. I have a feeling we’re all going to get pretty drunk tonight, knowing the guys we definitely will. And that’s good, I haven’t gone out with the guys in a long time because of tour.
“Bells, you ready?”, Harry calls out. I’m wearing a tight black mini skirt and a black crop top with cute heels so I’m not an entire foot shorter than Harry like I usually am without them.
“Yep”, I pop the “p” as I walk out of the hotel bathroom. He looks up from his phone and smiles to show his dimples as he drops his phone on the bed and walks over to me. I love the way his smile shows his dimples and his eyes crinkle. I can’t help but blush whenever he looks at me like that. I get the butterflies in my stomach like I used to when we first met and started dating. I love that about us. Our relationship never gets old, I’ll never get tired of him. Ever.
“You’re so beautiful, I love you so much”, he says pulling me into a soft, yet passionate kiss, “I’m so happy you’re here.” Ah, there are those dimples again! Have I mentioned how much I love them? Not enough, it’s definitely never enough.
“You have no idea how happy I am to be here.” It’s 100% true.
We’re interrupted by pounding on the door, “Harold! Stop hogging Bella and bring her out so we can go get her drunk!”
We laugh and I go grab my purse as he gets the door. Liam, Niall, Louis, and Eleanor are standing at our hotel door.
“We were supposed to leave five minutes ago, let’s go!” Louis pouts.
“Damn, Bells! Looking hot!”, Eleanor says walking into our room to come to me. She pulls me into a hug, this is the first time I’ve seen her since I’ve come to see the guys on tour. She’s leaving in about a week which makes me sad. We can never seem to get our schedules together so that we’re visiting the lads on tour at the same time. At least we have a week with the entire group though!
“C’mon girls, we wanna go!”, Liam pouts. He’s just crabby because Sophia can’t come visit him, but Eleanor and I can. She really wanted to, but she couldn’t make it out last minute.
“Fine, fine! The hot ones are coming”, I take Eleanor’s hand and lead her out of the hotel room.
Harry grabs my other hand and pulls me away from El, “Oh, I don’t think so. You’re staying with me tonight.” He winks, successfully making me blush. I roll my eyes playfully and grin as the rest of the group passes us.
“Come on! You guys aren’t even drunk yet and you can’t keep up with us!” Niall exclaims as we get to elevators.
***
The club is surrounded by paparazzi and fans flashing cameras, but thanks to One Direction’s amazing security we make it in okay. We make their lives a little bit more difficult when we go to busy clubs like this, but hey, everyone likes to have a little fun every now and then. I have the feeling we’re gonna be having a lot of fun tonight.
We’re quickly lead to the corner by the dance floor where the VIP section is. Louis orders shots for everyone as Eleanor and I have our own conversation. Harry snakes his arm around me and pulls me closer into him. I lean into him and continue talking to El as 12 shot glasses filled up appear at our table. Louis’ starting us off strong, he ordered two for each of us! Everyone quickly takes them and feels the familiar burn run down our throats. Twice.
Eleanor and I keep talking until she announces that we’re going to get more drinks and then going to dance. She grabs my hand and drags me to the bar, ordering 6 shots. Three for both of us. Yup, we’re gonna be plastered tonight. We take them as fast as we can without thinking about tomorrow so we can go to the dance floor and let loose.
***
El and I have been dancing for awhile now, I don’t know exactly how long. Long enough for the boys to come and dance with us and then go back to the VIP section because they got tired of dancing. But here’s Eleanor and I still tearing up the dance floor.
“Bells”, Eleanor shouts over the music, “My feet hurt and I’m tired. Let’s take a break?” I agree and we make it back to the guys table in the corner. We make it over there to see Louis, Liam, and Niall sitting there without Harry.
“You ladies finally tired of dancing?”, Niall smirks. It’s pretty clear they’re all about as drunk as El and I are.
“Where’s Harry?”, I ask as El and I take a seat.
“So are you ready to go back to the hotel now?”, Louis asks as he wraps his arm around El and pulls her close to him, making her giggle.
“Where’s Harry?”, I ask a little louder this time.
“Uh, I don’t know he went to get us another round of beers a while ago and hasn’t come back since.”, Liam answers me. Out of all of us, he seems the most sober.
“I’m gonna go find him so we can go”, I get up from the booth and leave to go find my lovely boyfriend.
He’s probably not on the dance floor, considering the fact he’s a horrendous dancer. Maybe he’s at the bar. Liam did say he was going to get them another round. At least three sweaty people bump into me by the time I make it to the bar. I quickly scan the area and he’s not there. The only place left is in the other far corner where everyone else is drinking. Now I’m starting to get a little worried. I don’t know how drunk he actually! He could’ve done something stup-
My stomach drops when I see it. His hands tangled with some bleach blonde, long hair, their mouths connected the way his usually is with mine. I just watch them from afar for what feels like hours when I feel a hand on my shoulder. I want to cry.
I turn to see Niall behind with a look of horror on his face, “Why don’t we get you back to the hotel, love?” I let him wrap his arm around my shoulders as I just stare at the floor in shock with unwanted tears filling my eyes. He leads me to the rest of the lads and whispers something in Liam’s ear quickly before he guides me to the back exit of the club.
We get in the car and I lose it completely. Poor Niall, he has to deal with a drunk me sobbing into his chest. He holds me while Harry is busy holding that other girl. Niall tries to rub my back softly the way Harry has always done to calm me down, but it’s not working. At all because by the time we make it to the hotel I’m still crying.
“C’mon, Liam’s taking care of Harry. Where do you wanna sleep tonight?”, he asks once we’re inside the elevator.
“With you?” I ask him as I wipe my face trying to clear the tears. He nods and uses my key to open the hotel room Harry and I share. I grab my suitcase and one of Harry’s t-shirts to sleep in before making my way to Niall’s room where I fall asleep.
***
“I was drunk I didn’t mean to! Niall open this door! Let me talk to her!”, Harry’s voice shouts through the door followed by non-stop knocks.
“Shut up, Harry. Let her sleep and we’ll talk about it in the morning.”, Niall says a little quieter through the door. I stand and walk to the door to see Niall sitting with his back against it, he looks tired.
“No! I’m not leaving until I know she’s okay!”, Harry shouts again.
“C’mon, Harry. Let’s go to sleep.”, I can hear a tired Liam say to him. These poor boys are probably all hungover and haven’t gotten any sleep.
“Not. Until. I. Know. She’s. Okay.”, Harry says calmer, but I knew his teeth are gritted together right now.
“Harry, I’m fine just please go to sleep and let Liam and Nialler get some sleep too”, I say gently through the door.
“Bella? Bella! Please open up! I’m so so sorry baby! I’m a stupid idiot, please just open the door and let me see you’re okay!”, his voice sounds urgent and worried.
And I believe him, but I’m not letting him have the satisfaction of having me tonight (This is my first night seeing him on tour by the way. We’re supposed to be doing something a little different right now…)
“No, Harry. Go to sleep and let Liam get some sleep too. You both need it.” my voice is steady even though I’m anything but that emotion-wise.
“Please, Bella, please-”
“No, Harry”, my voice cuts through his, “I’m going to bed and I want you to stop knocking on the door and waking everyone up. Goodnight.”
I hear him whisper an “I love you” through the door as I walk away and flop back onto my bed. It’s going to be a long day ahead. I just need to plan how I’m going to get through it.
But Harry and I have made it this far, over two years! We can make it through anything and everything as long as we’re a team and we do this together.
***
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